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You feel unwanted for so long, it just fucks you up entirely.

Sigh

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i’m distancing myself from everyone and i can’t stop it

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Every day getting worse and every day feeling less

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I’m too good at hiding it

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Had a sickness bug on my day off, posted about it saying how achey and weak I was feeling then get a call from work an hour later asking if I was still going into work the next day (I was cos I was only sick, nothing came out “the other end”) yet when I post about my depression no call from work asking if I’m ok to work...

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The only thing i want to do right now is go to sleep and never wake up.

I don’t want to face the world anymore, i don’t want to open my eyes in the morning or take another breath.

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How many times have you said “I’m just tired” like it’s nothing? To downplay your illness because you don’t want to sound like you’re complaining too much.

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I tried explaining why I was so sad but nothing could come out, that was when I realized I didn’t know why either

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i just want to be nothing. nonexistent.

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Self isolating and then getting upset when you see your friends having fun without you and using this to validate the notion that nobody really needs you or will miss you if you’re gone