demon-girl-izalith

[demon-girl-izalith]

fyi your religious and spiritual practices don't have to make sense to anyone other than you.

im a christopagan, and most people can't wrap their heads around that. how i can pray the rosary and consult saints, and then proceed to light candles and do devotional acts for aphrodite and hestia.

but the thing is, they don't need to understand it. i understand it.

don't let anyone tell you your practice is invalid because they don't understand it. you understand it.

[demon-girl-izalith]

Bishop asks Trump to show mercy to LGBTQ people and migrants He was simply asked to show mercy toward our marginalized groups of people. Yet being asked to treat vulnerable groups of men, women and children with some small amount of basic human decency made these MAGA Republicans visibly uncomfortable. To be clear, he wasn't asked to support these groups, or even show them a little kindness. He was simply asked to please treat them like human beings — to not single them out and treat them like subhuman "animals," as Trump has called them. There is something deeply and truly wrong with someone who views acting with even just a bare minimum of human decency is asking too much of them — as if things like Honor, Integrity and Compassion are repugnant to their very soul.

[demon-girl-izalith]

Okay. If anyone else remembers this toothpaste pls let me know.

I need to find some. Back prior to 2010 as a little little kid I found a bottle of it in my parents garage in a random box. I have zero idea how old it was. And being a stupid kid I saw the orange glitter in this unopened bottle and tasted it. And it was AMAZING.

At least kid Izzy thought so. Now I need to find it and see if it tastes the same... Almost like orange tic tac but not quite iirc... I gotta try it. It's weird tho I could've sworn the bottle looked a lil different but that's probably the memory being constructed. I remember a shiny green logo not the crest logo but I could be wrong. The toothpaste was distinctly sparkly.

[demon-girl-izalith]

I want to say something for those of you suffering due to the inauguration of trump. A reminder from a heretical demon:

"Christus ist mit uns".

"Emmanuel".

"God is with us".

Solidarity, righteous rage, and truth are tools of the oppressed. Organize and support each other. That's what these ancient prayers mean. That divinity is on the side of the oppressed. When someone does violence to you and your kin in the name of some god, remember that...

[demon-girl-izalith]

I find it deeply unsettling that my fellow Catholics IRL and online are trying to downplay or invalidate the magnitude of this or nitpicking the details. Discomfort as a catholic does not equal their suffering. It never will... Implying that it does is a gross misunderstanding of where privileges lie and the notion of responsibility.

This next part is for my fellow white Christians and especially fellow Catholics. Listen to this proud heretic, I beg you:

How can we sit by and claim to believe in a benevolent god and bring this to its house? allow this to happen in "his" schools, hide the sin in the sacred soil of its green earth to be forgotten? Do you think god forgot these children? Justified their abuse and murder?

If you're a Christian and are feeling hesitation about this protest, I want you to know, god is not standing in that church making justifications; God is not giving shallow apologies for the violence; god is not in the buildings in Rome trying to mitigate a PR disaster. God doesn't care about PR.

God is on the steps, mourning. God is in the hearts of those people who are speaking up. God lives in their justified rage and solidarity. And God lies there, to this very day, in every unmarked grave, remembering.

Truly, don't you see? That we crucified him again? And that we do it all the damn time! We do it with the support of the genocide in Gaza. We did it with the murder of George Floyd. We do it every time a black trans woman is murdered. When an impoverished person starves or freezes to death. When a disabled person falls in the name of an insurance company's profit margins. When children are collateral for the institutions that espouse a supposedly benevolent god... The god of the institution is not, cannot be, fundamentally the same god whose sons, daughters, and nonbinary children were crucified. Those listed here, and many many more...

