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Can I help set your gender free

Can the sea

Can the flames

Can

Puede...

Süßi Schatzi?

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Das Licht geht aus

und ich will so sehr mit dir schlafen -

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With you it's like an innocent urge to cuddle seeps into flames seamlessly, organically even

I want to be really tender with you a lot of the time

Cook you something you really really like, as in, something you would jump off your chair away from the desk in response to, and keep you warm in my arms and our philosophy alike

My being engages with you from that angle and it fills my eyes with tears thinking about it

I am always ready to let wind expand the flames, more and more even, as it were, but am often a bit too shy to readily admit to it 👉🏼👈🏼

It's that if one knows how to do it, one can when the time is right

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I'm in love with you too, bupty babe

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Oh she

Feels

...

The notion is coming alive

Every seething second says that which

Others have no words, not even letters, for

Says that--...

So

She explains

She swears

She cries

And

She is blamed and blames

She is hurting, but nobody understands

What she's really saying

Normally

They understand -- well, a little

And now there's

The visceral tongue of this land, foreign to many, called disintegration

Overshadowing even the shadows of all other languages.

Clothing her in that which simultaneously threatens to pull away her surface

But I want you to tell me about it and if I don't understand

I'll take pictures and the weather and your tiny movements for an answer:

Red cheeks or sallow sadness,

I'll listen to your desaturations.

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Als du die Schule fertig hattest da war ich ein Hosenschei*er

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Hey meine kleine Buptymaus

Du wirst auch gerne missverstanden, oder?

Alle erzählen scheinbar, du gehst fremd

Aber was wie wann warum denn?

Ich weiß doch, dass du die Welt entdeckst und viele Interessen hast und das sind auch Menschen

Wieso judgen Leute so?

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I feel restricted when construing my self as part of this group though

You know, as well ...

It's as though my bodymind resists the categorical...

But of course some things it does make for

It makes for comfort when internalised neurodiscrimination kicks in

As in, when one tries to prevent oneself from stimming

Or is like, why do I enjoy dancing and submerging myself on music so much?

As one sees in The A Word S1E1

During the diagnostic process

Joe's singing is framed as a coping mechanism

Rather than as an innate cognitive tendency to construe the world through music

Or a bodymind preference for the rhythmic as the primary means of communication

It's like....

I don't know why writing this is almost making me cry

I feel like I've been through so many situations in which people tried converting my cognition, my personal nervous system coupling with my environment

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Someone in the class today

(someone knowledgeable)

Compared ABA-based therapies for neurodivergent, especially autistic folk, to conversion therapy

It totally struck a chord

Like, all the therapies I was made to undergo

They were all geared towards making me normal

And perhaps we need a place to let our bodyminds unfold

Because I don't wanna be a victim of neuronorms

It's like...

I think a lot of "dysfunctional" behaviour is also due to conversion pressure--

And by he way the person is trans and they said it was common

So neuroqueer is a thing

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Would you say Chatgpt is right?

This would imply that one can fly and then actively and intentionally engage in grounding when considered helpful and appropriate

By shifting one's processing to a linear kind of processing

(it makes sense because I have often had this idea that engaging with details "hurts")

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If a gender can be held captive then

Aside from the punitive aspect....

I have to think of Goffman,

Measures to strip away identity as a whole

As in, personal belongings and clothing but also in some cases hormones

If you're interested in OITNB

There's a female trans character played by a trans woman who at some point is barred from being administered hormones

Inmates generally speaking resort to creative actions that help reendow them with at least some sense of identity

As for example trading one's hair for something

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Bupty no ignoring wanting mummy but tealin' it

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You did not fuck my mum bit I do know a mami who would do you

Ay, sí que lo sé.

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Course I wanna ride

And bupty through the sand

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Who is Mr Rodriguez? Why does he pay such close attention to what you do?

Why is school shitty?

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