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REMEMBER WHEN I WAS AROUND A WHOLE LOT AND THEN SUDDENLY I WASN'T?

YEAH THAT'S A THING THAT HAPPENED.

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I HOPE I CAN ACTUALLY HELP HIM.  I'VE BEEN A PRETTY TERRIBLE MOIRAIL UNTIL THIS POINT.  I'M TRYING THIS THING WHERE I'M NO SO SELFISHLY FIXED ON MY OWN ISSUES AND I TRY TO HELP OTHERS WHEN I CAN.

Y'KNOW OUTSIDE OF MY NOT WANTING TO INTERACT WITH THE HUMANS THAT LOOK AT ME LIKE I'M A COMPLETE FREAK.

:33 < Mew’ve always b33n good fur Gamz33

:33 < Nobody else could help him out better.

:33 < I hope fur his sake he’s okay

:33 < and things work out fur him

:33 < I can imagine Karkitty

:33 < I’m not ofur it either.

:33 < The Gamz33 I’m with is helping me some.

:33 < I’m sure our Gamz33 is helping mew some too.

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I DON'T KNOW WHEN HE WON'T BE HERE.  IT SEEMS LIKE HE'LL BE STICKING AROUND FOR A WHILE.  HE SORT OF HALF LIVES WITH ME I GUESS.  BUT I GUESS I CAN LET YOU KNOW WHEN HE'S GONE OUT FOR A WHILE.

HE'S BEEN THROUGH A LOT RECENTLY.

IT'S KIND OF WEIRD FOR ME TO SEE OTHERS, Y'KNOW?  I MEAN CONSIDERING EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED I'M STILL KIND OF...LIVING WITH IT.

:33 < Mew are wise in doing that, Karkitty.

:33 < Though I might have to visit mew later.  

:33 < Not now though.

:33 < I’m happy mew f33l happy.  

:33 < *ac smiles, her tail twitching happily*

:33 < It’s purrectly okay.

:33 < Mew didn’t know anything about it until meow.

:33 < Yeah, I’ll stay here until Gamz33 leaves.

:33 < But I’m glad he’s not like that with you.

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IT'S NOT A GOOD WAY FOR ME TO DEAL WITH THINGS.  RATHER THAN ACTUALLY DEALING WITH THEM I'M SORT OF JUST HIDING AND PRETENDING IT'S OKAY FOR ME TO STAY HERE.

BUT HEY, I FEEL AT HOME HERE SO I GUESS IT WAS A GOOD THING I CAME DOWN?  ANYWAY, I'M SORRY TO HEAR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED.

AS FOR GAMZEE, RIGHT NOW HE'S STAYING WITH ME AGAIN I GUESS.  HE WAS ON ALTERNIA FOR A WHILE BUT NOW HE'S NOT.  ANYWAY, HE'S ALRIGHT WHEN HE'S WITH ME.

:33 < Mew have the right idea.  Beclaws it seems efurrytime somebody from our session comes up here, something bad happens.

:33< Equius obtained God Tier……he won’t tell me though.  But something purrompted him to do that when he was here.

:33 < I went paranoid due to Gam and what he did to Equius and I.

:33 < And Gamzee……..

:33 < I haven’t heard from him in awhile

:33 < But Equius says he went purrty insane when he got here……

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mewareinsane replied to your post: Karkitty? Is that mew?

I found mew! It’s been far too long! Where are mew? You’re not on Alternia?

I'M ON EARTH.  I'VE BEEN HERE FOR A WHILE ACTUALLY.  I KIND OF BAILED AFTER THE GAME BECAUSE I'M A COWARD.

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Karkitty? Is that mew?

YEAH IT'S ME.

LONG TIME NO SEE.

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>You listen the whole time, curling against his side as he speaks.  After he finishes you sigh softly, listening to his heartbeat for a moment.

WELL, AS HARD AS IT IS YOU SHOULD PROBABLY TALK TO HER.  HEARING THINGS SECONDHAND ISN'T REALLY THE BEST SOURCE OF INFORMATION.  IF SHE CARES ABOUT YOU SHE'LL BE TRUTHFUL.  I DON'T SEE WHY SHE SHOULDN'T BE TRUTHFUL EITHER.  IT WOULDN'T BE FAIR FOR YOU.

WHATEVER THE CASE IS THOUGH YOU KNOW YOU'RE WELCOME HERE AND I'M ALWAYS GOING TO BE HERE.

I GOT SOMETHING MADE FOR YOU BY THE WAY.

>You dig into your pocket and hand him a key.

IN CASE I'M OUT OR SOMETHING.

> After being lead to the couch and handed a glass, you preceded to tell him what was going on.

Shit’s been happenin’ between me and Vriska.  Somebody told me she was with an Eridan, said I love you and all that shit, and now somebody’s tellin’ me that I got this all wrong.  Even her ex-matesprit contacted me.  Stupid motherfuckin’ alternate is scarin’ the shit out of me.  I can’t take it anymore brother.  I like bein’ on alternia, but this has got ta stop.

I’m gonna leave her cause this is the second time she’s done this ta me I think.

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COME IN AND SIT DOWN.  YOU CAN TELL ME AS MUCH AS YOU CAN.  I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE SO I'LL LISTEN FOR AS LONG AS YOU WANT ME TO OKAY?

