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donkey love 📷 (at Baluarte, Vigan City, Ilocos Sur)

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It was my first time to see a gallery of preserved wild animals. Every single preserved animal that you can see in the display has an attached picture below it with Gov. Singson in each which clearly says that he killed the animals himself or whatever. It made my jaw dropped and I have to remind myself to close my mouth from time to time. I just discovered a bit of his personal side and it gave me goosebumps. Anyway, I shrugged out any thoughts and after my eyes seen enough, I decided to head out of the gallery for fresh air. 😢🙈 (at Baluarte, Vigan City, Ilocos Sur)

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The path of sound credence is through the thick forest of skepticism. | GeorgeJean (at Camp John Hay)

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Show me a man with a tattoo and I'll show you a man with an interesting past. (at Vigan, Philippines)

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On the surface, all is calm. 📷 (at Calle Crisologo, Vigan City)

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Bye ✋ (at Project 8, Quezon City)

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Cleaning up my crib. See you Gab anak. Tabi tayo ulit matutulog. Lablab.. (at Project 8, Quezon City)

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Lakompake

I’m always convincing myself that many things that seem petty don’t matter anymore, that I only have to hold on to the FEW things that I still give a damn about. In a sense I DON’T CARE, but maybe because I DON’T WANT to care.

I wonder if I’ve given too much of myself to every little thing back then. Before, it seemed like there was a lot of time to just go wherever everyone takes me, to just be part of everything I thought would be worth it. Back then it all seemed fun, but now I feel like I wasted a lot of myself and my time to dedicate to something MORE meaningful, because I cared TOO MUCH about every little thing before.

Now I feel like I’m more giving to myself but at the same time, uneasy, that because I don’t want to care about so many things anymore, that I’ve become too selfish for my own good.

I want to care more again, but I feel like I need to think of myself this time when it comes to going out into the world. I don’t want to be too dependent on others to make a life out there.

In this sense, this is why I think I just gotta take care of myself and the few that matter to me most.

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Lakompake

I'm always convincing myself that many things that seem petty don't matter anymore, that I only have to hold on to the FEW things that I still give a damn about. In a sense I DON'T CARE, but maybe because I DON'T WANT to care. I wonder if I've given too much of myself to every little thing back then. Before, it seemed like there was a lot of time to just go wherever everyone takes me, to just be part of everything I thought would be worth it. Back then it all seemed fun, but now I feel like I wasted a lot of myself and my time to dedicate to something MORE meaningful, because I cared TOO MUCH about every little thing before. Now I feel like I'm more giving to myself but at the same time, uneasy, that because I don't want to care about so many things anymore, that I've become too selfish for my own good. I want to care more again, but I feel like I need to think of myself this time when it comes to going out into the world. I don't want to be too dependent on others to make a life out there. In this sense, this is why I think I just gotta take care of myself and the few that matter to me most.

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Good Health lang please for myself, my mom, my son and kay baby 😉 #kungheifatchoi #happychinesenewyear (at Lucky China Town Mall, Binondo Manila)

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Happy New Year! #binondo #chinatown

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THE LAST:

1. Last beverage→ Coke

2. Last phone call→ Den

3. Last text message→ San ka na - Jao

4. Last song you listened to- I wouldn’t Mind by He is We

5. Last time you cried→ Last year

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice → Yes

7. Been cheated on? → Yes. Haha!

8. Kissed someone & regretted it? → No

9. Lost someone special?→ Yes

10. Been depressed?→ Yep

11. Been drunk? – Yes

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. White

13. Blue

14. Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends→ Yes. Natasha

16. Fallen out of love → Yep

17. Laughed until you cried → No

18. Met someone who changed you→ No

19. Found out who your true friends were→ Yes

20. Found out someone was talking about you→ YES. Haha!

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ Yes.

TRUTH:

23. How many kids do you want to have? 3-4

24. Do you have any pets → Yes

25. Do you want to change your name→ No

26. What did you do for your last birthday→ Home

27. What time did you wake up today → 4PM

28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Hangout

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for→ RESULTS!

