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i guess headcanon that those fights between john and mary dean mentions in dark side of the moon where john will up and leave for a few days don’t start until after sam is born. because as that point heaven is no longer invested in making sure that john and mary stay together. the vessels have been born and that’s all they needed really.

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supernatural is like. We are saying themes at you now about the authorfathergod and about crises of faith and about religion as a force for evil or good and cycles of abuse and discovery of free will. aaaaaand now we’re making a boner joke

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Thinking about the poetics of Dean telling Cas to never change and then Cas changing immeasurably due explicitly Dean’s influence.

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“There are two things that I know for certain. One, Bert and Ernie are gay. Two, you are not gonna die a virgin.”

Reference: Sesame Street

Episode: 5x03 ��Free to Be You and Me”

Writer: Jeremy Carver

Spoken To: Castiel

Media Type: Television - Children’s

Timeframe: 1969 (Premiered)

Description: Sesame Street is an American educational children's television series that combines live-action, sketch comedy, animation and puppetry. In an interview with the LGBTQ website "Queerty," Mark Saltzman who wrote for "Sesame Street" for more than 13 years starting in 1984 said Bert and Ernie mirrored the relationship he had with his partner Arnie.

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keep thinking about that post that was like. if they had make the pink panties joke with someone like chris hemsworth’s thor or whatever, the joke would have had the intended effect- it would be “funny” because its so unexpected and out of left field. ha ha ha macho masculine guy likes to wear pink underwear its hilarious etc etc. but.. but.......... when DEAN says it. it doesnt read like that. instead it feeds even more into the idea that hes performing masculinity. that he GENUINELY enjoyed it. hes not even that embarrassed by it. the joke doesnt land as a joke !!!

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people in this fandom try so hard to be the adult in the room re: john winchester that they say the most nonsensical shit. no, i don't think the guy who left a 10 year old in a motel room to care for his 6 year old brother for several days straight did his best. neither did the show, frankly! where are you getting this from.

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tags via @deancaslover

it fucks me up thinking about how many times mary’s death has been used as motivation for men to do things she Would Not Want them to do. john raises her sons as hunters; her dad teams up with the king of hell; her son almost kills his own son

mary isn’t a person; she’s an altar. and no one gives a damn that she doesn’t want their burnt offerings

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Castiel’s refuge even within his own mind is the Winchester’s kitchen…….

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Forgive me if this doesn't make sense but

Dean understands himself. He is not drowning in internalized homophobia. He doesn't not know that he's into men. What Dean is, however, is a liar. He lies to everyone, all the time. I think this touches on the queer experience in a way we dont always see in media. We always talk about coming out and coming out scenes but why never talk about why we come out. It's because of how difficult the lying is. But deans lied about everything, all his life. Not just about his sexuality, or things related to hunting. But he lies (directly or by ommission) about the music he likes, the clothes he likes, literally everything, just to fit into this box of what everyone expects him to be. He understands himself, you just don't have the critical thinking skills to see past his lies, you take his word at face value even though the show has told you repeatedly that dean is a liar

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Finally realized that the whole shtick about Pamela's lower back tattoo (I never truly got it before lol) was just to parallel it to Dean's handprint. In other words: Castiel forever.

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on the surface, the destiel mixtape is already crazy — the music dean’s parents fell in love over, the michaelangelo of it all, the inherent vulnerability and tenderness of making someone a physical compilation of the songs you hold most dear, we’ve all talked about this.

but you peel back the layers and it just gets crazier. “it’s a gift, you keep those” is a lord of the rings reference (paralleling dean and cas with aragorn and arwen is like. next level insane) AND we know that one of dean’s favorite songs is ramble on which references lord of the rings in its lyrics and it’s just like. this tiny little scene is packed so full of meaning and it’s SO deeply and undeniably romantic. i’m eating glass

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Cas did THAT.

Cas literally changed the way Dean saw himself. Cas did it.

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if you think about it. dean is basically a spirit halloween

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sam and dean holding a baby and then the shifter comes over and ask his name and dean says "bobby" and sam says "john" in this essay-

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dean is always being asked to kill his children but he can never do it. his children are made into monsters and he can never kill them. not sam not emma not jack. he was made to be a weapon but he won’t ever turn it on his kids. 

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"He'll always know there are things out there in the dark -- he'll never be the same, you know?" | 1.18 Something Wicked

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What part of “omniscient” do you people not understand? (inso. & insp.)