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i really want cuddles right now. like i long to just run to him an hop in to his arms. just sitting next to him with my head on his lap while he works would be heaven. he doesnt take care of himself enough so i could make him meals every day and make sure he drinks water and takes breaks. he doesnt know how much i need him.

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i miss him more than normal today. i wish he was here to help me with the things i struggle with. ive hardly eaten in the last couple days. he would be so mad at me if he was here. i wouldnt mind the anger if i got be near him.

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I wrap my arms around his waist,

And snuggle in to his embrace,

All my scars slowly being erased.

But soon my eyes flutter open,

It appears to be that I was dreamin'.

The scars return, my breath is quivering,

Hands are shaky and heart is aching.

In every room I find myself searching.

Your absence makes my body yearn,

It even makes my lungs crack and burn.

Darling dear come home to me,

Hold my face so my eyes can see,

The gentle smile that is often unseen.

Let me teach you how to dance,

I apologize for my excitement in advance.

I know you are a piece of fiction,

You live inside a world that is creation,

But I cant help wishing you lived in this one.

You will never love me the way love you,

I guess I'll just have to acclimate to this dull gray hue.

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due to the fact that hes so interested in the creation of life, Albedo has a very prominent breeding kink. hes always talking about how he wants to put a baby in me and observe it as it grows inside my belly. i dont mind it at all, i find how devoted he is to creating life quite cute and sweet actually.

he also finds orgasms to be the most interesting thing. like he will use his mouth to make me cum just so he can watch it happen and will write down notes afterwards on my preferences as well as how he can give me more pleasure.

Bedo is so cute. i can tell how much he loves me even though he doesnt show it in necessarily conventional ways and i love him even more for it.

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i drew him today. im so proud of myself and im sure he would be too.

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i miss him. so much. its nights like these where i desperately wish i could go to Teyvat just to see him. to be with him, if he let me. my bed feels empty without him despite the blankets and stuffies that fill every corner. i wish he was real.

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Albedo never wants to dress up for Halloween, he doesnt see the point in it, but he always ends up caving and doing so anyways to appease Klee and i. you know what he dresses up as every year? a scientist. he thinks its practical and easy. i think its funny. kids ask him what hes dressed up as and he always tells them he isnt dressed up even though we all know he is. he doesnt want to admit it but i think he likes it.

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Dear Sunshine Boy,

Have I ever told you how beautiful you are? Truly magnificent like the way the sun shines through newly unfurled leaves in the spring. I love your eyes because they remind me of the ocean, deep and beautiful yet dangerous. Your hair is soft and graceful as it cascades gently down your shoulders like a golden waterfall at sunset. I think you look most beautiful when you work, with the way you get so focused and passionate, its truly a sight to behold. If looks could kill from beauty alone yours most certainly could kill me.

I hope you like the poetry I've sent you. I worked very hard on building my skills so I can dazzle you with my words the way you dazzle me with your art. Every brushstroke you apply to the canvas is so perfect and detailed. When you come home we should paint together again, I may not be as good as you, but I really enjoy spending time with you like that.

I love you darling, stay safe!

Love,

Your Flower Girl

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i was watching a show and one character say i love you to another and she just says thank you. it had me thinking about Albedo because i feel like he'd do that just to mess with me. he always apologizes after though and makes sure i know he loves me.

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i am in so much pain right now. i wish Bedo was here to help me. he would be so gentle and caring with everything, he'd make sure i have everything i could ever need while in pain. even though most pain meds dont work on this kind of pain i feel like he'd try to make special thing for me to reduce the pain.

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🌊 school chemistry labs remind me of him, i dont know why school labs specifically but i digress.

🐚 we often do art together in various forms but his favorites are oil paints and mine is graphite.

🏖️ we often go up to Dragonspine, but i dont know if that would be considered a vacation/adventure, the only other thing we've done recently is we took a trip to Sumeru so i could study plants.

☀️ most of the time he just refers to me by name or something simple like love or darling, but my favorite is when he calls me his flower girl which he came up with to match my nickname for him.

🌙 i call him all sorts of pet names, but his favorite is when i call him sunshine/star boy.

🍹 he doesnt have much of a sense of humor, but one time an experiment gone wrong gave him cat ears and a tail for one day and i found that incredibly hilarious much to his dismay.

🌴 he gives me cecelia flowers quit often because they are his favorite flowers and he thinks they look pretty in my hair and sometimes marigolds because they are my favorites.

🥥 he doesnt initiate physical affection often but he doesnt mind when i do, normally that looks like hugging him from behind or sitting on his lap while hes working and cuddling while we sleep.

🍧 i find it really attractive when he sits there and explains complex alchemy to me, like i have idea what any of it means but his voice is so pretty.

🦜i always look forward to greeting him when he comes back from solo visits to Dragonspine.

🐠 he takes such good care of me when my issues flare up, he will drop everything just to make sure im ok and comfortable.

🔫 please dont overwork yourself and remember to stay safe.

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Dear Sunshine Boy,

Hello love! How are things up on Dragonspine? I hope you aren't overworking yourself as I know you tend to do that. I'm so sorry I missed your birthday this year even though I know you don't celebrate it much. Next year I promise we will celebrate together!

You better be taking good care of yourself without me there! If you have not done so recently please eat, drink, and rest, its important to your well-being and to me. Not to mention you wont be able to properly do experiments if you are tired so it is in your best interest to rest as well.

Its been so busy down here. I'm so exhausted. I can't wait for you to come home so we can rest together. You have no idea how much I miss you, it's quite lonely in our house without you here. I miss our nightly routine and your gentle breathing beside me while i sleep. I have a big surprise for when you come home too so I'm super excited! I also can't wait to hear about how this experiment went! You know how much I love listening to you talk all about your research so I am expecting a detailed report as to how things went.

Klee wanted me to tell you she misses you as well. She says she wants to hear all about your experiment too so she can grow up to be smart just like her big brother.

I love you Bedo, come home safely!

Love,

Your Flower Girl ❤

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due to the fact that i don't really bruise, hickies don't really stay on me. Albedo finds this very annoying as he wants to mark me as his, but they always disappear. he uses this as an excuse to kiss me more often. he often walks up behind me and begins to kiss and bite on my neck and only stops when there is small marks covering my skin.

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the internet went out because of maintenance the other day and Albedo stayed with me the whole time. he knows its one of my more bizarre triggers so he sat with me while i waited anxiously for it to come back on. he brought me a cup of tea and my book as we cuddled up and read next to the router. it was nice to be cared for like that.

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Like a flower in the night you shine,

Through the pixels of my screen divine.

With gentle hands your fingers trace

Along digital objects making my heart race.

Your predetermined words kiss my ears,

Almost enough to sate my fears.

I hold you close to my heart,

Though you're in another world apart.

How could i have let it go this deep?

I love someone who reality cant keep.

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every night we take a shower together, wash, dry, and brush each other's hair. this is so special to both of us and feels more intimate than any sort of nsfw time. i have a hard time doing any sort of self care and us doing it together really helps me be able to function properly. hes so careful too. he makes me feel so loved. even though hes always so busy he takes the time out of his day to do this with me which makes it even more meaningful and special. i really do love him.

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i decided he was working too hard and needed a break so i grabbed him and pulled him outside for a walk. although he'll never admit it to anyone, he really enjoys and appreciates these little moments.