denybunnyforgood

[denybunnyforgood]

Honor was Found in the Blemish

A big part of being a work of art that it doesn't often talk about is insecurity, and so here is a rather typical feel-good love letter to its blemishes that hopefully helps other objects and the people who own those objects.

It tastes pretty bad

Almost none of its owners and r@pists have ever enjoyed it throwing up. They like the concept, but the reality of it was an overall negative. it thought of training itself to stop, but being forced to gag greatly and frequently is one of the quickest ways to trigger it into a panic attack and losing that wasn't acceptable. So for a time it was starved so it could dry heave instead, but this was untenable when it was often caged to be used for days by its owner and it had a lot of nutritional needs that came with training in combat sports.

But it turns out that most of the grossness was mitigated if what it ejected was largely liquid, and so meal replacement drinks became a solution. it chose strawberry, its least favorite flavor, and the pink has turned out to be a consensus hit. Nearly everyone who's seen it thinks the light pink contents of its guts are more adorable than gross.

There's some acquired tastes

One of its r@pists was hot.

Two nights ago, it showered somewhere that reminded it of this time it showered with her, after we left a pool party. it brought two rubber whales. She put it on its knees, the tip of her cock on the center of its tongue angled up at her, and playfully said "I'm making a slip n' slide" and produced a river of piss down its tongue and throat. She r@ped it, and then we played with the rubber whales, filling a bowl of water and sucking the water into the whales and spraying each other with it, ducking and weaving to avoid being hit. She said if she'd known it had a game like this prepared she would've saved her piss for her whale.

Her muscles rolled through her core and arms when she squatted, avoiding a headshot, and the bit of fat hanging from her arms would jiggle in a way that was even hotter than her tits jiggling. It's the fact that all of those parts of her are active when she violates it, and if she did it with a mirror it's sure it would find her back muscles hot too.

it initially didn't find her hot and it prided itself on how helpful that was to enjoying our time together. But she had a wonderful body and that grew on it, the way that body shifted and rumbled beneath her skin when she used it and didn't let it enjoy itself became a great source of arousal.

it felt like it was less of an object, to indulge in those chills deep within it when it admired her body when it should work on making its life worse and enjoying things less, and that's without the graysexual urge to feel insecure about one's place on the a-spectrum whenever she thinks someone is hot. But over time it realized how powerful those feelings were in motivating it to put itself in situations it wasn't okay with for her, conditioning itself to put itself at risk for her. And now thinking about it brings its body to an awful edge it can't help but appreciate and be proud of.

Some bugs are features for fans to discover

Wavedashing in Super Smash Bros. Melee was a blemish. Hitfalling in Rivals of Aether was a blemish. Strafejumping in Quake was a blemish. All made into the distinguishing factor that made these works brilliant.

Your apparent shortcomings can sometimes, not always, be unique sources of beauty. With years of practice it's become very adept at either reinterpreting or tackling these to turn them into something worthwhile and it is proud of these sources of insecurity.

This isn't its only strategy, there are others. Understanding the futility of comparing your journey to others, seeing how your progress is enough, letting yourself forgive once others have, understanding that some of your self-doubts and self-esteem issues are actually hot and adorable, and so on.

But there is honor and beauty to be found in your insecurities and finding that is a deeply rewarding skill you can develop. Try it some time and see if fewer of your insecurities obstruct your path to self-actualization. 💖💝💖

[denybunnyforgood]

Taking D-type affirmation requests

In the spirit of that one aftercare appreciation post it made, it will now on a whim offer affirmation for dom(me)s, sadists, mxtresses, owners, r@pists, and so on.

it remembers when it first gave up all of its orgasms. it had met this person and after a day of flirting it eventually popped the big question: if we got closer how often would she like it to cum? she initially sheepishly said twice a month.

it asked her for her reasoning and she explained how she did find not letting it cum hot but it wouldn't be fair to let it go from cumming like semidaily to anything too extreme like once a month.

the next day it offered her a deal. she'd get to choose which cosplay it wore at every party we went to, but in exchange she would go further and never let it cum again and do what she could to make sure it never enjoyed sex with her.

this may seem questionable or paternalistic, but it gave her room to back out of that deal and the way she talked abt how it was fairness that was holding her back did give it good reason to think she wanted more. later on she did reflect on this and said its intuition was right and she just kinda felt guilty abt what she really wanted, and her being the only one who ever enjoyed sex between us was ideal for her, and it brought her a lot of meaning and genuine joy that she had made its life so much worse and it was miserable from having met her.

there is genuinely a really huge problem with d-types not getting enough affirmation, appreciation, and praise, particularly among marginalized groups who are often demonized or made out to be disgusting for having any sexuality at all, let alone feelings of sadism and desires for domination. so even in cases where it's not just permissible but morally above and beyond the call of duty, praiseworthy, heroic to pursue their needs they feel guilt, shame, trepidation.

that person it met it was frequently astounded by, full of admiration for, and it never tired of telling her. she had reached this point where she genuinely didn't care about its well-being at all. it had become so so miserable with our sex life and despite it looking like a person, despite deeply entrenched empathy instincts urging her to feel smth, she just found it amusing, cute, sometimes funny. it could too, sometimes, but even then it felt the misery and it cared and it wanted to enjoy sex again and it wished desperately it could, and she was born with the talent of being able to escape that sensation. it could never being itself to not care, no matter how much it understood it was an object. but she could. she could see and internalize reality for what it was and understand the worthlessness of its well-being on a level it never truly could.

