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Work hard, play hard.

I’ve been very busy with work lately, and I feel like I’m actually drowning sa dami ng trabaho. I really hate it kapag may time frame yung work kung kelan  lang siya dapat i-accomplish at matapos. Para kasing pending lahat. And last sunday lang ako nakagala uli.

Two days pa lang ang nakakalipas sa examination week na ‘to, at sobrang nakakapagod na mag adjust ng scores. Ang bait ko kasi, hays. Hahaha! Graduation na rin next week kaya hinahayaan ko nalang na mapagod ako ng mapagod. Sulitin na at huli naman na. Hindi rin naman mainit ulo ko last week. Parang ang saya ko pa nga, and they kept on asking me why. They do not take my only answer as the real answer. Pero seriously, the only reason why I’m happy is because uuwi na ‘ko.

Wala naman akong plano pag uwi e. Kung meron man, siguro gumala tsaka kumain. Tsaka bumawi ng tulog, yung walang istorbo. Tapos, work. Ayun lang. Work, Family, Barkada.Basta, mahabang pahinga lang okay na. Hahahaha!

Ang sarap na gumising araw araw nun.

Ang saya na ng every day.

Thank you, Lord if ever madadagdagan pa ng reason.

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12 songs for 12 months

I've been listening to these songs for the past few months. And yep, maybe you'll get the message.

(1) คนทางนั้น/Kon Tahng Nun (Person Over There)

Doo lae dtua eng dee dee na kon tee yoo tahng nun Kon tahng nee yung kit teung gun meuan yahng derm mai koey bplian Ahgaht glahng keun mun nao gor hom pah naun gaun lup fun Hahk tur ngao hai kit teung gun meuan yahng chun kit teung tur Suan kon tee yoo thang nee mai dtaung huang chun doo lae dtua eng Yahng dee peua ror wun wun tee pob gun wun tee chun dai pob tur

(Take good care of yourself, okay, person over there? The person over here still misses you just the same, never changing The weather at night is cold, so cover yourself with a blanket before sleeping If you’re lonely, think of me like I think of you As for the person over here, you don’t have to worry, I take good care of myself To wait for the day, the day we’ll meet, the day that I’ll be able to see you)

(2) Heaven Knows by Orange and Lemons

Cause this angel has flown away from me Leaving me in drunken misery I should have clipped (your) wings and made (you) mine for all eternity Now this angel has flown away from me I thought I had the strength to set (you) free I did what I did because I love (you) so Will (you) ever find (your) way back home to me?

(3) Ears and Rhymes by December Avenue

Over and over I'll love you so tender Wrapped on our arms While staring at your eyes Then I'll be over When you are under I want you to hold my hand And take these chances free

(4) Meron Nang Iba by Silent Sanctuary

Darating din sa akin Muling magiging akin ka Subukan mang pilitin Wag ka munang mawala Nanlalamig na damdamin Dito'y walang napapala Sa araw na uuwi na, Meron ka na bang iba?

(5) On My Mind by Cody Simpson & Tyler Ward

The longer I wait The more that I'm afraid That someone's gonna fool your heart And take you away

(6) Still Falling For You By Ellie Goulding

It took us a while With every breath, a new day With love on the line We've had our share of mistakes But all your flaws and scars Still falling for you

(7) Dancing On My Own Cover By Calum Scott

Somebody said you've got a new friend Does she love you better than I can?

I'm in the corner watching you kiss her And I'm right over here, Why can't you see me? And I'm giving it my all But I'm not the girl you're taking home I keep dancing on my own

(8) Look After You by The Fray

There now steady, love So few come and don't go Will you, won't you? Be the one I'll always know When I'm losing my control The city spins around You're the only one who knows To slow it down Woah, be my baby And I'll look after you

(9) Without You by AJ Rafael

Bucket full of tears Baby, know I'm here I'm here waiting Close your precious eyes And just realize I'm still fighting For you to be with me And sit under this tree We could watch the sunrise Wake up feel the air that I'm breathing I can't explain this feeling that I'm feeling I won't go another day without you

(10) Magbalik by Callalily

Di na alam ang gagawin Upang ika'y bumalik sa'kin Ginawa ko naman ang lahat, Bakit bigla nalang naghanap?

