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APOCALYPTIC LOVE

What are you doing, my love? What are you doing with your time? What are you doing there? Away…

I know your heart is frozen now. I know you’ve closed every single window trying to escape the storm... I know your silence feels like a safe Heaven. I know that faith turned into fear... and now everything seems right even though it feels wrong. I know you’re running fast to keep your life... Like this life is everything you have... like this life is a priceless treasure... You feel the emptiness from it. You know that you’re holding to an empty box... A life means nothing. A life without love is nothing. It’s just a dream of what could have been... it’s a distant memory of past versions of your brave soul. A brave soul that once knew how to reach it all.

You will have another chance, my love. In another life. In another time and space. You will have the chance to start it all over again. And you’ll remember this life… and the emptiness of it... and the bitter taste of regrets. Through haze you’ll see yourself again bearing that cross that always seemed impossible to bear... You’ll see that lost soul that never found peace. I hope with all my heart... that… in that future life you’ll choose to end this painful circle... I hope that you’ll finally find the courage to raise above every sorrow... I hope that you’ll take that chance... I hope you’ll feel that it’s not too late for you. I hope that you’ll let love flow like a river into your veins... and you’ll walk bravely through the burning fire of life. I hope you’ll kill the fear that enslaved you for all of your past lives. I hope you’ll have more faith...

Until then... my love... Let’s weep together one more time... for the burial of your soul. Let’s contemplate again what could have been... let’s dream again about this lost love... Let’s watch together with the eyes of our minds... this tragic movie of our lost love. Let’s raise a glass for all of our dead hopes…

The end of this world is close. You can always blame it for our love’s failure... Everyone will understand. “It was impossible for them” they will say... But we will know. We will know that our world has ended long before this... They will say “They didn’t had a chance” but we will know how many chances we’ve denied. “For love was for the brave... and we were not.”

The home we’ve built together from pure thoughts... those pages wrote with tears and blood... that Heaven we’ve created with nothing but some bricks of hope… Everything was lost before its birth.

And now... all we have left... are these poor memories and broken wings... deep scars and piles of ashes. We’ve burned it all. With fear and pain... with doubts and lies... we’ve burned it all…

Soon the whole world will burn too... because of us. Because of our lost love. I know you know. I know we’ve always knew. This wasn’t the world for our love. Our love was too pure to survive in this sinful version of time... this divine love couldn’t live in this hell.

Our loss is this world’s loss. I know in my heart... that this love’s fruit could have saved them all. But I don’t know if they deserved this salvation. They didn’t earned it... they have no faith and they are lost. Lost children into the woods... scared and weak... No light in this darkness.

All the guardian angels have fled... now. Thousands of signs... everyone is blind. Hundreds of voices... everyone is deaf. Truth is everywhere now. Everywhere around us... just in front of us. No one sees it.

This is it. The end of this world. One of the endless line of worlds. And in the middle of this end... it’s again this endless love of ours. That will live on... and on... and on... And On........ We will die but our love will never die.

And soon we will meet again... and probably we’ll make the same mistakes and we’ll end another doomed world. Different beginnings... always the same end.

The End. (as you see it on the screen at the end of every movie)... Let me tell you though... my love... That I loved this one. This one brought us a bit closer...

This love... as it is for us... a blessing and a curse... bearing within the cross of the world... is actually the best thing that could ever happen in the universe. It’s a purifying breeze... a shore for the lost souls that were drowning over and over again in this endless ocean...

You see, my love... we are the sacrificed ones... because we will always suffer the same loss over and over again in time... but they will finally find rest. We will swim forever... towards the same shore... never drowning. Because our souls are blessed with this curse. And they will live forever. And ever.

The light and the darkness will never procreate. The sun and the moon will never meet. And even though the water can soften the earth... it will never swallow it entirely... There’s no end for us, my love... We will always fly over the worlds. And we will always hold into our hands... a love that will always melt like the snow... as soon as we touch it... watering again and again this vast nothing.

And this candle will soon be extinguished and immediately... another one will be kindled... and everything will start all over again.

But until then... my love... let’s mourn together one more time this version of this love of ours... let’s cry one more time for our little angel that will never be born here... and let’s remember one more time how sweet this love once tasted... Let’s think about how we found each other again... and how our hearts stopped… again. How we’ve lost ourselves in each other’s mind... searching for that truth that finally killed everything. And how naively we’ve healed each other’s wounds... not knowing that those scars will mean we’re ready for the end.

Those memories will always travel through the sky of the existence... and one day we will see them in each other’s eyes once again. Naively starting again this endless line of ecstasy and agony... we’ll remember everything and we’ll run away again to the end of the world... Always searching for each other... Always in love with a dream... and always going apart.

Hold on my love... hold on to those memories... One day they will be for us the compass that will lead us home. I don’t know about you... but I think that I... with every life I have... I hope more and more and I pray harder and harder that this will end differently. Like a little child... I am naively enough to hope every single time that maybe God will finally spear us... That one day... this love of ours will finally find its home. And that our little angel will be finally born from this endless love.

“The Lady of The Crazy Clan”... :) I told you... I’ve invented the word “crazy”…

I know that when you’ll read these things here… all of your senses will scream very loud... so loud that you will not hear the voice of your heart anymore. That was always our problem, my love... I hear too much... and I listen... but you pretend to be deaf even though you hear it too... You chose every time that “safe” place of silence... denying everything with the illusion of “knowledge” and control... :)

Don’t worry... my love... we’ve been like this for a thousand lives before... Always assuming the same roles... always playing the same parts... I had to take it all on me... every single time... And I’m telling you now... that I am grateful for bearing this hard truth on my shoulders... and I would do it for a thousand times over again. The truth has its own beauty behind all that pain... Misunderstood always... judged... condemned and humiliated... I will bear this truth on my shoulders for eternity.

