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Still have to tell myself I can live alone, on my own.

Cause there's still no assurance of the future

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Gagi. Sobrang lungkot ko ngayon to think naII am always forgotten whenever we’re apart, pano pa pag mag LDR nyan. Parang ang hirap mag tiwala kapag ganto na lang palagi

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What I hate about love is caring too much that the other person doesn’t even care. Being worried about him, but will still take it against you because you are not being trusting enough. Holding back thoughts just to protect his pride and ego even though you may have a point. I hate impulsive decisions while I plan. I hate it when he don’t listen, making me feel that I am unheard, unseen and he is always right.

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Vincent Van Gogh

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Hi Just want to have a little life update.

I don’t know how to put things into words, but I want to ask my self a little bit on how life is going on lately. A little self reflection after 10 months of 2024.

Yes, time flies so fast just like the cold breeze of air that starts in September. It has always been tough, life has always been tough for me, but lo and behold, I am still here standing, moving and surviving. Let me appreciate my life first before anything else because being able to continue life is a big achievement already. A lot had happened even though II may not notice it, in almost a year, there are a lot of changes, plans, setting, people changes. I’ve been to different places within thin the country/ Luzon, experienced and explore different things I have never done before. Let me have a quick recap on how the year went and see what we can do for the remaining 2 months.

JANUARY.

The start of the year gave hope for a better life without any idea how this year will go, which may be in favor of me or not.

End of January, Aljun and I also went to a camping which really went well. We were able to recharge from the nature and had peace away from the city life. We literally just had rest, being asleep since 6pm to 6am we even forgot to have dinner at this time.

During this time, I was able to start my MP2. Yay!

FEBRUARY.

Aljun’s birth month and I cooked spaghetti for his birthday. And he was able to meet my colleagues during the despidida for Sir JC and celebration of the January, and february babies.

I got my Ipad. This thing may be a reflection that I deserve too have reward for myself and I am doing great in surviving what life throws me. I have been wanting this with no specific reason ever since I was a student. I hope this inspires me to be more striving and it may also help me attain much more goals in the future. I am hopeful that this thing may become my go to thing whenever I needed something.

We also went to Baguio, and this time, maybe we mold our relationship stronger. We may have a little arguments that time but it made us understand each other more.

Forgot to mention, I had a major skin insecurity having a dandruff outbreak which started last December and peaked in February, and a rashes on my forearms which led me to get consulted by a dermatologist. Realizing how stressed I was for the past months

MARCH

Aljun also bought his Ipad. And started his new work at WTW. Holy week started this month.

Ate came home, And as usual, I am the person, mainly responsible for the gala things. Tatay also volunteered to become apostle for the holy weeks’ month long preparation.

APRIL

Our birth month. We had the chance to have a time off with my familly. We went to Alahbiga, San Juan, Batangas, where I saw kuya aldrin went to fishing.

On April 222-24, 2024, Ate returned to Philippines without the knowledge of my parents for the reason that she needed to settle her medical for the processing of her work in US. And as usual, again, I am the one who assisted her during her stay. April 24, 2024, We had a dinner out with Ate Aiza, ALjun and Kuya Aldrin, it was so satisfying that I was able to treat them with my hard earned money.

Aj also invited me to join him in his company event.

And as for my birthday, Aljun has been the one who made it so special, we went to A1 premium shabu shabu house, gave me a surprise when I got home from work. In addition, I thank my friends, the Bonaks who also made an extra effort to order something from “Mary Grace” and have it delivered, haven’t expected to be blessed with these people for 27 years.

Actually, didn’t realized to have so much during this birth month. I have always thought that this is just a normal month for me.

MAY.

I volunteered to be assigned as in patient duty for 2 months with phoebe who turned out be my work bestie now.

At this month, there is a sudden opportunity for me to work in Germany, and I thought this will be easy, but it’s not, now I almost wanted to give up, but the thing is, I will never know what awaits me there if I will never be able to start and be there. So I started my language journey and really had a hard time.

JUNE.

I took my certification for advanced dry needling, this is something to improve my knowledge as a professional. We celebrated Father’s day and took ninong and tatay out and went to the beach.

