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Lost at sea

Feeling lost. I try to avoid things when I'm on my period. But my brain is not listening.

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the kids are alright.

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thought

ever look at your pet(s) and think about how much you love them? I do. I think that must be how moms feel about their kids. Except I don’t have to put my pets through college. 

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its been a while

and i think i might start using this thing again...

things i have been into lately:

vanilla silk yogurt alternative with fresh fruit.

using white beans and making vegan pasta dishes for my family. 

tea in the summer. 

wishing for an easy grow out of the undercut as i’ll hopefully be on the hunt for a “real” job next summer. 

we bought an Olympic weight bench. it has the attachments for leg extensions/curls. just need a pull up bar and home gym is pretty complete. my goal is to focus on changing body composition over the next few months. 

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Spoilers

Totally read spoilers for the color of women ending. The drama was killing me. Totally not going to watch it til the end. AND I loved the second male lead best. So Going to try Bromance.

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The pressure to succeed is crushing my will to breathe. I am doing the best I can. And the sadness still follows.

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Ever wish you could go back in time. I think my life could use a do over

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lost girl

feeling very lost. maybe this is what it feels like to exist in this life. so many options. but the pros and cons both weigh me down and hold me back. i wish i could do this or that, but the reality of it is: i can’t do either. my dreamscapes leave me in a dress, makeup smudged, walking in water trying to find my place. but, what is my place? where is my space...

i have one year left of school, but i’m in limbo. living in a place with a mcgyvered kitchen. and shitting flooring. and in a small isolated town. i want to be much more than the place i live. i feel like this place is so very not me. i’m sad because this is where i’m stuck and my option is to wait. be patient...

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Truly uplifting to know there are capybaras in a little hot spring in Japan listening to Patsy Cline.

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i’m late but i had 2 make my own

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This was me today.

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I never use tumblr anymore. I've been tracking things with a planner. Just got a new one with a horizontal layout. I might use it as a daily journal too. Completed week 2 of grad school. Pretty crazy. 10 more weeks in the term. Trying to get back into running again. That's my life in a nutshell