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Too much, Too less!

I have been blessed with immense time and rapid energy by God and I used to utilise it with people I genuinely feel are comfortable and can handle these two blessings.

But after various dialogues with people I realized that God gave me this gift to utilize for myself instead of giving out to people because they don't value it as it looks like 'nothing to do' to them.

Time and time again, I realized that whenever I mold myself to others schedule, they start thinking that maybe I have nothing else to do whereas I have this immense power and gift of excess leisure time after working for my bread and butter.

I have been wasting this gift of God for past few years assuming that I might have found the one person who deserves this energy but it turned out that it was all a dilemma, a dilusion of being different than others that have made me work like this.

Ungrateful people will never understand how blessed they are to have someone ready to give them their time and energy as these two things are meant to be sacred and not to be shared and very few on earth share these two things with others. The only mistake I made was sharing it with the wrong people who actually don't understand the value of it.

They say if you are too much for someone then should go out and find less for them. I have been told on my face the same thing whereas I have seen them going an extra mile for others. Here, I understood that no matter what you do, people will always choose which matches their energies even if it's less.

Raising my bar in 2022 by restricting myself to myself instead of giving out to ungrateful people this year.

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Dieing million deaths at once..!

Breakups are easy.

Bring the person to a table, tell them you are done and leave.

The hard part is to give a right to someone to let you know when they are done with you.

There is a thin line difference between these two events and that thin line is a very hurting period of life.

I have seen people Struggle in life and while they are Struggling those who love them are their biggest support to make them go through their phase.

But I always encountered being left alone while I m Struggling.

It's strange but true and yet hurting but a learning point all together.

So much blessing in disguise that I cry and then I smile at the same time.

Being understanding, loving , giving your 101% to someone doesn't hold them in your life. These are all myths to me now.

I have been to places where I didn't had any capacity to even think of accomodating but I did because of my love and compassion for another person was higher than the capacity I hold but it's silly to think that they are holding onto you because you are doing beyond capacity for them.

They hold on to you because of their capacity.

People stay in your life according to their desire, capacity and conditions. When they are done, they leave you behind despite the fact that you are doing so much for them.

They celebrate moments, birthdays, anniversaries, promotions to their terms and capacity not because you are happy for these events...

This never means you are worthless.

You are worthy and way too much expensive for these sort of people.

If they don't share their problems and leave you, don't wear yourself down for them because they don't have the capacity to do so.

It's not your fault, not you to blame.

As Najwa Zebian said, you are the sun and things revolves around it, seeking light, energy.

They also revolves around you, seek energy.

That's not meant that you are worthless or not value added.

This means they lack the capability and capacity to love you..

Going through an episode where my partner opened up that he/she is bored from me was an eye-opening moment for me.

That statement made me realise that I am not enough.. my love, compassion, presence and efforts are not enough...they want more than this and I don't have the capacity...

It was a revealing truth being said to me...

A truth I always wanted someone to say to my face...

It broke my heart but mended my human being inside for bigger things to come in life..

Understanding every action and not blaming someone because you understand their situation is a blessing in disguise and I am blessed to have this stamina to absorb whatever comes to my way...

More power to love...

Never stop loving but first love yourself..

Don't give power to people to destroy you or stop you from loving,  nor give them right to humiliate you

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Know your Worth :)

I have been recently told by one of the important people of my life that I might be replacable.

Replaceable means that someone else also went through same circumstances but they held the ground firm and I didn't.

I was told that due to my struggle with events and trauma , they are not able to develop trust on me anymore.

It is a blessing in disguise that people love to speak truth, they even vouch for it too and sometimes demands it but forgets to understand that it can hurt them back if the other person also serve the same to them.

It was a traumatic experience to know that I have been struggling for past 3 years for someone who easily replaced me for something better and didn't even opt me as an option to stick to me despite the fact that I was holding the ground beneath their feet without complaining since a long time.

Many writers have written about being valued and not to be an option but the mistake we people do while being option to someone is that we become so understanding to them that we overlook the disrespect on the way.

Relationships should be very straightforward and upbringing instead of people taunting and hurting you for your love and attachment to them.

