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// y’all...y’all got any tips on how to revive my muse?

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// I promise i’m not dead, I’ve just been in a creative rut

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// okay, so I think i’m gonna do some stuff here today! I’m going to make more icons AND clean out my followers bc a lot of randos and personals have followed me for whatever reason. See you in a bit!

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// I know I really haven’t been active, but here’s a selfie for Munday

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‘ i am not worth saving & i am not worth redemption. let me stay in the dark. ’

                                                      GROWLING

  “ NAIMINÉ… “    She’s  QUIET  for  a moment  as  she  THINKS  of  what  to  say  next,  her  slender  hand  coming  to  REST  upon  Naminé’s  shoulder  to  comfort  her.  The  PAIN  that  these  nobodies  HELD  seemed  GREATER  than  any  human  emotion  possessed  buy  a  fully  developed  SOMEBODY.  She  could  UNDERSTAND  where  her  pain  came  from;  from  being  a  DEVICE  used  by  EVIL  in  order  to  spread  the  darkness.  She  sat  beside  Naminé,  her  hand  moving  from  the  girl’s  shoulder  to  REST  upon  her  hand.    “ No  one  DESERVES  to  be  left  alone,  dear  Naminé “    She  says,  smiling    “ no  matter  WHAT  you’ve  done,  you  still  deserve  to  be  in  the  LIGHT “

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// WHO ARE ALL THESE RANDOS FOLLOWING ME??

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// y’all are probably like: miss zach? Miss zach?? Oh my fuckin god she fucking dead! But i’m not! I promise! I’ve just been in a weird sport creatively and emotionally lol. I’m anxious to start my new job while also sad to leave my old one idk lol. Hopefully i’ll be here tomorrow before work and after

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ugh, I’ve had this blog for almost a month and I suddenly decide now to lose motivation for writing and making stuff. I think it has to do with this new job: I’m really anxious to start it already but I feel like it’s gonna take forever to get through the two weeks. Hopefully, Bloomies sends me an e-mail soon with all the info for the hiring process 

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‘ what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it? ’

                                                GROWLING 

 “ But,  shouldn’t  you  use  that  power  for  GOOD? “    She  asks  with  a  CHILD-LIKE  innocence,  a  question  that  would’ve  been  POSED  to  an  adult.  She  believed  in  the  INHERENT  good  of  others,  she  had  to.  However,  She  had  been  taught  from  a  young  age  that  STRANGERS  were  dangerous  and  not  EVERY  person  had  good  intentions.  Yet,  through  it  all,  she  still  MANAGED  to  maintain  her  curiosity  for  people.  That,  maybe,  her  aunts  were  WRONG  and  most  people  were good  and  kind.    “ Why  would  someone  use  their  POWER  for  wrongdoings?  Do  people  like  that  EXIST? “  

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I’m really about to fight someone: I hate it when people remove screencaps bc I had an idea for an OC and I had the perfect FC in mind but only from a specific show in which they appeared. Some fuck face took down the screencaps and now I cant use them 

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based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

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BEHOLD - King Stefan’s castle. And in yonder topmost tower, dreaming of her true love, the PRINCESS AURORA. But see the gracious whim of fate - why, ‘tis the self-same peasant maid, who won the HEART of our noble prince but yesterday. She is indeed, most WONDROUS fair. Gold of sunshine in her hair, lips that shame the red red rose. In ageless sleep, she finds repose. The years roll by, but a HUNDRED YEARS to a steadfast heart, are but a day.   

                                                         Independent. Highly Selective. Private                                                                          Awoken by Zach

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Me: literally has just started this muse

also me: has no desire to write rn

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SENTENCE MEME ⟶ HOZIER / WASTELAND, BABY! always feel free to tweak the sentence to fit your muse.

“The fear of fellow man is mere assignment.”

“The same kind of music haunts her bedroom.”

“I’m almost me again, and she’s almost you.”

“I wouldn’t know where to start.”

“Don’t ruin this on me.”

“Tell me who, and I’ll thank them for it.”

“I laugh like me again, and she laughs like you.”

