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The devil's contract describes the choice of the brain to give full license for the superego

 to guide them until their circumstances become safe and a certain sense of independent survival skill is obtained. The problem is if it does not happen until you are 32 you will be stuck with the superego which is about only using your physical manifestation and seeing life through that lense which is so narrow that leads to decisions that become detrimental to first and foremost physical but also all other sides of you becomes which completely drains of all what you are. What the superego needs is energy and it takes it with the false safety security it creates by limiting external stimuli feedback. That is why objectively people with a strong superego make a lot of objective mistakes that the superego deflects in order to stay in power. People who see people like that tend to stay with those people or take care of them because they have a higher risk of endangering themselves and others.  People with superego focus when they get older with intensive pain and serious health issues. In a spiritual sense the devil tries to convince you in making decisions to end in an early death which can be emotionally, psychological or physical. The spiritual question would be - if someone chose the superego and died with that, will he deny access to God using what creates an eternal stay in hell. What the hell. Will you be reincarnated into situations where you always stay in superego and can not get out - how do you end that cycle for that person? Jesus showed us the way. You can always break the cycle but your born situation will not change in every reincarnation. You have to choose God in all the situations where you did not choose him.   

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THE DOWNFALL OF WANTING KNOWLEDGE

The story about Adam and Eve can be interpreted in so many ways because the metaphors  and symbols used can have different interpretations with a different perspective and context. One interpretation that can be filtered out is the nature of human beings to try to understand everything and how this urge can lead to a harder and "less" happy life. The bite of the apple resembles how an event or information / the quest for the truth can change your perspective on everything and can take away your freedom/trust can represent the first stages of the  conscious, so the development of a child to a teenager in paradise and then on earth to adults. Full developed consciousness means responsibility. You consciously can alyse and reflect which actions lead to which outcome. So the urge of knowledge should lead to feeling responsible that is needed for a family system/society etc. to work. Moreover giving Adam the apple alias the truth means that if you give your knowledge to someone else it can change his perception which can lead in a drastic change of life circumstances and lifestyle. The story is a warning that you always have to critically think before you accept new knowledge, and when to give information to other people. Moreover, it represents  how mankind can be led in a certain direction, so called "planting a seed" . It explains how little information can grow to a tree can happen completely subconscious and when the fruit is there and you know what it is about/taste can lead to major changes in your behavior etc. which can be very dangerous. The temptations of the fruits of the subconscious are high because humans are curious but that means they can be manipulated very easily. The story of Adam and Eve teaches that not giving or presenting the full truth can lead to unexpected negative changes. In addition it can be seen how teenagers are easily influenced and that forbidden things interest them because as children they were protected from major consequences by their family but with the first glimpse of consciousness they are faced with them There is a switch of trust from the family to yourself. It is needed to have self trust in your perception and decision making in order to sustain a family or your tribe where you are in. It talks about how sexuality can change your life forever and the bliss of not having responsibility is gone. Sexuality is the key for interpersonal relationships and how you relate to the world. You have a much more conscious perception of what affects what, who and how. If  living for yourself in harmony with the universal energy like children do  is a representation of paradise and adulthood like earth You are aware of your own limitations and the loss of safety you had as a child. Responsibility supplements freedom and you have to know when you are ready. Adam and Eve were not ready because they did not know the consequences of sexual intimacy because high instinct with the first stages of consciousness can lead to unprepared and harder life. Our thirst for knowledge is often triggered by fear. The conscious knowledge we accumulated through our lifetime and the history of humankind is completely absolute and unnecessary which is the original fault of humans which led to their downfall and the constant search to get to paradise again. The biggest trigger is the fear of humans. They should look at the world through a different perspective. It seems like they have a problem with trusting nature also. The evidence shows it is much more effective than human thinking. It is interesting because the difference between human fear and animal fear seems like the concept of time and the future. If a human being builds something and knows how it works, it can create those things as long as there are ressources. It is a system which always functions similarly with similar conditions. Nature does have its principles that still are functioning today but the different forces of the system lead to different outcomes and the nature of humans are not built for fast adapting or surviving those drastic changes. The problem is not that human beings try to protect and foresee the future but the disintegration of nature leads to much more fear because it limits perspective and information observation. If humans would try to integrate themselves into nature and protect and support it, Human beings would reach the paradise state they instinctively are born with.

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KNOWLEDGE LEADS TO RESPONSIBILITY

The story of Adam and Eve is a story that can be viewed and used in different angles. It seems like one big topic is how the thirst for knowledge can change your perspectives on life. If it is a metaphor of the power of knowledge or perceived knowledge then you can argue that the story indicates that eating the apple opened a certain kind of knowledge framework that led to the perspective shift of paradise to hard work. Whether it has something to do with sexuality and the consequences of having children and the responsibility that comes with it can be interpreted that way but not necessarily, because it can only be a story of an experience or a piece of knowledge that can change your life or the perception of it and therefore your action. How much control you have is based on how much control you want to have. Why search for knowledge if the perception of your current life has a more positive feeling and perspective? Searching for knowledge is a conscious, subconscious and unconscious method that searches for safety and control in the hand of yourself, but actually makes your life harder. This is a question you have to ask yourself in relation to the seduction of Eve. What is the reason or reasons that she bit into that apple? This is not clearly expressed in that story. The power of creation is very seductive and gives ultimate control. It also gives independence that Eve may have thrived to have. She wanted to create and sexuality is a very powerful force for creativity. You create connection, flow of energies and produce life - a creation that was in control of two beings deciding to create. But the need for creation comes with a cost and can lead to a negative shift in the cycle of life. The story expresses many layers of the dynamics in the psyche and mental state of a human being. To Eat that apple you needed some kind of Consciousness and free Will to make a decision. So how can the bite of the apple be associated with the fall out of the life cycle of the world? The story tried to explain why we are different from the rest of the animal kingdom metaphorically. 

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WHAT CHAOS CAN DO TO YOU

Immigrants who were raised in a chaotic state of political difficulties in their country learned that the only ones you can trust is your intimate family members because there is a biblical component of connection there and you would not easily betray this than an outsider - is about survival of similar genes and the spiritual connection and hereditary knowledge that results from this. That is why a lot of immigrants can not or have a hard time to make acquaintances in a new county because they learned subconsciously that trusting other people than your family is dangerous. If you are surrounded by danger and chaos all the time you kind of are limited to the age you were when you were surrounded by that. If it started even before you were born and is consistently dangerous you already developed a certain kind of personality surrounded by the goal of surviving, not really thriving. The problem is the nature of responsibility - how much can you give someone's agency about one's life and their decision. We are easily manipulated and influenced by the world around us. The conflict lies between three things, our personality, our need for integration and the state around us. If those three things do not align, cognitive dissonance arises. It seems like if you are an adult, assimilating to a new environment is so much harder than for children. Children do things intuitively whereas adults are more conscious. The problematic nature of immigrant children are oftentimes to be a kind of a translator or diplomat through the different worlds they have to move through. The constant switch of doing things your parents can not do because they were confronted and confused with this new system they are living in, and trying to focus your own development, which should be the priority, will lead to a longer time to develop to a certain kind of character. The conscious nature of the parents is oftentimes more a negative influence than a positive one. The brain needs to refigure out how it develops in an unnatural state. Not having the guidance of the parents to go through the environment effectively, leads to two possible outcomes- looking it outside the family or in oneself.  This consequence of their conscious nature should be made aware of by people who want to move in a new culture with a new language. They have to force themselves to not rely on their children. They neglect the responsibility they have for their children. when giving them tasks that they naturally are not supposed to do. The problem is that the brain is wired to be energy efficient and to trick your brain to do things in a more energy-intensive way is extremely hard. The brain has to decide what it is the right decision to do. Immigrant children tend to be angry, frustrated as well as feel limited in their development because of the parents lack of motivation to integrate themselves in the new society. They know their position in the family structure should not involve certain tasks and the level of responsibility given by the parents. They feel used. There is another thing to be sensitive about the judgment of others, but if it goes so far that you do not respect the society's values and lifestyle, it leads to a natural separation which can not always be sustained. The children then have to deal with the arrogance of their parents towards the system that helps them to have the lifestyle they have now. But the parents based on their past experiences and influence of the old culture and society they lived in leads to the limited perception they have now. To learn something that is non instinctive is hard and needs years of training. Openness, Acceptance,honesty and Objectivity is the key here. The responsibility which was taken away for yourself and was put toward the family has to switch back to oneself. You are responsible for how you can make peace with the situation you are living in as well as the past. The problem with the Millennial generation is they want the acknowledgement of the wrongdoings of the previous generation they will often not get. The different perspective of responsibility has to be accepted by all generations. Finding Understanding by yourself is the only expectation that can be fulfilled by oneself. Whether previous generations know what they did or not  is hard to know, especially if it seems like they justify their actions all the time or express the lack of understanding towards the newer generation. There will be no positive development of the human race if people stay in a blame state. It seems like mistakes that are part of the human psyche  are such a hard concept to accept that they change the interpretation of reality to something that gives them a guilt free mind. Guilt is a byproduct of mistake which can lead to stagnation if there is no in depth analysis of the mistake 

