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Andy Hull explains "I Can Feel A Hot One"

I wrote this song during a 5-minute window we had from touring. We had just finished our dates with Brand New and Say Anything and were about to go on the road with mewithoutYou. I was at my parents place in West Palm Beach, Florida and just took my guitar with me. ‘…Virgin’ had been done for about a year and I wanted to start writing something. Here is what ‘I Can Feel a Hot One’ is about:

I could feel a hot one taking me down For a moment I could feel the force Veiny to the point of tears And you were holding on to make a pointWhat’s the point?

In essence this song starts out with a panic attack, that’s the hot one that’s taking me down. I’m straining with my muscles and clinching tight, which is why I say “Veiny to the point of tears.” Coming off the road and holding on to the idea of the band, to the idea of touring, was enough to give me a little push over the edge. But then I ask, really, what’s the point?

I am but a clean man, stable and alone man Make it so I won’t have to try The faces always stay the same So I’ll face the fact that I’m just fine I said that I’m just fine

Then I talk about how, even though I had just come off the road, I never dabbled in all those harmful vices that so many people succumb to when they tour. I was clean, I was stable and I was alone. The next line I’m referring to my voice. It’s not always easy to sing these songs night after night and I’m worried about how I sound. Here, I’m just asking God for the muscle memory “so I won’t have to try”. And, as with life on the road, I’m in different cities each night, but it seems like the faces always stay the say, so I guess that I’ll be okay.

I remember head down after you had found out Manna is a hell of a drug I need a little more I think Because enough is never quite enough What’s enough?

It’s tough sometimes as a human being to know when you have enough because we always want more. In the Old Testament the Jewish people would receive what they needed from God and it was often explained in the form of the fruit, Manna. Sometimes though, when you ask for it, it’s more than you bargained for. See, God told them to take just as much as they needed and nothing more. Any excess they took would rot by the morning, so there was no point in over doing it. That left the people wondering, ‘how much do I really need’? I always thought I wanted it all. This was really spawned from the Pedro the Lion song, ‘Simple Economics’, with the line “Power can be such a tease, you’re always wanting more. It’s good to know that just like sex, it can be paid for.”

I took it like a grown man, crying on the pavement Hoping you would show your face Well I haven’t heard a thing you’ve said In at least a couple hundred days What’d you say?

I’m talking to God here, just asking for Him to show himself to me. Clearly the allure of the Manna had thrown me and I hadn’t been close enough to God to hear Him in a while.

I was in the front seat shakin’ it out And I was asking if you felt alright And I never want to hear the truth I want to hear your voice is sounding fine My voice is sounding fine.

This is a conversation between Chris and I, where I am asking him if he felt alright. Truth be told, I didn’t really care whether or not he did, I was asking because I wanted him to tell me that everything would be okay with me. And more specifically, with my voice. A misconception about this lyric is that it actually reads like – I want to hear “your voice is sounding fine” – like I want Chris to tell me my voice is sounding fine, not that I’m interested in someone else doing okay.

I could feel my heart beat taking me down And for the moment I would sleep alright Veiny with a selfish fear To keep me up another restless night Another restless night

Being on the road is a gnarly trip and sometimes after like 12 hours of straight driving, you start losing it. Here is the beginning of me losing it. Just pulling my blanket over my head and crying and crying and eventually crying myself to sleep. That’s when the dream starts…

Your blood was dry it was sober The feeling of audible cracks And I could tell it was over From the curtains that hung from your neck

In this dream, I’m driving Amy, my soon to be wife, back to her parents house in Birmingham, Alabama. We get side swiped by this tractor-trailer and the wreckage is where this verse starts. As she’s lying there, I can tell that she’s not going to make it and that this was the end.

And I realized it then, you were perfect With my teeth ripping out of my head And it looked like a painting I once knew Back when my thoughts were not tire leak intact

Sometimes it’s too late to realize things you should have earlier, and at this moment, I’m looking at Amy and realizing that she is perfect as I’m amongst this disaster that is being played out on the road. I realized right then that all the things I was worried about didn’t matter.

