deletethiswhenmytimehascome

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one day I woke up and realised all the waiting and yearning was actually me living my life and it’s happening right now and it’s still good even if it’s not perfect and there is no moment when all your dreams get fulfilled and everything makes sense. like… this is it. this is life. you’ll waste away your youth waiting for some imagined future if you don’t love life for what it is now and make the most of it

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I don't want to ever fall in love again

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I hate love

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I'm wasting my life but am I wasting your time as well

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I fucking hate this but I deserve it so so much I deserve so much worse

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please don't lie to me I deserve to suffer through it all

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I wish I could be sure that you're not hurting more than you admit

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I don't feel so good, chief

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I wish you knew of all the different shapes in which love can exist

I wish I could make you understand why I love so much and so little at the same time

And why to me, this feeling is so hard to decipher

I wish you knew how much it hurts to love two people at the same time

But I also desperately hope that you will never know the feeling

Because the pain is neverending and I've never felt so small

And yet so very big

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I think it's finally time I owned up to my mistakes

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wish I didn't have to

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existence is suffering

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pain train rain feign blame tame

they all feel the //same//

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am I getting used to the pain or is the pain getting used to me

like yo bitch even THIS didn't phase you? alright then the victory is yours

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I wanna get hospitalized so I can have an excuse to disappear for a few days :)

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taaaaaaste the irooooon(y) in my bloooooood