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Feeling jealous of someone you never even had is such a dumb feeling.

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I wish I had someone to have deep talks with. And when I say talks I really mean it. Talks with sound, not letters.

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08.12.2018

Dear Tumblr buddies,

I have been away for a bit, if anyone actually noticed, and it will continue to be that way. But, I still wanted to come through and write a bit about something that’s on my mind. For once, it has nothing to do with love and crushes and all that sugar stuff. Today I will be talking about friends. When I was a kid, the friends I had were the only ones I believed I would ever have. Of course, I didn’t know that I would end up moving to America and forgetting all about them. By the same token, I never thought that I would end up moving to Iceland (of all mother-effing places) and never getting to see the friends I thought I had back in the US. Apparently I didn’t have many because no one actually remembers me, and some turned out to only have tolerated me while I was there. Regardless of the failures and fakes, some true bros came from all these adventures. If you’re an OG, you know well who you are. And, again, this still isn’t what I came here to write about. I had my first kinda fight with my friend who is a girl, and it felt like the worst kind of break up. But instead of breaking up, we talked about what made us upset, and then decided that we are okay with an, “are we okay?” followed by “I guess so”. Which in my vocabulary means that shit has just started to go down and a lot more is yet to come. I don’t want it to be that way. But I can’t imagine anything good coming through.

It’s like we both decided to say that nothing is wrong anymore just because we don’t want to deal with the hassle of a friend break-up, which in my opinion is much messier than an actual relationship break-up. We don’t want to carry on being upset, even though we are, because we’d rather not go through the hostilities of not talking anymore. And it’s like one of us is only holding on because there is no one else to hold onto, and the other is letting herself be held onto in order to not seem like a total asshole. 

I don’t want to be the former, or the latter, but we all know I am at least one of them.

At times like these I really wish my cousin was still here, I mean physically in the same country as me, she’s not dead. She just had such a way with words that actually made me see situations for what they were, rather than what my mind exaggerated them to be. She would never let me think of myself as being hated by everyone, or judged, or an outcast. It was like she had a remote control to my brain and changed the channel every time I wanted to watch my world as something dark. She filled my silence with laughter and helped me see that what I am, and what I come to be, is under my control, no matter how much I try to let the world be blamed.

I miss her. Mostly because she didn’t let me feel alone. And I know that my friends are always just a text away, but I really like having someone present, hear their voice, see their face, so I know my jokes are actually funny, rather than have to take an “lol”s word for it.

If only things would just stop getting complicated when I least expect, and need, them to.

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People with best friends are so damn lucky. The true best friend type where you guys know what the others needs, not just wants. And you know how to help them feel better. And people around you two just know that you are a package deal no matter what the invite may be. A friend that calls your mom 'mom'. Who can go through your fridge and drawers. Who drags you out of the dumbs and pushes you off your high horse if need be. If you've got a friend like that you best be taking good care of them and appreciating their existence because, I tell you this, it's really fucking hard to find. When two souls click, they just do. There is no forcing it.

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Some days you'll feel unwanted. Remember that it's just a moment, remember to remind yourself how much it isn't true. Someone out there always wants you.

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people are allowed to leave you. people are allowed to break up with you. people are allowed to love you but not want to be with you. people are allowed to not want to talk to you. people are allowed to put their happiness before yours and do what makes them happy even if it does not include you. people are allowed to move on from you. people are allowed to fall in love with someone else. people are allowed to not want you in their life. people are allowed to do whatever they want to better themselves and become the version of themselves they are trying so hard to love. don’t be bitter towards someone who is only trying to be happy.

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Parece que o tempo todo a gente nem percebeu que aqui não dava pé não.

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Dear straight girls,

Intensely staring at gay girls is not allowed.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

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Hey I’m your guitar gf (I’ve got 3 (three) guitars) who loves mom politics (gossiping about how well my plants are growing)

Hi, guitar girlfriend! I'm soccer girlfriend (4 balls - don't think dirty haha) that loves to stay in, be silly, and gets carries away being a (hopefully loveable) weirdo. Do you have an anonymous name to nickname you by?

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So like, a tsunami???

“Stop running after the waves. Let the sea come to you.”

— Elif Shafak (via quotemadness)

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I hope someday I find myself standing in a Brazilian beach, and I remember all the times I thought about it and realize that some dreams do come true.

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Me when straight boys try to establish flirtatious eye-contact.

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02.09.2018

I went to the pool today and a girl nakedly body slammed me by accident.

I wasn't mad 😇

Cool tattoo btw

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We often think of being just a pawn in other people's lives as a bad thing, but I don't think it's that bad. Have you ever played chess? Paws turn into mother-effing QUEENS.

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Even though I'm a girl, I'm always suppressing the urge to tell people to hop off my dick.

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Gay culture at my age is hesitating to date any girl because you're never sure if they're at the gay level of wanting to be seen in public.

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