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THIS IS A LONG ASS POST!!😂🙂😀

I was 17 years old when I started my hormone replacement therapy and I didn't let my family knew about it until I was 18. Twas not when my sister found a pack of hormonal pills I was hiding in my bag that they knew. Since I was a little boy everyone always knew that I'am different. That's why the only thing that's a big of a deal for them when they knew about it was my health, but never the fact that Im trying to transition from male to female, but thank God they eventually just learned to go on with it..

They were very supportive about me and literally everything that I do that when I decided to join beauty pageants, they were always there helping me going through every designers choosing my costumes or gowns. They were there whether I join a small pageant or a national pageant. They were there from the audition up to the coronation night. And I couldn't be more thankful for all the support I got from them. Even with my decision making, I always go the other way they want me to take, but once I fail taking the path I want, they are the first to comfort me telling me it's okay..

I know this isn't how all goes with some of my friends from the LGBTQIA++ community. I have such an almost smooth sailing path towards my transition, but most of the people I know struggles a lot from coming out because of several factors. I realized that one of the major things (if not the most) that can contribute to a more relaxed coming out story is that support from the closest people to your heart which is your family. I personally think that the reason why I was able to conquer all the things I overcame with is because, I know that no matter what, my family will always be there behind me. The reason why I was confident in showing the world who really am is because my family loves me the way I'am and they always make me feel that I can be loved regardless of the path I choose to take and if somebody doesn't like me for who I'am, I can just shrug it off coz atleast I'am being 100% real to myself and that's the most important.

So to those parents who have a child who happens to be part of the LGBTQIA++ community. The first people we're expecting to really embrace the real us are you guys. The first people who we are expecting to protect us from the society are you guys. All the love we mostly need coming out, should be the love and the support coming from you. We understand how some of you may have different beliefs and faith but above anything else, we are also humans and we deserve to be loved just like any other living thing from this planet.

If you're a member of the LGBTQIA++ community reading this and you struggle from coming out, just take your time, take one step at a time. I knew that I was a woman since I was a little boy but really took my time transitioning and it took me 17 years to finally do it because I understand that it is not easy. The society will continually give you so much pressure aside from the pressure you put to yourself but be kind to yourself too. Reach out to your love ones and pour your heart out. Just be brave and take all you fears down so you can use them as your stepping stone in being the person you wanna be. Don't let your fear pollute your mind. Be courageous and always believe that the only thing that's stopping you from achieving your goals are those fears. If I did it, I'am sure you can!❤😘💋 🏳️‍🌈#HappyPride #ShareWithPride #TransgenderLivesMatter

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Not because she's tired. She's just over it.. #BurnOut

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The problem with rekindling with your ex is that every time you’ll be with him or even just by looking at him, you’ll remember the pain you felt when he tore you apart, when he left you just like that, when he chose another girl over you. Don’t even sugarcoat that. Coz I personally felt that. Just like what they always say; “Pain demands to be felt”. It may all look the same, it may all feel the same, and you two may seem to be inseparable again but I know deep down there. There is still pain, there is still agony, there is still misery, and there is still doubt. Maybe it’s just a tid-bit of it but believe me; that could grow overtime, that could turn into a gigantic wave that could ruin you two’s boat again as you sail to forever. So don’t let it consume you. Above anything else, trust him. Just trust him. Yes! Trust is not something that could regenerate overnight so, I want you to take your time. Learn to know him again. Re-learn everything about him all over again. You never knew he can cheat over you which he did before. You never saw that coming right? It means that there are still things that you have to know about him. His capabilities, his tolerance, his limit. Search deeper, dig deeper. Forget everything that you know about him and start all over again. It’s the only way you can take off all your guilt and all your uncertainty about him and his intentions on getting back to you.

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The society made her a different person. They made her what they think is perfect and she did transform without even realizing she’s no longer herself but a mere reflection of a girl who needs society’s approval in everything she does.

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To the person whom I turned down, to the person I never gave a chance to take me, I’m writing this one with a heavy heart coz everything went so fast and everything is still so fresh. To the person who considers me as his “the one that got away” — I’m sorry. I’m sorry for not giving us a whirl. I’m sorry if my standards were as stupid as I’am that I wasn’t able to visualized what you want me to see when you were asking me to be yours. I’m sorry if I was dumb that I focused on our differences instead of our likeness. Now that you’re gone, Know that you will always be remembered by me. Know that you will always have a place in my heart that only you can fill. Know that even though I did not accept the love you offered me, I love you and I always do. Maybe it wasn’t how you want me to love you but know that I do on my own special way. To the person I forbid to love me, thank you. Thank you for making me realize things when you left. Thank you for making me realize that I have to make everyone that I love feel how much I love them while I have all the time in the world, because life is short. Thank you for the time we’ve shared. Thank you for every time I’m gonna feel unloved, I could move on quickly to that thought because I know you do. Thank you for remembering me on the last days of your life. I will forever cherish all our memories together. Till we meet again..

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Have you ever been heart broken? Heart broken by a person who you haven’t even touched nor seen live in action. I don’t know about you, but I did. I fell and got my heart broken many times, with this one person over and over again. Desperate? Yeah! Maybe you can call me that. I mean, I fell in love by this random guy who sweet talked me for days and got me just like that, yeah! for sure! but maybe I was just what; yearning? in awe? seeking? maybe wanting? wanting to be adored and to be wanted again. Which he made me feel every time we talk virtually. Imagining I’m staring into his face, him glaring at me with a look that’s piercing down to my soul. His lips, ohh his lips that I love specially when he smirks and his cheeks that I’ve been wanting to pinch since I first scanned his wall. The vibe whenever we talk was always been like that, yup! “WAS always been like that”. Not until I found out he already have a girl. A girl that I guess have already did every little thing I imagined doing with this guy. A girl that made every hope of me having him gone. Great! once again a girl cut the whole thing in just a snap.

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Lying here again thinking, contemplating, analyzing what are those decisions I did that made me the person I’am today. To which I describe a LOSER by the way haha! Maybe it was that when I first had my heart broken, I mean when my heart was murdered by this guy I took care of more that any of my allies and maybe loved more than any among my family. Intense right? Yeah I know! I was an idiot that time, clueless, and got no experience about any of this. I was 17 thinking that love was just about warm hugs, sweet kisses, making out here and there, giving this and giving that, sharing this and sharing that. I clearly don’t know the thing that we all should remember when falling in love, that is to learn how to set a side something for ourselves. Coz as someone who’s deeply in love towards someone; we’re blinded, impulsive, and we tend to give everything we can. Little did we know we’re left; empty handed. Making you feel lost, alone and as I said earlier, a loser as soon as he decided to bid his goodbye. A loser who no longer know how to decide for herself coz all the time she depend on what he wants and not what she personally wants. A loser who you can prevent to be in the future, by separating something for you as early as now and not letting him consume everything.

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If everyone can have it, I won’t like it — even if in fact I already do. Coz if everyone can have it , then it’s not real, true nor genuine. If I knew that everyone can have it and still took it, I’ll be the same girl I was 5 years ago. Coz if everyone can have it then it’s not your heart that I hit but the flesh.

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Chance

Sometimes, a thought would just suddenly hit me. A thought of me being alone, a thought of me living this world with nothing but hope. Hope that someday maybe just maybe, he’ll be back to pick me up and make my life worth living again. Then I realized, it’s no longer just a simple thought. It is a picture, a picture of what I deeply want, what I sincerely awe and what I selfishly crave. A picture that won’t and will never happen in reality again. A picture that was taken before and is deleted now. A picture that I cannot restore anymore. A picture that I took for granted before and now I yearn for one more.