today it has more than one domme who is like this and telling them every day how much it appreciates this part of them and why isn't enough to make up for all they've contributed to its life being miserable.

anyway...

all of that to say, if you're a D-type and want to be affirmed, to be appreciated, it loves you and it will endeavor to affirm as many of those who need it as it can. so if you see this feel free to dm it or send it an ask or reblog or comment and if you want you can list your boundaries and needs and so on, and it will try to provide whatever affirmation you need. and if you're not the target of this post but know some folks who need this you can indicate somehow you're blogging for visibility, and if in the end nobody ends up asking for direct affirmation let it just say broadly:

it loves you dom(me)s who violate us

it loves you mxtresses who change us deeply as an experiment on a whim

it loves you sadists who genuinely place no intrinsic worth on our feelings or well-being

it loves you owners who genuinely have to suppress your laughter cos you feel like it's inappropriate when we're having a panic attack and saying genuinely funny things

it loves you it loves you it loves you and it hopes you find a thing that can make it up to you all you've done to ensure things like it are miserable and owned 🌸

[denybunnyforgood]

It's pretty impressive to see how well you get it! Maybe the DMs helped some too haha. it will just tweak the wording here some and point out that when someone talks about their identity it's important not to simply say that they think of themselves as such and such, but rather that they know or are such and such. The reason so many find this important is we live in a world where propaganda produced by the system of domination we have lived under for many millennia. This propaganda naturalizes some identities and not others. For this reason there's a lot of denial of people's identities, and this denial is usually enforced violently.

So, when people talk abt their identity, and someone else says "so you think of yourself as x," a very rational traumagenic defense mechanism is to read that as "I don't believe you are genuinely x, and may use some form of terrorism to marginalize the viewpoint that being x is possible." Conversely, it can be affirming when you say "so you know you're x" or "so you're x."

It's not that it thinks of itself as an object. What you appreciate is that it knows it is. That's part of what it means to accept others as experts on their own being.

it doesn't think of itself as a work of art, it is one. Others still have obligations as they do art, it lives and breathes and moves others through an autonomy of its own as art does, but it also doesn't have intrinsic moral worth the way those who possess personhood do. its pleasure doesn't have any intrinsic worth, nor its desire satisfaction. it can be wronged, but not by virtue of its pleasure not being taken into consideration. These are genuine facts about it, and not simply phantasms.

it suspects you already agree with much of this, but it's a public blog so explaining why folks make a big deal abt this kind of wording choice can be important so that it's not so easy to dismiss it as making a mountain out of a molehill.

And it really appreciates that you reuse the Guernica like it did an an earlier post in this conversation. It's a good comparison point, thematically. it hopes its artistic commitments with its body, mind, and well-being present an important challenge, for the better.

it's glad you rly get it. it does wish it was a person, but insofar as it is an object it means a lot when people get it.

Relatedly, how should it address you? What are your honorifics? If for instance you'd like any compensation for appreciating its aesthetic value (e.g. notifications on edges, info on how long it takes to reach the edge, various audio recordings, excerpts from its mementos, anecdotes, answers to whatever other questions, and plenty of other things it's sure your creativity would have no issue finding), it would like to be respectful and consensual by referring to you accurately. 🌸 Thanks again for getting it.

How often does edgebunny edge? I saw it doesn't get to cum, and I like that it's specifically to make its life worse, not better, but that makes me wonder if it edges all the time to make but cumming harder, or rarely because edging can give it pleasure.

its answer isn't very inherently interesting here unfortunately--a lot of things it does in its life are pretty systematized or habitualized in some way because it takes immense discipline to do something you know will make your life worse. But despite edging being rather central (though it isn't the most central thing, it's just tumblr won't let it speak publicly abt its gender in full so w/e, trying to make a second account on bdsmlr where it can talk abt other things) to its whole deal, the only habit it has ingrained is it stops pretty soon after it reaches the edge and it can feel that thrum inside its tummy climbing up its chest, like that "God if you let me cum to anything let it be this" kinda feeling.

When it comes to when it edges it just does it whenever it really wants to. The main reason is that whenever it does stop right at that thrum, it's consistently a net negative, and that thrum is only possible when it's in a particular kind of mood.

The only way really that it can become a net positive is if it stays in the pleasure for long enough that it outweighs the tight, intense discomfort in its hips radiating through itself that comes when it denies itself. But because it doesn't do that there's very little need for any rules or discipline or habit, aside from just making sure it stops when it reaches that point of maximum need.

How frequent "whenever it feels like it" is depends on its situation. Like right now it hasn't been able to post for a while because it and its loved ones ended up getting chased out of a home (again) and being unhoused for a while doesn't really spare the thrum-potential, even with permanent denial. Like it always experiences this ambient yearning for trying to cum but it's comparatively subdued when there's hardship of the uninteresting variety in its life.

You might think that being born to have a worse life is easy because it's so easy for life to punish you, but the truth is that there are interesting and uninteresting ways to have a terrible life and only the former is worthwhile.

