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ohh food! > I shouldn't have eaten that I should never be allowed to eat ever again I'm disgusting i should starve myself > ohh food! >

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for 2025 I'm gonna wish for something yaoi or yuri or anything in-between to happen to me pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease

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I have to eat breakfast but then I eat breakfast and I regret cuz I shouldn't have eaten breakfast cuz now I'm full and I feel fat and my whole body wants to kill me and hhhhhhh

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I'm annoying, awkward and genuinely uncomfortable to be around, anyways wanna hang out

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god must have some personal vendetta against me, mf made the biggest cat and kitty enjoyer allergic to cats, what sort of BULLSHIT

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adults: oh silly children with no responsibilities no real trauma no life experience no worries and yet oh so dramatic about nothing

also adults: oh thank fucking GOD i am not in school anymore, i had another nightmare i was THERE again, i woke up in a cold sweat bc i didn't study for my TEST-there's nothing not anything like the sweet relief of realizing that you actually don't have one and you won't have one in a very very long time, i still remember what the hallways smell like, i graduated years ago but i don't feel safe yet

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i wonder how many people like full on hate me, it'd be funny to know

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im so damn sleepy

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"you'll never love anyone if you can't love yourself" guess my ass is staying loveless thennnnnnnnnm

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i've been shaking for like 10 minutes now, i just can't, i can't even find a comfortable position to draw

can i seriously just, not finish a single drawing??? it's just a pose, it's all that is, i barely did the sketch and i already lost all motivation to even try to continue, did my ambition decline this much?????

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can i seriously just, not finish a single drawing??? it's just a pose, it's all that is, i barely did the sketch and i already lost all motivation to even try to continue, did my ambition decline this much?????

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NEVERMIND IT WAS IN MY BACKPACK 😭

I lost my pan flag pin again I'm going to fucking kill myself oh my goddddddd

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how can I be this irresponsible with something this simple like, god fucking dammit

I lost my pan flag pin again I'm going to fucking kill myself oh my goddddddd

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I lost my pan flag pin again I'm going to fucking kill myself oh my goddddddd

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From 0 to 10 how weird is it to want to punch a metal pipe until both my knuckles hurt

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I'm at the verge of taking an 1h break instead of 30min just so I can take a nap

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my back hurts so baddddd god every second I'm at work pisses me off more, I should be at home, I should be at a plane, I should be in Spain