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answering a couple questions i got on this post since i realized ppl genuinely wanna know:

tl;dr:

israel lets very, very little aid get into gaza. even the UN can't get in as much as they want to. funding individual families, gazan led initiatives, and mutual aid collectives operating out of gaza ensures gazans can provide for themselves and pay for the extremely expensive aid that is available.

with all the civil infrastructure destroyed by israel, the situation on the ground has devolved into unrestricted capitalism, driving up the price of aid (that should be free!). this makes it more urgent for people to have funding for daily survival.

the post linked above has examples of how donating to individual families can help a lot. if you want to help more than one family at a time, there are many gazan-led initiatives focusing on rebuilding their infrastructure and distributing aid fairly that are worth donating to instead of large charities that already get the majority of donations.

as i mentioned in the last post: @/careforgaza on twitter is a nonprofit started by gazans, it's been endorsed by multiple palestinian journalists.

the sameer project is a collective organized by diaspora palestinians offering emergency shelter to gazans.

ele elna elak is a project aiming to bring water, food, shelter, etc. to gazans and has been promoted by bisan owda.

and the municipality of gaza itself is fundraising to rebuild water infrastructure.

all of these organizations are active inside gaza right now and are being run by gazans. if anyone knows of other gazan-led mutual aid projects, nonprofits or charities feel free to link them in the notes! hope this helped!

long answers under the cut!

if you wanna donate to a charity that's absolutely fine, but the thing is most charities (and even the UN!) are unable to make it into gaza in the first place, leaving aid rotting at the egyptian side of the border or subject to israeli settler attacks

not to mention, charities and nonprofits also maintain a paternalistic colonial relationship with the indigenous people they are trying to help, determining what aid they need for them instead of returning power to them and letting them make their own choices

i'm not here to say that one option is better than the other, just that they achieve different things and are equally legitimate. there's an attitude among people who question the legitimacy of these gofundme campaigns that somehow the people promoting them are telling them not to donate to charities. nobody is stopping you from donating to charities. we are just asking that you do not dehumanize the very real gazans in your inbox just because their method of asking for aid is more direct and risky.

unfortunately that's exactly what has happened. because israel destroyed all of gaza's more formalized infrastructure, it seems that organized crime and rampant inflation has taken its place. aid is supposed to be free, but in order to save for evacuation or the cost of living, people have started selling them at an inflated price. and aid that is truly free attracts intense, large crowds that are dangerous to navigate.

this was posted on abc a few days ago

it's pure, unrestrained capitalism. i've had multiple palestinians describe this situation to me confidence. that's why everything's so expensive now. why people have to rent out tiny plots of land for their tents to sit on, why my friend @siraj2024 still has to buy tarps to cover the broken windows of the overpriced bombed out apartment he rented, and why a bag of flour can cost a thousand bucks in the north.

even before israel closed and then bombed the rafah crossing, the egyptian hala travel agency was only allowing people to cross the border if they paid a hefty $5000 USD per adult / $2500 USD per child bribe. it denies doing this, but the hundreds of stories from palestinians say otherwise.

with regard to the economy, here in america we saw something similar happen in the wake of hurricane helene and milton. the podcaster margaret killjoy describes how she saw dual economies rise after asheville was fully cut off from the rest of the country - some people offered each other supplies for free in a sort of mutual aid honor system, and some people required payment when they lent supplies because they themselves needed to buy stuff for their families. these dual economies exist in gaza too. and this means they all still need money to survive.

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reblog this if you a perverted dyke

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Your demons do too! Don't give up, keep fighting, don't be afraid to ask for help if you need it. <3

feel the divine gold that scorches in your veins and know that you’re alive. keep your head up. your angels love you.

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Omg I've been thinking about this same exact thing like a ton? Perhaps the occasional patches of scales, or on your back but with some Eldritch tentacles instead... Maybe they could wrap over your limbs or something! Super cool stuff... There's so many cool tattoos that could be used in an affirming way like this! :V

We don't talk about nearly enough about the possibilities on tattoos for alterhuman folks. I'm not just talking about someone tattooing the theta delta in your arm.

I'm talking about tattoos of paw beans in your hands, or an animals facial features in your face, whiskers in your cheeks. Like, even bits of fur outlines on your body and chest would. What would I'd like to have is two cuts printed in my back as if a pair of wings should emerge from it (probably couldn't, or shouldn't because I have like three giant scars that cross over my shoulders). Or, or, even the image of wings in your back, giant black wings.

Nonhumans with horns could tattoo themselves antlers in their forehead, mermaid or marine otherkins could have tattoos of gills in their neck. It would be so nice actually

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Being mobility impaired is like swimming in subnautica when you're oxygen meter runs low and you start taking physical damage. I can only stand or walk with my cane so long before the pain hits.

When I get home from work and have to pee I have to make a split second decision hobbling to the restroom door with my cane-- do I piss standing or sitting? I weigh the calculated risk, just like when I have to grab another bladder fish before drowning. I choose the wrong one and my HP falls, next thing I know I wake up in my base.