So sleep well, my love... I am here. Always watching over you… always praying for your soul... always protecting you from all dangers. My love will always follow you. Wherever you are and whatever you do.

You are My King. And I will always give my life and my total devotion for My King. Sleep for another life, my love... Dream about us… hold on to those memories... and keep this love alive forever. This love is the only thing we will ever have. An eternal sleep... with thousands of dreams and lost memories. This is our destiny. Written before the birth of the universe. The ink is dry. And we’ll soon be shadows... and dust.

Remember always that light we’ve kindled... that passion that burned our souls... Remember the pain and the rivers of tears. Remember our silly jokes and the smiles... and the laughter. And the inspiration flowing through our veins... creating art that no one buys... and the dreams that will never live into reality... and our endless fights of clashing egos. Remember the feeling that made us alive and the hopes that slowly died... Remember the life we never lived... and that home we never had.

Our loss is just a piece of this big game, my love... We never knew how to play it... we never accepted the rules... and we’ve lost. Cause in this world’s delusional game... you know my love... that those who win are doomed to lose forever. So maybe... with our loss here... with our sacrifice... we’ve earned the right to win our love back... in another time and place.

I will be with you forever. When you look at the stars and when your face will be warmed by the sun. When the breeze of the wind will touch your skin... and when the rain will fall from the sky. When you’ll look into the mirror and when you’ll blow your birthday candles... and every time in your dreams... and every time in your prayers... I will be with you, my endless love.

Please know... that I always loved you. Only you. The whole you. From the beginning until every end. With all my heart and with every fiber of my being. And I will always love you. In every life. In every world. In every Heaven. You.

The One... and The Only... You.

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YOURS… AND MINE.

I can't find the words to describe what I'm feeling right now. Oh my God... It's so hard to bring out what you're feeling inside... It's so much to say... and the dictionary's words are so shallow...

You came into my life so suddenly... so unexpected... like an earthquake. You've shaken me to the core and you've burned that paper person that I was before.

You’ve taught me how to trust... again. How to open myself... again. You've slowly demolished all of my walls... until I saw... myself. For real... this time. I saw what I'd never thought I'll see in myself... I saw a beautiful human being, I saw a big heart that was frozen for so long... I saw me. I saw you. I saw this beautiful world and I saw everything.

I know we've had the deepest and weirdest connection there is. In just a minute we felt that we knew each other since forever. We felt each other like no one ever did before...

All of my life I felt like half of me... was missing. When I've met you I felt complete for the first time in my life. It's crazy, I know... but I felt like a circle was finally closed.

You taught me how to love and how to feel things I never felt before. It was amazing. You were amazing. Everything was amazing. I still can't believe it really happened... to me. I am so grateful that it happened to me...

Before you… I was just existing in my life. Searching for things... searching for people... searching for nothing. I was dead inside. And I didn't even knew that I was living... but I was dead…

You know? We are all trapped in this world... in this big game that makes us always feel so small and never good enough. We try every day to overcome ourselves until we eventually don't even know who we are anymore. Who we are... what we are... Where we're going...

And you... stopped me for a minute from this game. You've said: "Time out! Let's feel it again! Let's feel the life inside of us... let's feel ourselves, let's feel each other!" And... I throwed myself in your loving arms... It was surreal... And I felt it again... So real! And I lived again... Everything. And... for a minute there... the whole world dissapeared into the universe... everything looked so... perfect. Like never before.

We were just stardust... we were just air... and shadows... we were nothing... and we were everything, too. And you gave me that. You gave me what I've been waiting all of my life. You gave to me... a minute of absolute... a minute of divinity. I will never be the same... Never again.

You showed me what amazing feelings I could have if I would throw myself again out there. You taught me how to touch myself on the deepest levels of my being... It was unbelievable. It was a blessing. You were a blessing. And I'll never forget you. You are part of me now... And you will always be.

You know? Everything happens for a reason. Time is an illusion. We are here just to feel everything. Just for that. With all of our souls... with all of the cells from our bodies and our brains. Nothing else really matters you know? Nothing else... Now I know that. We are here just to touch our deepest levels of love, conscientiousness and compassion...

Thank you! Thank you for the best time of my life! For all the amazing moments that will stay with me forever. Thank you for being such an incredible human being... and thank you for sharing with me a part of yourself. It was amazing. All of it...

Thanks God I've met you... and thanks God I loved you like I did. I'll always remember. What we had... millions of people search for... all of their lives... and sadly some of them will never have.

For me you will always remain that bright light that made all the darkness go away. That shining star that brought me closer to the sky. That amazing soul that made me feel my soul... again. That beautiful body that made me love my body... as it is. That best friend that always knew how to make all the bad things go away... That passionate lover that made me feel like a real woman... once again.

You will always be part of me. Wherever I'll go and whatever I'll do... you will always be there... in my mind... in my body... in my soul.

I'll always love you. With all my heart. With all my all. And... when you love someone like this... you don't want to posses them. You free them... You want them to be happy. Wherever they'll go... whatever they'll do... You just want them to be happy.

I wish you all the happiness in the world. You deserve it. I wish you all the love in the world. I'm sure there's a special woman out there that will give you that. I wish you a life full of joy and great adventures. I wish that you'll never again feel alone, nor upset, nor cold... I wish God will send you an angel that will protect you from all the harm in this world. I wish you will have a smooth road in life... a path without any fears nor regrets... I will not wish you to have a "nice life"... I wish that you will have the best life that you can have.

Goodbye, my love...

Forever yours.

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SURRENDERED SOULS

Surrender your will... surrender your desires... Surrender yourself. Being here wasn’t our choice. Living here isn’t our choice. And going there will not be our choice. Everything was, is and will be exactly how, when and where should it be.

