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My name is Jhulia Margaret L. Santos. You can also call me “lia or meg” but some people prefer to call me “jhuls, marga, or ya” for short. And I was born on a Saturday morning at 10:00 a.m. on 20th of November 2004, when even time seemed to stand still in my native city, Manila. You might think that growing up was a happy time in my life, but all I remember is how wonderful my mother is and how she goes above and beyond to sacrifice herself to take care of me and my older brother, who has a medical condition where he has hydrocephalus and is a special child. It sounds pitiful, doesn't it? but no need for pity! Because my mom overcame all of her battles just to save my brother and me, she works herself every night and day just to see me holding my very own diploma one day. Well to start my life journey, I was born in a house where there are so many flaws. But back then,

There was that time when my brother, a special child. He was rushed to the hospital because his fever was so high that he was having chills and seizures. I didn’t know what to do but cry and cry because I felt like I failed to take care of my older brother. Fast forward: I tried to call for my mom and my tita to get my brother rushed into the hospital because my lolo and lola didn’t also know what to do since we were all mind shocked and mentally blocked by my brother’s immediate seizures. That time I was lost, and I didn’t know what to do because that was the start of COVID 19. But thankfully, his results came out to be dengue, but still, I felt pity for my brother, who’s in a hospital bed and has dextrose in his hands. I pray and pray and pray again and again for my brother so that he can have a fast recovery, and after 2 weeks, the doctors finally said that he’s ready to be discharged since his results turned out to be great. I felt relieved by the news that he’s now healthy and laughing.

You might think that I'm such a happy go lucky child, but in reality, I grew up thinking that money plays such a big role in our lives that we can buy things we want with it. So if you want to buy something, you should earn it, and I remembered when I was a child that I wanted to give something to my mom and grandparents to express how thankful I am that they've supported us and taken care of us ever since, but the aftermath comes and reality slaps me that hard; my very own gift for them they didn't even bother to look at. All I thought at that time was that maybe they're just tired, so it's okay if they didn't even bother to look at it. But as I grew up, my mother used to teach me things that I should do and not do in life, like choosing the right path in life and not the wrong one, and that I should always not cry over things that will not help me in life or shallow things that may affect me. That I should be bold and brave to conquer the things that I should face in life, and that only good things matter in life, but let me tell you that I was once such a naughty and curious child. Yes, maybe they thought of me for many things in life, but aswe grew older, we tend to be curious about such things. There's this girl in my primary school who bullies me for not having a whole family. It angered my inner self when I was a child, so I cut her long and beautiful hair when she was sitting in the front row of the class while I was seated in the second row.

My mother was furiously yelling at me for being such a bad child when, in fact, I was just protecting my mom, who was my world and my favorite human, my universe. Life was hard for a child like me because we are not privileged enough to buy things we want because we have a tight budget. I think this also affects my inner child, because for me, I was forced to be a mature thinker at a very young age. I was pressured to be serious about my studies and ace all of my exams to be a top achiever. You may think that I sounded like I was ranting about my life as a child, but I'm thankful and grateful for my mom, who works a lot herself just to provide for my studies. Thanks to her, I was born ready to face this cruel yet beautiful life that has been bestowed upon me. It is thanks to her that I was born the woman I am today. I only have three role models in life, and those are my mom, my grandmother, and our creator.

Fast forward to my starting of my adolescent life,

Growing up I started to learn new things and be open minded in all aspects of life. And that’s where I started to learn more about myself and the world around me. Where I take a liking in watching news and politics here in our country and that’s where I first grasp my dream to become a lawyer someday, I wanted to help people to fight for their rights and have the justice they deserve. And I’m proud to say that “Ang namulat ay hindi na muling pipikit”.Because, we all know what’s happening in our corrupt government and this country. Someday, My autobiography may not be someone who’s worth to read, but this is me simply narrating my life challenges and how thankful I am to have this beautiful life, and how I am so thankful for my mother and my grandparents and to my kuya, because they are my life and I will do anything and strive hard to have a better life and future for them. Soon enough, I can provide for my precious family.

Jhulia Margaret L. Santos

Future Atty.

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