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THE RESPONSIBILITY OF THE MALE

Men have to teach themselves what woman want and need and whether it is important to them, because it means giving up their throne of the species and sex with the least threats. That means giving up his perceived power position of king and subordinate, who is a tool for his satisfaction. But men are also not taught that giving can be sometimes more satisfying than taking. The dance of give and take is the ultimate pleasure. Man should listen to their logical thinking and be the person they want and need to be and not be scared of giving up their power piston and throne because they can be judged. The problem is men are performance oriented and idealistic. Not meeting their expectations are things they are very sensitive about. Men tried to diminish the role Adam has on Eve´s life. He was responsible for her and his family. He uses any means necessary to help them survive and make them happy. But men are also opportunistic and energy efficient. Wifes and children are cheap labor. You can speak differently to them. But by using nature's development, they know women will have the tendency to be more caring and naturally take on more tasks. The role of women becomes the ultimate wish fulfillment for men with no strings attached and because of their instinct desire to have a family, security and connection they thrive for that. But women have to realize that they can receive it without being their ideal image. Women should not enable men to have an easy life, they should help each other grow and to become better people. Women feel lonely because you only can feel love if the person sees you as a person, not an object. You can adore an object, but it will never be the same as loving a living being. Human nature is completely ignored and dismissed, as they are not as productive, intelligent, wise and important for human development than they are. Men need to be taken care of because they have a more important role in society than women. How come that man is so afraid of giving? Are they scared that all investments will be taken away by women so easily and your effort is not worth anything anymore? Feeling used and not being able to feel happy again - that is the feeling and experiences that women experience every day - but we are not scared, because we know that it is the only way to find true happiness and men should also not be scared, because they are stronger than they think.

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MILLENNIALS DILEMA OF SURVIVING

The problem of the Millennial generation is that we have to live in a system that is built on a perception of the world that we do not share. Baby Boomers and Generation X are raised in a more collective oriented society where maximization and Energy Efficiency was propagated. Their school education was informative as well as memorisation oriented than the education system that switched in 1984 to a more logical analysis and interpretation approach for Millenials. There's a certain dissatisfaction between Baby Boomers and Generation X but they still see the world in a similar manner. The bigger divide happens between Millenials and these two previous generations. The mind is selective and the different approaches lead to valid arguments on both sides which make both sides reluctant to see and understand the other point of view and to compromise. Millenials are confronted everyday by people we do not want to be but have to be in order to survive. Men do not want to be the macho men who are selfish and do not have interest in feelings and emotions like the image  of the Baby Boomers nor be the all feelings, sensitive, all accommodating, perfectionistic and ideal men that feminism dictates them to be worthy to be in a relationship. Woman do not want to be all career - driven, work is everything and living my identity out without any consideration of other people like female Baby Boomers nor they want to be the stay at home mom, who only do the necessary and tries to use any source possible to have an easy and luxurious lifestyle  like Generation X. Millennials want to be respected as the person they are and not what the other Generation wants them to be. MAn want to be able to express feelings, be sensitive, listens to other people, seeks harmony and balance, is able to compromise and able to discuss who does what to make things even and efficient for everybody, but they also want to be able to speak their mind without harsh criticism, be adventurous, be strong, lead people and try to build their identity and make their visions true. They want to make other people stronger and help them to find their own pathway in the world. Woman want to be respected  of what they have to say, they should be acknowledged for their work they do, their insight and their wisdom, the innovative, futuristic and visionary nature they have as well as their sensitive nature, their ability to be emphatic and express their feelings, be nurturing and caring and able to see things in a more collective manner. They want to guide and help in a supportive and explorative manner and want to give their intuitive and life experience that accumulates with life. We do not want to be judged only in the relation of the collective and what we did or do for it. We want to be judged based on how we build our character. We want to be human, not an image or ideal to the previous generation expect us to be. We want to be a team, the humankind team, working together side by side and appreciating each other's individual talents and thinking as well. But we are seen as objects, as a source for the survival of the society as we know it. We have to thrive for that ideal so that the systems are able to function.  