We are powerless and we’ve always been powerless and we will always be powerless... this is the only truth we have to accept and embrace.

Power was, is and will forever be just an illusion that we swallow to bear life. Because we are weak. We’ve always been weak and we will always be weak. It is our nature. It’s how we’ve been created. It’s how we should live. Weak and powerless - that’s the only way for humans to live in peace.

If we continue to swallow the illusion of power we will be struggling forever. There’s no peace in power... there’s no peace in this illusion. Only the truth can make us truly free. Only if we give up on struggling and only if we give up on control... we can find the true peace of human life here on this earth.

Everything else is just “dust and shadows”... a continuous running from everything towards nothing. It’s an abyss... an endless darkness... the snow melting in the reality’s hands. Everything we see and touch and taste is only a diversion from everything we hear and feel. We’ve been created that way... to fight an everlasting battle between good and bad... right and wrong... life and death... light and darkness. It’s an endless agony and an endless ecstasy. We are torn between never and forever, between fear and faith, between hate and love...

Two forces always fighting inside of our poor souls... always trying to reach the shore of our raging sea.

We will never know what we are doing here and why we are living in this moment here... we just have to know that we are here. In this exact moment of time we are here. Exactly where we were supposed to be... living our lives exactly the way we should.

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THE TWIN SISTERS

I love death... That’s for sure. Maybe even more than life... I know that’s not fair... but death.. has its unique beauty...

Death is so final, so predictable, so stable. Life on the other hand is like an endless roller-coaster... spinning over and over around us... Never being able to touch it really... never reaching it... always slipping through our fingers.... Life is so unpredictable... you never know what’s around the corner... or what’s going to happen to you in the next 10 years... you never know who you’ll meet or where or why... You’re just living it... Life… without a single clue... without a compass... without any instructions manual... Always moving, always spinning... always lost.

Life is like a dream... You just close your eyes and imagine the future... you feel all of your desires... coming to life… And you chase them... relentlessly... like a mad dog... Always two steps behind them... always reaching your hand... after them...

Death on the other hand is real. Is the only real thing about life. Death is the only reality we have. And I’m not talking about those billions of “realities” that every human being creates in his grandiose unconsciousness... I’m talking about THE REALITY... The universal reality... Is death. That’s it. All we ever know for sure is that we’re all going to die. Today… tomorrow or 20 years later. It doesn’t matter really. How long you’re wandering on the earth... Once you realize that... You’ll wish to die faster... And reach the next level... Or just finish it.

Death is a comfort... a consolation... a time for rest... So when you feel really really tired as I felt so many times... Tired and sick of everything and everyone... it’s so natural to want to rest, right? I mean... it’s natural... It’s a natural thing…

So when you will figure out life... its beautiful philosophy… its unbelievable twists and all its pleasures and all its fun... that’s when you’ll feel the logic... the naturalness and the harmony... of death. Until then you’re going to just run away... run around and run from it like a crazy wild cat... Never wanting to admit death... acknowledge it... understand it or accept it... You’re not going to talk about it... nor hear about it... you’re going to pretend that it doesn’t exists.... and you’re going to come back to your big ignorance over and over again... Acting like a child really... Like a little child scared of the darkness from his room... Always crying… always running to his mommy...

Well... one day you’re going to be forced to face that darkness once and for all... you’ll have to look death in the eyes... someday... You know? And what then? Where you’re going to run then? Who’s gonna save you from it?

It’s so stupid and childish… I swear... to run away... from something... that you know... I mean YOU KNOW... for real is the only real thing you’ll ever know... So You Know that one day... this death is gonna catch you... No matter what you do… No matter how good you are... Or how many things you accomplish or how many things you posses... or how many memories or travelings or meetings or relationships... you have... It’s going to get you. One hundred percent. One day... every one and every living creature finds its/his/her end. It’s a fact. My question is soooo simple... and soooo fu**ing logical and reasonable... Why the f**k do you run??? Where are you running? Where you’re going to? Where you’re going to hide???

And why the f**k are you sooo afraid of it??? Why are you so f***ing terrified? Why the f**k you cry and weep and suffer for death?!?!? What is wrong with you people?!? Why is death so sad to you?!? Why it’s so scary?! Why?!? Who told you to love life and hate death? Are they not sisters? Twin sisters by the way?!?...

Death is... as natural as life... like every other thing we see and hear and feel and taste here... I mean come on... Why in 2020 the subject of death is sooo taboo?!? Why grown up people act like they’re fu**ing 12 years old when it comes to death?!? Why the f**k you don’t understand it?!? That “death” is nothing but an ordinary thing... Why so much drama around it?!?

I swear when it comes to the birth of a child... there is not even a half of the joy it should be around this amazing gift of life... comparing with the enormous drama and the grief that’s around a dead person... So really... I’m asking you now... “When you say you love life... What the f**k do you mean by that?!?”... I say you’re a fu**ing liar. Because when you really love life... you love death too. EQUALLY. Period. There’s no half way... there’s no option here. We’re all human beings... no matter the race or the gender... and we should love everything that’s given to us from above: That is life, death and everything that’s between these two.

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The Final Step

The final step towards the ladder of eternity… It has to be the hardest one to take.

And even though your hands are shaking… even though your heart is pounding… and even though your eyes are drowning in bitter tears… you have to take it. Even though storms of memories and regrets and hopes… are devastating the shore of your soul… you have to take it.

Don’t look back and cry for what’s behind you… just shadows and dust… look up or forward… look towards the light that waited for you… all your life. It was always there. It was always in your heart… You waited for it and it was waiting for you… all along.