I started signing up for the Language course for Deutsch. I have to take this seriously. (June 16) I am hopeful for this opportunity, I hope, I never got disappointed.

I got my hair treated with ate as my sponsor. Hehe

JULY.

Nanay’s Death anniversary. May she rests in peace. I will forever remember her, will always love her and cherish moments I had with her. Aljun came to visit Batangas again.

Had the chance to go out with the BONAKs and Aljun, went to Puerto galera. We were able to get away and relax in a bit away from work and school (for AJ and Diana). I got soooooo drunk and vomitted, I have been so wasted, and this is the first time ever in my life. But it feels great to be surrounded by people who are willing to take care of me, and ALjun have seen the worst of me this time. Haha

Enjoyed Rehab week, we enjoyed the fun run.

We (AJ, Carol) hiked at Mt. Batulao with carol’s co-workers. The trip went really great even though I had a little misunderstanding with Aljun.

AUGUST

Aljun started being affiliated with MoveIt. Safe drive myLove.

I signed the contract for DevHub , dated July 3, 2024, but officially started August 3, 2024.

Iwas able to meet Junie and Cm again.

We (batchies) were able to watch On more chance the Musical, a theatrical play based from the movie with incorporation of ben and ben music. I really enjoyed the watching and listening to it. If only I was allowed to capture and have some clips from it. We also ate at wildflour, the food here is a little expensive but I was fulfilled to have the capability now to eat here and the experience was great with my batchies.

SEPTEMBER.

We watched Mula sa Buwan, and This time, I am with my highschool besties, JJJ and Princess. A tragic story of love and survival during the war era. A heartfelt theater play that gives us the message to love and fight for the country, A genuine love but is hidden, how the art of music lifts up the soul and how magical it is to imagine that we’ll be returning to the moon, where all people are the same, no judgments, just peace, love and beauty.

OCTOBER

Aljun and I, Our 2nd anniversary the was celebrated at cavite. Celebrated it peace adn nature. I think, this is really our thing. And by the way, Aljun also bought his first ever car. The car he dreamed of for a long time. Another step of achievement for him.

Aljun and I also joined a 10-mile run, which I. Almost give up, but thsnk God II didn’t, this is still a self achievement. I also thank aljun for not leaving me all through out even having the chance to do so.

Phoebe and I had the chance to go out and went to Whimsical Wonderland where we enjoyed taking videos and pictures. I literally just looked like crazy with the snaps we had.

And this wraps up for now, let’s see for the last 2 months of this year awaits for me. I am still hopefulfor the best and for my German laguage journey.

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Physiotherapy in AS Rao Nagar

Physiotherapy is a healthcare profession that focuses on the assessment, diagnosis, treatment, and prevention of physical impairments, disabilities, and pain. It aims to restore movement and function in individuals affected by injury, illness, or disability. Physiotherapists use a variety of techniques to help patients recover, improve their physical abilities, and enhance their quality of life.

Physiotherapy can include:

Exercises

Massages

Treatments based on physical stimuli, such as heat, cold, electrical currents, or ultrasound

Assistive devices

Patient education and training 

Physiotherapists usually recommend movement and exercise to help improve your mobility and function. This may include:

exercises designed to improve movement and strength in a specific part of the body – these usually need to be repeated regularly for a set length of time

activities that involve moving your whole body, such as walking or swimming – these can help if you're recovering from an operation or injury that affects your mobility

exercises carried out in warm, shallow water (hydrotherapy or aquatic therapy) – the water can help relax and support the muscles and joints, while providing resistance to help you gradually get stronger

advice and exercises to help you increase or maintain your physical activity – advice will be given on the importance of keeping active, and how to do this in a safe, effective way

advice on using mobility aids – such as crutches or a walking stick to help you move around

Your physiotherapist may also recommend exercises that you can continue doing to help you manage pain in the long term or reduce your risk of injuring yourself again.

Types of Therapy in Physiotherapy:

Manual Therapy: Hands-on techniques to manipulate muscles and joints, aiming to relieve pain and improve mobility.

