davidleerothko

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Jesus Christ I live in Austin now

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Keanu Reeves in ‘Bram Stoker’s Dracula’ 1992

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I look like this now and I make music for like two hours a day and work a lot and am consistently moving and motivated. I’ve lost, I estimate, closer to 100 than to 50 pounds, but I haven’t weighed myself since I started losing weight. I haven’t had a drink in a year and three months. I have been in therapy with the same therapist for 20 months now. I am still in the process of becoming, but I have essentially completely changed and improved myself in every way imaginable because I have quit drinking.

Good stuff.

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Oh my god I still have this thing and oh my god I have changed so much lol

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I’m doing the best I’ve ever done but it’s still not good enough

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i hope someone thinks im cool

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oh man, oh man, oh man, oh man

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don’t ever let me forget how much easier it is to not entirely have my shit together when i’m sober. 

oh my god, lifes so much better.

but i know right about the six months point last time I was like - well, you know what time it is - throw it all away time!

and i would think back to when I was sober, and I couldn’t remember clearly why things were so great, but I can remember very explicitly why drinking and cocaine ruin my life on a DAILY BASIS, and yet there’s still something inside of me saying ‘oh, lets do that again’

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oh its been 11 years since ive had one of these things and im still as lonely as the day i got it

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i cant believe theres a movie where cyndi lauper and jeff goldblum are psychics and its just called vibes

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hi

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE

I GOTTA SCREAM

oh god

okay, so i signed up for a coding bootcamp for data analytics. it was half price. dude, i hate doing this shit. I hate it. I don’t ever wanna do it. But I don’t even know what I want to do! WHAT DO I DO WITH MY LIFE

IM 32

I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING

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philly elmo is very real, and he and his drum crew come through my neighborhood a lot

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i forgot i had a tumblr

well, guess worse things have happened then coming back onto this accursed format

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Frank Bowling (b. Guyana 1935)

Middle Passage (detail) 1970

https://www.theguardian.com/artanddesign/2019/may/30/apocalyptic-visions-from-a-shunned-giant-of-british-art-frank-bowling-review