30. Last time you saw your father→ Nov 2016

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Mistakes

32. What are you listening to right now → Heart of Mine by SideA

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Yes

34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Nah

36. Whats your FULL name → Deandre Wu. Haha!

37. Relationship Status → Single

38. Zodiac sign → Libra

39. Male or female→ Male

40. Elementary→ Christ the King Parochial School Project 7 QC

41. Middle School → ??

42. High school → Quezon City Academy

43. Hair color → Black

44. Long or short → ang alin? haha

45. Height → 5′6″

46. Do you have a crush on someone? → Figgy

47. What do you like about yourself?→ That I am constantly seeking ways to improve.

48. Piercings → Yes.

49. Tattoos → Nope

50. Righty or lefty → Right?

FIRSTS :

51. First surgery- Lol

52. First piercing → Ear.

53. First tattoo → None.

54. First best friend → Louie.

55. First sport you joined - Basketball

56. First pet → Dawg

57. First vacation→ Cant remember

58. First concert → IDK

59. First crush→ Lorraine Dy.

60. First alcohol drink→ IDK. Gin?

RIGHT NOW:

61. Eating → None.

62. Drinking → Water

63. I'm about to → Sleep.

64. Listening to → Safe and Sound by Luke Cona

65. Waiting for → The world to change? haha!

YOUR FUTURE :

66. Want kids? Of course

67. Want to get married? I was

68. Want to live? Lels

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE ?

69. Lips or eyes → Lips.

70. Hugs or kisses → Kiss

71. Shorter or taller → Shorter

72. Older or Younger → Younger

73. Romantic or spontaneous → Either

74. Nice stomach or nice arms →. Idm

75. Tattoos or piercings— Pierce

76. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive.

77. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship

78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Neither.

HAVE YOU EVER :

79. Kissed a stranger → Yes

80. Drank hard liquor → Yes

81. Lost glasses/contacts → No.

82. on first date → Yes.

83. Broken someone's heart → Yes

84. Had your own heart broken → Hahaha!

85. Been arrested → No

86. Turned someone down → Lol

87. Cried when someone died → Yes

88. Liked a friend ---> Hahahaha! Oops!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself → Sometimes

90. Miracles → Yes

91. Love at first sight → No

92. Heaven → Yes

93. Santa Claus → I would love to.

94. Kissing on the first date → Yes

95. Angels → Yes. Frank Peretti makes me believe in such

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → YES

97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend- at one time? No tsaka ayoko.

98. Do you believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever?→ Yes of course.

99. What's the one thing you cannot live without?→ faith

100. One thing that most people don’t know about you? That I easily  appreciate even those little things people do for me.

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4am FEELS

JGH. I had the best time with my long time barkadang hotdogs. Jenner, Erzon, Mac, Iji, Gab and Jonel. Happy 5 years of kalokohan mga kups, dougs! January is so far giving me the best days of my life and I just it to share it with you guys. There are some shit moments of course but now someone’s taking a grip of my emotions. This person can easily turn the negative vibes in to a bright lights. Yes naman! Haha. I think should celebrate what an unbelievable life i had so far:

*inserts Beautiful Day - Michael Buble music in the background

the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me even stronger. Just as a gem cannot be polished without friction, nor can a life be perfected without trials. I'm a real survivor.

After all I've been through those whole months of 2016, I almost gave up my life and when those moments i needed someone to be with me, no one came, that’s when i realized that GOD is always here with me, he just waiting for me to come to him. And so i did, I talked to him like a little child begging for me to ease the real pain in my heart. Asking him to bring her love back, saying that i don't need a better person, i just need her to be with me forever. telling him "bro, balato mo na sya sken ayoko na kasi nang iba. T.T" .. In fact, i don't deserved such thing like these, mabait naman ata ako? I can proved that, even my friends and their friends of friends can, I questioned God which is very wrong and I did not realized that earlier: "Lord why are you doing this to me? Did i deserved these? In my 25 years of existence, my whole life is a waste. I conquered all my battles alone and now i found the person that gives my life a meaning but in a blink of an eye you took her away from me. What did i do to get all this miserable things happening in my life?" I cried myself to sleep. I even become a nocturnal person. I met new circle of acquaintances which helps me get over the agony. C3, Sagada Travel Buddies and Survivor ORGs, I was not a flirt back when I was college. Uhm? Okay, yes I am a flirt (sometimes) when I was still in school but this Survivor Game triggered me to become more of a person i’m not or the person I did not know I am until now. Looking back, it was hilarious. Hahaha! Someone actually asked me: “Why are you so in a hurry to find a new babe, single is sexy and you can do whatever you wanted to?”. Yeah i know, i did enjoy life being single, I have all time for my friends. But to think, each and everyone of us felt something is missing and to fill the emptiness inside and for us to be REAL happy we have to look for those missing pieces. Gusto ko rin magkaron ng inspiration kung saan sa kanya ko ulit bubuuin lahat ng pangarap ko. Of course there's this limit na para if ever nawala. Kaya ko na. I am hoping someday, the next thing that i will relay here is the Happily ever after Story of my life. Hindi man mag turn-out the way i wanted to be like it at least maging super happy ako. By all these things i realized, there is no such thing as DESTINY, we make our destiny, depends on our own decisions. If you love someone/something do everything and do not let anyone get into your way of having it. At hindi sapat ang pagiging SUICIDAL dahil it makes you much weaker. Life is a matter of choice. You control your own life and God is only the guide. Best thing we could wish for our lovelife is the PERFECT timing. Worst comes to worst if thats the perfect timing darating at darating yun. You have to be aware nga lang. And before i end up this note i wanted to leave you this quote that i bear in mind a week ago. Nakakapalakas ng loob pramis:

"If you are happy with the WRONG person how much more when the RIGHT one comes." :)

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TIRED

My ermat has been in Bahrain for quite a long time now. Few more years, she will welcome the world of senior citizens. I know for a fact that, seriously, she is super stress and a lot of times feeling the symptom of getting sick with her "rayuma" 'cause of her job that needed her to stand. Always not a good news for us, her family especially me, who's here in the Phil..

It is hard to deny that my current working environment can be very stress causing many sicknesses. I am 25years old now, not a kid anymore. The things that happening now is a wakeup call which usually is a temporary and people will indulge to become a workaholic. Even if I did not like much my job. :P

How to balance up life in such a fast pace and demanding environment? By taking Chinese medicine like Catingko, will it help to ease all these anxiety?

This 2017 i want to balance up my life.. how? I'm not sure yet.. will try.. How about you?

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So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall inlove with me - Not a Bad Thing

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Playing Werewolf at 1am to 8am. 😱

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Sorry for this

I honestly don’t freaking know what’s going on with me anymore. I’ve been having a difficult time for the past few weeks dealing with almost everything in my life. Things have been really bad consistently and I find it too much for me especially since I wasn’t really like this prior to my last break up. I used to be a humorous optimistic, God and family centered person. It has been really bad, and by this I mean I have already come to instances where I would think of hurting myself.

There are times I just couldn’t stop myself from having those kinds of thoughts. But I just couldn’t do it, because I can’t leave my Gab alone and I just don’t want my mom to go through something like worst again, she’s been a lot lately. But that hasn’t stopped me from thinking about it, instead I feel like it just made me more desperate to think of ways that I can do it and still get away with it. And this makes me really scared because I don’t want to go down this way but things just haven’t been going well. I mean, Gab was diagnosed with that kind of sickness and it is a pill that it so hard to swallow until now. I just came from an 8year relationship break up. I’m jobless. I want to start anew with Gab but our first episode isn’t easy. I have commitments I’ve had to let go because there’s just too much going on in my life right now. And I just couldn’t explain it well because I don’t even know why I had to cut some ties and, why I had to miss meetings and whatnot. All I know is I have to sacrifice some things that I love doing to save my life priorities.

I do pray, a lot! Yes I speak like an asshole and do things that most Godly person never do, but in my heart and soul I believe in God and give thanks in a form of doing good deeds to others. I may not talk and act like a christian, but I know to myself that I’m a good person.

There are times that I just end up crying alone in my bed and even in bathroom stalls because I am feeling too much about everything but I just can’t bring myself to say something especially to my close friends. Because I don’t want to make them worry and I know they just won’t understand it (and I say this from experience, because I had some kind of breakdown 2 years ago where I just felt so alone in my life and I talked to them about it, I was crying and all, but they only blamed me for it, saying things like I just don’t know how to interact with people).

I really don’t know what to do anymore, I’m hiding this agony in a mask and pretend to be jolly at all times but all i really wanted to do is just be able to deal with whatever it is that’s happening with my life, and I don’t want things to be difficult anymore. Fvck this depression. Gab needs me to be strong. Whoever reads this. Help me pray.