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5/5/22

oh wow something just clicked for me. expecting that all people are one way, or expecting that a relationship will go in a specific direction will drive it there Since reality is just a reflection of your thoughts and feelings- that means that if you are constantly expecting that no friend will ever be good enough, or that there is nothing that can fit your expectations or if you feel that you are always attracting x,y, or z thing- even saying it in passing in some cases like earlier I noticed myself saying "i always" instead of "in the past i have" when I'm well aware that ship has sailed and it's no longer a cycle, habit, or situation I deal with. Words truly are powerful, and I'm starting to see that more and more and more.

Like if I expect there is room for me to fail then I will fail if I expect I will write a bad song it'll likely not be very good I can take reality by the balls and be the most amazing charming attractive intelligent well received and successful version of myself and the possibilities are literally limitless :)

The more I understand who I am and who I'm becoming the more clear these things feel and I honestly feel a little silly for not realizing this earlier on like last year when vee explained this concept to me LMFAOOO

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Why does being a woman have to be so scary? lol I don't generally ID as a woman beause I am nonbinary and gender nonconforming like I don't identify with the human concept of gender at all... but- I do on some level associate myself with womanhood or femininity because of my experiences as someone w a vagina and who has been "socialized" as a woman. Btw, I know this is not everyone's experience or idea of gender. I know many people do not feel as if they were socialized as the gender they were assigned at birth bc they never were that gender. Anyways, I just grieve for trans people and women. It's so sad like I feel like I can just feel the collective grief. It sickens me that we live in a world like this. When I'm rich I will make a difference, I will go to college, I will get degrees in sociology and business. I will build resources for minorities and oppressed groups. People deserve to build themselves up. People deserve not to have to scrounge for an income and work at a job they despise. I am hellbent on making a mark in this world. On being beautifully and radically against the system. On breaking it down, on opening the eyes of the masses. Of learning occult science, and once I am a master teaching it to others. So they can defend themselves and function well in life. I will not falter, I will not become victim to suffering. I will let nothing stop me, every single step that I take, every experience I have drives me closer to success.

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CHALLENGE YOURSELF THIS MONTH TO BECOME YOUR IDEAL SELF....

How does this version of you speak to itself

How does this version think

How you we feel about ourselves....do you wanna feel confident, happy, alive??

Are we exercising??

What’s your attitude towards life

What does this version wear?

What does this version say about itself? Does this version speak positively, does this version speak life into everything

Stick to your affirmations. Drill those affirmations or new way of thinking into your head. Remember that you are not set in stone, all you need to do is reprogram your mind/think differently about yourself and life will reflect that back to you. We know this.

Stop waiting for things to happen and start realising that circumstances change when you change. Start now.

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5/1/22 5:17 AM

I have a list of really cute and great stuff for my altar coming. I'm going to actually clean out my altar drawer tomorrow and get rid of the shit I no longer need to make room for what I want for me and mama vehlo to work together. I also am getting a Large black pillar candle for Anubis. I'm extremely excited, NOT ONLY those two things but OMG. I am getting the CUTEST fucking oracle deck. It's 54 dollars and damn worth it. It's absolutely fucking GORGEOUS. Here's a list of everything I bought. The Spirits & Shadows Oracle Deck, Mama Vehlo Strongly suggested I get that one. I think she really likes it. <3 The Secrets of Wand Wood Oracle Deck- I wasn't planning on dropping 50 bucks on an oracle deck. I just had to get it though, this deck is fucking gorgeous. I am in love with it. I got 3 Beeswax mushroom body candles. They're so cute, I'll be using them for Self Love spells. One is Black, for a protection spell. I got a Cedar & Rose cleansing bundle <3 A Clove and Citrus Black Candle it's called the "Only Bad Bitches Can Light This Candle" I feel like it's a great self esteem boost and I can also use it for protection since it's got clove in it. I got a black Chamomile and Majoram scented Skull candle!! For relaxation <3 I got a Soap Stone pentacle Altar Tile~ Soapstone is a balancing stone, So I figured that would be good. I wanted something that could help me balance and transmute energy. As I am spending a lot of time doing that. I got a Brass Altar Bell! Super cute, and kind of small but great for what I need it for! I got a BIG BLACK ritual candle, it's a pillar one. For Anubis and for protection, It's both. Return to sender Protection Oil, for my biggest fans <3 ;P Protector-OR Protection Oil, because who want some good old spiritual protection? <3 I got a 30 Pack Herb Kit! I chose the herbs I wanted, I'm very excited to try them out! I also got a Let go and Move on Oil in a bundle with it! So, You know I'll be using the fuck out of that LMFAO. I'm soooooooooooo very happy, and I'm going to go ahead and let my mind wander from it for now. I can't wait to get my stuff, I'm really happy.

