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Feeling hungry is how you know you're doing good. ~ @hauntmarilyn

Don't let food win. Don't do it. Don't eat. ~ @60mm6

Stop bingeing bitch. If you're seeing this, it's your sign to do 100 sit-ups. Quit being a lazy bitch and go lose some weight, you obese whale. ~ @fckufoodxoxo

It’s your fault you’re lonely. It’s your fault nobody will ever love you. Look at yourself. Look how fat and disgusting you are. No one wants that. There are so many better girls out there than you. It’s no wonder no one wants you. Or anyone who has, cheated or left you. They deserved better than you. It’s your fault. If you were thinner, if you starved more, if you stopped being a fucking failure and eating. Maybe someone would actually want you. Do better. ~ @bunowner

Oh.. Didn’t you say you had an eating disorder.? Really...? It sure doesn’t look like it.. ~ @b4g0fb0n3sw0r1d

If your family doesn't worry about you, are you even losing w8? ~ @beginninga-a

just because you didn't eat yesterday doesn't mean you get to eat like a pig today <3 ~ @rexicboy

Losing weight is easy when you just don't eat. ~ @perfectladyskinny (t worded)

Eat less, weigh less. Simple. ~ @perfectladyskinny

When you feel dizzy, sick, fatigued, and hungry, know what you do is working. …So why would you stop now? ~ @promisestoana

DO NOT EAT THAT. You don't deserve it, you are disgusting, you're not hungry, how could you even think of trying a bite, go drink some water fatty, and if you feel like eating something again look in the mirror first. ~ @bonesandashessis

Thinness = Beauty, and Beauty is pain. You have to suffer to be thin, babe, but it's worth it, trust me. ~ @pr3tty-pr1ncesss

You may be hungry, but you wouldn’t wanna be the f@t friend forever, would you? So suck it up. ~ @kil0dr4me

Don’t eat. Don’t listen to your inner fatty. She’s a bitch. You’re stronger than that. Keep going. ~ @ana-b10g

Having trouble being motivated to work out? Be spiteful, it works. ♡ Drown those fucking fat cells in water, complete your workout, reach your step goal, do some self-care, and prove to yourself that you CAN do this and you CAN be disciplined. Watch the people around you grow envious of your discipline and body, it works. ~ @dontrunmyplates

anyone who says 'binging once won't make you fat' is trying to create a cycle and sabotage you. don't trust them. ~ @fullmoonevrynite

For someone with an ed, you sure eat a lot... ~ @addicted2skinny2

You're fat because you eat too much, there isn't any other reason. Hope this helps! xx ~ @belladisorderdiary

Now what will you do since it's bikini season soon? Staring at ana posts won't change a thing fatty. Get up, work out, starve Or do you wanna be the fat funny friend with the ice cream all summer? Suck it up, so you won't have to suck it in. ~ @onesexylittlerexie

If you want to be as beautiful as a hummingbird, you have to eat like one. ~ @marcelinemarcy

They're lying. Those "innocent" believers of "Body positivity", spread false statements, preaching that obesity is "cute", "healthy", and "acceptable". They're lying. There's nothing "cute" about the rolls & flaps covering your skin. There's nothing "healthy" about letting yourself go; nothing "acceptable" about binging. They're lying. But there's still hope. They're still time; time to stick to rigid regimes; time to focus on useful behaviors; time to throw the meal away or make a visit to the bathroom. They're lying. But baby, you don't have to believe them... 4n4 loves you. Let her win. ~ @achildweanedonpoison7

You already know what that food will taste like, why not find out how skinny feels? ~ @usefulquotes7

