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Finding old music you used to love is like getting back in touch with an old friend.

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in 2020, say no to the things you don’t want. speak up and advocate for yourself. make time to take care of yourself. treat yourself with respect and kindness and patience, because you deserve it.

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09.01.17

Holy shiii its september. More like wake me up when september ends :-) hehe life has been in shambles as per usual but ya kno yo gurl here tryna to not care however we all know deep down shes a weak Bitch

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08.22.17

Things r gettin confused as hell w this guy im seeing..

I knew it was too good to be true.. i dont wanna go into detail but i will try to update ... i am just done i need to focus on my well bein and future. I have no time for "love" whatever this shit is... if he thinks he can play dlo... he thought wrong bc hes only fooling himself

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08.16.17

Sorry i havent been updating... alot of shit has happened hahahha the usual. Life ya know. Anyways yeah school is starting soon my online classes start tomorrow but i just did two assignments that were pretty easy rn and submitted them. Also im sort of seeing this guy, i really like him i hope he doesnt break my heart. Anyways i am also planning on going to my friends kick back party at his apt he just moved into w his friends for school lol btw hes the one who introduced me to the guy im seeing so things will prob be interesting lol okay thats all im gonna say i should go to to sleep rn im feeling droopy if thats even a word... idk anymore

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5.22.17

My depression is back at it again..

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5.10.17

I am still in awe that my bff ice left back to thailand two days ago.. ally and i are just a lil empty bc he was the third musketeer in our group. We spent almost everyday together while we could before we left. Apparently he kept crying when we left and i found myself holding in my tears from the realism that he isn't gonna be hanging w us as a crew for a damn while and tbh ally and i have no idea if our friendship we had will remain the same in a few years when we all try to hang again or something idk but yeah our friendship was truly something. Also IDENTITY LA was fuckin lit ugh i wanna relive tht night again w my besties and the next day i had work and i freakin got in trouble by one of my shifts bc i was tryna sneak drinks bc at the other Starbucks i worked at i could of made however many drinks i wanted to take and giv to friends or fam but at this starbucks i couldnt so ya my shift lead told me i had to pay for it and i felt so embarrassed ugh oh welll ya we went to get hot cheeto sushi burrito and had a fun ass time at the arcade. Almost died bc of ally's driving tho lololol . Then the next day was our last day hanging out w ice and it was a fail bc we tried to suprise him w a collage poster and a letter on back that ally and i made last minute and his reaction to it wasnt priceless LOL and our plan was to buy him chipotle but he wasnt home when we went over to his house and he was already at the mall and already got chipotle to go ugh so i bought him innout instead and he saved his chipotle bowl for later lolol. But ya ally and i are just snapping him in the gc and we plan on video chatting w him when ally and i meet this Friday at this cute coffee shop after im done w work 😪 life is okay ... just not where i wanna be but ya kno workin on it atm

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04.30.17

I guess im content w where i am in life rn... just gotta keep up w the positivity yo

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4.25.17

Man ive been an emotional wreck i mean my emotions on a train ride... my thoughts are overflowing too about life and my future. I hung out w my squad yesterday and i realize its gonna be sad when ice goes back to thailand in two weeks but i am thankful i still have ally but still also im excited for this music event thats happening LA next saturday squad and i are going and my fav gurl producer is gonna be there and im just excited bc this music event is FREEEEE yessssss thank u and DEAN is gonna be there like lord has blessed. My parents are going through alot of adult shit and its making me stressed bc i dont wanna go through my soon to be old ass adult shit but man... life ya kno justtttttr surfin thru em... anywho but ya work is okay, most of my coworkers are tight, just not gettin enough hours from both jobs atm i mean once im taking my online course through asu online im suppose to be workingg at least 20 hours a week so ya..

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4.13.17

Life is wreck and im still living...

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04.07.17

Yesterday was a great ass day spoke w alot of people and had a productive ass day :) hehe

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2.22.17

Life rn is lit asf

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2.21.17

I appreciate cali so mucch more now :-)

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2.19.17

Back home im so happpy u hav no idea

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2.10.17

Update: i had a huge awakening of what id like my future to be as far as career goes. My older cousin and i are gonna partner up as he shows me the ropes because he has been doing this for quite some time on how to be a producer. He has his own website and clothing and lots of connections already so joining him could only get better from there! Also i cant believe im coming home next weekened. My coworkers r sad but oh well life ya kno lol they r planning a going away party at this Indian restaurant so idk what to expect lol. My last day at the drive thru is valentines day yuck lol and im suppose to contact the manager who hired me in the begginingg so she can help me transfer to a store in California! Because our poor manager is gonna be in the hospital for the next two weeks and is getting surgery and shit idk anyways yeah cant wait to come home and turn my dream into a reality!

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1.2.17

Update: sorry i know its been so long ofc the usual excuse is tht a lot of shitttt happened. So first ima start off by saying imgoing back to cali. I already gave my two week notice which was nerve wrecking but im glad my manager understood and he said he will try to help me transfer to the one in cali i have no idea how that works hopefully it does.. also im bummed that i cantt bring all my shit w me back to my room in cali bc its expensive to use a uhaul from md to ca!!!!!! :(( so i can only use two luggages and a carry on. But my uncle said he will be in cali a few times this year so he can bring whats left and meet up w my dad and i. Hopefully everything comes back in one piece yes i know im possessive but its my shit i paid for! Anyways yeah life man also i have to return the rental car im using this weekeened which is stressful bc now ima either gonna have to uber my last two weeks to work and have my uncle or aunt pick me up afterwards.. ik, can life get any better. Also my check for my car is taking forever!!!!!!!!! Its so annoyingg like fuck i juust wanna use thht money so i can find a new used car right away so i can use it for groceries and work bitch! Anyways thats all on my mind rn im so tired bc i closed last night and had to wake up for a early ass morning shift bc my nice ass swittched w a coworker.

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1.11.17

Besides the fact i feel like having a mental breakdown in the middle of each day because of being new to this state and feeling lost and going through so much shit. I at least feel like everything's coming into place at work, ive decided not to transfer back... yup even i surprised myself the drive thru starbucks isnt all tht bad like i made it to be and what people say in my experience......... anyways im getting a tatt this friday bc im off work anddddd its friday the 13th !!!!!!!!