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MS <3

So, we had the relationship talk and we in. 28.12.2023. is the starting date. In my bed, right before sleeping, around 1.30AM. Or 02.12.2023 - our first date. This is a magnificent ride for now. Absolute positivity, great moments, and for sure amazing memories one day. Falling in love harder and harder each day.

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MS pt 4. and 5.

4 - date before my trip to DU, chillin on my favourite city view and talking in the car for hours 5 - ikea date, then eating and watching 99 at my place. First bang // 4 - 08.12.23 // 5 - 11.12.23

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MS pt.3

Again it was a brilliant night, once again we went to Advent around hotel Esplanada, smiling, joking for the whole time. We held hands the whole time and kissed a ton, between walks, between rides. We want for a ride around Sljeme, enjoying the views and kissing while we stopped. She took my car for a little bit of a drive around the parking lot, felt really cool. Things to remember: Yankee candles, Jo Malone parfumes, Borbolleta bracelets (not 100% sure but eh). An amazing ride so far.

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Mikic 04./05. 12. 23.

Again, incredible date. We want to play pool, she won 3-1 :D. It was really amazing, we were having fun, then went to Advent to eat and walk a bit around the city. Then we again ended up in the car driving for an hour or so. I am so in love, can't believe this. It took so little for me to just completely adore her. We were kissing a lot, on every stop, on every red light. Amazing days, she's so cute, so beautiful, so warm. She's got beautiful eyes. Like the ones you could just lose yourself in. The ones you could just stare at for hours. Really hope this works.

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Mirna

1st date - 02.12. 1st kiss - 03.12. 03:21h, Next 2 you song Unbelievably great date. We walked around city center, around Zagreb Advent, then we went to Cookie Factory, walked a bit on the upper town and then went for a drive. We drove for 4 hours, all around the city, listening to music and talking. It was amazing. There was a lot of snow on the road and the scenery around Zelena magistrala. It was also the first snow of the year. Amazing day, amazing girl.

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DM

First meet - 20.10.2023. Mr. Fogg Quiz - 25.10.2023. Zug

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22.05.2023.

Jedan od najljepsih trenutaka u mom zivotu. Usred depresije i dosta teskog razdoblja, mrtav umoran sam odlucio nakon posla svratiti do staraca. Stari me pitao ocemo se ic vozit, da malo osjeti BMW. I doslovno prekrasno. Prelijepo. Voznja sa tatom kroz zapad Zagreba, po magistrali, po staroj zagorskoj sve do kruznog za Zabok. Kad smo krenuli, pustio je pjesmu Everybody wants to rule the world. Kad smo dosli do semafora Medpotokija sa Alejom Bologne primio me za ruku. I onda sam skuzio par sekundi kasnije da se rasplakao. Onda sam se i ja rasplakao. Koliko je tu emocija proslo, od ponosa oca do tog mojeg osjecaja povezanosti s njim. I doslovno uzivanje jedno 2 sata u voznji. Novi BMW M4, genijalna muzika koju smo zajedno birali, prekrasan dan, prekrasan sunset. Milina. Plakao sam vozeci se natrag doma i plakao jos pola sata doma u krevetu koliko je ovo bilo lijepo. Volim te Tata. Volim te Mama. Volim te Lea. Volim te moja cijela obitelji. Core memory. Ovo cu pamtiti dovijeka.

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23.12

Currently i feel sad. It's just a general feeling about our situation. Still not at our best (I do not expect it to be , of course), She told me that she slept well and peaceful while i was gone. And that hurt. I know that she sleeps the best with me. It literally took her 2 minutes on my shoulder to fall asleep few days ago. It's hard. And i will keep trying. I want, and i will be here for her. Forever. I know she's still insecure. I have to make her secure. Sure in us. Sure in our future. I can see the future in her. I just want to hold her, hold her hands, kiss her and spend time with her. There is so much things to do with her together, maaan! I'm finnaly sure. I'm finally grown up. And finally mature enough. Tha's what we discussed today. She was feeling down and anxious. And i was there for her - took her for a drive around the outskirts of the city. Talking the whole time. Doing anything i could to keep her mind occupied with nice and happy things. Kissed her on red lights. Held her hand. Held her on my shoulder a few times. I hope it will become more. I hope it will become everything. I love her with all my heart and i will keep doing anything to make her sure and to make her the happiest.