The biggest Trauma I went through in last 2 years was losing a friend who I thought was my life's biggest blessing...My biggest struggle was to keep in touch despite being ridiculously accused of situations where I was victim too.

They say, sometimes you don't have to tell your story,  Time tells it and I actually went through this quote in person.

But the things I lost was a friend, gazillion emotions and my time...

I invested my time and energy where I was just a replacable option...

All I gain was , learning to stand alone, memories,  beautiful memories and lessons to never compromise on your value, never!!!!

I learnt  that I am valuable even if they cannot see my value and even they are blind to my circumstances.

If they are trying to devalue you, help them in the process by exiting yourself from their lives because if they cannot see your worth despite your efforts, probably they will never see it.

Never compromise on your self worth.

You are important and you are valued not for them but for your own self.

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Wo Shakhs...!!!

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Are you Aligned with the truth.?

I witness people holding on to past events , events that hurts them, events that broke them, events that changed their lives completely and people around them letting them understand that time is a big healer, time will heal.

But the question is "Is this the time which actually heals a person or it's the truth that does this?"

Yes the truth..

The truth behind the event that caused you pain, the truth with a different dimension.

Alignment with the truth let's you understand the reason behind your pain and trauma,  not only this,  it becomes reasonable to you and when it does, you start feeling differently.

I saw many people mourning loss of loved ones, friends, relationships some due to natural causes, some due to fights and some due to doubts...

But if you see their situation from a different angle you come to know that it's not necessary that the other one is acting out of evil instincts. Sometimes people react to situations,  they become defensive and in their defensiveness they lose the relationships.

The truth Alignment is very important in life in order to balance the peace of mind for oneself. Reacting to one's own truth just sometimes can damage not only oneself but the other one as well.

Truth usually have 3 types, one's truth, the version of the other person and then the actual one.

One should try to understand the 3 phases or types in order to get healed.

Don't leave things, don't run away, don't depend on time, depend on the truth..

Align yourself with the truth , accept the truth and build yourself strong internally.

That's the only way to heal..!

Heal yourself :)

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Acceptance!

A solution to the problems we are facing right now is acceptance.

We fight ourselves and with others due to the fact that we sometimes are unable to accept the situations and terms and that denial not only cost us our peace but our relationships too.

Ask yourself "so what" in situation where you feel you are unable to cope up with the change?

So what if I didn't get the job, So what if they didn't respond to your call, so what if they don't remember you, so what if they don't love you..

This one question starting with So what let you exit the anxiety, doubts, self pity..

When we don't accept something the way it is, either we change it or we fight it but if you ponder more you only change what's in your control and always fight which is not which brings you back to point one "You don't accept".

Religion is acceptance. We talk about spirituality,  it's also a form of acceptance.

Acceptance of a connection of soul.

When we don't acceptance,  we lose focus on what we do.

Loving someone is basically about acceptance of that person as it is, even if he/she is a divided person, you love them because how they are not because what kind of relationships they have..

We sometimes forget that love is acceptance instead we focus on love being the demand of emotions and sexuality and we ruin our peace..

Accept that whatever destiny throws at you is an experience and you can only benefit from it after you accept that yes it is how it was suppose to be..

You will be surprised how many mysteries you will solve by just accepting..

Curiosity is absence/lack of information and jealousy is sometimes lack of acceptance of another's involvement.

Accept your situation,  accept your partner,  accept that mistakes happen, accept the change, Accept yourself..!

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Chehry...

Chehry jala dainay sy shakhsiyat nhi mit'ti

Ana ko jalana parta hai maqam k liye

Faqt taizaab sy hi nahi hoti tabahkariyan

Sheesha dikhana parta hai inteqam k liye

Haiwaniat k us darjay py hoon k ab

Sharmindagi hoon main Insan k liye

Namazon sy agar hojaty rab k qareeb

Husn e ikhlaq k farmaan na hotay musalman k liye

#ForAcidVictims #AST

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QANOON...!!!

Koi sakoon baich raha hai

koi Junnoon baich raha hai

yahan har koi hasb e tofeeq

Qanoon baich raha hai

yahan bikta hai khoon bhi

koi Mazloom baich raha hai

yahan har koi hasb e tofeeq

Qanoon baich raha hai

yahan bikti hain Izaatain

koi Zameer baich raha hai

Yahan Har koi hasb e tofeeq

Qanoon baich raha hai

yahan insaaf bik raha hai

yahan Deen bik raha hai

Yahan har koi Hasb e tofeeq

Qanoon baich raha hai

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Being unloved is Tough.!