“I still watch you when you’re grooving.”

“As if through water from the bottom of pool, you’re moving without moving.”

“You are a call to motion.”

“I could never define all that you are to me.”

“You are the rite of movement.”

“I can recall something that’s gone from me.”

“I’m put in awe of something so flawed and free.”

“Move me, like you’ve nothing left to prove and nothing to lose.”

“You’re an odd sight come out at night.”

“What a waste to say the heart could feel apart or feel complete.”

“It’s the screaming, heaving fuckery of the world.”

“All things come from nothing.”

“My heart is thrilled by the still of your hand.”

“The harder the rain, the sweeter the sun.”

“I’ll be your man if you’ve got love to get done.”

“There will be darkness again.”

“Your secret is safe with me.”

“I shouldn’t hope to know, but here I stand.”

“It’s gin o’clock.”

“I think about you everywhere I go.”

“I’ve had no love like your love.”

“I’d be appalled if I ever saw you try to be a saint.”

“I wouldn’t fall for someone I thought couldn’t misbehave.”

“Why should we deny the truth?”

“We could have less to worry about.”

“I won’t lie to you.”

“Remember when you’d sing, just for the fuck of it?”

“The look of it was as sweet as the sound.”

“You put your emptiness to melody.”

“My heart is screaming.”

“Whatever here is left of me is yours.”

“Your love was unmoved.”

“Make your good love known to me, or just tell me about your day.”

“The nights were as dark as my baby, and half as beautiful too.”

“I couldn’t utter my love when it counted.”

“I couldn’t whisper when you needed it, and I shouted.”

“Remember me, when I’m reborn as the shrike to your sharp and glorious thorn.”

“All of my goodness is going with you now.”

“I’m flying like a bird to you now.”

“I was housed by your warmth.”

“I was transformed by your grounded and giving.”

“I’d be the choiceless hope in grief.”

“Imagine being loved by me.”

“I’ve got in my mind now, all the things I would do.”

“I’ll try to talk refined for fear that you find out how I’m imagining you.”

“I’d be the last shred of truth in the myth of true love.”

“Be as you’ve always been.”

“Be the love that discovered the sin that freed the first man.”

“Be love in its disrepute.”

“I’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight.”

“This is the kind of love I’ve been dreaming of.”

“Let there be hotel complaints and grievances raised.”

“Let there be damage ensues and tabloid news.”

“You’re good to me, baby.”

“With the roar of the fire, my heart rose to its feet.”

“It settles soft and as pure as snow.”

“I feel in love with the fire long ago.”

“With each love I cut loose, I was never the same.”

“Your love is sunlight.”

“The tale is the same, told before and told again.”

“All that was shown to me was something foreknown to me.”

“Each day you rise to me, know that I would gladly be the Icarus to your certainty.”

“All the fear and fire of the end of the world happens each time a boy falls in love with a girl.”

“Wasteland, baby, I’m in love with you.”

“Be still, my undelible friend, you are unbreaking.”

“I love, too, a love that soon might end.”

“It’s the start of all things that are left to do.”

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LIKE  for  a  STARTER! I  deleted  my  other  starter  call  since  it  was  feeling  a  bit  cluttered  and  stressful

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// UM HI HELLO YES I GOT THE JOB AT BLOOMINGDALE’S!!!

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how  much  longer  do  i  have  ,  existing  as  i  am  now  ?  and  yet  …  i  never  really  existed  in  the  first  place.  i’m  just  a  vague  empty  thing  ,  a  shadow  of  someone  else.  i  am  a  nobody  ,  born  full  of  sorrow.  why  are  nobodies  born  ?  we  have  no  hearts.  and  in  the  end  ,  we  never  could  gain  them.  but  is  that  really  true  that  we  have  no  hearts  ?  but  i  am  certain  that  there  is  something  like a  heart  inside  us  …  or  maybe  it’s  nothing  more  than  an  illusory  feeling  that  awakened  when  we  met  sora.

                                                            -  portrayed  by  ailli  /  formerly:  witchofoblivion