So I prayed for what I thought were angels Ended up being ambulances And the Lord showed me dreams of my daughter She was crying inside your stomach

With one last ditch effort I pray to the Lord to save her, but it’s too late and the ambulances have come to take her away. But the Lord gives me a glimmer of hope by showing that our baby is inside of her. And although I am going to lose Amy, we will always have something together in the form of our daughter. At that moment that best thing I could say was…

And I felt love again.

Found on FarBeyond footnotes’ The Life & Times of Manchester Orchestra - Part III.

Read Part I and Part II. (I recommend it. I spent about half an hour doing so, and I learned a lot about my favorite band. Plus, doesn’t this interpretation just blow you away?!)

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Para todo mal, mezcal para todo bien, tambien

Mexican proverb

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If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand I hope you find out what you want, I already know what I am And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again You can tell me how vile I already know that I am I'll grow old, start acting my age Be a brand new day in a life that you hate A crown of gold, a heart that's harder than stone And it hurts a whole lot but it's missed when it's gone

Brand New “The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot”

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“Venus de Milo” for Drawing II (at College of Lake County) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNDtkdSLhrCWUqCrh01u_HXd2SzYpnavfeYTPk0/?igshid=mjuj68rovi6q

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My expressive portrait for Drawing II. Conte pencil on gray paper. https://www.instagram.com/p/CMn-P_OrMFOy9mTTuPvR5WsnqBVs30g1AeVOaY0/?igshid=j5nx5fdwrhx0

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Sketch of Michelangelo’s David (at College of Lake County) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLKyQ_2Luy7Fi3Lu9sZjyWOQxEHDd0lvM7FH3Q0/?igshid=1oqad3ysaxrh2

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Arkham Knight

My wife is going to kill me. We've been trying to catch up on our shows for ages, so much so that if either of us even sees the words "Game of Thrones" or "Hannibal (RIP)" in our social media news feed, we scroll through quickly to avoid spoilers. Throw in the usual responsibilities that come with having children and owning your own home and you could say our plate is pretty full at the moment. Now I'm going to have to tell her that I have yet another reason why we can't spend more time together. I hope she doesn't ask for a divorce before I finish the game. The Arkham series is one of my favorites and I have been looking forward to Arkham Knight since the minute I finished Arkham City! The way that game ended, I knew there was going to be a follow-up. When Arkham Origins was announced as an interim entry, made by a different developer using Rocksteady's assets, my excitement only grew. I knew Rocksteady would take the time to craft another masterpiece. From what the early reviews say, I won't be disappointed. My personal life may suffer, but I am committed. I can't wait to dive in and explore every inch of Gotham City. I read that the only way to unlock the true ending is by beating the game at 100% completion. If that's true, I'm up for the challenge. I will savor every minute, admire the dedication and hard work that went into making this game. I will find every Riddler Challenge, I will complete every sidequest and when I complete the game, I will follow it up with the abundant DLC. This is the game we need and the one we deserve. My wife will have to understand.

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But time given to wishing for what can’t be is not only spent, but wasted, and for all that we waste we shall be accountable.

Penelope Fitzgerald, The Blue Flower

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As kingfishers catch fire, dragonflies dráw fláme; As tumbled over rim in roundy wells Stones ring; like each tucked string tells, each hung bell’s Bow swung finds tongue to fling out broad its name; Each mortal thing does one thing and the same: Deals out that being indoors each one dwells; Selves—goes itself; myself it speaks and spells, Crying Whát I do is me: for that I came.

Gerard Manley Hopkins, As kingfishers catch fire, dragonflies dráw fláme 

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oh my God, this is heart-breaking :(

Right in the feels, I’m so done,

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Superman and Wonder Woman - A New Yearby GabeCurly

original art by Tony Daniel

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"I wish there was a way to know you're in the 'good old days' before you've actually left them."

-Andy on the Office series finale

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“Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like ‘maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘how very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.”

-Neil Gaiman "Sandman"

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"My relationship with LOST is not your business.. it's.. extremely personal."

Maude Apatow on This is 40

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first thing I see as I walk in to the office today..

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Bahaha

Artwork by Awkward Elevator Contributing Artist Daniel Irizarri