ddayanghirang

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10/24/24

yesterday, i started spiraling.

i started reading 'i want to die but i want to eat tteokbokki'. i don't read self-help books because i know it's not one size fits all. i know that if something happens to me, nobody will even be able to put it into words like i do. but even at the first page of the book, my heart was already being stabbed by a sharp knife. i slept around 6am. i was not sleepy, but i knew i had to sleep. i woke up at 9am.

today, i am self-sabotaging. i would like to think that i am just trying to face my emotions and not run away from them. but it does not feel productive. i feel like i want to hurt myself so much so i can let go. i want to feel it all.

gab, the person i am seeing, just followed another girl. she's from baguio, and we're from manila. how the fuck did he know about this girl? i know the answer. he still uses bumble. and i am only used for my body. he doesn't like me the way i like him. i know he'll leave me soon. and i don't think i will ever be ready for the day that he leaves me. even though i feel used, i still want him. and he's still the one i want to talk to. but now that i found out that he still follows other girls from bumble, he's making me hate my life more. he's not even replying but he saw my message. he did not even say hi, good morning, or i'll be busy but i'll message you when i'm done. NOBODY IS EVER TOO BUSY. so gab, if you can see this, fuck you.

i wish i could run.

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Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind 2004 | dir. Michel Gondry

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about this blog;

semi-ia: i am currently trying to get my masters degree/phd,

i've been tumblr-ing since i was 11, that was 15 years ago,

my tumblr account that had a lot of followers got deleted due to inactivity, this one is relatively new,

i made this account as an outlet of my feelings, but currently, i only reblog stuff; i still make my own posts sometimes - like once in a blue moon,

the posts that i reblog are dynamic: it can range from movies, memes, kpop, music, to poems,

i am also into sims: i have my own resource page somewhere in this blog, its prolly in the navigations bar,

i play league of legends (this is not related to the blog, i haven't blogged anything about the matter, but if you want to play pls leave your username in my ask box ty)

i do not blog/reblog anything that in some way cannot represent me, so if you're good at reading people, you can prolly tell the type of person i am with the posts that i reblog/blog,

i don't have anything left but i hate that i would end at 8,

but ending at 9 also feels weird so here's 10.

who i stan (if it matters; in no particular order):

방탄소년단: bias, 박지민; wreckers: min yoongi, kim namjoon,

스트레이 키즈: bias, 한지성,

세븐틴: bias, 부석순,

엔하이픈: bias, OT7

casuals that i gravitate toward all the time:

트와이스: bias, 사나,

있지: bias, 신류진,

르세라핌: bias, 사쿠라 & 윤진,

뉴진스: bias, 해린 & 하니.

music on heavy rotation (that you will prolly see me reblogging):

the beatles, the carpenters, the smiths, fra lippo lippi, ac/dc, nirvana, that particular john lennon album for yoko, the weeknd, old swift, sza, jcole, etc +++

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EYES WITHOUT A FACE (1960), dir. Georges Franju

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jungkook’s hands… 🥵

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namjoon and jeongguk being cutie ♡

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THE1975 // MANILA

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𝐚𝐜𝐮𝐛𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤

acubi fashion is a combination of aesthetics like y2k, cyber fairy grunge and subversive, although it’s more minimalistic which is great for beginners. it focuses on layering and minimal yet captivating patterns as the focal point. the colour palette mostly consists of white, grey and black. accessories, especially headphones, are key to complete the aesthetic.

01. top | skirt | rings | bag | heels

02. headphones | top | gloves | pants | shoes

03. shirt | corset | bag | jeans | tights | boots

04. sunglasses | top | bag | skirt | sandals

modelled by keiko

thank you to these amazing cc creators - @greenllamas @ridgeport @arethabee @sentate @serenity-cc @simgirlz @trillyke @starlord-sims @nightingalesims @ahrisimss @ikari-sims @bergdorfverse @gegesimmer @simstrouble @clumsyalienn

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👤: In 2022, what made you feel like you became closer to each other? 🐿: It’s always special so rather than saying this is special that is special, we’re always together so we’re assimilated to each other, it’s just like a bluetooh. 🐥: Ah.. he expresses it well. ©faelixtale

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new power duo

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HAN / Y2K HIPHOP MEDLEY (221216)

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vanilla girl outfits 🎧🤍🍨

first: hair | skims set | leg warmers | ugg slides | headphones

second: pullover | shorts

third: top | shorts

fourth: pullover | leggings

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✩ Cartoon Style Genetics Set Part I  ✩

✩ Do not: re-upload my CC, claim my CC as your own, use as a base/part for your CC!

SOFT ROSE SKIN TONES

found in skin tones, first six colors in warm undertone;

6 + ∞ from light to dark tone colors;

compatible with EA sliders;

for all genders and all ages.

✩ All previews were done in game with HQ mod. For CAS I use gentle cas lighting mod!

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✩ Cartoon Style Genetics Set Part II ✩

SOFT ROSE SKINBLEND VER.A

skin blend redesigned for a softer display, closer to the maxis match style;

5  from light to dark tone overlay swatсhes;

for females, teenagers+.

SOFT ROSE SKINBLEND VER.B

skin blend redesigned for a softer display, closer to the maxis match style;

5  from light to dark tone overlay swatсhes;

for females, teenagers+.

NON DEFAULT EYE COLORS N1

found in eye colors as additional (last forty colors), but does not replace the standard;

for all genders and all ages.

EYES N27

the same eyes, but found in face paint;

40 colors;

for all genders and all ages.

EYEBROWS N4-6

25 colors each;

for all genders and all ages.

✩ All previews were done in game with HQ mod. For CAS I use gentle cas lighting mod!

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