We all are at places sometimes where we feel deprived of some crucial emotions like affection. Being deprived of vitality can make one sick easily and it's not easy to survive when you have to deal with the deprivation of love.

Being unloved and deprived are actually two phases of a single stream where you start depriving of attention and suddenly spoof out of the person's life without even knowing it.

In this materialised world, people love you by judging you with what amount of benefit you bring to the table. If you are in survival mode,  they leave the instantly based on lousy arguments and baseless accusations.

One should understand one's value before going for any relationship in this materialistic world because people don't even care for signed commitments now a days and verbal ones are damn too dangerous.

We should weight our worth ourselves before letting someone do that for us because Being unloved by someone else is tough when you expects the opposite in your survival mode.

Be aware of Being unloved because it's tough.

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Mujhy ab dar nahi lagta...

Kisi k door janay sy

Taluq toot janay sy

Kisi k Maan janay sy

Kisi k rooth janay sy

Mujhy ab dar nahi lagta

Kisi ko azmanay sy

Kisi k azmanay sy

Kisi ko yaad rkhny sy

Kisi ko bhool janay sy

Mujhy ab dar nahi lagta

Kisi ko chor dainay sy

Kisi k chor janay sy

Na shama ko jalanay sy

Na shama ko bhujanay sy

Mujhy ab dar nahi lagta

Akaily muskaranay sy

Kabhi ansu Bahanay sy

Na is saray zamany sy

Haqeeqat sy, fasanay sy

Mujhy ab dar nahi lagta

Kisi ki narsai sy

Kisi ki bewafai sy

Kisi dukh intihai sy

Mujhy ab dar nahi lagta

Na tou is par sy

Na tou us par rehny sy

Na apni zindagani sy

Na ik din mout anay sy

Mujhy ab dar nahi lagta.

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And she never wanted to leave..!

And she never wanted to leave...

The ones who'd been gone for so very long

She couldn't remember their names

The ones she had lost for so very long

She couldn't figure out their games

But she never wanted to leave...

The ones she trusted and the ones she loved

The ones for always she pray

They threw her down the hill so deep

She couldn't find her way

But she never wanted to leave..

The ones she thought would help her up

Were same, those doomed her way

They let her scar, deep down the pit

The place she couldn't stay

But she never wanted to leave..

Her bond was tight, she held it right

She keeps loving them the same,

Her heart is bright, she keeps it light,

And she keeps herself away..

But she never wanted to leave..

And she never wanted to leave..!

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Hum toot jatay hain..!!

Hum toot jatay hain

Chotay chotay waqiyon sy

Jhooti Batoon sy

Hum toot jatay hain

Kisi na chahty kal sy

Kisi Arzu k pal sy

Seham jatay hain

Dar jatay hain

Ankhain band kr k

Jis py krty hain bharosa

Usi pal hum bhol jatay hain

Bharosay toot jatay hain

Rehty hain khwabon m

Khud main Kho jatay hain

Ankh khulti hai or

Hum toot jatay hain

Kisi k Pyar main

Aik deedar main

Khuwahishon k karobar main

Hum toot jatay hain..

Tukron main jeetay hain

Badal jatay hain

Hum roz jurtay hain

Phir

Hum toot jatay hain...

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I let them Burn in their resentment because I had to stay in my limit.

When being able to live with someone and still not able to register that person's fear and desires, I pity on those who says their love is unconditional.

No, the love they have is purely conditional, on the fact, that the person will stick to them only.

To love unconditionally, one need to accept the other person's habits too even if it's a share in the life.

I let them Burn in their own jealousy because when you wrong people and they are true to you in real meaning, this resentment is a gift of nature to them for how they did wrong to those who deserved to be loved.

Being close to someone's heart is a place where you live without any barriers and restrictions and this is where no one can interfere even if they try their level best to.

Sometimes when someone is burning in their fire, one need to leave them burning and stay in own limits in order to let the routine go.