Are you really going to eat like a fucking pig AGAIN? At least purge, but that doesn't change the fact that you're letting FOOD take control of your actions, how pathetic do you have to be to end up at that point?! Instead of keeping on scrolling on Tumblr, you should go and start running or something, because with that FAT body, you seem like you're going to need LOTS of hours of exercise! You're so gross, I bet that a pig eats healthier and less than you, or at least with that body that's what it looks like.. Honestly, think about how much people will love you when you get skinnier! Prettier! But now you have... well... you know... your body. But don't think that meanspo is enough, keep your mouth closed and only open it to drink water, exercise until you can't even breathe! There, people would consider you as a friend, but you're fat enough to be on those TV shows, that's why nobody wants you. You're so pathetic, you have NO SELF CONTROL!!! Stop binging, if you REALLY wanna look perfect, beautiful, and slim, take this seriously and not as a joke! Because it looks like you think that all of this is just a joke, do you really think that those skinny girls are skinny because they have a life like yours? Of course not, they have a better life because they eat less, don't eat, don't eat, don't eat, don't eat! Ana and Mia are really disappointed in you because they didn't create a WHALE!!!!! ~ @5kinnygh0st

daily reminder: you are fat and disgusting :3 ~ @urfavdeadbro

Skinny is delicate. Skinny is perfect. Skinny is desirable. Skinny is beautiful. Skinny is everything. Skinny is easy. Skinny is light. Skinny is dainty. Skinny is simple. Skinny is small. Skinny is determination. Skinny is strength from food. Skinny is fashionable. Skinny is elegant. Skinny is clean. Skinny is waif-like. Skinny is sexy if you want it to be. Skinny is universal. Skinny is a lifestyle. Skinny is lovely. Skinny is free. Skinny is worth it. ~ @sarasskinni

I'll add more to this when I find more ^-^

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Look at this bitch eating food again. Disgusting. Did you even do anything productive today? You don’t deserve to eat, fatass. You’re just wasting food. Come back when you’ve actually done something productive for once in your life.

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what happened when I gained 10 kg:

- the more weight I gained the more insecure I felt and the more I hated myself 

- I’m bloated; my stomach looks so fat and gross

- my face is fat, round, and wide

- cellulite everywhere 

- disgusting chunky huge thighs that jiggle all the time

- huge flabby arms 

- feeling out of control and ‘crazy’

- stretch marks everywhere

- not being able to wear cute clothes and clothes being tight on me

- terrible skin

- I am increasingly more anxious 

- spending so much money on food 

-  I get less compliments 

- feeling like everyone is staring at how fat you are 

- being too insecure to leave the house

- I look horrible in pictures 

- not being able to go to the pool or beach

- not being able to take pictures in general because of how bad I look

please, don’t binge. it’s not worth it. the urge will be gone in 5-10 minutes. you can do this. we’re in this together– let’s get to our goal weight by fall. 

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The best part about weight loss is feeling it, finally, after being uncomfortable for so long. It’s running your hands over your hip bones, feeling your collarbone and sharp shoulders, the space between you and your clothing when you move. It’s sitting down without your stomach bulging. It’s walking without your thighs slamming together. It’s placing your hand to the side of your face and feeling that delicate cheekbone in your palm. Looking thin is great, but feeling thin is amazing.

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My boyfriend has been making comments about how skinny and tiny I am.

He doesn't pressure me into eating, I think he knows if I don't eat ill get skinnier and that's what he wants.

I woke up last night to him softly trailing his finger along my shrinking waist. He loves it, red flag fs, but whatever makes me pretty I guess.

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🌸Keep Going🌸

(Reasons to.. Extensive)

The pain of an overly full stomach compared to some hunger pains that last 20 minutes

What it feels like to have an empty stomach

Water splashing into an empty stomach

The shame and guilt of stuffing yourself after a binge

To be able to feel your ribs without that layer of fat

Sleeping on your stomach and feeling your hipbones digging into the bed

Waking up with a flatter stomach than last night

Your body eating it’s own fat because you have enough to live off of

Feeling light and airy when you wake up every morning instead of feeling like a heavy greasy ball of fat

Tracing your hands over every rib each night because you can finally feel them

Your thighs and boobs won’t jiggle when you walk

Eating only healthy foods and having clear skin and healthy hair

Being able to satisfy your cravings once you are skinny enough so that you won’t gain 10 lbs

You’ll finally be able to fit both hands around your upper thigh

Fitting into old clothes from middle/high school

Buying shirts in the little kids sections bc your body is finally small enough

Beautiful slender fingers like a Greek goddess

Taking vitamins everyday and losing weight while your hair and nails grow

NO MORE CHUBBY CHEEKS

Family won’t pinch your stomach/thighs/back and comment about how you kept on that baby fat

When you see family for the first time in a while they comment on how you look like a doll or a model

Being the pretty and skinny cousin that everyone loves

Never EVER going back to your SW

Hitting your next GW and feeling euphoric

That great feeling of being full of water and nothing else

Bloating from water weight instead of salt, grease, bread, etc.

