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Just vomited oh purpose for the first time in almost a year. New years would’ve been year my one year clean. I dont really know how to feel. It’s bittersweet. Part of me is so glad, I’m back to my Ed, but part of me is so disappointed. I was so close to being clean. I was so close. What happened?

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Guys I smoked some weed sorry I was so emo before it will happen again when I’m sober

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This user has a triggering blog

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Okay whores here’s the update since it’s been literally 2 years:

I’m at the highest weight i’ve EVER been at. I’m almost 300 lbs now. I’m upset and disgusted and terrified. I’m back here to get back into dieting, I don’t want to go back to starving myself to the extreme like I used to but I just need to lose some weight.

I got professional treatment 2 years ago, it’s was a 5 month program. It really helped me start healing my relationship with food. I don’t want to mess that up but I don’t know what to do, no other way of trying to lose weight has worked. I have to come back to calorie counting, I know it works.

I’m in college now, I live in a dorm so it should be easier to get away with eating less and working out more 😈😈

I’ve tried a bunch of different medications to help with my mental illness (also got officially diagnosed!!) but none of them worked and the last ones I was on made me gain hella weight

As always I’m pro recovery, I don’t mean to be triggering anyone and I hope you can all get out of the hellsite. I’m just at a loss. I don’t know what to do so I’m back.

It feels good to be back 💕

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me coming back on tumblr after failing my 8474838th attempt to recover

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Update I’m back 😈😈

if one more person tells me to recover 🙄🙄 like no thank you but I fwy for trying

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update!! I'm recovering!!!! bye whores 🖤🖤

if one more person tells me to recover 🙄🙄 like no thank you but I fwy for trying

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Some of my favorite Asian thinspo for yall 😌🙏🏻✨

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Not my picture but god fuckin damn

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Do people still talk about thigh gaps? Bc I want one.