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today's work bathroom sleep: really refreshing actually, slight headache afterwards, felt a lot longer than 15 minutes

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I wonder how many people I've disappointed, how many people I've wronged, how many people have I affected negatively? I don't think my apology would mean much anymore, I wonder if they wish they've never met me

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I'm really sleepy and it's 3am so fun fact abt me, I'm constantly scared I've said/am saying/will say something bad and/or wrong, and I mean, worse than I tend to say already.

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I'm gonna go back to wearing a mask to work idgaf what my parents say, I shouldn't even have taken it off, why do they even care that I have it on, it's less of a bother to everyone involved

why am I this easy to affect? I'm literally sobbing in a public bathroom because of that, god fucking dammit

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why am I this easy to affect? I'm literally sobbing in a public bathroom because of that, god fucking dammit

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woman working at the store just told me I "should put a mask on" and I can feel all the progress of trying not to use a mask out in public 24/7 slipping

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Felt myself spiraling into being sad at work again and started scratching my arm until I started acting normal

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SoundCloud decided to put Anthems for a Seventeen Year - Old Girl on the random songs, I'm literally fighting back tears damn you I Saw the TV Glow!!!

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I may or may not have just spent 30 minutes sleeping in the public bathroom at the mall, which might not be a good thing.

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It's sudden wave of sadness time, zoo wee mama!!

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I think this is a good sign I'm entering my "annoying sad" phase.

as much as I'm terrified of it, I wish I could feel romantical love, I want to kiss and feel like I'm theirs, I want my body to be known intimately, it wouldn't fix me, but I wish I'd at least feel it once

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I'll lower my head and I'll be nice and I'll apologize, I can make myself so small I'll fit on the palm of their hand, I'll bite myself for every mistake I've made to make sure the marks remind me of it, if not that, then what I am missing?

as much as I'm terrified of it, I wish I could feel romantical love, I want to kiss and feel like I'm theirs, I want my body to be known intimately, it wouldn't fix me, but I wish I'd at least feel it once

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as much as I'm terrified of it, I wish I could feel romantical love, I want to kiss and feel like I'm theirs, I want my body to be known intimately, it wouldn't fix me, but I wish I'd at least feel it once

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cage me like a bird ill never stop singing for you

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How do fat/obese ppl have sex

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turns out I’ll always carry my 15 year old self. silly me

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turns out I’ll always carry my 15 year old self. silly me