Finally wearing the cute skirts and ripped jeans to school

Getting to your all time lowest weight and continuing to lose

Wear knee high socks and garters

Sexy lingerie and fishnet stockings

Impressing cute girls/guys but also knowing your self worth after all your hard work and dedication

Soft moisturized body that has not even an inch of fat on it.

Feel like you’re walking on clouds

Cute feet with not fat on them

Never having those extra fat rolls on your armpit

Sitting on your boyfriend/ girlfriend’s lap and not crushing them

Long slender legs like an anime girl

Always borrowing friends clothes because they may fit you big, but they’ll never fit you small

Wearing flowy dresses/robes that cinch at the waist and make you look like a goddess

Buying new clothes that you like because now you fit into the smalls, extra smalls, and mediums

Never have to reposition yourself when you sit to hide your fat again

Wearing hoodies to look cute, NOT to hide your fat

And finally, being happy and leading a new lifestyle where you never have to go back to the horrible feeling of being too fat or not enough.

Disclaimer: These reasons are for personal motivation. I do not encourage eating disorders and I love all of you ♡ Please block me if you are barely developing an ED and speak to someone you trust about it.

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Christmas shopping imagine

Your alarm blares, shocking you awake. 

3AM, black friday.

you roll back onto your sleeping bag and scream into your pillow. 

what demented motherfucker decided to start black friday so early?

“jesus christ primadonna, guess it’s that time already. y/n’s already going crazy. we’re not even out of bed yet.” your best friend says in an exhausted haze.

“yeah, i’ll get the coffee going.” your other friend says, pushing herself up and over to the keurig.

“make my extra strongggg pretty please?” you beg

she looks over at you and smiles. “fiine, get out and dressed before you fall back asleep though. I don’t wanna miss any of the good stuff.” 

you begrudgingly pull yourself out of the sleeping bag, reaching your slim arm behind your boney back. little goosebumps emerge from your skin as the coldess from the room reaches your bones. 

you stand up, bearing your thigh gap to the room once again. you clasp your hands over your biceps, desparately trying to generate some warmth while you search for your backpack full of clothes.

at last you find it and rush to the bathroom. after locking the door, you strip to your draws. you look skinnier than you did yesterday, despite the pie and potatoes you allowed yourself to eat the evening previous. your body swoops into magnificent curves, and your bones rest just beneath the skin, showing softly. you reached your UGW weeks ago, and ever since then you’ve felt as if you were on cloud nine.

you brought just the perfect clothes to compliment it, too. out of your bag comes a cropped turtleneck that fits you perfectly. you slide it on and immediate warmth and insulation protect your delicate skin from the elements. you slip on some ripped fishnets and a pair of loose fitting jeans with wear in just the right places. you fasten your belt with a freshly poked hole, and finish with some accessories that compliment your figure and style immaculately.

when you leave the bathroom, your friends look at you with a pleased gape. “dude, you look hot. nobody can stunt it during black friday other than you, i swear.” your best friend gushes.

“here’s your coffee, hellish how you like it!” your other friend smiles, giving you the warm mug filled with the bitter black liquid. you smile back.

after everyone is finished readying for the drive to the mall, you all pile into your friend’s subaru. the early early morning ground was kissed with a layer of frost, barely visible outside of the streetlamps’ gleam. christmas tunes hum from the radio, filling your heart with glittery excitement.

your friend had to battle to the death for a coveted parking spot, but after some time she reigned triumphant and the car squeezed into the space, sputtering to sleep once the key was removed. your thin, delicate fingers gripped your purse as you braced yourself for the cold air once again.

making a run for it, you escape the bitter frost and enter the mall, seeing decorations embellish the corridors. the stores are bustling with people of all ranges, you see people fight over mediums and larges. you search the racks for smalls and extra smalls, which have been picked over much less. 

after gathering a multitude of things to try on for yourself, you find the perfect clothes that fit you perfectly. as a treat, you buy some for yourself. after so much work, you’re perfect and deserve clothes that look this good.

you waltz through many shops with your friends, daintily picking up candles and toys and books for your friends and family, all of those you love.

after hours of shopping, you were able to find perfect gifts for everyone you know with money to spare. you eat a cinnamon roll without fear of the calories, you are perfect and indestructible. your christmas starts out perfect.