(11) One by Ed Sheeran

All my senses come to life When I'm stumbling home as drunk as I have ever been And I'll never leave again Cause you are the only one

(12) Say You Won't Let Go by James Arthur

I swear that everyday you'll get better You make me feel this way somehow I'm so in love with you And I hope you know Darling, your love is more than its worth in gold We've come so far, my dear Look how we've grown I want to stay with you until we're grey and old

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Gusto kong malaman,

Malapit na akong umuwi. Konting konti nalang. Yung dating hinintay ko ng ilang buwan, ilang linggo nalang ngayon, ilang araw na lang. Twenty-one na ko. I still remember my old blog and the entry I made about my 20th birthday. Thinking about it now, made me realize how much can change in just a year. I can still remember the feeling nung mga araw na yun. Feeling ko, araw araw nasa cloud 9 ako. Ang saya saya. Sobrang saya. Wala yatang araw na hindi ako ngumiti kahit na  it was only few weeks away sa board exam ko.

Now, I’m asking myself. “Masaya ka ba?” Oo, masaya naman. Pero parang may kulang. Parang palagi akong may hinihintay. Parang palaging may hinahanap.

The thing about living in a foreign country, you’ll learn how to be tough. Pag hindi ka naaalala, keri lang. H’wag kang magdamdam. Ganun talaga. Okay lang yon. Sa panahong may lagnat ka, kahit pa nag aapoy ka na sa lagnat, okay lang yan! Alagaan mo sarili mo. Pasok ka parin. Wala namang pinagkaiba kung nasa bahay ka kasi wala ka naman din kasama. Tuwing holidays, pasko? New Year? Birthdays? Para sa’yo, magiging ordinary rest day lang yun.

Wala kang oras para umiyak. Kasi pag umiyak ka, talo ka. Sino ba mahihirapan? Diba ikaw rin naman? Pag pagod, pag malungkot, itulog mo lang. Bukas okay ka na uli. Strong diba?

Pero may mga araw din na hindi mo naman malalabanan e. Hahanapin at hahanapin mo parin yung taong gusto mong makausap. Nagbabakasakali na bigyan ka ng oras. Yun yung taong magcocomplete sa sinasabi mong kulang. Siya yung kulang na yun, kasi hindi mo siya kasama. Hindi mo siya nakikita. Namimiss mo siya.

Masaya ka ba? Oo. Pero may kulang. At ang sakit sakit nung part na kulang na yun. Ang sakit kasi alam mong wala na. Kasi tinanggap mo na, na hindi na mapupunan pa. Pero kahit tanggap mo na, hindi mo parin maiwasang hanapin. 

Kumbaga sa office desk mo, alam mo kung saan nakapwesto yung mga bagay. Pag may nawala, mapapansin mo kasi kabisado mo. Hahanapin mo syempre kasi nga mahalaga sayo yun e. Pag nalaman mong hindi na babalik kasi nakuha na ng iba, anong gagawin mo? Hindi mo naman pwedeng hingin pabalik. Kasi hindi ka naman sigurado kung sa’yo ba yun. Baka kasi kamukha lang. Dadaan yung mga araw, may kulang sa desk mo. Hindi kumpleto pag wala yun. Titignan mo yung pwesto na yun, tapos mapapaisip ka. “Asan ba kasi yun?” “Sinong kumuha?” “Hindi ko ba tinabi?” “Hindi ko ba iningatan?” “Kasalanan ko ba?” “Kasalanan ko ba kasi iniwan ko lang kung saan?” “Pero alam ko iniwan ko dito sa pwestong ‘to, pero nasan na?” At kahit anong tanong pa maisip mo, hindi na masasagot. Kasi nga, wala na. Yung mga bagay na nawala na, hindi naman na bumabalik pa. Alam mo yun, pero nagtatanong ka pa. Hinahanap mo parin. Baka kasi tulad lang yun ng iba na after ilang days, lilitaw na. Pero naalala mo, hindi nga pala ordinaryong gamit yun. Kaya nga mahalaga sayo e. Kaya nga yun yung pinili mong ilagay sa desk mo e. Kasi for keeps yun. Kasi iba siya. At alam mo na kapag nakuha na ng iba, hindi na ibabalik pa. Kasi sobrang iba niya, hindi mo na gugustuhing bitawan pa. Malungkot diba? Kahit pa dalhin sa Lost and Found, hindi mo makeclaim. Kasi wala namang label na sa’yo yun e. Hindi mo pwedeng sabihin, “Akin po yan. Pwede nyo na po bang ibalik?” Hindi nila ibibigay. Ano patunay mong sa’yo yun? Ikaw nga sa sarili mo hindi ka sigurado e.

Kaya, oo. Masaya ako sa desk ko. Pero may kulang.

Pero kahit may kulang, 

Dapat COOL LANG.