But your question is prob abt like, USUALLY how frequent is it? (it's getting to your question the long way, yes), and it would say probably like once a day on average.

it realizes this is getting long-winded but just to reflect on that some and hopefully make this answer interesting, it's written before abt the conceptual framework it has for orgasms. If the concept 'orgasm' marks out those desirable climactic sexual experiences, then the sensation that we refer to as an orgasm should be very different for everyone. For instance, what if you like and really want the intimacy of playing and being close to someone, and that's the height of the experience for you? Can't that be an orgasm instead of the specific rush of dopamine we tend to associate the concept with?

it was born an object whose pleasure has zero moral worth, but it being violated in interesting ways, being denied right at the edge, being brought to tears, having its throat brutalized until it starts heaving, these do add moral value to the world in all kinds of ways. And so those are the most desirable experiences. So when it used to have the kinds of orgasms people had, those were fake orgasms. it used to have those twice a week, and these real orgasms are literally more than one per day. For people they're real orgasms but for it they're fake orgasms. The real orgasms are those violations, denials, sobs and throatgasms. And it isn't fair if the people who violate it have real orgasms and it has a fake one. They're making themselves vulnerable to it and it's being insincere.

That's a huge part of why it's so absurdly important to it that when it has sex it does whatever it can to make sure it doesn't enjoy it and that what it wants or what it's okay with doesn't matter. it wants the experience to be authentic, and if it's pretending to be a person when its partner isn't pretending to be something they're not, that's not fair to them and that's not something they'd consent to.

And the fact that these real orgasms are so much more frequent and forthcoming than fake orgasms is just one of those small pieces of evidence it holds onto to affirm itself. it often has doubts, as many do abt their identity, and that can be dangerous because the moment it isn't convinced it's morally obligated to go down this route it'll spend years trying to achieve personhood.

Holding onto these little pieces of evidence is one of the ways it affirms its objecthood so it can keep nurturing it. It's not its main method, that would be surrounding itself with peers who understand and do what needs to be done when it has its...moments of doubt, but even this tertiary method is effective and has positive side effects.

Okay hopefully that's answered your question and more? But it understands if this ramble left you more questions and it's happy to answer. Actually typing this did do something for it so it'll edge right now :)

TL;DR: Nothing interesting rly just whenever it feels like it, which is once a day average.

[denybunnyforgood]

Please remember to use it/its and not you/your, it does associate you/your with personhood and so it's a bit dysphoric 😓 and sure it can DM about it.

it's not sure it really thinks of it in terms of desert! desert is intrinsically valuable. those getting what they deserve is smth to pursue in itself. it thinks it should have shelter, housing, but a lot of it comes back to being a work of art. u shouldn't leave guernica in the rain for example

"I also really love the way you describe the reasons for not getting to cum throughout the blog."

can u tell it more?

"I'm really curious about its gender, especially since I didn't know Tumblr was censoring gender related things. Can it say more?"

there's a lot it CAN say in public, like it's a work of art, it is trying to make its life worse, it is permanently denied. but other things it has hinted at without really talking about explicitly and they are very tied to its gender. alas!!

How often does edgebunny edge? I saw it doesn't get to cum, and I like that it's specifically to make its life worse, not better, but that makes me wonder if it edges all the time to make but cumming harder, or rarely because edging can give it pleasure.

its answer isn't very inherently interesting here unfortunately--a lot of things it does in its life are pretty systematized or habitualized in some way because it takes immense discipline to do something you know will make your life worse. But despite edging being rather central (though it isn't the most central thing, it's just tumblr won't let it speak publicly abt its gender in full so w/e, trying to make a second account on bdsmlr where it can talk abt other things) to its whole deal, the only habit it has ingrained is it stops pretty soon after it reaches the edge and it can feel that thrum inside its tummy climbing up its chest, like that "God if you let me cum to anything let it be this" kinda feeling.

When it comes to when it edges it just does it whenever it really wants to. The main reason is that whenever it does stop right at that thrum, it's consistently a net negative, and that thrum is only possible when it's in a particular kind of mood.

The only way really that it can become a net positive is if it stays in the pleasure for long enough that it outweighs the tight, intense discomfort in its hips radiating through itself that comes when it denies itself. But because it doesn't do that there's very little need for any rules or discipline or habit, aside from just making sure it stops when it reaches that point of maximum need.

How frequent "whenever it feels like it" is depends on its situation. Like right now it hasn't been able to post for a while because it and its loved ones ended up getting chased out of a home (again) and being unhoused for a while doesn't really spare the thrum-potential, even with permanent denial. Like it always experiences this ambient yearning for trying to cum but it's comparatively subdued when there's hardship of the uninteresting variety in its life.

You might think that being born to have a worse life is easy because it's so easy for life to punish you, but the truth is that there are interesting and uninteresting ways to have a terrible life and only the former is worthwhile.

But your question is prob abt like, USUALLY how frequent is it? (it's getting to your question the long way, yes), and it would say probably like once a day on average.

it realizes this is getting long-winded but just to reflect on that some and hopefully make this answer interesting, it's written before abt the conceptual framework it has for orgasms. If the concept 'orgasm' marks out those desirable climactic sexual experiences, then the sensation that we refer to as an orgasm should be very different for everyone. For instance, what if you like and really want the intimacy of playing and being close to someone, and that's the height of the experience for you? Can't that be an orgasm instead of the specific rush of dopamine we tend to associate the concept with?

it was born an object whose pleasure has zero moral worth, but it being violated in interesting ways, being denied right at the edge, being brought to tears, having its throat brutalized until it starts heaving, these do add moral value to the world in all kinds of ways. And so those are the most desirable experiences. So when it used to have the kinds of orgasms people had, those were fake orgasms. it used to have those twice a week, and these real orgasms are literally more than one per day. For people they're real orgasms but for it they're fake orgasms. The real orgasms are those violations, denials, sobs and throatgasms. And it isn't fair if the people who violate it have real orgasms and it has a fake one. They're making themselves vulnerable to it and it's being insincere.

