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steve randle died on a tuesday, his father’s fist red with his blood. he died in a house he never belonged in, with a man he wished he could hate.

sodapop curtis cried for the whole tuesday, wednesday. then on thursday he was silent, friday he punched darry in the chest over and over to stop the aching in his lungs. saturday he screamed and threw all the plates in the cupboard on the floor, sunday he hugged ponyboy so tight he couldn’t breathe.

it was like life pressed fast forward, until the day of the funeral. on the day of the funeral sodapop curtis drank half a bottle of vodka and chugged as many beers as he could before he threw up. on the day of the funeral he bought as much candy as he could with the pitiful amount he had in his wallet and ate until his sugar crash finally hit. anything to stop that pain in his bones that dragged throughout his body on repeat.

at the funeral he sobbed, fixing steve’s hair the way he would’ve wanted, slipping a dime into his pocket and placing his hand over his heart. he still had a black eye and a busted up lip from his dad, but that’s what made it all the more real.

steve randle died on a tuesday in june, his car sat out in the lot until a thursday in december. it was wrecked by then, mouldy and missing parts- stolen by thieves and starving children. the classic story of the east side.

he died on a tuesday morning and was found dead in the afternoon, bled out over the carpet. staining it for life, the thick smell of pennies filling the air for the rest of eternity.

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NOT BRO MAKING PEOPLE PERCEIVE MY FAGGINESS 😭😭🙏💖

chat go read @dudegender's new fic it got rid of my period cramps /gen

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still working on this thing,,,, MY HAND HURTS!!!

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HEHEHEHEHE!!!!!! STEVE!!!!!! STEVEEEEEEE!!!!!!

Omg what Dallas posting two edits in a day what is this productiveness!!!!

Tagging the mooties again!!! @dudegender @izaacs-notdeadyet @greasergirllll @dairyfairyy @pr3tty-0n-the-inside @urmomatron700 @marchofthefallsettos @plebbypebblepleb @gr3ase-g0t-h0ld

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guy who wins at poker not by being stoic but by bursting into tears every time he looks at his cards, just full hysterical breakdown every round and you gotta peer through the void of theatre kid problems to figure it out

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I think there's a fundamental importance in the way people read Steve Randle and Soda's friendship (this applies whether you ship them too btw) because the dynamic and subsequent interpretation is gonna be based on who you thinks starts fistfights to defend the other person more often. A lot of folks think it's Steve which is fine, but in my heart of hearts I just know it's Soda. Pony's narration.is super biased, but we know that Soda has never lost a fight and also that he and Steve are a package deal but Steve isn't as universally adored but he's Soda's person and I just know that Soda has started many fights in Steve's defence and it's half the reason he has the rep he has

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HAVE YOUR DRUNK BOYFRIEND HELP GET YOU READY FOR THE DAY!!

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some steve whump for the soul!!

decided i need to focus on actually characterizing steve correctly instead of projecting and headcanoning him all the time!! testing it all out with redoing my 5 bad memories + 1 good memories fic again :]

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BRO DOES NOT KNOW ABT MAGICALPLAYPIN ON AO3 🤯🤯🤯 IM THE STEVE ANGST KING ATP [IT ALL KINDA SUCKS THO]

all I want is a Steve angst fic that doesn’t involve soda dying in Vietnam 🙏

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Tulsa Tunnels (PT. 3)

TW: Steve's dad being a bastard, language, smoking, typical greaser behavior.

Steve's dad was on one hell of a bender this time. Like the kind where Steve knew he'd end up in the hospital because he'd forget to go to work, and his boss would come to the house only to find his dad passed out in a puddle of his own vomit. He didn't care anymore though. Couldn't force himself to.

"You...get the HELL...OUTTA MY HOUSE!" His dad slurs in a voice so loud that Steve is honestly surprised the neighbors haven't started beating on the front door to get him to shut up.

"And if I leave now, who the hell is gonna make sure all your bills get paid?" Steve asks wearily before taking a drag off his cigarette. Of course this does nothing more than piss his father off worse.

