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Imagine being all three of them.. (me actually)

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our "experiments" created a lot of "noise"

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It suits you.

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he gets cold and SOMEBODY has to do something about it, might as well be jayce

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one thing i keep coming back to is the fight scene in the council room from s208 because it just tells us SO much about viktor. when he enters the room in his avatar he catwalks in. he moves with so much elegance and so much confidence. the way he pins jayce by the wrist and then slowly wraps his fingers around jayce’s hammer. the way he wraps his legs around jayce and cups his face and brushes his fingers over his lips. the way when he’s towering over jayce in the astral plane he calls him *his* partner for the first time.

we’re seeing who viktor is when he inhabits a body that he thinks is perfect

in the avatar of the great evolution, where viktor finally sees himself as powerful, as pure, as just like everybody else… he’s confident with jayce, even dominant, in a way he would never allow himself to be while he was alive in his original body.

and of course the kicker is that without his imperfections, without his entire self, he’s not viktor to jayce anymore. ‘my partner died in this room’

and it takes until the finale, until viktor can see himself through jayce’s eyes, for it to click that he could have been this way with jayce all along. that he has always been equal to jayce. that his confidence, his grace, his power - jayce saw it all along.

and i just found the end of the council room scene so devastating. the way that once viktor’s perfect evolved body is broken we immediately see him huddled and collapsed on the floor, making himself as small as possible

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photo study

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worship

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You were never Broken

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You're... you're alive.

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Everyone in these fandoms needs to hear this and I will NOT shut the F up about this. If this is all true and because of that all these series will be cancelled I SWEAR TO GOD IF I SEE ANYONE BLAMING THE VICTIMS THAT THEIR FAVOURITE SHOW IS CANCELLED BECAUSE OF THEM I WILL GO ABSOLUTE FERAL

people making the neil gaiman ""situation"" about good omens/the sandman and not about the victims who have suffered sexual assault please GROW THE FUCK UP and DO BETTER, no one wants to hear what you're gonna do or how you feel about your fandom, good god

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Blitz this, Stolas that, blah blah blah blah..

Guys.... Look at them

They are just 2 absolute losers. Sad and gay. Let them be

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This

okay but like.. im happy stolas got to dance with someone who openly wanted to

I'm glad he got kissed by someone who initiated because they want to kiss him

stolas really deserved that imo and if anyone gets mad at him for that they're bitter and wrong sorry

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Hard on the autistic part. I couldn't agree more. And the fact that most of the people just don't get it, that's literally what I, as an autistic myself, is faced with EVERY DAY. My poor Stolas, I just want him to be happy and for him to be seen😔😭

Was not prepared to go on helluva boss tumblr for the first time and see so many people hating on Stolas.

Wow, I wonder why a man who has been abused his entire life and never had his feelings prioritized would shut down at Blitz screaming at him? Definitely not because it meant one of two people in the world who might care about him was behaving exactly like Stella. (Heavy sarcasm) (No hate on Blitzø, his reaction makes complete sense given his past.)

Also, this man is so fucking autistic-coded, and his reactions scream meltdown to me. He spent all day scripting that interaction, to finally put the feelings he’d been trying to communicate for months into words (contrary to what I’ve seen people say, he’s given many hints that he sees their relationships as something more, Blitz just has too many self-worth issues to see them) only to have it blow up in his face.

I don’t think he was surprised by Blitz rejecting him, I think part of him expected it. Because that’s what you do when you script interactions, you always prepare for the worst-case scenario. I think that the way Blitz rejected him was unexpected. He predicted Blitz saying no, not Blitz refusing to believe him altogether. He wasn’t prepared, and he could no longer control a situation that was already a major change from anything he’d done before. That’s fucking terrifying. His emotions spun out of control, so he tried to leave the situation. No, it’s not the most graceful exit, because that’s not within his capabilities. Speaking from personal experience, this man is probably barely holding himself together, and is focusing all his energy on maintaining control of his actions, because he doesn’t want to break down in the fucking hallway in front of someone he cares about.

When Blitz not only follows him, but unintentionally brings out traumatic memories, of course he breaks down. “I didn’t know you thought so low of me” doesn’t mean “I thought you liked me back,” it means “I didn’t know you see me and my abusers the same way.”

This ended up way longer than I thought it would but I’m incapable of saying things in a concise manner, sorry.

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Months of waiting and for what? For the 97% of screentime to be about these cherubs nobody gives a sht about and like 50 seconds in the end about Stolitz to fight the way everyone already knew. Good job Viv.

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My thoughts exaxtly

This new episode was delayed, the fans haven’t seen a full HB episode since last year, Blitz and Stolas’s confrontation was hyped up for so long, only for this episode to be 90% pointless filler of the cherubs getting robots to fight the rest of IMP and Blitz walking around town to get dressed up and bring gifts. Literally the last 5 minutes of this episode is where he finally goes to Stolas, and we get the confrontation, something everyone already predicted where Stolas gives him the crystal, cries, then leaves. WOW. That is just hilarious how much of an underwhelming let down that is. I have the heavy feeling fans are going to be drastically disappointed lol, that’s all I’ll say.

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The only thing I liked about this ep was Fizz. That's all. The boy looks heathy after quitting his job. Good for him, good for him...

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ngl ep 8 was sh¡t