Exercise Therapy: Customized exercise programs designed to strengthen muscles, enhance flexibility, and promote overall physical fitness.

Electrotherapy: Use of electrical modalities, such as TENS (Transcutaneous Electrical Nerve Stimulation) and ultrasound, to manage pain and stimulate healing.

Heat and Cold Therapy: Application of heat or cold to alleviate pain, reduce inflammation, and promote healing.

Advanced high-power laser therapy: It is a medical treatment that uses focused light energy to promote healing and relieve pain.

Dry Needling: Involves inserting thin needles into trigger points in muscles to relieve pain and tension.

Acupuncture: Sometimes incorporated for pain management and to promote healing.

Education and Counseling: Teaching patients about their condition, self-management strategies, and injury prevention techniques.

Pediatric Physiotherapy: Specialized therapy for children to address developmental, neurological, or orthopedic issues.

Cupping therapy: It is an ancient form of alternative medicine that involves placing cups on the skin to create suction. This suction can help improve blood flow, relieve pain, and promote healing.

Interferential therapy: It is a type of electrotherapy that is used to relieve pain and promote healing skin.

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the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

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"Beautiful Losers", Leonard Cohen

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ROLE REVERSAL LOVE LETTER

If it's hard to forgive someone, pretend that you are them for a few minutes and write a love letter from them to you.

(c) Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus by John Gray

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WHAT PATH TO TAKE?

I'm a little lost lately. So much overwhelming thoughts runs to my mind. I am torn apart, at the same time, I am blessed with so many opportunities.

First thought, why do I feel like choosing myself is a sin? And why making my own path is so difficult? Currently, I asked my cousins to look for another place to stay, somewhere near their workplace. The true reason is that it burns me out, seeing them chill after work while I still have to clean, cook, wash clothes after my regular 8-hour work and home service PT. They cannot perform their daily tasks that is assigned to them, and cannot even initiate. I constantly remind them the tasks to be done, sometimes it can be done after day, but most of the time, constant reminder is still needed. Just the sweeping and clean the floor with wet rag, changing garbage plastic of the garbage at the CR once the current one is thrown out, there are used napkin over my things in the CR, used plastic garbage from the CR is put over the plate where the mugs are placed to dry. I don't know if letting them leave with me and AJ left at the dorm will make things better. All I know is that I am tired and everything from childhood flashes back, that most of the time, it is me who compromises for them, when things go wrong during a play, they will point me as the sole person be punished, during events, I am the one to clean the dishes regardless of where the event has taken place, my siblings and other relatives usually favors them, and growing up, I am always compared to them especially with their achievements in school.

Second, the timing that my brother is looking for a place to stay affecting the plan that AJ and I will peacefully live together at our current dorm. I have prepared myself from the additional expenses just to be able to live comfortably with him, where we can study, have self affirmations without anyone meddling with our own businesses as individuals, do whatever usually do like vlogging or podcast (for him), but something like this came up.

Third, the opportunity that was given to me to work in Germany, however, it will not be easy. Learning the language is difficult, even more difficult than I imagined. I thought I can do this since others can, so do I. But now, I am having doubts.

Fourth, what is ahead of me in the future? What do I really want to do in my life? I'm in awe of the people who already knew what they wanted to be in the future, what career path they would want to, specialization, the country where they want to settle, and the family that they want to build. Right now, The thing that I only know and sure of is the person I want to be with. And I think that is not enough, I need to have something for myself, something I want to achieve, my purpose.

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The motivation is to get out of here

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I’m really not comfortable being with someone, someone who meddles in a conversation that doesn’t concern him/her, and not even included in the conversation in the first place

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I don‘t know why there’s a part that questions why do I still have to earn it with marriage while he knew everything about me in that same aspect? And then this someone knew it just because of caught off guard which I think could’ve been prevented in the first place by both parties.

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I am now unsure of my capability to love other people.

The more people I allow people to enter in my life, the more I love people, the more I allow myself to get hurt

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When anger and hate grows stronger, I need to take a break from the trigger.

Maybe I have to let go, not the person itself but some part of him that hurts me, the part of him that don’t understand how I think, who I am