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Christmas party imagine

The scratchy threads of your old christmas sweater run against your body, gliding over the goosebumps you got from being unclothed for mere seconds. Your spindly arms emerge from the sleeves, not stretching or tugging. It fits around your arms just perfectly, leaving just enough space to even look a little big on you. 

last year this sweater didnt fit on you anymore, and you were left to wear a plain black sweater from your closet last minute to hide your rolls. too bad it had the opposite effect, having you stand out like a lump of coal in a sea of red and green. 

ever since that day, you could no longer do it. you worked and restricted for months, and had finally reached your ugw a few weeks ago. now, you fit into the clothes from middle school again, only you looked much more grown up now. you looked poised and elegant, even in a bright red sweater with tinseled trees and little ornaments. 

you looked in the mirror. you look perfect. you yank the sweater off again, and pull a turtleneck dress over your head. the dress flowed above your boney knees, only protected by thin black pantyhose. you put the sweater back on over the dress. that’s festive enough. you slip on boots, a jacket, and a slouchy hat.

your cat follows you to the door, but runs away once she feels the cold rush in through the front door. “Bye baby!” you call to her anyways.

christmas tunes blare from your old car radio as you slip and slide on the frosted roads over to your friends’ apartment. the christmas trees from people’s windows flash in bright colors, and the lights outside of people’s homes bring you immeasurable joy.

the journey to the apartment had finally finished once you creak over the freshly fallen snow into a parking spot. the wind nips at the tip of your nose, turning it a rosy pink. your fingers sting from the cold, each boney digit gripping onto the big bag full of gifts. 

“y/n! hi! oh my god you might fly away in this wind, get over here!” a friend calls out.

You venture up the stairs, not even winded by the countless levels from all of your hard work exercising. with a strong grip, you hoist the bag onto the ground and open the door. all of your friends look up at you with joy.

“wow, y/n you look incredible! i swear you look like a whole different person!! here, let me help you with that.” your friend amber calls to you, rushing over to grab the big bag of gifts.

“yeah, tell me your secrets” your friend hannah asks, making a bit of a silly face. you giggle and sit down after kicking off your boots.

the artificial tree at the end of the room glimmered with white lights and a multitude of red, white, and green ornaments. lines of popcorn and cranberry garlands ornament the tree as well, making it look full and festive. 

the room smelled of clove, cocoa, and a cocktail of holiday perfumes. you all gathered aorund the table, and you are the star of the show, shining brightly and confidently. you are beautiful, you are perfect.

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I just wanna be dainty and small

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Alyda Grace

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comfort things for rainy days

i don’t want hot chocolate i want a warm cup of ginger tea

i don’t want pie i want a blanket

i don’t want cake i want a hug

i don’t want pastry i want a conversation with an understanding friend

i don’t want bread i want a small space with cozy lighting 

i don’t want biscuits i want the scent of a lovely candle

i don’t want cookies i want my cat on my lap

i don’t want doughnuts i want to make something creative

i don’t want ice cream i want to lie on the floor and listen to my favourite music