"YOU THINK I CAN'T PAY MY OWN FUCKING BILLS, BOY?! HUH?! BET YOU'D FUCKING LOVE IT IF I GOT THROWN OUT ON THE STREET TO BEG FOR CHANGE, WOULDN'T YOU?!" His father bellows as he staggers towards Steve. Steve wasn't really worried about it until his father hit him so hard he felt his nose break.

"That's for back talking! Now get the hell out of here, and quit bleeding all over my damn floor!" His father growled as he shoved him out the door. Steve barely had time to catch himself on the porch railing before he heard the door slam and lock click behind him. He let out another sigh then started off down the alley that ran alongside the house.

He hadn't really been paying attention to where he'd been going until he stopped to tie his shoe. It was only then that he realized he was at the entrance to some type of tunnel near the train tracks. Everyone in town always assumed the tunnels had been made specifically for the railway, but as he ducked into the tunnel and looked around he quickly figured out that wasn't the case.

It took him nearly all night to explore the tunnels, and by the time he got back to the east side of Tulsa, he had a whole network mapped out of where he could hide the cars that he boosted.

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i love them ur honor

S.E can say what she wants to, but there is no way these 2 don’t have something going on (made by me)

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ON GOD DUDE!!!!

I think we overlook the fact that Steve is an abuse victim way too much

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IM HEARTBROKEN OH MY GOD 💔💔💔

thinking about steve who’s been full of anger and resentment since the day he was born. steve who only saw red every time his father pinned him to the ground and screamed in his face. steve who dreams of killing his father and running away with evie. steve who sometimes worries evie is leading him on; he’s not half as charming or good-looking as sodapop. steve who has major trust and intimacy issues. steve who’s forced to fix the cars of the socs who jumped his best friend. steve who masks his insecurities with his cockiness. steve who would rather be used than ignored.

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The cowboy au I posted on tiktok!!

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soda calls steve “sugar cube” and steve hates it (or pretends to at least)

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transfem soda

do y’all see the vision

btw she’s chewing on straight up grass that’s what’s going on there lol

black and white (easier to look at) version:

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Have you read other SE Hinton books What are your feelings on the book? Who is your fave character OUTSIDE* of the main 7? Rank the main 7. What are your fave ships? What are some ships you dislike? What are your fave non-romantic relationships? (This can be close friends, familial, enemies or even just acquaintances) How did you get into Outsiders? What’s the favourite scene/moment from the book? Least favourite scene/moment? What’s your opinion of the movie? Have you watched the TV Show? Do you plan to? If you have, what’s your opinion on it? Who do you think is the most well-written character?

Five headcanons that are entirely self-indulgent Which characters would you have liked to see interact?

ALRIGHT BET

- yeah!! ive finished that was then, this is now and tex and am working on rumble fish!!

- i fucking love the book, best piece of outsiders media tbh :]

- probably tim shepard!!!

- steve [surprise surprise], two, soda, dally, pony, darry, johnny

- STEVEPOP 💖💖 then probs darbit and johnnyboy

- not counting anything weird or illegal probs cherrycola, parry [but i can be persuaded], and uhh dalpop or something

- curtis bros, two and pony [theyre brothers ur honor], and steve and darry [big brother/father figure hurt/comfort SAVE ME]

- if i said that fuck ass "how trans mascs look at you when you open the sour gummy worm bag" image and not reading it in like 6/7 grade would yall believe me

- probs the time pony talks abt going to church with johnny, soda, steve, and two

- uhhh idk actually, maybe the drive in scene im not sure tbh

- i LOVE the movie dude omfg!!

- i havent watched it, i definitely wanna get to it at some point

- .......if i said steve would yall believe me literally at all [i swear im not THAT biased guys 💔]

- RUBS HANDS MISCHIEVOUSLY steve is autistic as fuck [just like me fr], soda is a huge fan of butterfinger chocolate bars, two giggles randomly when hes nervous, steve and soda met in the 2nd grade and it took till recess at the end of the day for them to fully be best friends, and steves middle name is either scott [after his father, which i made up too] or silas [after his grandfather]

- uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh steve and literally everybody and then probs two and johnny!!

thank u anon for letting me yap 💖💖