dopepalacebiscuitdeputy

[dopepalacebiscuitdeputy]

I like your style you are being who you won't to be . We need more people like you.

Bulgemans musings on a Thursday night:

I have written before about the process of silicone self injection. That text is still floating around in tumblr and seems to have answered a lot of questions for a lot of guys wanting information. I am glad this is so. I also rebooted the blog Into something more astheticly pleasing for myself and removed all reblogging of porn (that is saved in likes for my personal use, which is why I was ever on tumblr to start with). All images are of me and my silicone journey. I hope you enjoy it, if not please move along there are trillions of other blogs that will suit your taste.

Silicone male enhancement. Its a much bigger subject than the arousing idea of massive balls I have discovered. In life it is a taboo, men injecting themselves with silicone. How perverse!….how weird and freakish can you get?. Surely the only acceptable massive set is a natural one. Yeah that’s OK! !….what a pile of horse sh*t !!.

As the son of a highly educated woman who had breast implants in the 1970’s, it has never been an issue to me. It transformed my mother from a depressed and tired mother of two young kids. Into a woman brimming with confidence. She had them removed only recently in her twilight years. I’ve therefore never had to ponder it that much (a child simply accepts reality and assimilates) or get into the moral quogmire of right and wrong on this subject. These days, who would deny a woman the process when the effects are so powerful on a personal psychological level. This is not the time to get onto size zero models and photoshop. I’m talking about self image and the relationship to ones own body as opposed to media portrayal of what is and is not “acceptable”. It would be poinient to say at this stage that yes before undergoing any modifications one should make an assessment of how much they are being fed an ideal and what they are hoping to get out of changing themselves.

So why not the same for a man?, there is a weird energy around the subject of male genitalia that makes people uncomfortable. I’m not talking here about sexualisation so much as the shame we as men feel around it, unless of course we are naturally huge. I might add that the naturally huge guys I’ve know in my life tend to spend half their lives minimising the profile in their pants rather than accentuate it. What is this shame and why do we allow it?. Its so sad. There are images all.over the net of men with oversized genitals that exist for fantasy and self gratification, but speak to someone about actually being like that a suddenly the faces go red and the giggles start….why?

The subject of gender is big right now, transgender men and women are getting some spotlight at long last. I would propose that the spectrum of gender is wider than we think, and that transgender is more complex than crossing over from one to the other. But also there is an area that is for want of a better term, more masculine than masculine or vice versa feminine.like a hyper version of the genders as well as what we recognise as ‘normal’. I commend the courage of any individual willing to test the bondaries of gender be it cross boundary or a seemingly hyper version of their existing gender, (I’m also proud to be one of them if I may)

That said..I don’t feel comfortable to put my face on my blog…go figure…I’m just aware that those who have gone before me have become objects of ridicule and I am not ready at this stage to risk going through that.

The only reason I’m thinking this is to try and answers the question that Im starting to get asked a lot. What was my motivation for silicone enhancement. I never back away from a good question.

I only decided to do this once I was at peace with the idea that I might never have another partner, personal choice after a long string of car crashes, or rather at 40+ I’m not sure I can be bothered to run the gambit of potential suiters and the emotional heartache that goes with it. I identify as a gay man and I wouldn’t say I’m celibate. Just that….once I got my head round this “love yourself” thing that people go on and on about. I found I was no longer trapped by the idea that I can’t do “certain” things because it might scare someone away. I am now enjoying myself in ways I have never been able to experience with a partner. I have 300cc of silicone in my balls and that will scare most people off these days, I have to say. I have a smile on my face most of the day (and night). It’s so twisted and so simple its almost impossible. I have totally transformed my relationship to myself and the absence of drama in my life now is palpable. I love it.

I’ve never given much creed to the opinions of society. I learned early on in life that the world is run by a bunch of twats and those that follow. The important things in life boil down to how you feel about yourself and whether you have friends. For me as a man, a gay man in any case. One that chooses to not be part of any scene as such. Enhancing my bulge has been the single best thing I have done for myself in my adult life. This blog is not a true reflection of what I’m really like. I am a respectful adult, I show little bulge in real life although I do show. I have concluded it’s better to look like a big guy that dresses conservatively, than a middle aged man with a sock stuffed down his very tight trousers and looking for attention.

I also have not experience a single shred of negativity regarding this project from people online.

Anyway..waffle over soon. I’d like to think we can take this silicone bulge idea to be more than a sexual fetishism. There’s more to it than that. The benifits of a more positive self image are untold and I can feel them. I hope one day the rest of the world will catch up to the truth of its simplicity, and not a single pill has been taken or a minute spent on a therapists couch. Be proud of yourselves fellas.

Bulgeman

[dopepalacebiscuitdeputy]

nice bit a gear! I'd like to be loved buy a country boy like you.