i don’t want pancakes i want to stretch to make my body feel good

i don’t want waffles i want to watch my comfort show/film

i don’t want a muffin i want to tidy my space and make it look nice

i don’t want chocolate i want to have a shower and take care of my skin and hair

i don’t want rice pudding i want to wear a cozy jumper

i don’t want marshmallows i want to look out the window and watch the rain fall

i don’t want peanut butter i want to write/study

i don’t want toffee i want a hot water bottle

i don’t want to binge i just want comfort

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Request from onyxleaf

As always I'm sorry for any spelling errors, English isn't my native language

It's a little short but I hope you'll like it 🌸

- beep beep beep -

Groggily you reach for your phone, patting down the nightstand before you're finally able to turn off the alarm. You unplug the phone and roll back onto your back, hovering the display above your face to check your social media. It's 05:00am, you've made it a huge thing during your weight loss journey to get up early to enjoy the crisp autumn mornings from the very beginning. Checking your Tumblr you smile, over night your latest post got pretty popular. You answer some messages before sighing and sitting up. It has never been easy to get up this early but you know it was worth it every single time. You slip out of bed, only wearing a thin white t-shirt which loosely drapes around your now tiny figure. Even though the air feels cold against your skin and gives you goosebumps, the wooden floors still feel nice and warm against your feet. You go to the kitchen and start the coffee maker before heading to the bathroom. To keep yourself on track you weigh yourself every day and as you admire your dainty collarbones in the mirror you know that it works. You slide your fingers over them, going on to your sternum poking out and finally settling on your protruding hipbones. Smiling you look at all of your hard work. Then you go back to your room to pick an outfit for the day. Sometimes you'd go for a morning run but lately you've come to really enjoy just a stroll through the fields, a cup of coffee in the right and a cigarette in your left hand. Back in your room you decide to wear a sweater dress with black tights and boots. After your walk you'll add some jewelry and makeup but until then you still have some time. In the kitchen you pick your favorite to-go cup and fill it up with coffee, breathing in the strong aroma and humming to yourself in approval. You grab your little bag in whick you keep your phone, cigarettes, earphones, keys and a small weapon of choice (it's important to stay protected when you go outside alone in the dark) and throw it over your shoulder. Outside you're immediately hit by the crisp autumn air. You step into the fog, keeping your path close to the soft orange hue of the lanterns. You can feel the cold air rushing between your thighs, a thigh gap now replacing the fat that used to be there, giving you chub rub. You see the first carved pumpkins on doorsteps and marvel at the beautiful color scheme in the trees. The leaves are all in the shades between yellow, orange, red and brown, giving the outside world a warm look despite the temperature. As you enter the rocky road to the fields you spot a stray cat. You've met him before so as usually you get down, holding one of your hands out to him. The feline rubs against you for a while, enjoying the kind gesture before heading back into the fields to chase some mice. You get back up, light a cigarette and continue walking. As you sip your coffee and take drags of smoke you feel light. Light and happy. You've finally made it and became the girl you've always wanted to be.

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Autumn Morning Imagine

The sunlight shone through your eyes as you finally woke up, intertwined between your lover’s arms. Your slim body fits perfectly with theirs, whose arms hold you tight and chest careens against your back. you can feel each vertebrae push more into them. Pure bliss is waking up every morning and feeling the warmth and comfort of your lover’s presence. You spin around to face them.

“Good morning sleepyhead” Your beloved says, laying a kiss on your soft forehead.

“Gooooood morning” You sing slightly. You curl deeper into their chest as you cuddle for a while, talking about what transpired in your dreams. 

“I’m gonna make us breakfast, whatcha want?” You ask, pushing yourself out of bed, letting your ribs poke through your sleeping shirt.

“Let’s get coffee!” They proposed with a smile. “There’s one that opened up downtown that I’ve been meaning to take you to for so long!”

A smile creeps up on your face. “Fine. C’mon lets go”

You strip to the bone and slip on some underwear that’s begun to get too loose, a black button-down dress, and a baggy sweater that let the dress collar poke out. You peer into the mirror in your room, admiring the perfection you’ve become.

Months ago you couldn’t have managed to fit into a small, now you are even small enough to fit into an XS. After restricting and working out every day since the beginning of spring, you finally looked perfect. 

Your s/o entered the room with their mouth agape. “Wow, you look perfect.. You know I love you no matter what, but holy shit you look so good right now!” They pull you in, giving you a kiss.

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You and your partner walk into the shop, hand in hand. The smell of roasted coffee beans and fresh pastries fill your nose, and you relax with a sigh. 

“It smells so good in here!” You exclaim, looking over at your love. A smile grows on their face and they plant a kiss on your cheek.

You order a pumpkin spice flavored black tea and a baked apple. The spices fill your mouth and you don’t feel guilt for it, you’ve been maintaining for well over a week now.

You and your lover enjoy your breakfast, and the rest of the autumn morning melts away.

