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I Still build dreams about you .

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I’m not that girl..

The one you cannot live without..

The one you loose sleep hoping to make yours..

The one you cannot go a day without hearing her voice..

The one who’s face you’ve memorized, every line and dimple..

The one who’s beauty stops your breath and makes your heart beat recklessly..

The one who fires your passions and keeps them aflame..

The one that effort comes naturally for, the mountains never seem to large to move and her every wish is your desire..

The one who’s happiness only fuels your own..

The one you cannot live without..

I’m not that girl..

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She will always be the girl they walk away from..

It’s easy..

She’s never someone they can’t live without..

She’s easily forgotten..

She’s easily put aside…

She’s not the sunshine in anyone’s life..

She’s just a place holder..

Never pretty enough..

Never sexy enough..

Never smart enough..

Never witty enough..

Never fucking enough…

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Forever and always.

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I was never playing a game . I didn’t make you promises to by time . I had every intention of fulfilling what I said and promised you. You are not & never have been a game to me. Never! I wasn’t lying to you either . It wasn’t just a dream , fantasy , or delusion . It was all I held onto , getting there to you, being with you . I was open and honest from the start with you about me being here and why . It’s not because I don’t have the courage to be done because I have been done for a long time , and it is not some form of a ill perceived comfort trap . It is everything to do with exactly what I told you it was about & nothing more. It might be hard to believe but it is true. I amso sorry you wasted so much time waiting on me. I didn’t lie to you. I was going to get there . I’m pretty sure by everything I’ve seen or read, my words won’t matter. The only thing that would have would be me just showing up there. I was going to as soon as I could. I honestly was . With you is the only place I wanted to be. I love you