diorfaint

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feel like a recluse in many ways like the closer I get to some people the more they throw up walls or I just get typecast into a category that idk how to get out of idk what’s up with me bro

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sitting alone at the function makes me sad cuz my friends aren’t here I’m listening to some shithead ass music like baby smoove in AirPods that have become my replacements for friends

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idk if this is private or not bu this is a lil b reference, his blog is diorpaint get it get it

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anyway thinking about how i should drink more often

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thinking about that intense weird feeling i got when I held and played a guitar for the first time n like how it clicked but I was sad it never happened sooner

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this candle smells like someone elses bedroom and its bringing back very strange bad memories

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im here to scream

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it’s not normal to be happy your gf ur perfectly happy w/ is gonna be dog sitting cuz it means you’ll be more alone right? off the wake up I wanna be alone and push ppl away then whine why am I so alone

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lost this forever couldn’t remember where I put it that’s how bad my mentality has been lmaooo

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idk what ill do here but i feel like itd be good to put some words on a screen somewhere anywhere cuz as it stands i currently dont put them anywhere but in text boxes to others and the things i have to say about how i feel dont need to be read necessarily by anyone

idk idk idk