That's a huge part of why it's so absurdly important to it that when it has sex it does whatever it can to make sure it doesn't enjoy it and that what it wants or what it's okay with doesn't matter. it wants the experience to be authentic, and if it's pretending to be a person when its partner isn't pretending to be something they're not, that's not fair to them and that's not something they'd consent to.

And the fact that these real orgasms are so much more frequent and forthcoming than fake orgasms is just one of those small pieces of evidence it holds onto to affirm itself. it often has doubts, as many do abt their identity, and that can be dangerous because the moment it isn't convinced it's morally obligated to go down this route it'll spend years trying to achieve personhood.

Holding onto these little pieces of evidence is one of the ways it affirms its objecthood so it can keep nurturing it. It's not its main method, that would be surrounding itself with peers who understand and do what needs to be done when it has its...moments of doubt, but even this tertiary method is effective and has positive side effects.

Okay hopefully that's answered your question and more? But it understands if this ramble left you more questions and it's happy to answer. Actually typing this did do something for it so it'll edge right now :)

TL;DR: Nothing interesting rly just whenever it feels like it, which is once a day average.

[denybunnyforgood]

Object Conceptual Scheme ver. 0

So this is something pretty similar to its denial conceptual scheme that it posted about forever ago, here if you wanna read that.

But this is for those whose gender is, like its, object. it haphazardly thought of some meaningful issues that can help with categorizing what kind of object one is.

This is ver. 0 cos it hasn't really run this by anyone yet, nor is it even sure who else has the autistic urge to categorize and break down anything and everything, but if anyone else finds this interesting maybe it can get some feedback some time.

A lot of the axes/planes it thought of are pulled from the denial conceptual scheme because they not only apply, but they're often the source of those reasons for denial. So here are some familiar old friends (though possibly renamed):

What is well-being?

What is ultimately good for a person? Pleasure, desire satisfaction, or several things?

Whose well-being matters?

Are those things still valuable when it's an object's well-being?

Aesthetic or carnal?

Is objecthood beautiful or hot? A way to think of this is that hot is individual and up to taste, but beauty is universal and a matter of better appreciation.

Realistic or natural?

Is objecthood treated as something biosocially created, or an essentialist reality?

Moral or prudential?

Even if the object doesn't want it, does it have a reason to remain an object?

But here are some unfamiliar faces:

Individuality or interchangeability?

Should the object be stripped of its uniqueness so it can be replaceable, or should it be perfected as one of a kind?

How analytic should it be?

Should the object be stripped of its capacity to understand or make cogent insights or should this capacity be developed?

How autonomous should it be?

Should the object be guaranteed multiple meaningful choices or none?

How respected should it be?

How much does it matter how much it's okay with something or what its boundaries are?

How much does objecthood need to be enforced?

Does objecthood need to be maintained, or can it be left alone because being an object is a natural resting place?

Familiar Faces

Because the first list, the familiar faces, can largely be elaborated upon in the denial post, it'll make short work of them here by just talking briefly about its own experience.

it feels that it is obligated to be an object whose pleasure and desires don't matter because it's beautiful. There's a lot it can't really discuss on this account, but suffice to say that it feels its objecthood challenges a lot of mainstream norms as well as norms within kink communities which need to be challenged, and which brings forward really remarkable insights. it wishes it didn't have to suffer, but the outcome of that suffering has been too great to see how things could be any other way.

it thinks it could have become a person, once upon a time. But given the way its brain works and the way it's been conditioned and groomed its entire life, it just has to accept now that the best version of itself is an object. it's not really fully okay with that exactly, but it trusts that it's disciplined enough that it will follow through with that.

Enforcement

Let's kick the unfamiliars off with a fairly straightforward one. For some, objecthood requires constant maintenance. it for instance specifically surrounds itself with peers who know what to do to keep it an object. If it calls them sobbing and wishing it could be a person, they know just what to say to dash its hopes and dreams.

But other objects feel like objecthood is just where they belong. There's no resistance, they're just objects.

Individuality and the Aesthetic

One of the most natural ways you can visualize this axis is in terms of where you'd find them in an object museum. There are objects being tortured in glass boxes for you to sit and reflect on as they are banging on the glass. These are each highly individual, their own particular suffering made unique by the contours and contents of the box. If they are destroyed, they're destroyed with purpose, and otherwise the one who destroyed them must face consequences from the museum.

But then you finish the coffee you bought at the front of the museum, and find yourself needing to relieve yourself, and you find a row of indistinguishable objects serving the same role.

That raises the question of how individuality interacts with aestheticism. What would it mean to be an object with little individuality, but still meant to be beautiful? Well, there is more to beauty than novelty. There is beauty in work, the blood and sweat it takes to conform to a fungible role. There is beauty in design, a robotgirl part of a manufacturing line who nonetheless, like all her sisters, is such an efficient and well-oiled machine that one cannot help but appreciate her, replaceable though she may be.

Autonomy, Respect, and Understanding

So, isn't autonomy like freedom to make your own choices? Doesn't that mean being autonomous implies respect, since being violated is a removal of freedom? And doesn't removing one's capacity to think for themselves mean they can't make decisions, thereby implying low autonomy? How do these three axes interact?

In truth, they're totally independent.

This is because autonomy is distinct from freedom. This distinction is often made by psychologists to mark out to different experiences that agents have. The experience of having many meaningful choices (autonomy), and the experience of having few constraints (freedom).

We actually give up freedom for autonomy all the time. We form obligations and bonds which constrain us, rule out certain things for the foreseeable future, but which give us options--however fewer they may be--which we recognize are meaningful.

