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Last announcement

I’m leaving this account. I used this as a second blog so I don’t think I can transfer this account to someone else. But if you want to pick her up, message me at @rim-draws for her backstory but most likely I would prefer it better if you make a new character so you can be free with your ideas. 

Thanks for sticking through with me, sorry that this is what 900+ follower’s announcement is like but as I said, I got to the point that I’m sick of a lot of things related to this plus I am getting busier nowadays. It took a long time for me to consider and actually commit to this idea and by a long time I really meant a long time, like months and months ago I felt sick of this and wanted to leave but I feel bad and try to stuck around.

But anyway, I’ll see you guys on my art account, if you are interested. Or somewhere else. Who knows. 

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I like how i made this post to ask for help while i was crying in my bedroom alone because of the torture i give myself for having a mental 'problem' and i read back and its like "wow look at that whiny kid who thought someone would offer the help they thought they need".

Also, i call it a mental problem instead of an actual sickness because my parents do not allow me to call my depression a 'sickness' because who want their child to be sick?

But yeah, fun stuff. Still can't be active, sorry guys. I'll be honest, I hate this blog, I really do. I stresses me just at the thought of how much work i put in a fan character whether it is her design or story and yet it's not enough to be worthy of anyone's attention. I always feel like i work so hard for this blog and i used to be so pump to work on it but more i'm in the group and use the blog, it just make me hate, mostly myself.

So yeah, sorry, I only have myself to blame and I am aware. People are not mean to me, it's my problem, it's my issue and it's me that is going to affect people. Or not. I don't really have a voice nor a shadow in anything that i'm a part of. So yeah.

But i hope you're having a good day!

I don’t want to try anymore

I’ve always been a bit far behind

I’m not as charismatic, I’m not as ballsy, I’m not as talented, I’m not as ‘rich’ as people around me

So I always have to try a bit harder than others

Since I was a kid, I always wanted people’s attention and because there was no one there to give me, I tried my best to get accustomed to it

Teachers pitied me so they’d give me attention, make me feel special but that was all that it was, pity. They didn’t like me like they like other kids, other kids would get free snacks, get to walk around during nap time, get free gifts and I would get pity. 

When I got older, I craved attention from people around me but I’m not as talented. I always try to draw and show people, to show them I had something going but it would always get pushed down by actual talented people. 

I tried to be better, I practiced and practiced everyday but all I get was pity. 

One time my old art teacher invited me to go with her team in a national art competition. I was happy, I thought she knew I had something going, that I was talented, that I could win. But all I got was pity. She pitied the fact that I have never won any competition I entered, she pitied the fact that I wasn’t as talented. She invited me only because my mother had helped her before and taking me with her was her thank you. She gave other members’s speeches about their drawing and gave me nothing, not only did she brought me along because she pitied me, she didn’t even believe in me that I could win. And she was right. I didn’t win. People tell me it was because I am an older contestant and they wanted the kids to win but thinking back, they said it because they pitied this untalented girl that tried so hard for nothing and cried in public because in reality, they know I didn’t win because my drawing was terrible. 

I have always had a terrible memory, things that happen in the beginning of the week, I probably had forgotten it by the end. So different than other students, I have to try a bit harder to study, I always have to try. But as karma to my ungrateful ass that I got a decent home and still have depression, I never get anywhere. People could achieve more than 5 over 10 points with their eyes closed. “All you need this year is to focus on the ones you need to pass, you only need more than 5 for every other!” - they say. It’s easy for them, they can look through their notes and remember each words, each name after less than 2 minutes, something they remember in 2 minutes could take me up to 2 hours. I always try harder than others but I always come out empty handed. 

My family situation aren’t the best, especially our financial problem. I have complained about it a lot but despite the fact that we have air cons in the house and have a 2 story house, it was just two apartments that we bought. I don’t have a normal house next to a street with a tree or a yard, I don’t have a house that has doorways through every room. Hell, recently we can barely afford food each month. We always try a bit harder than others but it doesn’t matter, we always come out empty handed. And recently, because of my mental health, i have started to put more weigh on my family, more than the weigh I have put on before. What  terrible daughter, not only am I ungrateful and complain nonstop, I also leech off their money.

