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u look at me the same but i cant reciprocate 😔😔🙏🙏🙏🙏

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windows 7 borders made by me! like or reblog if you use/save 🖥🌈

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been obsessed w making website layouts ^_^ heres a couple i did

first one doesnt have content yet (still wip)

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Legalise it (marriage)

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rachel goswell is my goat!!

just saw slowdive as my first ever concert & it was so good i loved every second of it <3 did not disappoint!! kisses was insane live

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A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut, thoughts

A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut by HAVE A NICE LIFE from the deathconsciousness album, 2008

*scroll down for spotify link to song

This is not incredibly detailed, a quick review

This is a requested review from @ka0mojiz

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I will say that I absolutely loved this song. An instrumental piece that begins with a floating sound that feels outer space looming over, and coming closer to you, while you stand in awe of its magnificence. A guitar, from what I can tell, a classical one, then plays an eerie yet nostalgic riff that, following the outer space theme, feels like space has taken you and you are now floating with it. the song achieves an emotional detachment, a liminality that feels like retrospectively looking back at a lost childhood down a corridor. Throughout the song, a “wind howling” sound that in context ends up sounding more like a space vortex that takes all underscores the piece, producing a feeling of blackhole-like emptiness. One can only imagine oblivion approaching, or you are already in, as you orbit within the dark vastness of space. A harsh, alien like synth-piano begins spearing into the track which feels like space focusing on and the track takes a turn —the nostalgic detachment is gone and is replaced by ominous dread. The track ends on a sound, feeling like a “spiral through space”.

overall, the song captures an emptiness and a loneliness. the vastness and oblivion can be felt through the spacey background sound, but the sharp emotion of blue nostalgia can be felt through the guitar. its title achieves a feeling of emptiness too, “devouring”, but places the location on earth instead of somewhere unknown to human civilisation, such as outer space. it allows us to capture those other-worldly moments on our earth, and ponder its alienation yet interlinked nature to the human experience. The song is 7:52, long enough for you to dissolve yourself in the feeling as it progresses. it’s a perfect listen for those who want to tune out the world for just a moment.

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spotify link: A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut by HAVE A NICE LIFE, 2008

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A House In Nebraska: My Thoughts ౨ৎ

This song, by Ethel Cain, has undoubtedly been one of my favorites since early last year. Although it isn't exactly the most popular off the album it's on, Preacher's Daughter, it's definitely still the one I've listened to and liked the most. Now, with that being said, let's continue!

First off, I'd like to thank Hayden for giving me an opportunity to cry the most I ever have in one night, all to this song. If you're out there, you're amazing and I love you. Special mention goes to @ddepressedbookworm for introducing me to this impactful album. Okay, enough dilly-dallying, let's go.

The song starts with some, frankly, insane piano. It's dark and gloomy, setting the atmosphere for the rest of this seven-minute song. Hayden uses many past tenses in the lyrics, allowing us to visualize the impact of Ethel's lover leaving her.

These lines of the chorus, "Where the world was empty, save you and I/Where you came and I laughed and you left and I cried" really resonate with me. The fact that Ethel's misses her lover Willoughby Tucker (canon name) so much is just so insane to me because I've felt that before. Again, this song really hits me hard.

Skipping the next few verses of this very very slow song, we have the bridge/ending. I suggest you read the entire last two verses as I will NOT be quoting them here (it's too long). However, I will never fail to emphasise these lines "And you might never come back home, and I may never sleep at night/But God I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright" I'm genuinely so hurt by this.

It's so awfully good because Willoughby isn't going to see Ethel again, but Ethel still hopes he's doing well. That is so painful, as a listener, to hear.

Overall, if you didn't want to read all that yapping, I rate the song a solid 98/100- the first time I heard it, I genuinely shed tears of pure anguish. I know a lot of people wouldn't do the same, but it's just my personal opinion, please respect that!

Once again, thank you for reading! I love all my devoted followers. Even if you're not my follower. Maybe I don't love you then.

Xoxo,

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There's no shame in having meltdowns! It sucks by itself already!

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Very controversial take but one thing I want people to know is that a lot of therapists are just not good at their job. They’re poorly equipped, they forget most of their training, etc. It’s like all professions, not everyone is excellent. And then sometimes a therapist may be fine but they won’t be a good fit for you. Then there’s a ton of different types of therapy. And this is so essential for the greater public to understand because so many people go to one or three therapy appointments and decide therapy doesn’t work and never go again. The reality is sometimes you’re going to need to go through multiple therapists. And you’re most likely going to need therapy for years! People with some of the best resources have been in therapy since elementary school and they’re like 40 still in therapy. There’s this issue where many people don’t have support systems because people are telling each other to just “go get therapy” like it’s a magic cure that immediately fixes the issue, and even medicine doesn’t do that! There’s multiple layers and feeling better takes so much work and people need to know these things before going into it or else they’re going to think that nothing will ever change and they will give up when the fight has just begun.

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back once again to announce the arrival of my rentry! commissioned it from the wonderful https://rentry.co/goth / romanticgoth. on discord YIPEE

ill put it in my bio for anyone who wants to see it <3 so happy with this

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valorant is my favorite kind of escapism

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TW: r*pe, SA

please take note of the TWs, thank you

I want to talk about SA on men by women and why male victims are often overlooked.

I’m sorry for the heavy topic, I just wanted to say this.

This is NOT to invalidate or “counter” any harm done against women, all victims of SA are important and we need to do our best and do what we can to help and spread awareness for all.

I am not an expert, and I apologise if I say something wrong. While this does not directly involve me, it felt important to say. Please raise your concerns if anything.

 The News

As I scrolled down on some other articles cases, I noticed that for some reason when the case was a woman aggressor and a male victim, most of the articles were merely headlines “Woman R*pes Man” without any further details on the case, as if it is a sort of subversive headline. This media coverage which displays male r*pe victims as a rarity or even a surprise subconsciously promotes our thinking that males cannot be r*pe victims. By presenting it as a rarity, not only does it promote disbelief, it also promotes dismissal as we see it as a “minority” and therefore unimportant. 

The Media (movies and so on)

In especially comedies/rom coms, male SA is often played for laughs. SA is never funny and that does not change with the gender of (or anything else) who it happens to. The man does not consent and potentially tied up and the woman is portrayed as a “sexy femme fatale” when she literally assaults him. This is propagated by that idea that “men cannot control their sexual urges”. Not only does that put women in danger and provide an “excuse” for some men’s behaviour, but it makes it so that whenever a man is portrayed to have sexual contact EVEN IF IT IS NOT CONSENSUAL, he “enjoys it” because he is a man and he has “so much sexual urges” that ultimately he does “want it” which is absolute bs. It’s played up for laughs because 1) audiences find it unbelievable and 2) is my next point

Patriarchy Enforced Toxic Masculinity

Male SA is also played for laughs, and often ignored due to disbelief because of the inherent argument that “men have to be masculine” and it is somehow unmasculine to be at the hands, the victim of, a woman. People use biological arguments like, “if men are stronger than women then why can’t he fight back?” or “is it physically possible for a woman to assault a man?” The way society thinks of men and the way society thinks of what men are promotes the idea that men cannot also be SA victims, especially not victims of women.

IT IS 100% POSSIBLE

Men can be victims of SA too, we need to provide a safe space for them to voice out as victims without the fear of being shamed, disbelieved or “harmlessly” joked about. This also goes for all cases of SA, regardless of gender. 

stop playing SA on men for laughs.

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Colourful Stamps

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i want choso so bad 🙏

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