dreamingsrambles

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like i have stated before i will always find it funny shipping those two characters together, and yes i'm referring to dan (or cain) and lucifer again. my last post mentioning them was right here. i am not sorry for my actions but if you're biased it's best to stay away if you can't stand a joke :)

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As an editor for TikTok, it’s kind of hard coming up for original ideas when people post edits as well like what am I supposed to do? I’m just in the middle uncertain about things… help?? 😭😭

If you do have any suggestions, please leave them in my submissions so I can see them. Thanks 🤍 *this is all while I’m planning out for my blogs should look like*

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making your main blog being coincide with your side blog. meaning making them all matchy with one another. this is probably the most random ramble that i’ll ever make in it’s beginning era.

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i find it funny when i ship two characters together they have no romantic chemistry together, but they will be good as friends. it’s just a little funny thing i do to annoy people like “Oh, you don’t like them together well, too bad”.

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i always wonder why i watch so many tv shows. maybe it’s to escape the harsh reality that i live. i don’t like being on the phone or computer as much anymore, because of the people on here. i don’t really know how to express myself clearly without seeming like it’s an issue on the internet or be called biased. i don’t want to come off as biased for my own personal opinions but i know that won’t ever happen.

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there’s this thing i wanna do [it’s called creating a discord server] which i think would be really great to interact with other people inside the fandoms i’m in. what do y’all think?… surely like i said previously on my last post that my ideas tend to fail so needing some feedback or whatever

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coming up with ideas by myself i tend to fail, but whenever i’m around my fellow neurodivergent friends, they come in an instant. i don’t get why though, but i’m going to shift this conversation to a text conversation with one of them [my friend - @samtallchester] about Dean Winchester ii for about two hours [more specifically it was an hour and 40 minutes]. we were just coming up with ideas for whatever reason like for a fanfiction or a roleplay. 

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i’ve been told that i am nice, kind, giving, and loving but there’s a part of me that doesn’t think so. it actually says that i’m quite the opposite of those things, and i’ve been told to ignore it but i can’t. it’s like a constant ringing in my ear that won’t go away. what have i done that was so mischievous for me to even think like that? am i actually a good person, friend, lover, brother, sister? that question will always ring inside my head too and it’s unsettling because now there’s two types of ringing in my ear. doesn’t matter if i’m persuaded that i’m kind because deep down i probably know that i’m the most darkest and terrible person that anyone would know. it hurts me to think like that but it also gives me a relief knowing that i can harm someone. i can’t keep people close, because i’m afraid i might hurt them and i don’t want to but if you caused a pain to me then you have another thing coming for you mate.

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my types of ramblings that i have for you: • dreaming’s rambles - based off my real experiences • dreaming’s fandom ramble - fandoms are from my main blog - they will eventually be alphabetical order - these are my biased opinions so if u don’t like em then you’re free to leave my blogs alone.

• main blog - it’s in my description - @dreamingawaits, or you can click on that whichever one is easier for you

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i try my absolute hardest sometimes on school related things then i get slapped across the face with the saying, “maybe if you tried harder it wouldn’t be that difficult” by a parent. saying stuff like that feels like you’re undervaluing me even if you say you aren’t. overall i’m just a little sensitive kid-- just a little eighteen year old sensitive kid.

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sometimes i just shut the hell up, because i feel like i am not worthy of a conversation with someone or it's the fact that i overthink that everyone [like literally everyone] finds me annoying. i don't want to be annoying for anyone so i just silence myself. i get overly apologetic for this kind of stuff too

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when coming up for new ideas come up when you're working on something is probably the most outright annoying thing of all time, because now you want to shift over to do that other thing but you can't since you're already working on something [run-on sentence but Tumblr doesn't give a flying fuck].