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Same Nina, same

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Currently fantasizing about fall/winter skinny. Cozy pajamas, long slender fingers holding a mug of hot chocolate, sweaters looking cute instead of bulky, looking pretty and elegant when dressed up for holiday parties, not feeling guilty about indulging a little because you're still the skinniest one in every room. I want it all, and I have to work hard so I can have it.

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Thinspo Imagine #1 - Back to College

You awake slowly, light pouring through the window at the foot of your bed and dancing across your eyelids. You stretch your legs under the covers, and the fabric floats across your smooth, freshly-shaven shins like butter. Taking a deep breath in, you extend a slender arm toward your nightstand and disconnect the charger from your phone, letting it drop to the floor.

Your phone displays 7:28 AM, two minutes before your alarm was set to go off. You don't have class until 9 AM, but you like the extra time to enjoy your coffee and make a to-do list for the day before your roommates wake up. You're used to waking up early since your body now requires less sleep, no longer overburdened with excess food to digest.

You grin, having beat the startling sound of your alarm, and slide your thin legs out from under the covers and over the side of your bed, nestling your toes into the carpet beneath. You habitually reach for your water bottle and take a few big sips, which sends a chill down your throat to your empty stomach.

You suddenly realize how cold your now-exposed skin feels, despite the late August weather. You think back to the previous summer, when you always woke up drenched in sweat, no matter what you wore to sleep.

You pad over to your dresser, which is nearly overflowing with new pieces you never thought you would be able to wear: crop tops, skirts, and workout sets, all in smaller sizes than you have worn since middle school. You elect a basic cropped white tank, which would have looked like a sausage casing on you 6 months ago, and a pair of ripped, light-wash jeans that leave a gap around your slim ankles.

Before changing, you pause in front of the mirror on the back of your door and can't help but smile at your reflection - pronounced collar bones, toned muscles, smooth skin; nothing bulging out or jiggling. You turn from side to side and fail to find an unattractive angle.

You slip off your pajamas and pull your scale out from under your bed. You take a breath, settling the butterflies in your stomach, which you know are pointless. You reached your ultimate goal weight weeks ago and haven't fluctuated more than two pounds in either direction since.

You step onto the scale, and it displays your ultimate goal weight, plus just .3 lb. You exhale and smile, your confidence instantly restored.

In the bathroom, you wash your face, which has been perfectly clear since you started eating healthier, and brush your teeth, pearly white from the past week's whitening strips. You apply moisturizer and simple makeup - mascara to your top lashes and a bit of powder to maintain your glow - and even in the bathroom's harsh lighting, your slender face looks full of life. After deodorant and a spritz of your new perfume, you collect a pair of Birkenstocks and your backpack from your room and head downstairs.

You scroll through Tumblr while your Keurig spits out steaming hot coffee, which you now prefer black, and like a recipe for soy-and-ginger-glazed salmon. Since reaching your goal weight, you've enjoyed trying out new recipes while working on eating intuitively. You constantly fear that you'll regain all the weight, but each day that goes by makes you feel more and more self-assured.

You sit down at the table in the living room with your coffee mug and your planner, gently crossing one leg over another - a gesture so simple you that you weren't able to do comfortably for years. Now you cross your legs all the time, as if to show off to yourself. You work on your to-do list and listen to the Spotify playlist you spent the plane ride back to campus crafting.

Your roommates gradually emerge from their rooms one by one, shuffling to and from the shared bathroom, while you make yourself a parfait - plain low-fat yogurt, fresh strawberries, and your favorite dark chocolate granola. You know exactly how many calories are in an exact measurement of each ingredient, but you instead eyeball the portion size and remind yourself that the protein and nutrients are necessary to fuel your body.

When you've eaten almost the whole bowl and put your rinsed dishes in the dishwasher, you check your Apple watch, ensuring you are on schedule to walk to your first class of the semester with some time to spare. You say goodbye to your roommates and step out onto the porch, looping a slender arm through the strap of your backpack.

You wonder if your classmates will look at you differently - if people will notice how much weight you've lost, or if they'll think you're someone else entirely. You think about what it will be like to arrive to class without being winded from carrying so much extra weight up the hill to campus; to sit in the lecture hall without your thighs pressing against the underside of the flip-down desk; to catch the eye of a stranger who finds your attractive.

You've always imagined these things, but now you don't have to. Now, they're real.