The other distinction is between the capacity to decide and the capacity to understand. Having both is required for the capacity to meaningfully consent to something, but one can make decisions without understanding and one can understand without being able to decide.

So what does it look like to be an object with a great deal of autonomy but who isn't respected? It means having a bunch of meaningful options even if all of them involve being violated in ways it isn't okay with.

What about the other way around? Low autonomy, high respect? That's like a pillow princess quadrant, treated with a great deal of paternalism and what's best for it, but never anything it wouldn't be okay with.

ver. 1?

It'd be cool to improve this some time. Imagine a questionnaire that mapped you on a bunch of triangles where you could see where others were mapped and how they identified themselves? Maybe even let you contact one another.

Anyway, how do other objects identify along these distinctions?

[denybunnyforgood]

How often does edgebunny edge? I saw it doesn't get to cum, and I like that it's specifically to make its life worse, not better, but that makes me wonder if it edges all the time to make but cumming harder, or rarely because edging can give it pleasure.

its answer isn't very inherently interesting here unfortunately--a lot of things it does in its life are pretty systematized or habitualized in some way because it takes immense discipline to do something you know will make your life worse. But despite edging being rather central (though it isn't the most central thing, it's just tumblr won't let it speak publicly abt its gender in full so w/e, trying to make a second account on bdsmlr where it can talk abt other things) to its whole deal, the only habit it has ingrained is it stops pretty soon after it reaches the edge and it can feel that thrum inside its tummy climbing up its chest, like that "God if you let me cum to anything let it be this" kinda feeling.

When it comes to when it edges it just does it whenever it really wants to. The main reason is that whenever it does stop right at that thrum, it's consistently a net negative, and that thrum is only possible when it's in a particular kind of mood.

The only way really that it can become a net positive is if it stays in the pleasure for long enough that it outweighs the tight, intense discomfort in its hips radiating through itself that comes when it denies itself. But because it doesn't do that there's very little need for any rules or discipline or habit, aside from just making sure it stops when it reaches that point of maximum need.

How frequent "whenever it feels like it" is depends on its situation. Like right now it hasn't been able to post for a while because it and its loved ones ended up getting chased out of a home (again) and being unhoused for a while doesn't really spare the thrum-potential, even with permanent denial. Like it always experiences this ambient yearning for trying to cum but it's comparatively subdued when there's hardship of the uninteresting variety in its life.

You might think that being born to have a worse life is easy because it's so easy for life to punish you, but the truth is that there are interesting and uninteresting ways to have a terrible life and only the former is worthwhile.

But your question is prob abt like, USUALLY how frequent is it? (it's getting to your question the long way, yes), and it would say probably like once a day on average.

it realizes this is getting long-winded but just to reflect on that some and hopefully make this answer interesting, it's written before abt the conceptual framework it has for orgasms. If the concept 'orgasm' marks out those desirable climactic sexual experiences, then the sensation that we refer to as an orgasm should be very different for everyone. For instance, what if you like and really want the intimacy of playing and being close to someone, and that's the height of the experience for you? Can't that be an orgasm instead of the specific rush of dopamine we tend to associate the concept with?

it was born an object whose pleasure has zero moral worth, but it being violated in interesting ways, being denied right at the edge, being brought to tears, having its throat brutalized until it starts heaving, these do add moral value to the world in all kinds of ways. And so those are the most desirable experiences. So when it used to have the kinds of orgasms people had, those were fake orgasms. it used to have those twice a week, and these real orgasms are literally more than one per day. For people they're real orgasms but for it they're fake orgasms. The real orgasms are those violations, denials, sobs and throatgasms. And it isn't fair if the people who violate it have real orgasms and it has a fake one. They're making themselves vulnerable to it and it's being insincere.

That's a huge part of why it's so absurdly important to it that when it has sex it does whatever it can to make sure it doesn't enjoy it and that what it wants or what it's okay with doesn't matter. it wants the experience to be authentic, and if it's pretending to be a person when its partner isn't pretending to be something they're not, that's not fair to them and that's not something they'd consent to.

And the fact that these real orgasms are so much more frequent and forthcoming than fake orgasms is just one of those small pieces of evidence it holds onto to affirm itself. it often has doubts, as many do abt their identity, and that can be dangerous because the moment it isn't convinced it's morally obligated to go down this route it'll spend years trying to achieve personhood.

Holding onto these little pieces of evidence is one of the ways it affirms its objecthood so it can keep nurturing it. It's not its main method, that would be surrounding itself with peers who understand and do what needs to be done when it has its...moments of doubt, but even this tertiary method is effective and has positive side effects.

Okay hopefully that's answered your question and more? But it understands if this ramble left you more questions and it's happy to answer. Actually typing this did do something for it so it'll edge right now :)

TL;DR: Nothing interesting rly just whenever it feels like it, which is once a day average.

[denybunnyforgood]

Something more concrete is you can try to find something really difficult that you'd normally rather not do. And if you succeed you can reward yourself with another year without orgasms for everyone to enjoy. But if you fail then that's only another week without orgasms, putting you that much closer to taking away the pleasure that others would've had from you losing yours. To avoid such a consequence it may motivate you to do that difficult task so you can reward yourself by ruining your life.

It’s been 342 days since I started orgasm denial. As I come up on one year without orgasms, what should I do?

[denybunnyforgood]

Honestly it's not like an actively fun thing or whatever, and it's not for everyone so it will try to just speak about its own experience without necessarily saying you should do it too, but something it tries to keep up with is reflection and internalization. it spends a lot of time thinking about the path it's taken, what it means, why it's doing it. Stuff like its thoughts about beauty, purpose, art, that one post about different reasons for denial, etc.

A few things here and there are fantasy, but much of its understanding of itself and its purpose is real, and figuring that out without any problematic beliefs has been very fruitful.

This habit of reflection and internalization is actually what led it to permanent denial in the first place. it initially did denial because it seemed hot and it led to these really powerful orgasms. But that seemed morally wrong and not its place. And over time it was able to make its life worse and worse.

it also had some bad relationships, and those confused it terribly. It's an awful confusion to be for someone bold and strong, and then through a series of events they become pathetic and cowardly, and you wonder where that person you suffered for went.

There's a lot of heavy questions you can think seriously about after a year of denial.

How much pleasure have I lost? Was it more than I gained? Is that a good thing? Who am I for? What is the purpose of this? What meaning do I create? What am I?

But there are also some fun, light questions too.

What are some cool, interesting things I can do next year? Who should I find and introduce to my life? What would be some creative ways for me to be corrupted?

So yeah, if you like this idea then consider it a suggestion. If not, consider it an interesting report which you may ignore altogether. :)

It’s been 342 days since I started orgasm denial. As I come up on one year without orgasms, what should I do?

[denybunnyforgood]

anons open for real now?

it totally has this memory of turning on anons months ago but it checked just now and they weren't? but okay anon asks and dms open now. hopefully!

[denybunnyforgood]

a perhaps mildly melancholic post about genuinely being a worthless object

it wishes it could share with people that moment of discovery when it understood it genuinely shouldn't enjoy sex anymore, partly because it needs people to understand what it is and what it isn't. 😢

like one thing that's super hard to talk abt is how real that was, because some will think it's like a misogynistic "woman realizing her place" sorta thing but if they could just share in that moment, they'd see it isn't about womanhood. u shouldn't disrespect women cos they're women thank u

and then the other thing is a lot of how it operates does not make sense if it's just a fantasy. it's just...something it genuinely discovered. it has no intrinsic moral worth, it is a work of art. and where self-actualization and flourishing for others may mean writing fulfilling stories or honing their craft in architecture, for it a big part of self-actualization meant suffering and ruining its life.

But if you look up stuff like "oh i deserve to be treated like nothing and this isn't a fantasy" it's basically self-hating women. And that really sucks. Misogyny means there's so much noise that objects will never be able to reach out to each other, form a coalition, and fight to smash our rights and privileges and ruin one another's lives for people to enjoy.

✊😔

[denybunnyforgood]

why's there so many of them

okay this is an uncharacteristic unhorny post but what is up with ppl rly turned on by it from scandinavia messaging it and then somehow its housing situation crops up and then we end up talking about how it was unhoused like six times last year and it's still housing insecure and they're like "i cannot believe it...that makes me so sad..."

like it's a pretty normal phenomenon but it's, specifically, sad sympathetic scandinavian sadists seeking sluts that keep showing up like is this an archetype what is happening

[denybunnyforgood]

We did it. It's time to count it all up.

Altogether, we haaaaave...

Sixteen weeks and three days of no cumming, not counting its own notes! Yippee!!!

Of course, we cooould count its notes tooooo...but that would be cheating right? Wait, what is it talking about there's no reason to make rules for this lol. Okay!

24 WEEKS AND THREE DAYS WITHOUT ANY ORGASMS! Six months!

:O Where's that one cheerleading bouncy gif...

After six months of denial, there's truly no orgasm at the end of that tunnel strong enough to make up for that loss. its life will be so much less enjoyable now. Thank you, everyone. its life wouldn't be this much worse without you all being willing to put in the work to ruin its life.

And who's to say it'll just be six months? Others could keep adding notes to this, stretching out those six months. Who's to say just because we reached the deadline that future notes wouldn't get counted? That doesn't seem fair to anyone who stumbles upon this too late, right? Everyone deserves a fair chance at ruining its life... <3

Gosh. The only thing that could make this an even bigger win for the world is if this was all a fantasy, and in fact it was permanently denied, and even after those six months are over it wouldn't get even the smallest bit of relief. That would be wonderful in itself, and it would open up all kinds of possibilities. Others joining in on the challenge as if it were real despite knowing it wouldn't have any relief in the end like others might be able to, people acting like it'll be cumming at some point and it having to stay in character when people do that and pretending it will when we all know it won't...

God it'd be losing its mind right now if that were the case. it'd be struggling just to type this out. it sure is glad this is temporary...!

Help an objectgirl out and add notes to this to play along pls!

Hi hello, so it has a problem! it gave up all orgasms in August 2022. it hasn't cum since, and it regrets it often which is something those around it thankfully keep that way! But, this means it's always seeing those "Every note is another week of denial" posts and it's like, darn, it never got to do that thingy and it never will!

Anyway, it's doing that thingy!

Here's what it's going to do. it's just going to be upfront. it's already given up cumming forever, because it was convinced that would make its life worse, and that that was something it was morally obligated to do for others.

That means nothing anyone does to this post will have any material impact on its denials, it's already permanently denied.

But if, knowing all of that, you still want to play along, immerse yourself in the world that this post has some influence over its orgasms, it would really, really appreciate it.

It wouldn't even have to be huge, like it would have so much gratitude for even one note. If it gets more, then absolutely feel free to leave replies like "Holy shit, already x notes, bet it had no idea what it was signing up for" or whatever would rly make it blush!

Okay! Please help! Thank you!

Every like this post gets, it won't cum for another three days!

