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my bpd: hey

me: what

my bpd, for at least the 10th time today: everyone is mad at you and no one truly wants to be your friend or hang out with you anymore and they’re all gonna leave because you’re a terrible person

me:

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Having bpd but also being selfless is the fucking worst:

You give everything to others and get jack shit in return

Always there for other people but when you ask them to be there for you, you’re “expecting too much”

Get taken advantage of financially, sexually, physically, because you want to give all you can. End up doing all the cooking and cleaning and having sex when you don’t want to and paying for everything and getting nothing back

You get bitter when people don’t reciprocate and have anger under the surface 24/7/365

When you ask for what you need, it’s always inappropriate so you don’t get it, or you have to pretend you don’t need it and fake being self sufficient

But you keep giving other people what they need anyways, in the hopes it’ll work someday and they’ll reciprocate

You can admit when you’ve done something wrong & fucked up, but other people aren’t expected to so you hold onto the guilt forever and get more and more bitter as the guilt eats you alive

In the end, you become less and less selfless and more selfish and angrier and angrier with the people who have taken advantage of you and who now accuse you of playing the victim, so you either self-destruct in more extreme ways or lash out or just cut them off entirely just to escape.

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Absolute in doubt - Lil Peep

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I’m Sorry, I’m Trying. // Nothing, Nowhere.

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Hot

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Last days you can register to vote for the 2018 midterms in all 50 states:

Alabama: OCT.22rd

Alaska: OCT. 7th

Arizona: OCT. 9th

Arkansas: OCT. 9th

California: OCT. 22rd

Colorado: Election day.

Connecticut: OCT. 30th

Delaware: OCT. 13th 

D.C: OCT. 16th

Florida: OCT. 9th

Georgia: OCT. 9th

Hawaii: OCT. 9th

Idaho: OCT. 12th

Illinois: OCT. 9th

Indiana: OCT. 9th

Iowa: OCT. 27th

Kansas: OCT. 16th

Kentucky: OCT. 9th

Louisiana: NOV. 17th

Maine: OCT. 16th

Maryland: OCT. 16th

Massachusetts: OCT. 17th

Michigan: OCT. 9th

Minnesota: OCT. 16th

Mississippi: OCT. 9th

Missouri: Election day.

Montana: OCT. 9th

Nebraska: OCT. 19th

Nevada: OCT. 9th

New Hampshire: NOV. 6th

New Jersey: OCT. 16th

New Mexico: OCT. 9th

New York: OCT. 12th

North Carolina: OCT. 12th

North Dakota: Election Day.

Ohio: OCT. 9th

Oklahoma: OCT. 12th

Oregon: OCT. 16th

Pennsylvania: OCT. 9th

Rhode Island: OCT. 7th

South Carolina: OCT. 9th

South Dakota: OCT. 22rd

Tennessee: OCT. 9th

Texas: OCT. 9th

Utah: OCT. 7th

Vermont: Election Day.

Virginia: OCT. 15th

Washington: OCT. 8th

West Virginia: OCT. 16th

Wisconsin: OCT. 17th

Wyoming: OCT. 22rd 

Please register online if you aren’t already. Check your registration and your friends. Lots of people don’t have much time left to register! Don’t wait until the last minute! 

Register to vote ONLINE NOW!

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I am deceased

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And that’s all she needs to be. (via Katie Benoit at Twitter)

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I’ve loved you almost all my life inside of my head and now you’re real.