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can i just say that i never expected alisa and knox to be a thing

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gnarly and gabriela were playing in my head during my maths exam 🤐 you can imagine how that went down...

dw i controlled myself lol

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^this is about grayson btw

i started writing something last year and i'm cackling reading this again 😭

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update on my tbr:

1. glorious rivals ✔️

2. powerless ✔️

3. reckless ✔️

4. fearless (planning to read in november)

5. the secret (not yet...)

6. wuthering heights ✔️

7. jane eyre ✔️

8. lightlark #4 aka dueling crowns (planning to read in december)

9. lightlark #5 aka crowntide (planning to read in december)

9 BOOKS I PLAN TO READ IN 2025

inspired by @malinaa <33

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not me having playlists for my fave fictional couples 🤭

i associate songs with fictional couples and then play those songs in the car and think “no one else knows this is actually their song” 😏😏

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okay i just realised that having the same birthday as a grandparent is a curse as much as it is a blessing because one day you're gonna be standing there... alone, fighting back tears

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i don't know why but i feel like talking about something that i promised myself to never revisit again bc i don't think anyone would believe me... but two years ago, i came across a very strange phenomenon.

they ask people "what's your wattpad moment?" and most reply with some wholesome interaction leading to a first kiss or meeting genuine people in unexpected ways, but mine is... crazy. i wouldn't consider this a wattpad moment, but maybe just an interesting way the universe works.

two years ago, almost everyday for quite a period of time, at school, i always, always, would somehow bump into the same guy in the corridor and we would always, always, lock eyes (direct eye contact)– it happened for a period of several months, and sometimes i wouldn't see him but the most surreal streak we had of bumping into each other and locking eyes was probably for a few weeks every single day (except for the weekend ofc).

i found this extremely surreal, because sure, the first few times i considered a coincidence but event after event of the same thing happening?

though i am aware of something i read that said that once your brain registers the presence of a person, it will keep picking them out in a crowd...

it was also crazy because if i had my way, i wouldn't want to even be close to this person because they're bad news (to me)– but somehow, i remember feeling something in the core of my stomach, something warm, something familiar, something close to love. and it is not that i loved this person; my train of thought never went there– it was just an inherent feeling, something i couldn't control.

okay i know i'm starting to sound reaaal weird (i'm not making this up). anyways the point is that a few months back, i was doing some socmed stalking ykyk of people from my school and i came across this particular person's account (which was public oops), and what i saw on his stories kinda confirmed what i always knew about the kind of person he was, aka someone i would stay far away from. and i don't know why, but part of me hurt, just for the way he turned out.

so, i wrote a poem about it. and i promised myself to leave this whole thing behind, but maybe to leave it behind, i have to talk about it, and i have to share it. so... here it is.

things you need to know (but you never will) ִֶָ 𓂃⊹ ִֶָ

i never truly knew you,

no,

not in this life

but i need you to know that

if i had seen you

spiralling,

falling,

drowning,

i would have cut off my oxygen

just to save you

when i found out,

i couldn’t breathe

and it was silly really,

because i never truly knew you

and if i let anyone see this

they’d call me crazy

i never truly knew you,

no,

not in this life

but i need you to know that

part of me believes we knew each other

before,

a long time ago,

when love wasn’t such a complicated thing,

and cutting off my oxygen

wouldn’t be such a crime towards myself

because then i’d know

you’d do the same

i don’t know how it started

but all i remember is seeing you in the hallways

and we would somehow always

lock eyes

and maybe you locked my mind

in a state of confusion

but you locked my soul

in a state of bliss

that i still can’t explain

i never truly knew you,

no,

not in this life

but i still hate you

because you are hurting me

even when we had parted ways

so long ago,

i hate myself

even more so

for letting this happen

for letting myself think about you

there was a point

where i wanted to say

those three words

and i knew that

i wouldn’t have skipped a beat,

the urge came so naturally,

i had no means to contain it,

because this connection was more than

just a spark

but i never truly knew you

and i will never know you

i don’t want to know you

not in this life

not ever

i have no idea what came over me to be this vulnerable today but 🤷‍♀️ i wanted to share the poem and i think this particular one requires some context to be understood fully <3

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feeling quirky

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here's to being the ones who would rather be the ones hurting 💔 than the ones hurting 🗡

heres to dealing people with better cards than the ones we were dealt

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thank you for the tag!! <3

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tagging anyone who comes across this post and wants to do it 💌

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if you feel like i've disappeared, it's because i have a major exam coming up and an exam before that, so yeah 😔

i'll do my best to reply to any asks/replies asap but just putting this here to let everyone know <3

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the summer i turned petty by eve shane

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help this is so real, i was like HUH what does he think he's doing, how will him jumping off the cliff into an ocean of calla lilies help with anything 😭

lowkey wondering what Grayson thought he was going to achieve by jumping off the cliff in chapter 80 😭 I mean he was READY to just get in that water and start swimming like:

thank god Lyra stopped him because he was fr just going to hit the rocks, like calla ain’t just waiting in the middle of the ocean for you babe😭

(ok seriously tho I love this scene, it was so cinematic and he’d do anything for Lyra but it IS funny, especially the way he stripped off his clothes as if that was going to help😭🙏)

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hiii nice to meet you emma! you can call me vivi :D

i'm... coping, considering the fact that i have a bunch of exams coming soon (i have prelims next week and the exam anxiety is creeping up)

wbuuu how are you?

no way omg hi!!! 🤭🫶

hiii!! how are you lovely!!

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it is (see, even maid kai is haunting the narrative that is our lives)

sorry i just found the double pfp funny 😭 (my tumblr acts up like that, it shows people's old pfps before they switched to a new one)

LMAOOO OMG my past pfp is with us in spirit

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i love the memes keep them coming

this is how people expected Grayson to act towards avery when the bomb went off:

when in reality this was literally him: