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I am Feeling things...

From A Boy's Own Story by Edmund White

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“One consequence of developmental trauma, relationally conceived, is that affect states take on enduring, crushing meanings. From recurring experiences of malattunement, the child acquires the unconscious conviction that unmet developmental yearnings and reactive painful feeling states are manifestations of a loathsome defect or of an inherent inner badness. A defensive self-ideal is often established, representing a self-image purified of the offending affect states that were perceived to be unwelcome or damaging to caregivers. Living up to this affectively purified ideal becomes a central requirement for maintaining harmonious ties to others and for upholding self-esteem. Thereafter, the emergence of prohibited affect is experienced as a failure to embody the required ideal, an exposure of the underlying essential defectiveness or badness, and is accompanied by feelings of isolation, shame, and self-loathing.” -Robert D. Stolorow   

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will you?

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“There is immeasurably more left inside than what comes out in words.”

— Fyodor Dostoevsky  (via violentwavesofemotion)

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JENNY HOLZER / "DRAMA" / 2015 [inkjet print | 12 1/4 × 18 1/4"]

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"circle paintings"

ink, gouache, acrylic, and soap on paper 4.5" x 6", 2024

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stop clinging to a script that no one else but you is reading

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Self portrait, 2024

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Radek J Husak, (Polish b. 1984)

Achilles and Patroclus I, 2023

Pigment transfer, carbon, charcoal, and color pencils on aluminium 84x60 cm

Henry Miller Fine Art, London

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mary oliver, "upstream"

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Strange how we decorate pain.

— Margaret Atwood, from “Oh,” Morning in the Burned House (Mariner Books, 1996)

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― Joan Didion, Blue Nights

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“A desire for a more normal life does not necessarily mean identification with norms, but can be simply this: a desire to escape the exhaustion of having to insist just to exist.”

— Sara Ahmed, Willful Subjects (149)

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"And we are plagued by dead language and dead stories that serve people whose aim is nothing short of a dead world." - Ta-Nehisi Coates, The Message

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Agamemnon by Aiskhylos (Translated by Anne Carson) from An Oresteia