The bladder(fish) wasn't worth the wait...

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Hot take, but sometimes I wonder just where the line between fact and fiction is. Why do we have such a binary? Is it possible things are more gray than that? When an artist is possessed by an idea, an urge to create a work, is it not also true to say the art creates the artist? If there is an ouroboros nature to creativity like this, artist makes art and art makes artist, then one could come to the conclusion that perhaps what is reality and what is fictitious is merely a matter of what exists *now*.

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We all love some good ol' apotheosis, and queer liberation theology is all the rage... Being trans, becoming more true, becoming more divine. Your friendly neighborhood demon theologian has a proposition... Let's do a dialectic with queer sex positivity and Christian religion, something befitting a succubus... Something deliciously "heretical" in all the right ways.

I think it's time to look at divinity from a fresh, new, and hella gay perspective: Ladies, gentleman, nonbinary pals and lovely persons/nonhumans of Tumblr... It's time for

Auto-Erotic Theism

Why not get off on the idea of becoming divine? Becoming more true and real, more "you"... Enjoy your body. It's a "temple" of divinity. Perhaps that divinity penetrates all throughout nature, that's a beautiful idea, no? Why not take joy in it? How dare we not love love?

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That's just me :V

they should make that catholic anime girl mascot a succubus. she has big leathery bat wings under that coat and she fucks women sloppy. the rosary is there because she’s a masochist

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You know what's really sexy? Basic empathy

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Process theologian out here to rep our Weird Christian theories about omnipotence being overrated and true divine power not coming from violence but sympathetic divinity~

More than 2000 years of desperate coping and seething from apologists and theologians and they still have not actually resolved the Epicurean Paradox

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charli brown transitions at 20 and crowdfunds her breast augmentation with a halloween charity stream where she's fucking the Great Pumpkin

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I know this is a meme. But excuse me if I say something about this...

The Christianity that exists today in the minds of white and privileged people, the cis the straight and the rich, in much of the global north... It's a bastardization. Low income, gay, and black Christians, those living in the global south (and particularly intersectional combinations of those) have leagues more in common philosophically with satanists of both the atheistic and theistic variety than the people they often are grouped with among their own churches and communities...

Being Christian indicates nothing about if you're a good person or not, if anything it can be a strong indication of trouble if it is seen in context of other warning signs of privilege. Both those who exist within that counter-culture and those who have distanced from it, often out of necessity, are sort of trained to see this... And that's fucked. Nobody should have to be living like this, having cultures shoved down their throat and raised with things that tell them they are wrong or broken.

The last couple thousand years here have been a testament to the ways that revolutionary ideas are co-opted into tools by the elite, and it is a perfectly clear through-line from the actual historical crucifixion by the Roman state to the religion becoming part of the Roman state to today where christofacist bullshit is everywhere. I truly believe that white Christianity, in particular, has failed as a religion, and I think that to many white Christians the symbol of the cross and the meaning associated with it is mere surface level compared to that of, say, a black Christian who has an infinitely more complex understanding of those symbols (Cone, 2011). It is my opinion that in that time that which one might call the original spirit of the Christian tradition was thrust into a counter-culture position, recuperated and replaced by a gilded imposter. A cultural coup. A "Totalitarian Theology" (Althaus-Reid, 2003) which suppresses the radical ideas of its purer counterpart and fills the culture with guilt and hate and imperialism so as to render it practically a husk of its former self.

I implore you, if you're a counter-culture Christian or a Satanist... put aside your philosophical differences, and engage in healthy dialectic with your other liberation-minded thinkers. It's worth it. I have been absolutely astounded by the beautiful theologies of many of my theistic Satanist friends, particularly the preferential option for the oppressed such as in Michael Aquino's 1972 poetic text 'Diabolicon'. The theistic satanist focus on growth and process and the explicitly stated evils of stagnation and anti-process and stifling order I find deeply alluring as a process theolgian.

Despite very different stories and rituals and overall cultures this falls in line with the same philosophical-spiritual goals of Christian liberation and queer theology. And the same goes with the messages of freedom and materialism in atheistic Satanist text. Christian teachings shouldn't be focusing on the dualism of bodies and minds, it should be focusing on the material needs of the body and how they are inherently and intrinsically linked, a philosophy of monism and bodies not dualism. I think that christians can learn so much from atheistic Satanist ideas of utilitarian materialism in this way. Christianity ought to be a bodily religion, the strong dualism that lends itself to flagrant disregard for bodies is essentially anachronistic (McFague, 1987).

It is my genuine belief that queer/liberation theologians and satanists shouldn't be at each other's throats, they should not be arguing at all. They should be making out behind the chapel sloppy style wearing demon horns and nun habits. 💒

Peace and love from your local Tumblr Demon Girl,

-Izalith

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You sound so cool too! Lemme know if you want any advice on personalizing mobility aids n stuff! Keep being you, wolf friend!

Life as a Disabled Alterhuman

Let's talk about being alterhuman without being able bodied.

