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Just a gentle reminder that it is okay to feel jealous of your able bodied friends sometimes. It does not make you a bad person, you wouldn’t wish anyone to live with your pain, but sometimes you just wish that you got a break.

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life is short. sit on the floor while you grate cheese. things will be okay. or maybe actually they won't. but it doesn't matter. because you're on the floor. grating cheese.

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Slowly realizing that you may not be able to work anymore if you actually want to treat some of your disabilities feels like you’re being crushed like a hydraulic press. I’ve worked so hard, and I’m afraid that it was for nothing. So if you’re struggling with the same thing, I’m proud of you for all that you’ve done.

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I am valid even when my small victory is that I took my meds that day.

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I hate being in this disability grey space. I'm well enough to work most of the time but that means I can't do anything else in my life. Disabled enough not to be able to keep up with others my age.

I'm constantly in pain and exhausted but well enough to have to push through to keep a job so I can afford to live and afford pain medicine and braces. I just subluxed my hip and am stuck in my wheelchair but I know I can't use my wheelchair at work cause I need my hands free. So, here I sit with a heating pad on my hip, sobbing and begging for the pain meds to help.

Just wish I were either fully abled or disabled enough to get help. Instead I'm stuck here. In the disabled grey space

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i love this shit i need more examples

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Reece Shearsmith as Dr Laurence Flynn in TLC - Episode 4

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Reece Shearsmith as Father Halfhearte in the League Of Gentlemen's Apocalypse

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We'll be Okay

(I posted something similar on Twitter so I will here too just in case someone needs to hear it, have a little comfort)

The husbands that hold our hearts together are a story that has a happy ending. They belong together, they always have and always will. We will see it eventually too.

There isn't a single universe where they don't end up in each other's arms. And if you think of them as existing before and after the Universe has, they always find a way to each other within it and outside it too. Whatever the fate throws at them. So their story is in a way finished, they are one. And we are going to see how. One version of it. The one Terry wanted for them. The others are outlined in the many many artworks this talented fandom is sharing now for 3 and half decades. And I have a feeling will do even a long time from now.

And remember, don't ever feel bad for loving something good, something beautiful. The fault here is not with you, it never is, it is entirely with someone else. Remember this if you ever fall for a wrong person, give your friendship to someone who hurts, uses you. Your love and your kindness is not diminished by someone who harms others and you are certainly not to blame for your trust. Loving things, being kind and enthusiastic and open are good qualities. We need more of this. Don't let the shadows of the world lessen your light. This is not what you deserve. This is on them.

GO3 will be made. Share your fav art. Love. Widely. (in both senses of the world)

I write (if it can be called that) tiny lil' ficlets where the husbands are happy, or talking about the things that worry them because I feel that's what they need (but is most likely what I need). Please do feel free to share and reblog with your comforts!

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some gifs of Reece Shearsmith as Neo of Sporin

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whatever was left, that was ours for a while.

sunrise - louise glück

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umm i need reassurance that my presence is wanted but i can’t ask for reassurance because that’s really Embarrassing and it wouldn’t feel genuine if i asked for it