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consider this a starter call <3

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sighs as i wipe the dust off this blog

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i've learned to hold the weight of this mirror to the sky but I've taught myself the sense of never asking why

independent & selective roleplay blog for joshua "elixir" foley of marvel 616. 21+ roleplay blog. multiship, multiverse, & duplicate friendly. verses for dc comics, insomnia's spider-man, & more. limited formatting, always ready to roll with an idea.

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you can't stop crime. that's what you never understood.

the mixture of rain-soaked asphalt and faint sewer scent makes the gotham air difficult to breathe. you're no stranger to the rot that seeps into every corner of this city, just as the rot has attached itself to your bones like a parasite. from her words, it would be easy to assume the queenpin of gotham has seen the world for what it truly is: a cesspool of greed, violence, and copious power. there's a chance she's right —– maybe you can't stop crime. no, in fact, you know you can't stop crime. no matter how many throats you slit, bones you break, or allow the inside you off its leash; there will always be more crime. you were not meant to be a savior nor a hero —– you were born and bred to be a weapon. you're the boogeyman who comes in the middle of the night, prowling through the dark and leaving a trail of bodies in your wake because it's all you know how to do. you were made to destroy lives, not save them.

beneath your skin, you can feel the city's pulse —– a steady stream of the corruption that beats in time with your own shattered heart. the way gotham wraps itself tightly around your neck, whispering into your ears all the same agony the facility did. this is all you'll ever be. a weapon, a killer, a beast dressed in a girl's flesh with a cowl to hide it. but, there's something more beneath the surface than what meets the opposite's words. something that not even the queenpin of gotham, with all her seized power, can grasp. you're also a survivor. a victim, an orphan, and a young woman with enough rage to draw both claws through the bedrock of the earth.

❝ you think you understand this city... understand the crime. and you might. ❞ building shadows stretch long around you, curling at your feet like loyal dogs. like the loyal pet wolverine, jonathan, back at your apartment. you've walked this path before —– felt this very cement give way under your boots as blood painted the street. this time, it's different. you're not the only one carrying a burden on their shoulders. ❝ but you don't understand me. that's your first mistake. ❞

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LAURA KINNEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GNAWING ON UR BLOG I LOVE HER SM

AHHHHHH OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!! 💛💛

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i'm   always   𝐽𝐸𝐴𝑁.   and   i'm   always   the   𝐏𝓱𝑶ᵉ𝙽𝕚𝖃   [   ...   ]   𝘐   𝘋𝘐𝘌𝘋.

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"there are better ways to spend your energy."

she means well, you know she does. it's in her voice —– almost as if she's attempting to soothe something that can't be soothed. better ways of spending your energy? rage is all you know. seeking vengeance / serving penance. her concern brushes off you like rain against adamantium, sliding until it pools at your feet, unnoticed and unwanted. your eyes narrow in a way you've perfected —– a look that says more than you could ever. there's a part of you that wants to laugh, but it dies shortly before it reaches your throat. better ways, better ways, better ways —– as if you're wasting something precious. like there's any part of you that isn't already spent, burnt out, or hollowed by the things you've done over the years. as a child. the claws, an unforgiving extension of yourself, are a reminder. they don't care about better ways. not even a decade after the fact.

the silence stretches out far, taunting and fraying, and you finally let the tension go. a rush of air is allowed into your lungs while you clear your throat. ❝ what do you consider better? ❞ the question is genuine —– not a dare or challenge, because you know she won't take it. she's too smart for that and far too kind. more than you deserve the presence of. (and because, maybe —– just maybe —– there's a part of you that wants her to try.) ❝ i'm not... like everyone else. i don't know how to put my energy into something else... i never have. ❞

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i know i've been a hater of pretty much everything laura has been in since 2015, BUT i will say this about the nyx run (ik there's only 2 issues) — that's the best characterization i've read for laura so far since x-23 (2010) AND i'm fucking obsessed with her suit in it? the streetwear style? phew.

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SOMETIMES I THINK I WAS SO OBSESSED WITH THE IDEA OF SAVING OTHERS BECAUSE I THOUGHT, IN SOME TWISTED WAY, IT MIGHT SAVE ME TOO. —  A PORTRAYAL OF ANNIE JANUARY.

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ive finally gone through and cleaned out my following/followers. i'm going to add these new rules to my carrd in the future, but just so it's been said:

if you're going to deactivate, please try and at least unfollow me prior! i know that's a little difficult to remember and i promise, i won't have a breakdown about it - but it would just make my brain function a little better with the whole even following + follower numbers thing <3 <3 <3

if you use chatgpt to write your roleplay responses, please don't even follow me! i cannot even believe this needs to be said, but here we are, finally facing the fact that people are using chatgpt to write their roleplay responses. absolutely wild to me - but nonetheless, just stay away from me! i find it extremely disrespectful and ultimately, a waste of my time, as a writer + plotter. (and i'm sure i'm not the only person who would think this as well.)

my formatting is going to change as well. i'm going to keep it a lot more miminal formatting moving forward. as the lot of you know, i've also finally secured an icon border thanks to bonnie!!! i will remain iconless by default (due to my laziness, cannot even lie) BUT if my partner uses icons, i will now use them.