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LET'S LOOK WITH BALANCED OBJECTIVITY, LOGIC AND EXPLORATION

It is interesting that males try to represent, direct or develop the female gaze through their male gaze. The male justify their right to form the female as they want to because of the trained and instinctive animalistic quality of females to serve. It is natural and instead of fighting we should respect it. But here lies the fundamental flaw in this interpretation. In their perspective respect is earned or granted  if they are on the same level as them or above. Their power of manipulation and control of natural elements make them lose respect for nature's forces. And the lack of physical danger coming from females does not force them to respect them. And here is one factor of the human race that should foster it besides the natural law of physical strength - Consciousness. Men need to see a womans instinct to serve objectively and not only focussing to their sex. There is reasons besides considering the male sex that developed this instinct in many mammals including humans. And the dynamics and roles of them develop and are influenced by the environment. The context of serving a lot of men misunderstand or see it based on their surroundings and the reasons why they serve. The different perspective lenses of both leads to sometimes false interpretation of what the other tries to communicate. They see nurturing nature as an exchange for their safety. And here lies the intellectualizing of feelings of human beings. Humans are observed and analyzed by the categories of other mammals.Although similar in nature the mental wiring and processing of the human race has to be taken into account. Feelings are the reasons why human beings do what they do. They need them to survive and thrive. If those are similarly analyzed like instincts there lies a problem which even more so comes from men than women. Women are more aware of their feelings and respect and try to understand them more. It seems men are more instinctual so their need to fulfill them more immediately is higher. It is logical because they always have the physical capacity to go, not like women. Women, because of their physical nature, need to be more protective. The issue lies in the way we live today. We do not live in tribes anymore where you are much more protected than we are today. So the dynamic changed and the concept of romantic love developed. Romantic love could have been also a part of tribe dynamics but there seems a more acceptance of having different partners you shared this feeling too. Romantic love resembles more the love a mother has for a child, lasting a whole lifetime and always the center where she revolves it. The question lies why do men feel jealous - is it because of the vanishing of a possible mother for his child? Is it deeper than that? Same for women - a vanishing prospect of safety or does it come from a deeper feeling of connection between the pair? How does the other sex experience those things? It is hard to experience something only through words and observation. You can only understand how you feel individually. So people tend to project - Men think women are pragmatic and instinctual as they are and women think men are or should be more feeling-based. You will have the tendency to  understand things from your experience and your point of view. Whether logic is even influenced by sex would be interesting to know. If logic is more neutral and similar between the sexes than it would be a better point of reference in the dynamics between the sexes. It is free from personal experience and is more interested in facts and interdynamics of processes and reference points. I think dependency is a big key why there was such an imbalance in a man and woman relationship. Men had an easier time finding a new spouse because women needed a man to survive, not only in nature, even in human societies. And human beings often act out of necessity. But Romantic Relationships were always a big part of developed human societies - can be a created tool so it is made sure that the next generation can be raised to keep the society going in developed high cultures. I think human beings realised that sexual attraction is not enough to foster a loyalty especially in men that would make him stay in one relationship and go against his nature. Men are idealist so their idealist nature has to be triggered to stay with one woman. But sometimes instincts are more powerful than ideals in a moment so men see things in pragmatic terms of instinct gratification. The confusing thing for men is that romantic love is based on the women's perceptions of feelings and men relate it more to sensations. The middle ground men chose for themself is that they want to live out their instincts but with the enjoyment of the woman. It is still self - referential but the status of women being more independent makes it  necessary to provide differently for women and that comes from their idealistic vision of how a man should be. Interestingly enough for them it is much harder to read whether a woman is "in the mood" because they are still self - referential and their sexual desire comes from them, not necessarily that the other person wants it. Everyone wants to be wanted but women are more prone to engage and feel sexual desire by the sexual desire of man but not necessarily the other way around. Women can adapt more easily than men.  Human Interaction and getting into a romantic relationship is a much harder endeavor than the animal kingdom. It is a lot more complex and the difficulty of the individual personalities of human beings and their individual dynamics between each other makes it much harder to find the right person to share a life with and potentially raise a family. Fulfilling someone's instincts is easier than the complexity of feelings and mental needs.

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YESTERDAY

If you are not embarrassed or do completely see yourself in the last picture that was taken the second before now you are not growing but stagnating. Embarrassing feelings is a sign of reflection,openness and growth

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THE CENTER OF OUR SOLAR SYSTEM

There are two possibilities why human beings had a problem with the fact that the center of the solar system or universe (or not known then of the multiple universe - system/theory) where we currently are part of is not the earth

 - For human beings back then earth, moon,stars and the sun existed. From the human point of view, the natural tendency to see oneself as the center led to the instinctive conclusion that the earth must be the center of the universe. Moreover, because of the changing nature of the sky manifested the idea further, that the earth is the staple center where everything else circles around. Everything seems to be at the service of the earth so human beings felt that the earth must be the highest creation of god and we have special importance. The story of the creation of the world did not mention any other planets and because people could not see them (because of lack of technology and accessibility) therefore the trust in a statement that the world circles around the sun was highly doubted. 

 - If the church believed everything was created by god then singling out earth as the highest form of creation by god made us feel special and highlighted the fact that everything is related to us. We are the center  where everything is served to us. That we are not special in relation to other planets who also circle the sun, made us not really special in the great scheme of the universe. It forces the notion that the dynamics of the universe is much more complex and that human beings as well as the earth are not as important as they think they are. We are in less control if we have to circle around the sun to be in the state we are in. To be not at the center could be interpreted that God does not see us as the pinnacle of creation and that we can be sacrificed for a bigger picture. It confuses them that a star without change or living beings is more important than the earth. The reason for the creation of us human beings and the idea of god back then would dissolve. Therefore the existence of religion will be put into question especially the christian religion who propagates the specialness and importance of the earth and human beings as the highest form of creation.

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THE FORCE OF EVERYTHING AND THE BELIEVER

The relationship between the force of everything and the believer can or should change throughout life. As a child you have the necessity to believe in everything your surroundings tell you because you did not experience, have enough information and have the mindset to judge it objectively. There is an innate trust in the belief of the surrounding teaching everything you need that every living thing has when growing up. Their judgements are only based on instinct and believe in the higher power (whether it is innate feeling for children or influenced by religion or fairytales is difficult to conclude) where the collective unconscious realizes something is not right which is expressed through behavior or feeling. When your mind realizes that you have enough information to tackle obstacles, problems, plans etc. on your own, your relationship with that force or definition changes. The innate trust that a higher form and interdynamics of energy takes care of us becomes a teaching tool to help yourself and others. It changes from a spiritual dreamlike state with intense feeling to a more conscious hopeful approach to solve certain problems to a more reassuring guiding trust to a more analytical broad approach that is not so me focused but more interest based, I think any relationship changes with the mindset of the person, The unconscious is very aware what a person needs to grow and guides this person subconsciously to search for information to help to solve the problem, because that is one of the main function of it. That is why certain words, statements,quotes,texts,visuals etc. resonates more with you than others. The universe strives to have a certain kind of energy flow and to reach it it tries to leave cues because it respects the concept of free will. Sometimes it seems like that the interdynamics of the solar system as in astrology is at odds with a desired flow of energies or the state the universe wants to be. The higher force of the universe could have created a being with seemingly higher consciousness as seen in humans to manifest those desired actions in the real world. The problem arises with the overwhelming power of the planets and stars that have a such a high influence on people that even higher consciousness can't stop certain actions on happening, There are certain people who try and tried to give people ways to withstand those influences and to be more aware of the energy flow of the higher force that is intertwined into everything. There are a lot of metaphysical forces that seem at odds with each other and because they are all very strong, having a more conscious awareness of them helps to lead a certain life.  The mind guides the relationship with the universal creator energy and vice versa and this energy becomes what you desire from it or it tries to make you become something they need to reach their desired state. Is a constant exchange of goals where the mind is interested in the self and the higher energy in the interdynamics of everything which can be in conflict but does not necessarily have to be. The integration of these two leads to the concept of enlightenment and yin/yang harmony. The medium which are humans is responsible to be aware and channel those energies but in the end has the ultimate power to decide in which kind of direction everything will develop, but whether they are capable of it because of the restrictions of their being is difficult to answer. Looking back on those influential figures of history shows it is possible but to get there takes a lot of energy , self awareness and a certain access to one's power as well as the access to high energy. High consciousness is the key but reaching that state is extremely difficult, takes a lot of willpower and a lot of sacrifices. That is the concept of free will which seems a unique trait of human beings - they decide which power they want to follow.

