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I think the hardest part about the corona virus is learning that no one gives an actual shit about me.

I'm so tired of always texting my friends first, always asking them how they are, trying to organise online get together's only to get ghosted most of the times...

I'm tired of begging for attention, I'm tired of begging people to care.

#depressed #lonely #covidthoughts #alone #noonecares #imalwaystheonebeggingtobeloved #amievenenough #tired

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My biggest struggle is that I love food. I love the taste and the worse it is, the more I like it.

And I hate myself for it. I hate myself when I eat. I hate how weak I am and how easily I say yes to food.

I want to lose weight, but it's so easy to just give in and binge. It's a struggle and I want to be strong enough to say no and not eat the bad stuff, or anything at all.

I can't even stand looking at myself in the mirror and just see the failure I am. If only I was strong enough.

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It felt like I was already dead.

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my ed: ooh your legs are especially gross today I see...

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Ed community looking at memes about starving, lying to friends and family and hating your own body:

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to my mom and dad

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If you eat what you’ve always eaten, you’ll weigh what you’ve always weighed.

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When I’m doing nothing I hate myself. It’s never ending.

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my ed: ooh your legs are especially gross today I see...

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Nope. I've been told I'm fat though.

ope.

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Someone tell me why I set this as my wall paper ironically but now I’m low key living for it???

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Reasons to not binge

So you can look forward to body checks instead of dreading them

So you can stand on the scale and cry from joy instead of disappointment

So you can be proud of your measurements instead of pretending you don’t know them

So you don’t avert your eyes when you pass a mirror, and instead beam with pride

So you can say your weight with a smile instead of with embarrassment and shame

So you can finally be happy with your size

🌼 Remember to stay safe, and that no matter what your health comes first 🌼

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i’ve eaten nothing but shit since saturday & I can’t take it anymore. it’s time for a change, a serious change. I need help staying accountable is anyone looking for an ana buddy ?? 💗💗💗

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Things to do instead of eating

Go on a walk

Drink water

Drink tea

Drink coffee

Watch a movie

Draw/paint

Meet up with friends

Workout/go on a run

Watch YouTube videos

Journal/write

Chew on ice

Sing or practice an instrument

Redecorate your room

Make a video

Clean

Take a shower

Shop

Work on homework or study

Set up a finsta

Play/practice a sport

Go ice skating

Go rollarblading

Go skateboarding

Go biking

Walk your dog (if you have one)

Write a song or poem

Take a nap

Go swimming

Add more if you can think of anything!

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Yall ever think to your selfs

“Damn iv been at this shit for years… and I’m still FAT. AS. FUCK.”

🙃

Cause I do. All the goddamn time.

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