doctorjohnnywatson

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//I am here.

I am probably lurking.

one of my other blogs sort of got creamed so i’m a little bummed

but let’s plot i can do the plotting

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Camouflage done right. 

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The Final Problem

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                     In such an ugly world                   For something so BEAUTIFUL               Oh, that every time I look inside.                                  ~ naive - the kooks.

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I didn’t. I don’t (sleep). I stopped lying down.

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theholmesalone:

Her chest tightened at his words, even as he trailed off she knew what he meant. For most of his childhood, he never even expected to make it to 18. He nearly hadn’t, and that incident still haunted her. Marriage, children, even any form of long term relationship were far from anything he ever expected when they were children and even when they were young adults trying to find their way in the world. 

“Let me help you… John, you don’t have to do this all alone,” she stated again, wishing he would let her in. It already hurt enough seeing him like this. She couldn’t shake the guilt she felt for not being around when he returned to London. But he had managed to find someone to love. And she was truly happy that he hadn’t been alone. Even if that fact made her heart hurt. Even if she wanted nothing more than to shred every letter she had from him and destroy everything he had ever given her. She was glad he hadn’t been alone.

“Because you cannot function without sleep. You can sleep, and you need to sleep.” If I can learn to put the image of you bleeding out on the floor out of my head when I was a child. You can learn to sleep after watching Mary dying. She didn’t dare tell him that though. “You don’t have to do any of this alone. Let people help you. I can take care of Rosie while you do what you need to do.” Even if it does break my heart to hold your child. 

“Alone...” Alone is what I have. Alone protects me. Hadn’t Sherlock said that once? He’d been right. Alone protects people. John had yelled back at him that friends protect people, but maybe he’d just wanted to believe that. Maybe he was stupid. Real, real stupid. Still, he couldn’t even form those words, or really any words past ‘alone’. He wanted to slide down against the cabinets and never get back up. He couldn’t breathe.

John shook his head, setting everything down, struggling to take a breath and falling into a chair. He couldn’t do it. He couldn’t do any of it. What was he supposed to do with Rosie? How was he supposed to care for her? How... His head swam, not for the first time since this had all started, and he wondered what would happen if he broke right there. Just let himself start sobbing and never stop. Not until there was nothing left of him.

He put his head in his hands and imagined nothing but darkness for a moment, nothing but the blackness, what it would be like if he could never feel or think ever again, just be enveloped in the dark. “I don’t want it anymore. None of it.”

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The story continues…

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Family

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//SO MANY NEW BLOGS AND I’VE BEEN GONE

HEY GUYS

I’M EASILY DISTRACTED

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10/10 would bang

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Your own death is something that happens to everybody else. Your life is not your own. Keep your hands off it.

says Sherlock aka one of my most favourite quotes from this entire epis– nope. from all the seasons tbh.

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theholmesalone replied to your post: theholmesalone replied to your post: ...

SAME LIKE THAT IS THE PERFECT EXAMPLE OF A MOVIE. I WISH WE COULD’VE WORKED ON IT

//*rolls on the floor* except the dress should be gold. and i wish they hadn’t killed the joke about lefou by making him say he’s illiterate. but those are VERY SMALL PROBLEMS

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theholmesalone replied to your post: TAGGED BY: @theholmesalone THINGS I CURRENTLY...

I couldn’t remember any other movies either. >.< ALSO HAVE YOU SEEN THE LIVE ACTION YET? I FINALLY GOT TO SEE IT A FEW HOURS AGO

//YUP IT WAS GREAT AND THEN i fell into a depression because I am not a Disney princess and I am not making movies yet AND IT WAS SO GOOD I WAS SO MAD I WASN’T PART OF IT

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TAGGED BY: @theholmesalone

THINGS I CURRENTLY LOVE:

ONE SONG: Shattered by Trading Yesterday

TWO MOVIES: Beauty and the Beast, Cinderella ((I have suddenly forgotten every movie I’ve ever seen))

THREE SHOWS: Spooksville, Sherlock, Kitchen Nightmares

FOUR PEOPLE: Lee Pace, Henry Cavil, The guy from Outlander, Ed Sheeran

FIVE FOODS: ice cream, rice crispie treats, kettle chips, ravaoli, coffee

SIX PEOPLE TO TAG: i’m too lazy for this i’m sorry

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