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fruit nails🍎🫐🍑🥭🍇🍓🍅

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Sam Handwich.

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i just watched a tiktok analysis of The Locked Tomb's parallels to Lolita and holy shit. It's really mind blowing. i will never get over just how many layers upon layers of references and complexity there are in these books.

anyways the video really helped me realize why John has always majorly creeped me out. when i started getting in the tlt fandom here on tumblr after reading all three books i was a little surprised (but ig not that surprised because it kind of happens with all fandoms) by how many people love John and how...babygirl-ified he is. i found John very creepy and disingenuous in HTN, and i absolutely despised him by NTN. he's a sociopath and a truly horrible person hiding behind a mask of someone who is "eccentric" and "goofy dad energy" and "just trying to do whats best". I didn't feel like i was reading about John, i felt like i was reading about a silly and unthreatening persona named something silly and unthreatening like Jod. he's certainly an interesting character, and i love the way he's written, but i truly hate him as a person.

i also couldn't really put my finger on why all of his interactions with Harrow made me so uncomfortable, and this video really made me realize why. It's obvious that he is grooming Harrow throughout all of HTN (though, for what exactly? a stronger lyctor? a devoted follower? a person who views abuse and group sex as the norm?) and I realized that all of the contexts in which he refers to Harrow as his "daughter" are the wrong contexts to have a "daughter". He writes J+A in the sand, John plus the woman he was in love with, and proceeds it with J+H?? gross. so many of his interactions with harrow have this very surface level father-and-daughter-ness to them, which is purely because of the language John uses. when you stop listening to his words and only pay attention to his subtle actions and contexts he uses, John is a pathetic man with a power fantasy, and also a creep. he doesn't mean "daughter", he means "something I created. person I control." and as pointed out in the video, similar the Humbert Humbert's fantasy in Lolita about having a child with Dolores and turning that child into the next "Lolita".

also, Tazmiurs short story The Magicians Apprentice that she wrote before TLT? the relationship between the magician and the girl in the story is very similar to John and Harrow- which, if you go read the story or at least watch this tiktok and listen to the quotes from it- is disturbing to say the least. the parallels between eating, and the taking of ones childhood, and the eating of flesh and the eating of ones childhood is very horribly present. it almost makes me wonder if Nona's aversion to eating could be connected to this as well. (and even if some of this isn't intentional, i still think its interesting to be able to draw these parallels between all of these stories and try to make sense of the beautiful mess that is The Locked Tomb).

don't forget he also takes in Gideon, changes her name, and grooms her to be something that she isn't as well.

but the moment i truly started despising John was when he destroyed the earth, took its soul and made it into a woman, and made that woman his love. jesus christ.

i saw another tiktok about the potential that the wedding in ATN could be between John and Harrow...taking into account the Little Mermaid references (the original Little Mermaid, where the prince marries a nun instead of the mermaid) as well as all of the grooming John put Harrow through and the way he inserts Harrow as a stand-in for Alecto within his memories...yeah... literally my worst nightmare omg Gideon please kill your dad

i definitely recommend you watch these videos and look up other peoples opinions about these parallels because I'm kind of just repeating what they said and they'll certainly be more coherent than me lol

links to the videos:

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8hd8wR7/

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8hd8aRf/

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some stuff on "gentle hands" again

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welcome back homoerotic woundcare

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asleep

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why doesn't haruspex, the biggest healer, simply eat the other two?

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this has to be the stupidest thing ive ever made

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mania/apathy domestic burakhovsky :""""^)

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put the reading from my music history class through a text-to-speech voice thingy while minecrafting to see if that’d help me focus but the way it says “boogie woogie bugle boy” keeps sending me into fits of hysterics

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Inner peace 🕊️🐱😌

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long time no see, reverend daughter

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Jel Ena "Catburger"  | Buy Prints |  Jel Ena, aka mister_jellyfish, is a Serbian born multi-media artist living in her adopted home of Los Angeles. Facebook Instagram Site

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Прајд, Македонска верзија 🇲🇰🏳️‍🌈

Pride, but all of the characters are wearing Macedonian folk clothing

Rainbow guy - Skopska Crna Gora, Skopje region

Rainbow girl - Skopska Blatija, Skopje region

Trans girl - Bitola region

Trans guy - Prilep region

Lesbian - Makedonski Brod

Gay/mlm - Radoviško pole

Bi - Veles region

Pan - Reka region

Ace - Kriva Palanka region

Aro - Struga region

Non-binary - the city of Tetovo

Genderqueer - Gevgelija region

Genderfluid - Kumanovo region

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Dalmatinski vještac

(watercolour version)