The final step is here. I’ve imagined thousands of times… this moment… and it still feels brand new. It’s a thrill that crosses your spine… it’s a cold winter feeling combined with the hot sun of the summer… It’s a thought and an idea… it’s a… stage… a kind of level… a final level… of everything. It’s an end that feels like a beginning… a pain that feels like a relief… a poem that looks like a tragedy but feels like a romantic happy ending. It’s there… everywhere… It always was. Always. Like a door… like a way out… like a solution to every single problem… Like a window to heaven… You can always watch through this window… everything looks beautiful… but… you can’t touch it. It’s there… just to be seen… and admired. Any touch would mean… creating another reality… another beautiful view… different but in some way… the same.

Death always seemed to me more beautiful than life. So peaceful… so quiet… so simple… and so natural. Life on the other hand… complicated… tricky and challenging.

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Pain Is Grace

There is no pill for the soul’s pain… We can cover it with noise and all the shiny things… but it’s still there… And sometimes… this pain gets so loud… and is knocking so hard on that door of illusion that it tears it down… completely.

I don’t know if this pain is inherited or if it’s acquired along the road… I don’t know if when we first feel it… it’s actually the moment we remember it or if that’s the moment when our perfect… pure heart… cracks. All I know is that every human being has it… Some hide it… so well… until they completely forget about it. Some of them fight back… and create more pain in that process… But… some of them… acknowledge it at some point and embrace it… like a part of themselves. They stick with it… they dive in it completely and… from all that darkness they arise stronger… wiser… more beautiful… enlightened… complete.

The strange part of living in this world is that every human being craves connection… Right? But that connection is only possible through the gates of our pain… so no one really wants to get there… So they always go right there on the edge of their being… and when they face… that horror of their core being… and when they see themselves in that mirror of that painful truth… they run away… Further and further… backwards. And they wander there… through millions of shallow moments… through that infinite abyss… of illusion… denying every shred of the truth… turning their heads from the light… closing their eyes deeply… just to find themselves again…. empty and astray. And they crave that connection again and again… and they go again there… and so on… until the end of time…

Humanity lacks courage. The courage to face… themselves. The courage to go beyond that pain… and find relief… The courage to truly live their experience here on earth.

So again… I’m telling you… all of you… out there… as Winston Churchill said it… “If you’re going through hell… Keep going.”

There is light at the end of the tunnel. Always. Trust ME!

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YOUR LIFE IS A LIE

Living is lying. Life here is just a lie... a cosmic illusion which we all pass from one to another. This big lie we’re living is our only legacy... We are born from lies and we live our lives lying to ourselves and others.

The only liberating truth is death... When we die or when we are close to death... only then we can truly understand this burden we had on our shoulders... called life. We’re clinging to this life because is the only thing we ever knew... But beyond this life... there are so many things... so many feelings and transcendental experiences...

Now... I almost find myself laughing about this “life” and its “marketing strategy”... I mean yeah... life knows very well how to sell itself... life is the master of all lies... It knows exactly how to trick you into believing in it... how to make you tremble only at the thought you’ll lose it... It’s the master of all manipulation and it’s crazy. Every person I’ve known here on this earth... is obsessed with life... I mean with the idea of life... not with the idea of living... No one really knows how to live it... they just want to keep it. They don’t love life, they only want to have it... in a egocentric and sick way... The humanity and the life’s relationship is just another abusive relationship where humans hold on to this sick obsession of life... It’s like a contest here... it’s like a f***ing competition... Who’s gonna live longer? Who’s life will be the longest?!?... They don’t compete on being happy or becoming better or finding peace... or learning from the experiences of life... They don’t care if their lives are just a mess... they don’t want to honor life... they just want to live. No matter how... Just to live long lives... It’s so f***ing stupid and absurd... How can you want something that you don’t give a f**k for?!? Why do you want so bad to live when your life is a mess? What the hell are you doing here? I mean did you even wondered what the f**k you were supposed to do here?!? No... You just grabbed this “life” with both hands... beginning to live it in an ignorant and unconscious way... in a state of continuous drunkenness and lies... and then you become so attached to it... that you never want to let it go... You lied to yourself so much until you don’t even know who you are anymore... you swallowed so deep this illusion until you don’t even know why you’re living anymore... You just carry on like a blind motherfu**er... stumbling on things… tearing down everything there is in your way... You don’t even stop sometimes... just to check how far you’ve come. You just carry on with this big lie in your blind eyes... You don’t appreciate life nor understand it... you’re not thankful for life nor trying to create something from it. You’re just happy to live this big lie... counting the years of your misery... congratulating each other for this great performance you’ve had… living a worthless life. You don’t respect life. You have no idea what life is made of and what is the purpose of living... and I’m sorry to be cruel but you don’t even deserve life. You didn’t earned the right of true living... life was just a given... a thing that someone gave to you at some point. That’s not the problem... every one of us was born like that... everyone was just tossed here on earth... but some of us... wondered why. Some of us are really trying to understand it… penetrating its core... widening every perspective further and further... We really throw ourselves out there... searching for answers... working on our way to wisdom and freedom... with a price you cannot even conceive. We’re walking through fire and swim into tears... we go deeper and deeper in the frightening mysteries of life and we’re risking our lives every day for you... ignorant and selfish people. Getting answers and valuable information for you, guys... for every generation that will live on...

We are the light bringers... we dive into the darkness and burn our souls to the ground in search of the truth... We dissolve ourselves in this world’s acid... we give up on our right to live... we renounce on our families and friends... we destroy our memories and we lay down our lives... You don’t know us... you don’t know who we are... we’re just shadows that wander into the darkest forests of these worlds... always alone... always tired... and always in pain. Working each moment for the redemption of human race... Trying every day to bring wisdom and enlightenment to the people we encounter on the way... We have this important mission to bring you closer... to the divine world... to wake you up... to shake your world and to guide you towards the light of The Creator. He has sent us here for thousands of years... always in different shapes and forms... to bring you a glimpse into the eternity. We are the angels of this world...