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Something I wish I was told as a young witch:

Correspondences are the most potent when it resonates with your meaning and your reality.

Yes, every old dusty grimoire says that we use the new moon for manifestation.

Every popular new age author since the 80′s says that rose quartz is used for love magic.

A lot of witchcraft bloggers say to use green candles for money magic.

But:

If your spirit tells you that the new moon is going to benefit your divination rituals that night? Trust your intuition.

If you pick up a rose quartz, and that stone tells you that it wants to help you feel protected? Listen to it.

If you associate other colors with money because your country’s paper currency isn’t green? Use the red, blue, yellow, or other color candles.

Collective correspondences are useful and have weight to them, but nothing is more effective than your own instincts.

Learn to trust your intuitive gifts, babes.

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relax & enjoy

when you manifest, you assume you already have something that in your 3d you do not own. after you assumed that, you persist in the knowledge that you already have that thing that you want. and then you get it.

however, there’s really one thing only that can make the manifesting experience enjoyable and fun: to relax. don’t stress and absolutely don’t obsess about your desires. don’t continuously think about them throughout your day, searching for them in your 3d. relax, relax, relax. chill, chill, chill. you already assumed, so you did it! you manifested it. there’s no need to stress about it. it’s yours!!! so, go on with your day. play with your dog, hang out with a friend, read a good book. enjoy the feeling of already having it. really take a moment to enjoy the fact that you manifested what you wanted. it’s yours, you have it, you own it. repeat after me: it’s mine, i have it, i own it.

go on & live your life then, honey!!! <3

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sometimes it is so difficult to disconnect from the shit people wish at me. I just have to keep it stepping though and I know even focusing on it is against what I need to be doing. I am not someone who thrives on drama anymore. I enjoy some good chaos here and there. Just not drama, that shit sucks the life out of you. I'm tired of being angry and tired of being tired. It's easier to just focus on learning and healing- yet sometimes it feels tempting to turn back. I won't though. I am not someone who turns back. I always keep moving forward and I'm affirming that to myself strongly. It's getting easier and easier to let go. I'm getting there- slowly but surely making great progress. I'm being rewarded for it continually, so I will keep doing what I need to do. I guess instead of focusing on how frustrating or upsetting it can feel that people wish failure on me I can instead construct ideas for my future or read my books. Or write about how successful I am and affirm my successes into reality- It'll be funny to look back on this blog when I'm rich and famous. like shocking- because I'll be able to look back and see how much MORE I've grown. Hopefully I won't cringe the way I did when I cleared out my facebook. I'm still considering deleting the accounts. I'm just not sure yet.

4/30/22

In true Gen Z fashion, it is more appealing to me to post my personal business online than to upkeep a journal. So I will settle for something in between. An anonymous Tumblr where I can rant to my heart's content. I've been working on the Law of Assumption and doing really amazing at it tbh. Things have been weird lately but in a good way though. Stuff is changing and I'm good with that. I made this basically to just express myself freely and have fun. I'll maybe post content here too. I like connecting with people.

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4/30/22

In true Gen Z fashion, it is more appealing to me to post my personal business online than to upkeep a journal. So I will settle for something in between. An anonymous Tumblr where I can rant to my heart's content. I've been working on the Law of Assumption and doing really amazing at it tbh. Things have been weird lately but in a good way though. Stuff is changing and I'm good with that. I made this basically to just express myself freely and have fun. I'll maybe post content here too. I like connecting with people.