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KNOWLEDGE

Women were/are feared by men because women seem to have knowledge and observe things that a man can not which scares a man a lot. Men fear knowledge they themselves can not comprehend, so they condemn women for their abilities for example in the witch trials in the middle ages. They think that they do not match to the level of depth that women have in some areas so they try to downforce/invalidate their abilities because a man can not trust what he is not able to do as well as feel worthy to be with a woman. Not understanding means that men never can have an absolute trust towards women because they mostly work with the sensation they receive with their senses but have a harder time to trust the invisible part of connection. Moreover, it is hard to explain something completely instinctive and intuitive like the communication between women and the outside world. Women developed those tools for protection because in a group setting of multiple people with different ages of awareness women needed certain features that helped them protect themselves and others,also when verbal communication was not possible. Men naturally are more single focussed minded and have a hyper awareness to their focus that everything outside of it gets blurred. Women have a special connection to the universe, especially  the mood and that they can change their period cycle to the woman around them or the moon influence in some kind of way seems very mysterious indeed, even for women itself. There must be a logical explanation surely but how much people's mindset and body are influenced not only the visible surroundings but also everything invisible in between conveys a certain kind of knowledge in the interdynamics of everything visible and invisible that is impossible to comprehend so humans try to hold on to something they can really work on and that is everything that is taken in with their five senses, at least the male species do. They are responsible to protect the tribe so if they feel they lose it in some kind of way the tribe is in danger. It seems power,control and protection get hand in hand. Of course, the invisible connection to the universe and unconscious knowledge as well as the shadow side of humans are always analyzed and interpreted for both genders, but only the male focus was accepted. That is why there is an imbalance of spiritual experience, perspectives and interpretations that lead to the physical and mental problems we have today. It seems fear is connected to respect and knowledge -. Women fear the physical side of men and men fear the psychological side of women. What is the solution of this - The exploration, acceptance and control of the self.

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THE CONNECTION BETWEEN SEXUALITY AND CONSCIOUSNESS

An interpretation of the biblical story Adam and Eve is about the connection between sexuality and consciousness. The development from a child to a teenager is represented by how the snake, which is a symbol for sexuality and consciousness, offers knowledge which is sexuality through consciousness or the start of sexual feelings which results in consciousness. I think the body realizes in the transition phase between childhood and teenage phase that the body and the mind should prepare for the upcoming responsibility of taking care of the people around them. Sexuality to Consciousness to Responsibility is a process that seems relatively short in comparison to child -; and adulthood. Childhood is a process where the body and mind needs a lot of energy and where a lot of transformation occurs so it needs to be self - focussed. Problems arise if the environment forces the mind to grow up quickly whether to protect the human being or the people around them to then protect itself. There will be a focus of the mind and consciousness development which pushes sexuality in the background, because the body is not fully developed. The problem arises by that kind of normal development is that when the body and mind feels ready to integrate the point of sexuality is that an uninhibited exploration or inhibited mindset towards it can occur which problems can arise that needs a lot more energy and conscious care than to go the normal way where the people around you guide you in that healthy exploration. In the end it is about how the human being trusts its environment and how forceful the mind is to integrate that part. People who grew up in an unstable environment do not necessarily relate responsibility with sexuality which can lead to that unbalanced exploration of it. 

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I TREAT MY OWN FEELINGS LIKE DIRT (TRY TO WASH THEM AWAY AS FAST AS POSSIBLE), BUT OTHER ONES ARE VALUABLE LIKE A DIAMOND THAT NEEDS TO BE PROTECTED AND LOOKED IN ALL ANGLES.

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Beauty is always remembered.

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I do not think we would have the best sex experience ever, but we surely have the most erotic seductive experience with each other in our lifetime. Let's have a long ass foreplay - no pun intended!

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the bisexual king and the (asexual) sapio/pansexual queen to traumatised to be in love

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I lost all of my beautiful features

because I decided because of the meanings of my name that outer beauty will not be important anymore. The struggle I feel for years is that, did not know what my name meant. When I knew, I knew everything and I tried to embody or create a personality which a person with the same name can embody. I can influence what kind of life someone will lead. Be respectful to that task - it is very rare that a person has freedom to influence the manifestation of those names. Because my name is rare, long and seems royal because of its sound and letters/structure, people associated me with those traits and were judged accordingly. But what if you were the manifestation of what we wished , we allowed us to be and that triggered all kinds of emotions, mostly negative. But we know you had much worse than us so we are blessed unfairly to be blessed with such strong and intelligent people. You do not come from us - we know that. We are just the one keeping you barely alive. We are just the one keeping you barely alive. We are just the one keeping you barely alive. We are just care - takers , no parents. You are left with the consequences you have, every right to be. We are just cowards.