If you've never met me before, i'm a werewolf. I use the label of psychological otherkin, but nowdays I mostly just say alterhuman.

A lot of individuals in the community can relate to wanting to spend time in their natural ecosystem or habitat. Some of them don't live in a country where that habitat even exists.

Conceptually, I'm lucky. I'm surrounded by nature reserves that are an hour away at most. Some are much closer.

Every part of me wants to be out there, in the trees and bushes and soil, every week. I'm sure some of us ARE out there every week based on some of the responses I've gotten on my posts.

I can't be.

I'm chronically ill. Partly from birth, partly acquired later in life. My mobility is limited by my threshold for suffering. The more I move, the more i'll have to pay for it later. And those debts don't have an upper limit.

I would love to prioritise letting my animal out more, being in nature more, travelling more. Hell- even running. But not only would doing that wreck me over and over again, it would make it impossible for me to meet the demands and responsibilities of my human life.

As a werewolf, there's an internal pull towards more feral behaviour and imagery. But my chronic illness requires constant upkeep, constant maintenance. My wellbeing depends on frequent visits to professionals.

I've always dreamed of running off to a cabin in the woods. I'm sure many of you have. But it's patently impossible for someone like me, who relies so heavily on human healthcare to survive.

The truth is I wouldn't be able to function without humans to look after me. And I have responsibilities that come before my desires for freedom.

None of this stuff makes me any less of an alterhuman. Makes me any less of a werewolf. All of these smaller restrictions do add up to a certain kind of distance from the "ideal alterhuman" perhaps. But my identity has always been, and will always be, an internal thing for me.

I'm not a werewolf IN SPITE of being disabled.

I'm a werewolf who IS ALSO disabled.

[demon-girl-izalith]

This really resonated with me. I'm demonkin and also deal with substantial mobility impairment. Can't get around my best of days without a cane. I've spent the last couple days unable to walk entirely from a flareup. Ideally, I would be out exploring at night, running around looking for people to seduce and stuff, heck, I used to be able to do more of that, but these days my disability has gotten more frequently worse and if I DO try to go wild then I'd break myself. I've already done it a few times and have the surgical scars to prove it.

It's often incredibly humiliating for me too as a demon, I have had to learn to swallow my pride, and still do need to learn that in many ways. I feel like I should be so powerful it makes people cower, but instead they rush to open doors for me and such...

Not only do I have to deal with the dysphoria of not having my wings or fangs or tail, but also not being able to walk easily or at all, not being able to exercise except by swimming when I wanna run and jump and explore. I feel so much freedom has been taken from me.

I am proud of how I've learned kindness and empathy like this though! Empathy does not come easily for people like me. I think relying on people close to me has helped me in some ways develop the skill of cognitive empathy, but I don't think that tradeoff is always worth it so to speak. That being said I'm proud of myself and what I can do. When I wear compression bandages I feel like a badass now. My cane that I have has sigils burned into it with my name and my partners names in runes. I'm looking to get some red contacts, and when I wear goth I think I may be one of the scariest disabled demons ever!

So yeah I'm a demon who IS ALSO disabled.

Life as a Disabled Alterhuman

Let's talk about being alterhuman without being able bodied.

If you've never met me before, i'm a werewolf. I use the label of psychological otherkin, but nowdays I mostly just say alterhuman.

A lot of individuals in the community can relate to wanting to spend time in their natural ecosystem or habitat. Some of them don't live in a country where that habitat even exists.

Conceptually, I'm lucky. I'm surrounded by nature reserves that are an hour away at most. Some are much closer.

Every part of me wants to be out there, in the trees and bushes and soil, every week. I'm sure some of us ARE out there every week based on some of the responses I've gotten on my posts.

I can't be.

I'm chronically ill. Partly from birth, partly acquired later in life. My mobility is limited by my threshold for suffering. The more I move, the more i'll have to pay for it later. And those debts don't have an upper limit.

I would love to prioritise letting my animal out more, being in nature more, travelling more. Hell- even running. But not only would doing that wreck me over and over again, it would make it impossible for me to meet the demands and responsibilities of my human life.

As a werewolf, there's an internal pull towards more feral behaviour and imagery. But my chronic illness requires constant upkeep, constant maintenance. My wellbeing depends on frequent visits to professionals.

I've always dreamed of running off to a cabin in the woods. I'm sure many of you have. But it's patently impossible for someone like me, who relies so heavily on human healthcare to survive.

The truth is I wouldn't be able to function without humans to look after me. And I have responsibilities that come before my desires for freedom.

None of this stuff makes me any less of an alterhuman. Makes me any less of a werewolf. All of these smaller restrictions do add up to a certain kind of distance from the "ideal alterhuman" perhaps. But my identity has always been, and will always be, an internal thing for me.

I'm not a werewolf IN SPITE of being disabled.

I'm a werewolf who IS ALSO disabled.

[demon-girl-izalith]

this is competing HARD for all time favorite image

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Flying shifts be like...