As christians we best remember that blood is on our hands. Don't try to wash it off and forget. God doesn't forget.

so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what

[demon-girl-izalith]

Almost like the thing that we've created no longer protects the majority but only some select few of us... 🤔

Lol But yeah, society SHOULD be used to take care of us, not hurt us. That's the kinda world I want for my kid, anyways!

saying “you are a burden on society” is just such a weird framing of priorities It’s like saying “wow, think how much better gas mileage your car would get if you weren’t sitting in it” or “think how dry that umbrella would be if you weren’t holding it in between you and the rainstorm”. the things we create? they’re for us. they are meant to carry us. they are meant to protect us. we are meant to hold them up to keep us dry. 

[demon-girl-izalith]

I really really really want to believe this. When I see eco-fasc rhetoric it makes me so angry. But the pessimism about humanity part IS hard when the majority of random people I've met kinda suck! Hell, even the ones who aren't random seem to hold lots of horrible oppressive views. So many people are just blind to others experienced and suffering... For me, the intersection of being a sociopathic, severely disabled trans girl makes me kinda hate humanity sometimes. It really brings out the misanthropic streak in me!

But I want to believe that capitalism sucks SO much that it's the obvious cause of much of the damage here. Just based on how much evil I've seen it do that would at the minimum be possible... and when I look at my kid and my fiancee and I see there's beautiful creativity and love there... Well... I'm gonna try to believe THAT is what we really are, because I think choosing hope is important, even in the face of uncertainty. I think too many people have given up on hope, and just accepted the status quo, the bland uninteresting, and the oppressive as the "natural", as the "reality". I'm not convinced this really is the most true layer of existence. Capitalism, mundane, war mongering, mind numbing, all-polluting, imperialist capitalism isn't the end all-be-all. I refuse to believe that.

[demon-girl-izalith]

Some cute doodles of my alter, nova. She's a very sweet and cuddly leviathan thing. Sometimes I like to imagine laying on her neck or tummy and napping when we're really stressed out- usually she'll talk me out of stressful intrusive thoughts and when I get really dissociative I swear I can feel her patting my head or licking me. DID is weird.

Nova's been an active, conscious thing in my head since I was like ten years old. She's grown a lot over the years tho. I'm very very appreciative for the things she does for me. I struggle with some severe disabilities and am often the one stuck up front (though not always), but nova makes it possible. If I didn't have her help I'd be nowhere fast.

[demon-girl-izalith]

Omg this is so accurate tho for me too!

Okay how about perfumes?-- Les Lunatiques by Ivnea (eldritch void theme) and also Into the Void by Juliet has a Gun (also void themed)!!

gifts to get your local eldritch void deity

cool knives

black nail polish

black cosplay makeup stuff

accessories with eyes on them

cool boots

shiny rocks

rock bracelets

a crown of dried black roses

a flock of trained crows

b o n e s :)

a fucking break

[demon-girl-izalith]

It's absolutely beautiful. Thank you @palatteflags UwU

Eldritch horror, lots of eyes, teeth, and tentacles/ditzy nun, silly priest based moodboard~ ^^ For @demon-girl-izalith :) Hope you like!!

Want one? Send an ask~ -mod Jay

[demon-girl-izalith]

As a disabled, trans, alterhuman... I feel this in my soul. Why does being a big cool monster always metaphorically relate to being bad or disengenuine? Maybe, and this is crazy I know, but maybe... being different is actually a BETTER metaphor for being true to oneself??

too many stories about turning yourself into a monster as a metaphor for pretending to be something you aren't and losing yourself in the process. not enough stories about turning yourself into a monster as a metaphor for choosing to openly embrace yourself even if it's strange to other people

[demon-girl-izalith]

Omg open worm project mentioned!?! I've worked a ton with this connectome. It's so cool. Put it on my own robots and everything. Attached neurons to weird sensors and experimented, made some of my own libraries using its data, the whole nine yards. I will say, and this is important-- connectomes are incomplete maps of brains. They show connections, and sometimes weights between them, but real neurons have all sorts of other really complicated variables that aren't catalogued here (such as neurotransmitters and receptors at synapses, the timing and encoding of individual pulses as they're sucked up by the dendrites which is also quite important, etc). Real organisms are much more complex than this model. But it's a start! And it's cool af! Unfortunately as-is, the code given by the open worm project on GitHub doesn't really store memory or learn or anything. It kinda just runs a simulation of a static small-world network. Making it learn and do cool things is harder but it is possible! One of these days I'll get around to posting my own work on this...

