darkness-of-the-sky

[darkness-of-the-sky]

If I shed the weight

If I lightened my skin

If I just ‘fixed’ my face

Would it make a difference

Would I mean more ?

[darkness-of-the-sky]

I willl never be the first choice

Not now - not ever

Even after months of separation ,still my company isn’t appreciated

It’s always others or OT first

Not one night not one morning for me first

My worth holds nothing

And yet

I stay

Because where do second choices run to in this world ?

[darkness-of-the-sky]

To love

Or to wait to be loved

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Feel so broken

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Perhaps in her

You saw a galaxy

But don’t you know ?

There’s no oxygen in outer space

You breathe in dust around me

The mundane task of daily existence on earth

Ordinary, boring, often forgotten

Alas, undeserving of galaxy’s and co

[darkness-of-the-sky]

First choice

The best

Good enough

What does it mean

What does it feel like

A dream perhaps ?

[darkness-of-the-sky]

And how does it feel

To be truly loved

From your core

And to be someone’s first choice

Oh, imagine the feeling

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Oh to receive a random bunch of flowers , but am I worthy ? It seems not

[darkness-of-the-sky]

My vessel would ache without your love.

Oh how do I carry on without your sly grin your stubborn ‘hold me’ and your essence on me.

No I don’t dare to be apart from you again

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Miss you so much it hurts

[darkness-of-the-sky]

May the sun not burn your skin. May the rain not make you cold. May stones stay away from your feet. Go like water, and come back like water

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Just need to breath him in

[darkness-of-the-sky]

What a hug would do right now

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Hot for him

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Want him to be pleased with me when I die

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Hope he’s happy

[darkness-of-the-sky]

Not good enough