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i feel like if laura's life had been "normal" from the beginning, she would absolutely call herself a dyke rather than a lesbian and i love that for her

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everything about her is a performance. the way she maintains her composure, the way she walks —– it's her instinct. just as it's your instinct to analyze every situation. you barely hear zatanna's words, them slowly registering as your mind sifts through the details, attempting to piece together a puzzle that doesn't quite have all the pieces. trust isn't a facile concept to you, but you've learned one thing: when your senses flare up, something's wrong. really wrong. and there's more than a lot wrong here. the metallic scent of blood remains in the air, cutting through the usual mixture of adrenaline and sweat occupying spaces like these. [you thought you would be used to the feeling by now—– the agony of things being a constant moving piece. nothing remains stagnant for long. if it does—– it only means something else is brewing. just like now.]

who were they? her voice trembles just enough that you catch it —– subtle, but it's there, cracking the calm veneer she's been latching onto. you don't blame her. there's an empty space where something obviously was once housed —– she'd once called it the talisman of atlantis. you take a breath, steadying yourself, head shaking in response. ❝ i have no clue, but this wasn't a random attack. it was planned. everything was too organized —– they knew what they were looking for. ❞ another glance around the space, head twisting back and forth from the previous room and the one you both currently occupy. you're missing something to this picture. the investigation part of the job has never been your strong suit. jumping into a problem and sticking your claws into them? that sounds more like it. and you can only smell the blood, the aftermath of broken drywall, something wrong in the atmosphere. head twisting back in the magician's direction, you pinch the bridge of your nose in thought. ❝ we'll fine it, i promise. the talisman is pretty enough to cost a fortune; they probably went to pawn it. ❞

@deweaponize : you seem surprisingly calm, by the way.

“ you think? ” a voice reels you out of the deluge of your psyche, the absence of something itching in its depths.   a single eye opens to reveal her, paragon of claws, taking note of your resolve.   “ outfit aside, i'm not exactly an amateur when it comes to this stuff. ” a heel steps over the lax hand of … whomever that unfortunate man might be.   donned in stardom head to toe: it was supposed to be shownight—refunds, refunds.   the money isn’t a necessary issue, but you’ll need to text an apology to staff for the hassle, sloane directly, and the crowd for the ditch—absence.

despite the rather dismissive response, quick to get back to work, there’s a soft comfort at her statement.   you look put together—maintained.   that’s good.   nothing feels like the relief of seeing yourself through another.   you shield your vision again, everything is void.   you make the light, you see it.   “ tpecca em. ” a divination circle whirrs in turn, unlatches itself from the seal in a series of alignments with itself.   the physical door swings open with no regard, and it's only then that blood staining the floor seems to hit you now.   it’s empty.   talisman—your talisman—gone from its sanction.   lungs inflate with panic and shame until they pop, shaking the foundation of your perseverance and you find it hard to choke out the words without setting the entire damned thing ablaze.   “ who were they? do you know? ”

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                     LAURA KINNEY ( THE WOLVERINE )                               AS SEEN IN NYX #2 (2024).

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i have nowhere on my blog for this so i'm going to briefly discuss laura's healing just because this moment made me want to discuss it!!! (and yes, nyx edit incoming bc i just finished reading) this isn't what i'm going to consider to be my full-fledged meta regarding her mutation, but it's definitely a good starting point!

laura's healing factor is incredibly fast and just like logan's, capable of closing bullet wounds and mending broken bones within a matter of seconds (or minutes depending on the injury). in some instances, her healing is almost instantaneous, particularly when she's engaged in combat/already has adrenaline rushing through her body. in anw #1 (2015), laura takes a barrage of bullets and heals before the assailant can even reload. she even suffers a gunshot wound to the head and is recovered within a matter of mere minutes. her healing is usually depicted as even faster than that of logan, partly because her youth provides her with a more resilient physiology than hers. however, this speed is not consistent across all situations. laura's healing factor can be delayed or impeded depending on, like stated above, the severity of the wound AND the presence of certain toxins that can counteract her mutation. in anw #18 (2015), laura is exposed to a nanite-based virus that temporarily shut down her healing capabilities — this demonstrated that while her mutation is extremely power, she is also not invulnerable. she is also capable of taking damage AND even being killed via the murmasa blade (which is an object i need to discuss more on logan, rather than here.)

one of the more nuanced aspects of laura's healing factor is how it responds to both her mental and emotional state. while laura is in a mentally stable mindset, her healing is at its most efficient. however, when she is in distress or experiencing depression, the process can become erratic. in x-23 #3 (2010), laura is exposed to her "trigger scent" that drives her into a berserker rage, killing anybody in sight. after the effects wore her, her healing factor struggled to keep up with the damage she'd taken — both from others and herself, indicating her mental state can significantly slow down her healing. this is also echoed throughout the various times laura is shown to self-harm. in x-23 #4 (2010), laura slashed her arms and while the wounds were non life-threatening, they noticeably took longer because of how low her mental mindset was at the time. this is rooted heavily in the mind-body connection, where the subconscious plays a significant role in how a body prioritizes healing.

laura's healing is also connected to her sense of determination + drive. when a clear goal or protecting someone she cares about is in play, her healing factor seems to respond more robustly. in anw #10 (2015), after being severely wounded, laura's healing factor kicked into overdrive when she saw gabby in danger — this suggested that emotional stimuli, especially tied to her protective instincts, can definitely enhance both the speed and efficiency of her healing.

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DELETING my good morning post because I just checked my discord, EVERYONE SAY THANK YOU TO @telekuntic ???????

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( YOU AIN'T THE BAT! ) YEAH? TRY ME.

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          𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚕𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚜𝚌𝚘𝚏𝚏, eyes rolling themselves practically into the back of your head. is she challenging you? the old you, the one steeped in blood and violence, would've relished in this. TESTING LIMITS / PUSHING BUTTONS. ❝ i don't hurt people for no reason. i'm not mean to people for no reason. ❞ while the words are inherently true —– you can't help but wonder: who are you trying to convince more? her or yourself? taking a step, your arms cross themselves over your chest. ❝ but if you're looking for a fight, you won't like how it ends. ❞

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" please don't be mean to me because i can be meaner and i hate being mean. "