Wake up please... Stop lying to yourselves! This life here... is nothing but an exile. The humanity fu**ed up every single time... God gave us lives to redeem our lost paradises... He gave us billions of chances... Please don’t f**k it up... everything... again! I don’t know how much patience you deserve... anymore. I mean the truth is everywhere around you... you can see it. And the Light Workers.... there are so many of us these days out here... and we’re telling you the truth all the time... you can hear it everywhere. Why do you continue to lie to yourselves? Why do you destroy this planet with your greasy hands? Why don’t you respect your lives and throw them away like garbage? Why do you love so much the darkness and all its tricky and seductive ways? What the f**k is wrong with you, people? You already have everything you need to be the beautiful creatures God made... you already have in your souls the greatest treasures of all... You have right in front of your eyes the way of the truth and the light that guides everything. You already have the voice of God within your ears... and His grace inside your spirits... He gave you everything. Why do you get caught in the greedy and lustful temptations of this world? You don’t know it? It is not written? So why you continue to run after ghosts and chase after dragons? It is not clear? This is just a test. Everything is a test... and nothing is what it seems... This is only a test. Nothing here is real... Everything is permitted but not everything is useful to you... It is not written? The way you live your lives here echoes into eternity... Nothing ever begins. Nothing ever ends. We just pass through everything... and this life is just another life... it is not THE LIFE...

So stop lying... open your eyes and your hearts to the universal truth... to the everlasting light... Don’t waste your lives chasing after dreams and illusions. Live your lives in a pure and beautiful way... always with the ultimate purpose in your minds... Learn to see through the haze of the world... learn how to master yourselves and learn how to rise above darkness. This is the life’s universal truth and purpose. We’re walking the same path... the path towards immortality.

The stairs and the levels of the advancement in this world’s hierarchy are the society’s invention... There is no “above” or “beneath”... We are all equal. We’re all just racing on this big circle of the universe... Yes... some will run ahead of us and some behind us. But we cannot compete with each other... because this path is one row track and one way street. So it’s pointless to try to bring others down... cause there is no “down”... You’ll never surpass another person... Everyone will get there eventually... on the same trace, following the same steps of the thousands of generations that lived before us... So “too late” or “too soon” are just our illusions too... because there is no time in the vast perspective of the eternal. We just have to get there... only through the living of the lives we have here... Crossing the bridges of our own constructed realities... bypassing the obstacles of our temptations... and overcoming every barrier on our way... this is how we will finally enter through the gates of The Heaven we’ve lost. This is life’s purpose. The true purpose and the universal truth of life.

Life is a personal and unique experience. It has nothing to do with others or with the world that surrounds us. Everything is just a distraction from your true purpose. Search yourselves well... and you’ll find inside of you not only the mission you have been given but the way to achieve it too. Everything you need to live righteously your life... is already planted there in your soul... you just have to find it. And then you’ll find your way... too.

Life can be the most amazing journey you can have towards the most beautiful place you can imagine... or just a twisted, complicated abyss that we’ll leave you lost and empty. Life is a straight line. It’s a perfect circle. The curves you create on your path... the bifurcations and the side streets you see... The ripples you draw with your fingers on the calm lake of your conscience... the foaming waves you stir on your soul’s sea... and the roaring storms you bring into your spirit’s breeze... Everything is your own creation. Your own mind is always distracting you from your path... Life is a serene sky. The clouds you see are nothing but an illusion.

[dana-tue]

MY EVERLASTING FATHER

God is more real than we are. God is more real than we’ve ever been. God is the only real thing here... We’re just passing through these worlds... flying between realities and dreams... Searching for Him... We’ve always searched for Him. Always. And we will never stop. Not even when we find Him... We’ll always feel this amazing, overwhelming, indescribable and incomprehensible love for Him. God is more than we’ll ever know. Is more than science or culture... is more than poetry or art. I can’t even find the words... My thoughts are simply melting when I think about Him... Is like this graceful touch that I never succeed to hold... Is like this enormous spiritual light that I can’t fully embrace... no matter how much I try to open my heart. He flows through my veins... I breath the air of His Holiness... I feel Him inside of my being... always... around me like the most dear friend of my soul...

He is my everything. My heart. My soul. He is my everlasting love. He is my Beloved Sweet Angel… always watching over me... He is the best father I could ever ask for... I feel His love always. I feel His halo... I feel Him always. Everywhere I go and whatever I do. God is more real than I am. God loved me so much and He gave me the world... even though I deserved nothing. He always guided me… every step of the way. And everything I am or everything I ever did... I owe everything to Him. I am nothing. Nothing at all... Only His love for me makes me whole. Only His Grace makes my heart beat. God is everlasting. He is everything we have. He will always be here... even after we go. This is His world... this is His gift for us... He gave us this amazingly beautiful nature that surrounds us... He created us and gave us wings to fly... he gave us the gift of love... the wonderful breeze of inspiration... the art... He gave us the sun and the moon and the stars... He gave us the exquisite sight of the sea.... and He placed inside us the sublime human feelings that make us His children.

My God... I love You with all my heart. With all my being and with all my soul. I can’t wait to finally meet You... and thank You for every single blessing You gave to me. I can’t wait to give You my life... to rest forever in Your loving arms... I did everything I could here. I gave my all... to You. I’ve cried all the tears... I suffered silently every pain... I blessed humans with the divine grace You gave to my heart... I offered them always a smile and a bit of kindness. I tried to make my life an example of dignity... of honesty... respect and compassion.

Now I lay down in front of You everything I ever did here. On my knees I ask for Your forgiveness that I couldn’t do more. I tried so hard always to do my best. I hope it was enough... No... it will never be enough. No matter what I do... I could never give You back the amazing journey of life that You gave to me.

