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I dont know why it has taken me so long,

but I have finally realized that after I have sex with someone, I need to lay there beside them, on them, with them and feel them next to me. I need some kind of affection coming from that person. Even in the case of a one night stand. I don’t know if this is dysfunctional, but I feel a hell of a lot better after sex if this happens.

Unless, I’ve been in a relationship with someone, quickies are fine, whatever, but if we’re getting to know each other sexually, this really helps me out. 

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It’s not shaking, and crying, and screaming until your throat burns. It’s not tidal waves of emotions, quickly drowning you. It’s not blood running down your wrists, staining your flesh red. It’s not popping pills, and drinking whiskey. It’s laying in your bed at three in the morning, surrounded by darkness, and staring at the wall. It’s the heavy feeling that settles deep in your bones, the ache in the depths of your chest. It’s feeling guilty that you’ve stayed in bed all day—yet again—but not having the energy to get up. It’s wanting to do better, to be better, but not knowing how to anymore. Most of all, it’s the “out of place” feeling, as though you just don’t belong here anymore, and your time is up.

he asked about my sadness (202/365) by (DS)

fuck

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Really gets to me because this is just exactly

(via sinning-our-sins-away)

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you ever wanna fuck the living shit outta somebody but also cook for them and make sure they’re emotionally stable?

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I hate myself.

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It’s like I’m sleepwalking.

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Trigger warning

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It only takes one

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“They asked if I was okay… And I said yes.”

Don’t ever start cause you’ll never really stop enjoying seeing your blood go down the drain.

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Do u see that “smile”? I tattooed it two years ago when I stopped to cut myself. It had to remember me that there is always better solution than cutting. 

And how u can see… it doesn’t work.. sorry my old me. 

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The pain is an addiction

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Die Zeit heilt keine Wunden, man gewöhnt sich nur an den Schmerz. 

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Thats me,just me. Dont care.

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