Rescuing them will actually be a negative impact on the relationship.

Everyone is destined to walk their own talk and that's when you try to help them out, they shut you by asking you to stay in the limit. Not because you actually crossed them but because nature never let someone take others burden unnecessarily.

Letting them burn never means you stop loving them, it means to let them exercise what they think is right for them even that's wrong because at the end, whatever happens, the one with true intensions always comes out more strong and happy.

If one need to evaluate whose lose was it, one should just review, who is burning in fire, who is running after someone, who is on the move.

The difference is they prefer to just stay with the person, partial intimacy with the body, I stay in heart, intimate with soul and that's where the point of their resentment starts.

So I let them burn in their own Fire happily and love unconditionally instead !!!

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It Hurts..!!!

It hurts..

When you give away yourself..!

Like a Doll of Glass

In the hands of a Kid

who is in love with stones

It Hurts...

When you turn of the lights

hoping for the spark

From a dead candle

That burnt before dark

It hurts...

When you look back at time

and regret the words

but you can't reverse the time

Coz time is a bird

It hurts...

When you look at old photographs

and tears shed from eyes

Those people once Warm hearted

now cold as Ice

It Hurts...

When people say Wow

by looking at your smile

They never know how

you covered that mile

It hurts..!

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Whom you are with, are you mentally satisfied or think of me with them too “every time”?

Someone attacked me when they couldn’t hit me with their words. When they were unable to hit me with their hatred, tricks and lies, they attacked me.

I am happy that I am a lifelong source of fixing it for some people and even if they crave it like death, they cannot forget my name and that’s all what Karma does to you when you unjustly throw someone under the bus, the same Bus hits you, just in a different time, just in a different place, just on a different day.

I am amazed on people how easily they manipulate what is available on hand and then complaint about the consequences of their doings. I am amazed what they project on people is actually a whole different truth than actual, what they tell you is not even near to the truth.

Human being acts like animal when they lose control. The very crucial and only differentiating point of human beings is control. Control over themselves and situations.

I have witnessed people who lost control when they couldn’t hurt me in any other way and not only this but were also naked in front of me for all of their miscommunications. I pity them a lot when I recall instead, I reminisce the time I spent with them and smile because I am clear on my way and see that they have not only chosen pebbles for them but try to replicate me in every new person.

There is a time when you are confused why things are happening the way they are, and then there comes a time when things open up in front of you like crystal clear. Same happens to me, someone so innocent opened up in front of me in the worst possible way but the irony was they still used my existence in this world in their defense.

Love is a very vast exposure and people thinks it’s just an opposite gender agenda. I say it’s not and it never was. Gender role is for physical satisfaction, twist comes when someone can give you mental satisfaction too. People who use to claim they love the person actually were trading places, but When I loved them, I traded peace and satisfaction and when they messed , they messed with their satisfaction too.

So tell me whom you are with, are you mentally satisfied with them or think of me? I bet the later :)

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Know me when I am Small.

I was just listening to this song and it took me to reminisce a little bit. The lyric said “Know me when I am Small, not when I am big”.

I believe people now a days know you when you are big, when you gain fame, when you have something to spend, materialism is now a days the biggest eye catching specially when we are in pandemic.

People instead of sharing, believe on showing off more.

If you have people around you who were there when you were struggling and stumbling and made with you till the time you are a big talk, one need to make every effort to retain these people as they are the true ones who survived with you, through you, and along with you.

They deserve true respect and your time in genuine terms as they helped you when you were almost nothing or struggling to be something.

Now a days the world rules vice versa, they get attracted to you when you are something and leave you if you stumble over it. They only claim the royalty and this is how they develop relationships.

I say Money is power because living in 3rd world country I have seen people falling in love with a person because they posses’ money. I have seen people lying, cheating over some bucks and then justifying it clearly naming someone else.

Materialism is a curse which we don’t realize until or unless we neutralize ourselves of it and think.

I always strive to be there when people are slave and not king so that they know who to turn to in case they stumble upon their gains.

One should always try to make relationships free from all the materialistic conditions in order to exercise sincere emotional and deep connection instead of a relationship with terms and conditions.

Link to Song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4a-Eu2_SCo

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