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May I ask you a question?' The beautiful waitress who always severs coffee began to talk to me.

'Yeah, Sure'. I replied being hesitated. I was not in the mood to talk to someone.

'Why you always prefer this corner seat and ordered two cups of coffee? For the last three months, I have seen you like this, no one is with you but you're ordering the same'.

She has such a long curiosity with beautiful politeness. She might be thinking what kind of fucking asshole I am.

So what's wrong with that? I wanted to do the cross-question but I suppress that inside me.

'Do you know? We had a first meeting in this restaurant. I love this place cause this couch has her smell, this table has her reflection, these cups have her smile and this coffee has her taste'. In a low voice, I told her the truth.

'Have a great time with those memories sir'. She put a smile hiding her real face just to do her formal duty.

#themind #powerfulwords #thetearedenvelop #loveaffection #Onesidedfeelings #desiretosmile

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deepyeshblog-blog · 5 years ago

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Yes ! I am Idiot Cause I Love You.

When I think I write when I talk I think less you talk more you think. I don't know how I am? why I am like this ? may be some internal issues but not confident about it. Sometimes nothing happens in life.

Everything is going well. You are making yourself happy just to pretend not being sad. But in life everyday doesn't seems to be as usual i.e happy and well. Even a li'l things makes you upset or something else happens inside you that cannot be expressed in words though. Even though words makes you strong. Some people comes in your life like the truest one, to whom you may believe to with whom you become happy to talk ,oto whom you are faithful to whom you are making yourself comfortable and inner you asks:

why don't you tell her everything that you feel for her?

But minds comes first and talk to you why are you trying to ruin your good relation? why are you being dumb?why are you looking for those things that everyone else do? Be different from other.

And inner you tells you yeah I am being different I don't talk about my feeling about my thinking cause I am happy what I am.

Sometimes I do overthinking and is not the solution to live. Obviously not like this how people lives but a minute things makes you to think about lots of things and makes internal confession with yourself. When I get upset or dissapointed I do simply writing and this has always abandoned me the best to assume that I am all good I am normal.

Today she has got something from someone don't know who is that fucking someone but she just posted it on her story she is not mine I know that she won't be mine I also know that she doesn't feels like how I do. But when I feel alone I've always made myself happy with her by doing just simple text. I didn't know before by doing simple text you becomes that much of happy and feels good. This happiness ruined sometimes when the unknown fucking somebody gives some kitkat to her what that someone thinks man, by giving simple kitkat what will happens? and what she thinks by posting thank you for kitkat.

That's simple it means she's appreciating but she could to appreciation by not mentioning anything in this fucking social medias.

And here I am the fucking idiot is thinking about that bitter taste chocolate ohh man chocolate doesn't tase bitter though but this simple fucking things lead me to deep bitter thinking that might not be in real. I can't even ask who gave you that fucking bitter chocolate?

Why I can't ? Fucking dumb you don't have right to ask that question.

Do you know who you are for her? You idiot who you think yourself are you her boyfriend ? Or bestei ?

Ohh man these assholes besties have been making themselves closed to everygirls. And besteis are allowed to do questions, secret conversation, they shares everything, yeah man everything you cannot even imagine how much they became closed it's out of control. My middle finger up for those besties. Besties are those Who just know how to ruins innocence feelings.

Hah, am I becoming selfish? no no man I just became anti besties.

How could I man they are sharing everything and you are becoming selfish? How ?

You idiot why are you thinking this much deep ? You don' t even have right to ask bruh. One day it will make me insane. But hope I won't be like that. I am not that much idiot.

Now what ? Nothing happens everything is fine why I am thinking too much even though she doesn't think about me. Don't even know what she thinks. I always have done text Hey dear, Hey Sweetheart and she replies as usual 'Yeah,Whats up'? just a single word just fucking single word. Can't she writes `Yeah dear', doesn't she know how to write Yeah dear?

Why should she do those text to you man? Is she your lover ?

No I haven't purposed her . So why are feeling man kill your feeling get some rest do your work and live happily.What she have feelings for you?

She may feel like a casual distance idiot and dumb friend who just do simple text and always says 'anything else'. This seems little bit dumb one, who will say all the time 'anything else'.

What can I do if I don't know how to do conversation with a girl ?

Why don't you know ? You have to know.

I am not a playboy.

Who told you talk like a playboy?

But I don't know how to flirt?

Who told you to filrt?

You can makes her feel good.

Oky then tell me the how to do conversation just to make her good?

You are such an idiot.

Huh, seriously ?

Don't why I wrote this but finally I am having some peace in inner me.

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