Thank You! From the bottom of my heart. For everything. For everyone. For every experience and for every miracle... I will fight the good fight until the end. I will always keep the faith. I will never surrender.

[dana-tue]

ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE US

Over time I've given so many chances to people... I wanted so much to be understood, accepted or at least... to be left alone. I could never do this to others. They've always entered uninvited into my life with their dirty boots... always judging me, always criticizing me... even hating me... for what I feel or for what I am or for what I do or for how I think... I'll never understand how they can judge so easily "the good" and "the bad", "the normal" and "the abnormal"... I'll never understand how can they be so ignorant and so immature... arrogantly assuming the role of God.

No one is superior to anyone... No one knows anything. There is no universal truth. We don't even know what is good and what is wrong for ourselves, how can we know it for others? How? Can you enter the mind or the soul of another human being? Can you know exactly what makes him happy or sad? My Goodness... how can they do that?

I went to a school... I've studied psychology for 5 years... and eventually I gave up. Why? Because I simply couldn't... put people in categories, boxes, symptoms, syndromes, diseases and rules... I couldn't do that. I initially chosen this kind of science because I thought I would find there a balanced space... I thought I could help people if I had this job. What have I discovered there instead? That psychological orientations and ideologies are many and very different... and even contradictory. You can't choose between one or the other. You can't never know who's right or wrong. I couldn't be a part of this circus... I couldn't judge them for their emotions.

The one who tries to fit everything into categories... has an absurd urge of control. Control is actually just an illusion. Nothing is what it seems... there's no logical explanation for anything. We just invent concepts... Everything is what it is. There's neither good nor bad, neither beautiful nor ugly, neither young nor old... These are all society’s constructions that create this false impression that they have the control.

In truth... nothing is real and nothing is unreal... because reality depends on someone's specific perception of this "reality". Nothing can't be judged, evaluated, estimated, predicted or anticipated. Everything is relative... Nothing is lost, nothing is gained. The truth is that nothing depends on us... We do not own the world... we don't own the people and the earth and the sky. Everything is permitted to us. We are here, in this moment, just because God wanted us here. And we will leave/die... when and where and how God wants. That's the only universal truth there is. I don't know how people can be so naive to think they can control anything. :)

I understand that from this cruel awakening... suffering arises, indeed. Some people wake up very early, others later in life... and some people will sleep forever. All I can do for these people is pray like this... "Forgive them, Lord... cause they don't know what they are doing..."

[dana-tue]

EVE

A life without pain... without suffering and without weaknesses. A perfectly balanced life... a perfectly balanced... balance. A warm and beautiful water in which only sanctity finds its place. Eve wants control. Eve wants power. Eve wants perfection... Eve wants the impossible.

How many of us dont’t want to be masters of ourselves, masters of our lives... of our situations? How many of us don’t indulge in this strong and beautiful dream? Since we were children all we wanted was to grow up. We wanted to feel the freedom’s breeze within the hair... we chased and chased over and over again this illusion.

Eve is tough. She's a feminine stone, a diamond... a real heroine for others. She jumps, she helps, she gets involved and she moves mountains with the finest touch. She's a strong woman... she's really a tough creature.

A life without pain... a life without mistakes and imperfections... and without regrets. A pure life, a waveless water and a sky without clouds. Sometimes Eve dreams about this. But... dreams are not meant for a strong and cold woman like her. Every day is the same. She hardly wakes up... with black, unsweetened coffee. She is the order from the chaos... the brilliant mind... the beautiful and sad, empty eyes. Who's calling her to life? Which life? Who transformed this warm and sweet soul into a cold stone? Who sees beyond these wicked eyes that hide a deep and gorgeous treasure?...

Her awakening to the cruel reality with cold water and a strong coffee... is just a routine... a bad habit of all those who forgot to play. To play... this wonderful game of life.

A sad and thin voice still whispers sometimes in her mind... It's me. It's me... the same... me. It's me, don’t you remember me?... The deafening sound of the voiceless phone calls... the painful image of the even numbers... and the illusion of a successful career. That's all she remembers.

Now... love is only a stranger for her... who sometimes teases her from the dark corners of her heart. Distant relationships... tens of pale faces and a few cold touches. But no one really knows what pains hides that sharp look and that firm hand... which, from time to time, when nobody's watching... shakes uncontrollably.

[dana-tue]

The Infinite Love Story

When you have to go... you go. Quietly... with the grace of a swan. Leaving it all behind... in a distant memory.

I say “I’m ready!” but I’m not. I’m not ready at all... to leave him behind... to leave him alone. And it’s all because of him... because he finally touched my frozen heart. He introduced me to... love. And now I’m torn between doing what I know I have to do... what I always knew... what I always felt... and between my heart that says no... That says “you can have another chance with this guy... He is THE ONE. You can have all you ever dreamed beside him... love... happiness... a family...” And since the day I first looked into his eyes... I’m living in pain. Cause I knew I had to make the most difficult decision.

I keep waiting to... forget... you. I’m waiting for your face to be vanished from my memory and your scent from my heart... I’m waiting for those beautiful eyes of yours... to be erased from my soul... and… for your touch to disappear from under my skin. I’m waiting... for my love... to die. I’m waiting for my memories to be wiped out and I’m waiting... for you... to become again a stranger. I’m waiting...

Probably this love will never die. It will remain an opened wound forever... bleeding from time to time. The tears will always reappear whenever your memory haunts me again... And when a love song plays in the background… and when I look up at the sky... and when the rain or the snow falls... I will always think about you... about us... The “us” that... somehow still seems to me... written in the stars...