I have always had a good facade that I put up since i was in grade 8 or 9. A facade that I still keep up till this day. People always have an easy time laughing or talking or judging about things that they like or dislike, they didn’t have problems with wearing what they want or look at themselves in a mirror, they didn’t have problems with taking millions of pictures of themselves or whatever that they like, they didn’t have problems with buying types of clothes that they want. Those are the things I wish I could do normally. I want to look at myself in the mirror one day and don’t release a grunt; I want to take a picture of myself one day and don’t immediately delete it; I want to talk to someone one day and not afraid of saying what I actually think; I want to buy and wear something that I want one day and dismiss all the judging that people are saying in front and behind my back. I want to laugh at jokes that I find funny, I want to freely not laughing that things that I don’t find funny, I want to trust people again, I want to open myself and not be afraid of someone potentially planning to use the worst of me against me. 

I want to be confident, I want to be normal, I want to feel normal, I want to stop crying.

What’s the point of trying so hard and going no where? I’m going to try so hard at my last year in highschool then college and then what? There is no where else for me to go. Every other kids can have their parents plan out their future, go abroad, get a simple shitty degree and have their relatives let them work in their big company before they want to do anything else. They practically doesn’t even need to try but I have to try so hard for everything and for what? 

There is just so many times I want to just stop

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can I apply for the emil blog ?

Well you gotta ask/pm @godofloveyuuri about it!

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we are officially recruiting again!

Throughout our AU’s time, we’ve lost a few canon characters in the universe due to muns losing interest or being unable to keep going with their blog. We hold nothing against them and we ask for you to respect their choices! However, to keep this AU alive, we’re recruiting more muns to fill the roles of:

Victor Nikiforov

Phichit Chulanont 

Seung-Gil Lee

This won’t be a first come first serve basis, but rather an application you’d send to me and I will accept whoever I see as the most fit (art style isn’t the only factor, how often you’d post, how motivated you are, we all talk on a discord chat so you need that, etc.) 

To apply, send an email to ecchiyeahokay@gmail.com and title your email with “Application for (character)”. Provide:

A recent art piece for reference (don’t draw something new, just give an existing art piece you have on standby!)

Link to your art blog/blog with art for reference if possible

The character you wish to play

What you’d want them to be the God of and why. Provide as many concepts as you’d like, we want creativity! This step is important!

Your Discord name and tag

The deadline to send in applications is August 10 (may be edited to be shorter or longer.)

Please reblog this around to spread the word!

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and a hint of red

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We’ve recently lost a few muns in the ask blog community for this AU and, to keep it alive, I’ve considered re-recruiting people for these roles, possibly as deities of different aspects if the new mun prefers. 

would you guys be interested in seeing new muns in the community / applying to be a mun for this community? we’d have people like you apply for these roles with art and concepts of whatever they’d want the character to be a god of. please vote in this poll!

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In a Heartbeat - Animated Short Film (2017)

A closeted boy runs the risk of being outed by his own heart after it pops out of his chest to chase down the boy of his dreams.

© Beth David and Esteban Bravo 2017

It’s here! After a year and a half of hard work, we are both so excited to finally share our film with you. Thank you all for your support and encouragement - this film means the world to us, and your kindness and enthusiasm has made this journey all the more meaningful. It is our great pleasure to share with you this labor of love, and we hope with all our hearts that you enjoy watching it as much as we did making it.

<3

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2REkk9SCRn0 Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/227690432

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((MOMA NO I DONT DESERVE WHY R U EVEN HNG NOH)

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🎀: Who makes you want to draw and improve?

(( Aaaaa I always want to be a better person for a lot of people but these guys are the b e s t. Im like blessed 24/7 to know em. Y’all know em too cause theyre the other muns! Go send em love pls they deserve it @godofloveyuuri @goddessofdanceotabek @goddessofice-yuko @goddessofnatureminako ))

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((Im an innocent lil bunni and u have no proof)

call out post

RIM IS MEAN

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“Prepare to be cold”

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((eyyyy)

fan art for ur alien viktor hnggg

- rim

((Fucking amazing - in the words of taako))

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if this gets 15 notes ill draw phichit x Celestino just for u anon

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((Do these count ?)

CALLOUT POST FOR @jjgodofvictory WHY YOU NEVER DRAW JJ FACING LEFT