dolly-d4rling

[dolly-d4rling]

Day 4:

My greatest fear from weightloss.. I know I never want kids. But idk what I will think in the future. Being sick in this way can make me prone to having no kids.

Another fear: I'll get sick so often, like when I was younger and spent the majority of the time at the hospital and get even more fuckung traumatized.

Third fear: I'll die and my parents will see my sh scars🧍🏽‍♀️

[dolly-d4rling]

I need thissss

Leg Thinspo °`•⁠◍✧⁠*

[dolly-d4rling]

Day 2 and 3 cuz I forgot lol :

I do not like my height, I get mistaken as an eighth grader, and on top of that I'm chubby af so it's worse. I'm 4'8

Inspo rn. Look I just wanna b okay lol

[dolly-d4rling]

Realest 🧍🏽‍♀️

Probably the worst part of it all,

that I am full of love to give,

but I am scared of showing any.

Because I fear being abandoned,

once again.

[dolly-d4rling]

(Felt miserable and decided to try this lol)

Day 1:

Height: 4'8

Cw: 144 lb

Gw: 99 lb

Numbers might seem okay but trust me bro my og weight used to be 100 and I just looked normal 🥲

Currently starting a fast

[dolly-d4rling]

How did you messed-up?

Alot of ways that I'm not proud of. This is the only space where I am able to rant about dumb shit without getting judged so..it's just a bunch of ways🥲

[dolly-d4rling]

🥹only in my dreams

[dolly-d4rling]

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[dolly-d4rling]

Realest shit

so you want a coach?

tw: mentions of dubious consent

fine, if you want to put yourself in harms way i can't stop you, let this post be a warning.

a lot of you guys think that sending nudes is special

"im willing to send nude bodychecks so its ok!"

no, it's not

they won't be satiated with that

nude bodychecks are something that is demanded multiple times a week. some coaches dont even care for nudes because in reality they're waiting for you to fuck up, because then they have a reason to punish you.

90% of the time, this will be harming or humiliating yourself in a sexual way. slowly they'll push, making these punishments more extreme and sometimes even more public

and now you feel bound to this person because they have multiple naked pictures of you at their discretion

you try to say no and back away

"but you'll spiral"

"sorry, i thought you cared about being skinny"

your weight loss isn't their main priority

a person with an ed is vulnerable, so they use that vulnerability to make you tied to them send them sexual things as a form of punishment

and in return they watch you lose your curves and slowly become even more attracted to you as you start to look more and more like a child

running this blog has made me come across people like that. constantly. it's the same formula every god damn time

but if you being skinny is really worth sacrificing your entire identity, then go ahead

- anon

[dolly-d4rling]

I need this for Christmas

lemmie spoil you bby girl 😏

[dolly-d4rling]

Me one day🎀

[dolly-d4rling]

REAL now I have to concentrate on college😞

[dolly-d4rling]

[dolly-d4rling]

TW:$H

But like I don't GET IT. Sh feels so good. It doesn't help no but it gives me momentary relief.

That being said, why is it so bad to sh anyways? It's in my view of observation, its my fucking body I give myself consent to wound myself, and I know my limits so only I know when enough is enough.

It's not killing anyone, and no one has to know, so why is it so damn bad?

[dolly-d4rling]

What humbles me is when my family goes shopping and I love dresses so I try them, only to see the big fat "L" or the pant sizes of 9/39.

I'm gonna starve until I can't breathe I swear to fucking God this is so embarrassing

[dolly-d4rling]

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[dolly-d4rling]

Fuck yes.. :( why can't I just shave off all the unnecessary fat and muscle. I hate myself 👍🏼💀

I need to be just like them, no matter the cost, no matter the hunger.