>You lead him in and shut the door.  Once you're at the sofa you let him sit first, grabbing something to drink for both of you, sitting down next to him once you've handed him a glass.

I'M RIGHT HERE.

> Wrapping your arms around him after he does the action first, you can’t help but start shaking and crying.  It was breaking you apart to know what’s going on with Vriska and all the shit taking place on Alternia.  To tell your moirail, you were looking forward to it.  Hugging back, you frown, your normal smile wiped away.

Karbro….I can’t take the motherfuckin’ shit that’s up and happenin’ with me right now.  It’s eatin’ this brother alive.  More then I can say this second…..

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>When he arrives you head to the door, letting him in.  Once he's visible you can't help but wrap your arms around his middle and rest your cheek against him, hugging him.  It's been too long since you last saw your moirail and you've been lonely.

Reading his message, you hightail it to the neared transportalizer and press a few buttons, transporting to the one nearest to his complex.  Once you get on that one, you run to Karkat’s apartment, knocking on the door.  You never realized how much you’d miss Earth until now.

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Karbro, I ended up back on Alternia after persuading an Equius of our timeline to open a void so I could go through. I will be visiting you often when Vriska finds a transportalizer. Love ya Karbro. And I'm sorry if this changes anything between us.

YOU'RE BACK ON ALTERNIA HUH?

IT'LL BE LONELY HERE WITHOUT YOU BUT TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF OKAY?

YOU ALWAYS HAVE A HOME HERE.

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SOUNDS UNPLEASANT REGARDLESS.

>You shrug and breathe out heavily, watching your breath come out in a white puff.  You wish you could at least have a job that paid more but the hours and flexibility of this one was the best for you and you weren't really willing to do something you had to be in public for.

WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR CHRISTMAS?  OH, AND I GUESS IF WE HAVE A DINNER OR WHATEVER YOU CAN INVITE YOUR MATESPRIT.

Workin’ at that motherfuckin’ dark carnival the fleshies called a Freak Show had it’s advantages.  I guess it got me stronger then I used ta be.  

> You laugh a little, the horrendous past in which you were in that place was a distant memory.  It didn’t haunt your nightmares anymore and you were hoping they wouldn’t ever again.  

I’ll be gettin’ used to the wicked traditions with ya brother.  That place I was at before I met you never celebrated anything when it came to the holidays.  I tried to keep up with the Twelfth Pedigree when I was there, but it never worked out too well.  Due to as you said, the differences with the motherfuckin’ calenders.  

> You don’t remember ever hearing anybody complain that you were in your Moirail’s apartment since you moved in and to be honest, you’d fight to stay there if they did.  You didn’t want to be anywhere else.  Vriska’s maybe, but you were used to the small apartment you and Karkat shared. 

> Walking with him, you sort of just keep at a lazy, relaxing pace.  There wasn’t any reason to be in a rush.  Not that you noticed anyway.

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YOU'RE PRETTY STRONG HEY?  WELL THAT'S FAIR ENOUGH THEN.

WE'LL PICK UP SOME OTHER CHRISTMAS THINGS.  I GUESS SINCE WE'RE ON EARTH NOW WE CAN PROBABLY GET USED TO THEIR TRADITIONS OR WHATEVER.  IT'S NOT REALLY EASY TO CELEBRATE TWELFTH PERIGREE HERE, CONSIDERING THE DIFFERENT CALENDAR.

>You follow him out, locking the apartment once you're in the hall.  You stretch and shove your hands in your pockets.  You're pretty sure that you're not supposed to have someone staying with you without letting the apartment manager know but you really don't care all that much.  As long as the two of you don't make waves you're fine.

It's a long walk but you don't mind it much considering you're not walking it alone.

I can all up and do hugs bro.  Hugs are fuckin’ miraculous.  I’ll carry the tree home as well.  None of that sounds too hard ta accomplish.

> Putting on your jacket, you zip it up some and wait for him to finish getting all the necessary items on before you both head outside.

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WE CAN WALK, AS LONG AS YOU INTEND TO WARM ME UP LATER WITH HUGS.  THAT OR YOU HAVE TO CARRY THE TREE ON THE WAY HOME.

>You pull your jacket on along with a hat, scarf, and gloves.

I hate human transportation but if ya don’t like walkin’, then I can deal with the motherfucking bus.

> You grab your jacket as well as his and hand his to him.

It’s up to you bro.

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ALRIGHT THEN LET'S GET OUR JACKETS ON AND WE CAN GO TO THAT 24-HOUR STORE.  WE'LL PROBABLY HAVE TO TAKE THE BUS UNLESS YOU FEEL LIKE WALKING.  IT'S PRETTY CHILLY OUT.

You can actually buy fake trees for this human holiday?  

I only knew about the real ones, Karbro.

Sounds motherfuckin’ wicked!  

I’d rather not clean up a huge damn mess in our apartment brother.

It sounds like it would be too much of a hassle.

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YEAH WHY NOT.  WE CAN PROBABLY AFFORD A REAL ONE IF YOU WANT BUT THEY END UP BEING MESSY.  IT'S CHEAPER IF WE GET A FAKE ONE THAT WE CAN USE OVER AND OVER SINCE WE NEED TO BUY DECORATIONS TOO.

Yeah, it’s really fuckin’ cold now.  

> Your eyes widen a bit.  Celebrating the human holidays with your moirail?  How could you pass that up?

Fuck yeah bro!  

We can we go?

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