darkness-plays-with-hell

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

Was dancing to a song I don't remember.

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

Gothicat livestream festival #1 tonight. What a blast! Can't wait for #2

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

Throwback to this summer.

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

half of me is a hopeless romantic and the other half is just hopeless

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

friendly advice to not revolve your life around one person, one feeling, one place, one memory, one problem. the complexity of life and the diversity of the world is beautiful and you have the right to explore it. do not settle for less. you deserve better.

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

"You look almost... happy today"

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

Ernest Hemingway, The Sun Also Rises

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

I needed this.

Nietzsche believed that you’ve gotta be able to think about suicide before you can move beyond wanting to kill yourself because only once you’ve accepted it as an option can you make the choice not to do it, and the alternative, to deny the urge and ignore it, would inevitably cause you to cave to the unaddressed desire you have for it.

And the dude was right. 

The rogue’s gallery of psych students and junior practitioners on this hellsite have hijacked my post about not being mean to yourself to explain to people how actually what I’m talking about is cognitive-behavioral therapy, and how it involves disciplining yourself to never talk negatively about yourself and how it’s important to check with a therapist that you’re doing it correctly, and like, this is why I don’t trust and can’t stand these people.

Being your own friend is a holistic process, there aren’t exercises you can do or therapy methods you can apply, which is why most people relapse almost immediately after stopping CBT or DBT, because they haven’t actually made any progress in how they look out for themselves, they were merely thrust into a disciplinary regimen where they are taught to engage in habits which their therapist then holds them accountable to, and so, without that therapist, they fall apart again.

Not being mean to yourself doesn’t mean censoring self-deprecating humor, it doesn’t mean snapping a rubber band on your wrist when you have a negative thought, it means taking time to sit down and think about yourself as if you were another person, to really take stock of who you are from as objective a perspective as you can muster, and if you really want to grow, realizing that this person you see can’t grow if the person closest to them, which is you, spends all their time berating them and making them feel like shit.

Being friends with yourself is not a series of therapeutic exercises, it’s challenging yourself to evaluate why you’re a dick to yourself in a way you aren’t to other people, or maybe you are a dick to other people, and maybe you want to be a dick to yourself, which is goofy as fuck, but if you’re still suffering, maybe ask yourself why the fuck you want to be such a dick, the answers may surprise you.

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

Famous words of a pet owner

“WHAT ARE YOU EATING”

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

Émile Vernon - Le jardin fleuri (The Flower Garden) (1915)

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

i’ve always had a terrible weakness for beautiful but sad things.

sylvia plath

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

We probably struggle with insecurities because we compare our Behind-the-scenes with others best highlights.

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

     “Cats are cold, detached & unloving.”

     “Cats are not loyal.”

     “A cat will not greet you at the door.”

     “You can not train a cat”

     “Cats aren’t that smart.”

     “Cats aren’t that good with children.”

     “Cats don’t miss you when you’re gone.”

     “Cats don’t comfort you when you’re feeling down.”

What a load of crap !!!  One thing for certain… cats don’t give a rat’s ass what B.S. you tell about them. They refuse to care less, either about what you think of them, or about the people they love.

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

Just raise a hand or something because I know you must be feeling alone

[darkness-plays-with-hell]

Isak’s emotional change (because of Even)