Every reply, another three days!

Every reblog it gets, another two weeks on the edge without an orgasm or anything that could diminish the anguish!

Help an edgebunny be a good girl today, please! Thank you so much for your generosity!

[denybunnyforgood]

it's so ecstatic u responded!! There's some differences and similarities between our situations. it initially had a similar conflict between cumming and denial. it eventually understood it was an object, but what that meant for it eluded it for a long time. For some time it played with the idea that it was just a fantasy, or a sexual thing, or something, but it was overwhelmed by the evidence that it was just genuinely an object whose enjoyment had no intrinsic worth. And that combined with just a good old fashioned duty to beneficence led it to the conclusion that it should meet the needs of others. Initially some protocol of just listening to others seemed good, but which others?

Everyone wants something different.

Eventually two pieces of reasoning put it down the path of long-term and eventually permanent denial.

Niche

The first was a matter of supply. it's written elsewhere about the many different, often contradictory reasons for denial. Some do denial for their own pleasure, some do it for the pleasure of others, some do it for the desire satisfaction of others--which is slightly different. For some, the fact that it feels better is the appeal, both for themselves and others. For others, the fact that it feels worse is the appeal. its feeling was that for someone who liked it when someone else was into cumming because of x, y, or z reason, they'd have an easier time finding someone to meet their needs.

But it's very hard to find those into denial for some specific x, y, or z reason. Cumming is just very appealing.

What it in particular can do

The second piece of reasoning was that among submissives and objects who are into denial, it was extremely rare for there to be a type of object whose self-actualization involves its life genuinely being made worse. it does feel more fulfilled this way, and that is a kind of pleasure, like reading a worthwhile book or appreciating a nice piece of art from your home country that survived multiple difficult generations. But if you took all of the actual enjoyment it experiences in its life and compared it to the enjoyment it would have experienced had it not accepted what it was born to be, it's nowhere close. it could have pretended to be a person, and it would have enjoyed life significantly more.

it calls this kind of object a 'work of art,' and it's always very happy to meet work-of-art adjacent objects, like suffertoys.

So its feeling was that the niche that it would mean a lot to fill in this world given its nature would be a permanently denied object that genuinely enjoys its life less because it is permanently denied, which it did manage to achieve but its more ambitious goal is to never enjoy sex again, which it's working on.

So yeah...

That was how it personally got out of the "ahhh, everyone wants different things, what does it do" conflict, it sort of thought about like, who out there isn't getting what they want? And then, who is it in a special position to serve given its nature and what would self-actualize it? it's sure there are other niches it could fill for others, but what niche can it in particular fill well?

it's glad you think the experience is super hot, it's written about it on this blog before but if you want details or have any questions it's happy to give answers. But it also understands if you'd like the experience to be a surprise, should u ever reach it. The extreme disorientation and disappointment that comes when you reach that climax and realize it's not you who feels good is the real orgasm for those who will never cum again so others can cum harder in its opinion

it doesn't think it'd be able to stay permanently denied if nobody knew either. Guess to elaborate on its relationship to that because it's very grateful you were vulnerable enough to do so, it would really like to believe it could, and that knowing that others get what they want is enough. And it's sacrificed a lot knowing that nobody would ever find out, so maybe...but...it thinks it's not strong enough for that right now. They say ought implies can, but it certainly feels like the right thing to do is sometimes something you're not able to do...

Thank you for responding to its ask so so much. <3

hi hi, it's been permanently denied for two years now and it wanted to ask two things it often asks others who have been denied! which are: Do you think you'd still be denied if nobody could ever find out?

It's something it asks itself a lot as well.

And!! Do you ever forget you're about to not cum? If that makes sense. it experiences this a lot and it's just one of those things it looks around to see if anyone else experiences it. Like, it'll be with someone, and because they're about to cum and it's really focused it'll get this feeling there's this big explosive moment of pleasure coming up, but forget that it won't be its pleasure.

Not sure if that kind of disorienting experience is something you share but it thought it would ask.

Thank you!!!!

i don't think i'd be denied if no one else knew, just as a factual thing: i'm denied because my owner decided i should be! prior to my owner i enjoyed denial, but generally only went a week or two before giving into temptation and cumming. and i kept getting conflicting messages where some people wanted me to cum and some wanted me denied! now my owner's opinion is the one that matters most, and it wants me permanently denied, so i will never cum again!

i haven't "forgotten i'm not about to cum" yet, but it's only been a few months for me so far, so maybe i'll reach that point in the future! it sounds amazing and super hot, so i really hope it happens to me! i should be more focused on others' pleasure than my own!

[denybunnyforgood]

hi! just wanted to recommend you put "18+" in your bio/pinned to try and keep minors from following you! even a token effort can help prevent legal trouble; even better if you actually block any followers without their age!

and on an amusingly opposite note, i noticed nearly all the posts you have here are labeled as mature/sexual in tumblr's system, and i wanted to warn you thst blogs that get a lot of those labels can often get taken down! the labels are sadly used more as targets for tumblr's staff, which is why most big kink blogs don't use them and will try to block anyone they notice is applying them to their posts.

no need to answer/post this ask if you don't wanna, i just wanted to let you know and the ask system seemed like a non-invasive way to do so!

hi please use it/its (always lowercase) and not you/your! on this blog it mainly expresses the sexual component of its objecthood but it is thoroughly an object without intrinsic moral worth and it's not just on this blog that everyone refers to it with it/its. this is its reality and it does experience dysphoria if that reality isnt recognized and affirmed.

