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the level of censorship around this man is ridiculous, what happened to free speech? It’s just his name.

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you're a stupid fucking anti-sjw lol. This blog is stupid. I hate you crackers white people SUCK go suck a dick.

looks like I triggered more sjws. Keep sending these asks they only fuel my logic. 

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Here's a little gouache painting as a trial, I've only ever used it once before, and it's genuinely so much fun. I did the majority of it in gouache and then outlined it in pen.

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one thing that took me embarrassingly long to learn is "sometimes when people say things, they will not be true."

I used to tell people about this revelation and they'd be like yeah.....duh.....but like, why wouldn't my base assumption be that you're communicating to me in a straightforward manner. anyway, I get scammed a lot.

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turns out the creator of gandalf big naturals made the images while recovering from anesthesia for top surgery. this implies that the big naturals in question are, in fact, the artist's, and somehow migrated onto gandalf. this has major consequences.

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I'm such an awkward weirdo honestly. Like you will not believe the extent to which I can fumble a conversation.

For example, I keep mixing up people with the same names. Two guys named Steve? Yeah I'll get it wrong, I'll hear about one Steve and assume it's the Steve I know, for some reason. Especially if they have anything in common. I see someone named Noor fundraising on another website, I immediately embarrass myself in DMs with Noor on this website.

And speaking of the person I embarrassed myself talking to: Noor Yashour is fundraising to save her son's life. Muhammad already needed physical therapy before Israel started their genocide in Gaza, and now it's a matter of securing absolute necessities in the midst of the total breakdown of everything. As long as the Rafah crossing remains closed, it's a matter of hanging on and securing survival day by day, while preparing to get out.

That requires money, because everything is expensive in an active warzone, actually. Noor and her family are dependent on donations for their daily survival, and long term for Muhammad to get the healthcare he needs.

You can read the whole story here, the campaign is vetted.

Donate here.

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NOUR NEEDS MEDICINE!!!

My dear friend Noha Al-Habil is in need of funds to purchase medicine for her younger sister Nour. Nour was born with serious health problems. When she was just 7 months old, she went through open-heart surgery, and continues to suffer from various effects of that. She requires medication to treat her condition, but her family has no money to purchase it.

They need $500 for the cost of the medication. Nour really REALLY needs this medication!! Can we raise $500 on GFM in 48 hours? Please support if you can, reblog this post, and copy and paste this link (https://gofund.me/4be74469) across all your social media accounts.

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Bad news about the boulder everyone

good morning kings let’s push this boulder

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I can’t believe what I’m seeing. I NEVER thought this would happen!

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Our first victory against trump!

Time to start celebrating ALL the small wins, because EVERY win means a lot, and every win helps us fight for the next one!

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I realized the other day that the reason I didn't watch much TV as a teenager (and why I'm only now catching up on late aughts/early teens media that I missed), is because I literally didn't understand how to use our TV. My parents got a new system, and it had three remotes with a Venn diagram of functions. If someone left the TV on an unfamiliar mode, I didn't know how to get back to where I wanted to be, so I just stopped watching TV on my own altogether.

I explained all this to my therapist, because I didn't know if this was more related to my then-unnoticed autism, or to my relationship with my parents at the time (we had issues less/unrelated to neurodivergency). She told me something interesting.

In children's autism assessments, a common test is to give them a straightforward task that they cannot reasonably perform, like opening an overtight jar. The "real" test is to see, when they realize that they cannot do it on their own, if they approach a caregiver for help. Children that do not seek help are more likely to be autistic than those that do.

This aligns with the compulsory independence I've noticed to be common in autistic adults, particularly articulated by those with lower support needs and/or who were evaluated later in life. It just genuinely does not occur to us to ask for help, to the point that we abandon many tasks that we could easily perform with minor assistance. I had assumed it was due to a shared common social trauma (ie bad experiences with asking for help in the past), but the fact that this trait is a childhood test metric hints at something deeper.

My therapist told me that the extremely pathologizing main theory is that this has something to do with theory of mind, that is doesn't occur to us that other people may have skills that we do not. I can't speak for my early childhood self, or for all autistic people, but I don't buy this. Even if I'm aware that someone else has knowledge that I do not (as with my parents understanding of our TV), asking for help still doesn't present itself as an option. Why?

My best guess, using only myself as a model, is due to the static wall of a communication barrier. I struggle a lot to make myself understood, to articulate the thing in my brain well enough that it will appear identically (or at least close enough) in somebody else's brain. I need to be actively aware of myself and my audience. I need to know the correct words, the correct sentence structure, and a close-enough tone, cadence, and body language. I need draft scripts to react to possible responses, because if I get caught too off guard, I may need several minutes to construct an appropriate response. In simple day-to-day interactions, I can get by okay. In a few very specific situations, I can excel. When given the opportunity, I can write more clearly than I am ever capable of speaking.

When I'm in a situation where I need help, I don't have many of my components of communication. I don't always know what my audience knows. I don't have sufficient vocabulary to explain what I need. I don't know what information is relevant to convey, and the order in which I should convey it. I don't often understand the degree of help I need, so I can come across inappropriately urgent or overly relaxed. I have no ability to preplan scripts because I don't even know the basic plot of the situation.

I can stumble though with one or two deficiencies, but if I'm missing too much, me and the potential helper become mutually unintelligible. I have learned the limits of what I can expect from myself, and it is conceptualized as a real and physical barrier. I am not a runner, so running a 5k tomorrow does not present itself as an option to me. In the same way, if I have subconscious knowledge that an interaction is beyond my capability, it does not present itself as an option to me. It's the minimum communication requirements that prevent me from asking for help, not anything to do with the concept of help itself.

Maybe. This is the theory of one person. I'm curious if anyone else vibes with this at all.

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i think ive got a blood pressure problem i dont think ur spozed to hear blood pumping in your pillow

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The situation is catastrophic now in Gaza after the heavy rain and winds this week. Did you know that families in Gaza are sheltered only by some pieces of nylon and that the cold is very severe? My family is suffering from severe cold.

There is no shelter to protect them from the bitter cold. Their help will save my family’s lives from starvation and may help them flee Gaza soon after the crossings are opened soon.

I know that most of you are desperate and bored of constantly asking us for help. But how many times do you see the world and governments that did not look at us with mercy?

Only people with compassionate hearts like you help and sympathize with the afflicted.

Your continued support saves the lives of all my families. Support link here

Save the life of the Balousha family here

Thank you all for your help in reblogging and thank you for your donations that give us hope I am grateful to all of you 💝

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Me when I give the league of legends show a chance because my friend says it's good and I go in expecting an overrated wet fart and I'm slowly forced to acknowledge that it has layered and interesting characters, incredible art direction and animation, deeply engaging political intrigue and gripping drama and I realize that despite any flaws it may have it's ultimately one of the most mature and well rounded pieces of animated television I've ever seen come out of the western world and I end the most recent episode sitting leaned forward staring at the TV actively crying at 5 am

I'm so fucking mad

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Made a new poster! :)

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we have to write poems in my creative writing certificate program, so I pieced something together from Belphie's medical reports