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19.12.2022

Tough day. Bas se osjecam sjebano cijeli dan. Onako, vidim u njoj preko par poruka doooobar oprez i pazljivost i nesigurnost. I ono - strah me malo jebiga. Sad je doslovno period kad rjesavamo sve svoje zivotne ljubavne planove - il jesmo il nismo. Sve bih joj dao, stvarno. I nadam se da budem.

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18.12.2022

Uhh gdje poceti opce Javio sam se. Toliko mi je falila i odmah sam joj se ujutro javio i nasli smo se u Linei. Proslo je fakat super za back-together meet, prvo smo pricali generalno, tj ja sam imao outburst emocija i ideja. Na kraju, kad smo se zagrili - damn. Doslovno Core memory trenutak. Bas me proslo sve pozitivno na ovom svijetu kroz tijelo. I to hocu, hocu to dalje u svom zivotu totalno. Kasnije smo se isli mazit, izmjenivat njeznosti i to i bilo je stvarno jako lijepo. Osjecaji? Totalno sam za - totalno sam za commit. Commit maksimalno moguce za nju i za nas.

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S jedne strane imam feeling kao da se raspadam, a s druge da se jacam.  Bas je nekako, kombinacija, tesko je a lekcija.

Fali mi pun kurac. I opet, najgora stvar je da ce nekad u buducnosti biti tudja. Ili vec je. The end.  Vidjet cemo sto buducnost nosi. Jak sam, imam viziju. A srecu, sudbinu i ostatak - vidjet cemo.

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Cisto ovako, jedno frisko razmisljanje, stvarno zelim da ljudi tako gledaju na ljubav, da ti osoba s vremenom, kakva god ona je, postane najljepsa i najbolja osoba na svijetu. Ali isto tako ne zelim nikome, da odnos sa tom osobom jednostavno “fadea” i da ta najljepsa i najbolje osoba na svijetu gradativno postane nesto drugo.

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Strasno kako pogada osjecaj kao da fali dio tebe. I uzelo me razmisljanje, kako je ostalim ljudima kada ostanu bez clana obitelji ili slicno. Fucking destruction.  Samo mi se vrti njena slika iz Budimpeste po glavi i nemrem prestat razmisljat o tome, jebe me to sve. Najljepsa cura na svijetu.

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Dan dva o razmisljanju kako je najljepsa cura na svijetu.

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Sam sam znao da ce biti ovakvih dana. Kad bi joj svake dvije minute poslao poruku, kad cijeli dan razmisljam sta da joj kazem i kako da ucinim sve boljim.  Biti ce ovakvih dana kada se dobro podsjetim kako je najbolja i najljepsa osoba na svijetu. Kako je moj najbolji prijatelj i osoba koju bi najvise gledao i slusao na cijelom svijetu. Za vrijeme takvih dana treba ostati najjaci i realno ici protiv sebe, protiv svoje ljubavi. Jer znas zasto si donio odluku.

Slusam danas Blink182 I miss you, Play this when i’m gone od MGK-a i samo mi se ona vrti po glavi. Po srcu. 

Mrzim razmisljati da ce zavrsiti s nekim drugim. To mi je najgore, kad je realno moja.  Jednostavno, moram vjerovati da je ovako najbolje. Sjebano mi, gledam tu svoje stare tekstove od prosle godine, gdje sam bio uvjeren da je zenim. Kao sto je i ona to tvrdila, kad je sve lijepo i dobro smo najbolji. Doslovno najljepsa i najveca ljubav na svijetu. I ne znam, nekako mislim da mi nije problem kad nije sve lijepo, divno i krasno, i vjerujem da se mogu dobro nositi i ponasati u tim trenutcima. 

Ne znam, valjda sam dobru odluku donio. Ne mogu jednostavno, prolaziti kroz zajednicka vremena u svadi, ignoreu, hladnoci kada znam da se moze bolje s druge strane. Pa jebemu mater, zivot je tu zbog ljubavi i srece.

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Yeah, i miss u. And I love u.

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U&ME

It’s going to be okay.