ty for the ask, and actually the mature label is an early artifact and it picked up pretty quickly that ur not supposed to do that, but now it's too late cos u can't edit it away. sign up to famously transmisogynistic and anti-sex worker website, do the most intuitive things, find out all of ur intuitions were completely wrong because evil website would of course be designed evil. ah well. the only thing it could do at this point is repost all of the old things and delete the mature label...which may not be a totally bad idea? it's a little alarmed if nearly all of them have it cos it thought it stopped that habit pretty quickly, so not totally sure what's going on thereee...

but thank you for the heads up!

and actually for the 18+ thing it did actually put that but then it guesses it forgor to save, so it was just caught with a booger on its face there. ty ty :)

[denybunnyforgood]

you not only answered all of its questions like perfectly but also looked at its blog and also have a detailed compare and contrast between us it sees it sees

it feels so understood, u got its, like, deal! haha, it will keep in mind that you like interacting with other denial blogs! this made its week!!

hi thank you for the permission to ask! use it/its for it instead of you/your pls

One of the things it was wondering was indeed what it felt like! Part of its permanent denial is it does understand that a lot of people do want objects to remember what they're missing out on, and often for that reason they have objects like it cum infrequently as a reminder. The cost of having an object feel pleasure is traded in exchange for the benefit of the fresh frustration of being denied.

it invented an alternative method, whereby it will never cum, but still remember what it's missing out on and feel that regret by recording ahead of time a bunch of mementos of its orgasms, while asking others for what theirs feel like.

Because you also experience long periods of denial it thought maybe your experiences might be more familiar to it and serve as better reminders.

But! Not all hope is lost, because it has other questions as well besides how anything in particular felt (kind of cool that you intuitively just knew what its primary ask was btw? that's such a cool talent it was very wow'd by that).

Another question if you would be okay with answering is, do you think you'd commit to long-term denial if nobody else could know about it? That's smth it thinks about a lot. Not to imply necessarily that you're doing it for others, there are lots and lots of diverse reasons for denial, often in conflict with each other (where's that dang post detailing a whole taxonomy of reasons for denial across like eight different axes, hmmm). But like, at least for it, doing it for others is such a huge huge deal, and it would like to think it would still do what the people want even if they could never find out that they're getting what they want. But it's easy for it to say it totally would in that hypothetical but it has no idea if it would?

Anyway a little bit rambley but yeah guess that's like three questions packed into one and you can answer any of them or none of them or if it makes no sense respond however you want 😅 sorry if it isn't clear it is maybe nervous because your blog is rly cute 😖 it can totally try to reword if needed

huh. thats something i hadnt really considered before, honestly!! while i do enjoy the way denial feels, i dont really think that i would be able to commit to long term denial without anyone knowing about it. i think the attention i get from others is an integral part of the denial experience to me, if that makes sense? denial just wouldnt be nearly as fun or as satisfying to me if no one else was involved.

i have looked at its blog and i dont think that we view denial in the same way, which is interesting to me!! while i participate in kink spaces where it may be the case, ultimately i do denial because it feels good for me, not because i consider it to be my purpose or because it benefits others. i am ultimately chasing my own pleasure, which is why i think it matters that others know and are involved in my denial!!

if it has other questions that i missed, its welcome to send me more asks rewording those questions!! i could really only parse out what i answered from what it wrote. thank you for the ask, i love interacting with other denial blogs 🩷

[denybunnyforgood]

By the way! This is for those who are denied for any length of time, from a few minutes to permanently, in whichever way they define their own denial. If it's because you genuinely believe it makes your life worse and that means a lot, please feel free to reach out! Reblog, ask, dm, whatever you want! it appreciates everyone who is denied, but being an object who does denial for specific reasons it can be hard to find affinity with others, and get the attention of anyone you know who's like this. it respects those who are denied because it feels good, but it would really like to get to know others who've committed to making sex and play something unenjoyable and umpleasurable.

Thought it's worth putting this out there at least once, even if it's probably not going to yield anything. :) Thank you!!!!

(And of course, those interested in its own disposition are free to send asks about it as well, but it just thought others like it would be good to know ☺️)

[denybunnyforgood]

One week of notes left, we're in the final stretch and we're already at ten weeks and two days

This was vastly more successful and just all around gwaaaa than it was expecting, thank you thank you thank you!

Help an objectgirl out and add notes to this to play along pls!

Hi hello, so it has a problem! it gave up all orgasms in August 2022. it hasn't cum since, and it regrets it often which is something those around it thankfully keep that way! But, this means it's always seeing those "Every note is another week of denial" posts and it's like, darn, it never got to do that thingy and it never will!

Anyway, it's doing that thingy!

Here's what it's going to do. it's just going to be upfront. it's already given up cumming forever, because it was convinced that would make its life worse, and that that was something it was morally obligated to do for others.

That means nothing anyone does to this post will have any material impact on its denials, it's already permanently denied.

But if, knowing all of that, you still want to play along, immerse yourself in the world that this post has some influence over its orgasms, it would really, really appreciate it.

It wouldn't even have to be huge, like it would have so much gratitude for even one note. If it gets more, then absolutely feel free to leave replies like "Holy shit, already x notes, bet it had no idea what it was signing up for" or whatever would rly make it blush!

Okay! Please help! Thank you!

Every like this post gets, it won't cum for another three days!

Every reply, another three days!

Every reblog it gets, another two weeks on the edge without an orgasm or anything that could diminish the anguish!

Help an edgebunny be a good girl today, please! Thank you so much for your generosity!