Bugs became way cooler to me when I realized they're basically tiny biological robots. He ain't botherin nobody his prime directive is just [SEEK NUTRIENT]

[demon-girl-izalith]

Why the hell is Grimes talking about deism on Twitter? What even is happening in this world lmfao

People have been sharing this tweet but only the first paragraph and not the second, which I adore. It’s just complete gibberish

[demon-girl-izalith]

Oooh if you meant what saint you chose pre-transition... well for me it was Francis of Assisi... Sure he's perhaps a bit cliche for patron saints but he was chosen by pre-transition Izalith cuz he's kinda queer af? and had some sick takes with his immanent ideas of God. To a heretical pantheist/panentheist like me that was cool.

"Official" Roman Catholic teaching says that you can change patron saints post-confirmation because it's between the person and God iirc? At least that's what a bishop told me a few years back. But since you're the pope, ofc, the final say is up to you. But since I'm a heretic anyways I say I get to choose mine. You could call me pro-choice in that way.

Regardless, Joan of Arc is so fucking cool. They were literally killed for their based crossdressing by the institutions of the time who held the power and that claimed to speak on God's behalf, only for her to later be called a saint by the current ones. Really hits hard as a trans person in these times lmfao

My dad was a music minister as well, btw, but we stayed with the Roman Catholic church and moved between parishes across my country a few times whenever a shitty priest became his boss lol. These days I do my own thing tho... Wearing demon horns and a 3d printed demon tail to church isn't exactly the vibe allowed in a Catholic church and I think that sucks (I still wear my arm warmers with the trans flags to Christmas mass when I'm in town tho) but like what happened to "all are welcome" hmm? Demongender/kin people like me are left out and I think the j-man would disagree with this hypocrisy. Like what just cuz I'm a demon I can't be a theologian? Kinda stupid imho

Oh, btw, since you're the pope now, are demon girls allowed as clergy in your ministry? Can I be demon transbian clergy, foone? I must know...

Thank you for your time, your eminence,

-Demon girl Izalith

When you are confirmed, you pick a name of a patron saint, and from them on you'll get different special abilities based on which one you picked.

Personally I went with St. Isidore of Seville, which gives me a percentage bonus to my computer skills.

I had considered St. Francis de Sales, for the writing bonuses, but he's also the patron saint of Columbus, Ohio and I don't want any Ohio-related bonuses cluttering up my stats page. I've spent most of my life attempting to maximize my distance from Ohio, as have many Ohioans I've met.

My dad picked St. Cecilia for the musical skills. And her bonuses are doubled if he's doing music for the church, which ended up being the driving force behind my father's faith. We switched denominations every time my dad got kicked out of the church band.

Which happened surprisingly often. "leader of the church band" is one of those roles that attracts the worst kind of petty tyrant, and my dad (like me) doesn't really think authority is really something you should give a shot about, so he'd just be like "eh, screw you, I'll go find another church band" and now we're Baptists instead of Presbyterians.

Me and my sis used to joke that were only a couple church disagreements away from showing up at a synagogue or mosque. My dad believed in Psalm 98:4 "Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all the earth: make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise". He belonged to the Church of the Joyful Noise.

Anyway the cool thing about selecting St. Isidore is that the programmer socks bonus stacks with it, so I can be doubly bonused and really get into some deep programming.

[demon-girl-izalith]

I went with the Joan of Arc patron saint to get that transition buff on HRT, personally. Isidore is a solid choice for programming socks tho, hadn't considered that meta

When you are confirmed, you pick a name of a patron saint, and from them on you'll get different special abilities based on which one you picked.

Personally I went with St. Isidore of Seville, which gives me a percentage bonus to my computer skills.