[dana-tue]

A Cosmic Conspiracy

I’m so thankful I found you. My whole life I knew... that one day you’re going to come into my life. I was drawing every line of your body... I was writing about your beautiful soul and I was sketching the maze of your sophisticated mind. My whole life I pictured you exactly the way you are. The details are overwhelming... only me and God knew them. We’ve created together this dream... my dream... the man that will change my life forever. This perfect angel that was supposed to protect me... this amazing creature that was supposed to recreate me. Nobody else knew of this secret plan... No one. So how did you knew about it? How did you knew about me? And from which Heaven you landed here... in my heart? How could you recognize the only human being that was waiting for you all along?

My deepest secret... the most intimate dream of my soul... my one and only prayer... how did you found me?

This cosmic conspiracy made me so angry at the beginning... I was furious. I was repeating myself over and over again... “this isn’t happening... Dana... this is only your imagination... it can’t be.” I was so confused... oh my God... so overwhelmed... so terrified... The man I’ve created in my mind... was there... in front of me. Just like that. In a moment... everything I ever dreamed about this man... was right there... real. I swear I’ve never been more scared in my life. And I’m not scared easily... I’ve been through a lot... but seeing you... knowing you... touching you... was too much.

I’ve read about soulmates and twin flames and all that... but man... this experience was too much. I was literally in panic. I tried to reasonably calm myself thinking you’re just like the others... I lied to myself compulsively... I fought hard with every feeling and every thought... and I was simply exhausted.

[dana-tue]

FEAR AND COWARDS – THE DEATH OF PASSION

Fear is the only limit of mankind, it's the only obstacle in the way of progress... and it's the most intense spiritual suffering. We covet, we want and yearn so much for things, people, experiences... and the fear suffocates us, stopping us, destroying our lives...

Life would be so simple, so full and so intense... if fear would not exist at all. We are afraid of the new... we are afraid of people... of ourselves... we are afraid of what might happen... eventually we are afraid of just really living our lives.

If only the sky would be the limit... if only we could go after what we want without any hesitation... if only... fear could be melted into the fire of desires... How many times have you wanted to try new things, to have new experiences, to meet new people, to travel to new places... how many times have you stopped for a second to estimate the risks... and in the end giving up?

Fear is only an illusion... a false and absurd obstacle between us and real life... an over-protective shield consisting in prejudices and projected scenarios. It doesn’t exist… such thing as “caution”... This is only a false way to simulate that you’re living... you can't know in advance what will happen even if you'd had all the wisdom of the world... all the scientific statistics and all of the weather reports. It's just... fear. That's all it is.

And cowards... Cowards are those who embrace fear with all of their being and call it caution. Cowards are those who consider that fear can be a possible buffer between life and danger... Cowards are dangerous... yes, they are those who hide their own fears behind a curtain of "wisdom." They are those who will tell you that you're reckless when you live your life to the fullest... They are the ones who will stop your euphoric mood just to "bring you down to the earth"... They are the ones who are incapabile to live their own lives and will not let others to enjoy life either.

So... overcome fear, conquer the cowards... live your life despite all of them... throw yourself completely and live with the strong belief that God will reward your boldness!

[dana-tue]

BRAIN FITNESS EVERY DAY

I've recently started a fitness program... Well, doing that, I had a revelation, which was later verified and confirmed by several articles on the Internet. There is BRAIN FITNESS, too!!! Incredibly, you can work and tone the muscles of your brain, keeping you in a good shape for a long term. So I've devised a plan in a few simple steps to help you keep your balance both physically and mentally, drawing a parallel between the two. My recommendation is to try it for a few days and later analyze what changes have occurred in your professional and personal life due to these operations.

These are the five steps of the program:

1. Increase your muscle mass!

The brain is, believe it or not, a muscle in the human body. He needs daily workouts to increase its capability and performance. As other groups of muscles need lifting weights, to force welfare of the muscles and produce actual change, your brain needs operations of thought: logic, association and differentiation. What does it mean? It needs at least an hour a day to look for new information, to accumulate and to perfection your mental capacity. For example: when you watch TV, try not to watch passively what happens in front of your eyes, but be actively involved, judge and empathize with the characters until you get the feeling that you've experienced on your own skin those events. Try to analyze the problem and find relevant solutions, imagine what would happen if you’d apply them. Search for difficult situations that require your mental abilities to the maximum. The human brain does not make the difference between imagination and reality, so your brain will perceive this operation as real and then you will feel you've accumulated some knowledge and life experience without having to actually go through it. This will increase the ability to solve new situations, you will get rid of the anxiety that accompanies the unknown and you will gain a considerable amount of self-confidence that will push you to success.

2. Tone your muscles!

After an intense work-out, you also need some simple exercises which will maintain the high tone of your brain. So, you need to find a few moments each day to judge some simple items, circumstances and problems. If earlier I've invited you to try to think as objectively as you can and try to identify yourself with the subject, now you have to do the exact opposite. Try to analyze a situation from your own perspective and make subjective judgments. Usually you should look for simple situations like: news, gossip, funny stuff etc. in other words something that doesn't require a big effort... something just to keep the "brain movement." Try to criticize certain aspects, situations and people, always seeking alternatives. For example: you see on the Internet a picture of a red evening dress, created by a famous fashion designer. Don't avoid it just because you don't like fashion or because you don't have an expertise's opinion. Try to analyze the pros and cons from your own perspective, issuing judgments like this: "I would wear it because..." and "I wouldn't wear it... because..." You'll feel mentally refreshed and you'll feel you are an important part of the world and your opinion counts. And so it is!

3. Nourish yourself healthy!

Every day your body needs food to be healthy. So the brain needs spiritual food, things that make it happy and makes you happy. So, every day you have to give yourself small rewards with the certainty that you deserve them. For example: a chocolate, a good movie, a cocktail or a perfume. An object or an activity that you really want and that will really make you very happy. In this way your brain gets the nourishment it needs to continue its work in an optimal way.