I had considered St. Francis de Sales, for the writing bonuses, but he's also the patron saint of Columbus, Ohio and I don't want any Ohio-related bonuses cluttering up my stats page. I've spent most of my life attempting to maximize my distance from Ohio, as have many Ohioans I've met.

My dad picked St. Cecilia for the musical skills. And her bonuses are doubled if he's doing music for the church, which ended up being the driving force behind my father's faith. We switched denominations every time my dad got kicked out of the church band.

Which happened surprisingly often. "leader of the church band" is one of those roles that attracts the worst kind of petty tyrant, and my dad (like me) doesn't really think authority is really something you should give a shot about, so he'd just be like "eh, screw you, I'll go find another church band" and now we're Baptists instead of Presbyterians.

Me and my sis used to joke that were only a couple church disagreements away from showing up at a synagogue or mosque. My dad believed in Psalm 98:4 "Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all the earth: make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise". He belonged to the Church of the Joyful Noise.

Anyway the cool thing about selecting St. Isidore is that the programmer socks bonus stacks with it, so I can be doubly bonused and really get into some deep programming.

[demon-girl-izalith]

The Catholic church has done so much damage to indigenous populations, various oppressed peoples of other faiths, and frankly just children in general. As a transgender Catholic I would know... I say this as a queer Christian because I find it simply absurd that so many other Christians are fine just turning a blind eye to how awful institutionalized religion has historically always been and how bad it's been at supposedly doing what it claims to do for oppressed groups since forever. Did none of you read the good Samaritan???... Just talk with any non-christian and it is not hard to see that Christianity has done some serious damage. And even if it "has done good things, too!" you can't just turn a blind eye to the massive trail of bodies. Not with frequent stories and histories full of kidnapping, murder, molestation, war, etc... C'mon get real. We all know something is wrong. Not being aware of this is a privilege you have as a Christian and insisting that people being critical of your religion's various institutions is oppressing YOU is victim blaming.

Institutionalized religion is bad because it's an institution and those quite easily go bad and are easily co-opted... It's not because your spirituality or culture as a religious person are bad, but because institutions naturally resist change, and that means they're going to be bad for people who are suffering, constantly being slow to grow and accept those people and work towards helping them.

If your religion was founded on principles of supporting the oppressed (as was Christianity, at least originally) then you've got yourself an immediate contradiction between claiming to side with the oppressed and following the teachings of the J man and then doing so via systematic violence and oppression as a huge dogmatic institution. It makes no sense. Something has to change because we can't live lives rife with such contradictions. They have no place in a worldview that claims to be on the side of life.

To any Christians reading this, especially Catholics... listen guys, I grew up goin to church with you, doing your rituals and hearing the same homilies. I know it's confusing but the world is not black and white. You can oppose institutions and still hold your culture and religion as part of your identity. That's literally what Jesus did. Letting yourself be more nuanced is always a good thing, don't let institutions take that from you. Perhaps look back at that old Bible (preferably not a king James translation) and try to open your eyes to the disgrace that is the modern church and what it's done. Rather than attacking or silencing the voices of people who are hurting you can stand by them and be angry with them. You know, like Jesus?

I guess to cap this off... I'm reminded of one of my favorite quips from one of my favorite videos essayists, CJ the X: "remember! Jesus loves you and hates the institution!"

Love seeing something from TikTok and going “girlie that is literally what led to the downfall of the Papal States”

[demon-girl-izalith]

Hi everyone, i was asked by Nader @abdalsalam1990 to draw my character asking you to donate, please help out Nader and his family, he is just 17, he should not be forced to be asking artists and anybody who listens to do charity work for him, he should be having fun enjoying his childhood and studying, which is impossible now due to the genocide happening to him and his people.

We have talked extensively and the pictures, videos and experiences he has shared with me are haunting but his unending kindness and good heart is not broken. Please, help out if you can, and if you cannot share this and encourage others to share. Thank you so much and i hope for the best.

Reblogs are appreciated, and free palestine.