4. Clean yourself!

The shower is definitely an indispensable activity. Well, while you overly worry about cleaning the physical body, the spiritual is totally ignored. The spirit, the brain, must be regularly cleaned of useless thoughts, regrets or frustrations and anger. You simply have to clear your conscience so you can "travel light". Try to ged rid of accumulated negative energy through: sports, dance, small talks with loved ones, meditation etc No matter how you do it, you just have to make sure that your spiritual side is continuously released and you live your life with fresh forces. It's important to get rid of useless, old and painful things. Make your periodic "tehnical review" and you'll feel great!

5. Take care of yourself, be beautiful!

The aesthetic part is very important for all of us, whether we admit it or not... We are constantly concerned about what we show to others. The exercise which I propose is that every day you look in the mirror and name (mentally or verbally) three physical traits and three psychological traits that you love about yourself! Remember... you are not allowed to think about things that you don't like about yourself! You will see that while naming the three things every day, you'll get to find some traits that you never observed before. Only then you will truly discover yourself and see how much you have to offer!

And this is my recipe for mental health and performance. If you practice these simple steps for a while, you will see that you will begin to behave properly with yourself without imposing these operations.

Good luck and remember: BRAIN FITNESS every day! ;)

[dana-tue]

FRISKY VERSUS CRAZY

We live in a crazy world... a world of total madness... a world of incoherence and absurd.

The craziness in an acceptable degree is really nice, it's when you play with your life... and you live everything that’s happening with maximum enthusiasm... It's when instead of being rigid and serious you choose to be playful and flexible.

But the pure madness syndrome is very destructive and very dangerous. Madness is when a person chooses the exacerbated emotions at the expense of the logic and of the pragmatic mentality. The reality of a madman is unique... is totally subjective and extremely dangerous both for himself and for others.

And so... the question is... what does distinguish the positive emotions from the bad ones? Where is that line between joy and ecstasy? When we're losing that notion of balance?

I've read somewhere recently... "A smile can be a therapy without reason... but if you find yourself laughing hysterically for no reason, then you need therapy." :)

So when do you need therapy? How can you realize that you've gone from the interesting one to the freak one?

And what about the screams and the noises? Why do people feel they need to make noise to be heard? I don't know... maybe... they feel unnoticed and need to stand out somehow.

And then... the vulgar clothes, the exhibitionistic attitudes, the extreme sarcasm... in the end all these things will eventually lead to aggression, violence, abuse and generally to an anti-social behavior. What today may seem as a totally innocent gesture, made just in order to get attention... can lead tomorrow to a totally irresponsible and dangerous individual.

Don't get me wrong... I love non-conformism and unique personalities... but from there till exaggerating everything you do and say just in order to attract attention... when you forget about good manners, common sense and empathy... then it's not non-conformism anymore, it's a deviant behavior.

No matter how free we are, we are responsible to respect some unwritten rules, some principles...

because if we break them... society will collapse and it will become a chaotic and dangerous space for all of us.

So be free, exteriorize yourself... but to the extent that it doesn't infringe on others!

Folks... no more embarrassing stuff just to stand out! Don't put yourselves in absurd situations just to get a bit of attention! Live your lives nicely, temper your emotions and try to create for yourselves unique personalities through the unquestionable qualities that you already have!

You do not need fireworks to have a good and beautiful and exciting life. It's all about balance.

[dana-tue]

THE POWER OF LOVE

Love is the most sublime thing we could ever experience.

Love is the answer to all of our prayers.

Love is the only day that’s worth living for.

The only true thing about this world.

The only ray of hope.

The one and only mission of human beings.

The only boat that saves our souls from drowning into the world’s roaring sea...

From love we’ve been created to create love and to die in the Creator’s love.

Love will always find the easiest path to immortality...

Love knows all our questions and makes everything quiet.

Love is the everlasting silence of our souls in a world of noise.

It’s the beginning. And the end.

Love changes everything.

Love heals everything.

Love is the only cure.

Love is the breathing of the wind

and the warmth of the sun…

the light from every star…

and the reflection of the moon into every heart’s sea...

It’s a breeze and a rainbow...

It’s a piece of Heaven...

a glimpse into eternity.

Love is the only power of human beings... It’s a gift and a burden.

It’s the only beautiful pain...

It’s the only desired curse…

and the only knife that cuts the ropes of true freedom...

Love is wisdom and enlightenment…

It’s the energy that moves the earth...

It’s the rising of the sun

and the spell of the night...

It’s a force... that makes us equally weak and strong...

It’s the divine blessing that God gave us to feel that nothing ever ends...

[dana-tue]

SON OF LIGHT

My sweet baby come to life

Here we are... just take the light

Come... complete this endless love

Fly from Heaven like a dove

Fall into our loving arms

We’ll forever give you charms

You will be our soul and eyes

You will be the prince of wise

Take your tiny wings and fly

Through my body come... and cry

With your shiny face you’ll glow

In this sea of love you’ll grow...

We will give you the whole world

We will give you crown and sword

You will be our little angel

You will save this world from danger

God... just give another chance

Through this love we’ll win the race

Our son of light will bring the peace

With his birth the chaos’s cease

Come... our little angel of the sky

Bring us hope and we will fly

Love and faith and endless joy

God will give this world a boy

He will be the promised king

He will wear the divine ring

He will travel through our time

He will give us the sublime...

With your kind sweet hazel eyes

You will free this world from lies

With your bravest... biggest heart

You will win the hardest part

Born from love and crazy lust

You will clear millennial dust

Born from this apocalyptic love

You will help us rise above

Two... one black... one white... sweet angels...

Fell in love like pure strangers

Sacred mission... divine star...

Fighting now this holy war.